Sassy Spirit

Sassy Spirit

Love is scary and business is too.

posted by jperry

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Last week I was driving to meet my sister-goddess-mentor-friend, Kellie Kuecha before she left on her travels. She was in town for a few days, so it was easy for me to meet up with her kid-free.  I had taken her branding class a few months ago as I gathered info and kept tipping my toe in the business waters. I’m still in the shallow end as I eye the deep end, not with fear, just cautiously surveying how my swimming skills are. It’s easy to swim in a baby pool. You can feel the bottom. You can see everything. You can reach everything. You don’t have to grasp, reach, stretch, or chase after anything.

I knew Kellie would challenge me to think differently about business and force me to take a look at monetizing what I’ve been doing even more. She obviously would not force me, but rather just by asking me what my hopes, goals, and dreams are.  By telling me what she thinks, as will as any women in business, make me uncomfortable in a good way. I could not have talked to her without tripping up on my words three plus years ago. I looked for teachers back then, but I would want to hide when I felt less them. I don’t do gurus nor do I want to be one. It was easy when I was young to think someone else could solve my problems and had my answers. I smile now at my naïve gal of my twenties, who didn’t know her magic.

It was a sunny, beautiful day, and my heart was so full of gratitude for my life. I love driving along alone in the car with the music loud on days like that.  I had a fear suddenly arise from the past. That one I get when I’m really happy and I know good things are on the horizon, but I get this thorn poking in my side. The thorn of my rosy disposition. My thorn is my fear of loss. I thought about how much I love my husband that it almost hurts. That I love my children so much it hurts to think of them growing older and venturing out in the world, as my oldest was two days away from getting her driver’s license. I could spin all these crazy stories of my boys getting into fist fights in bars when they get older. Anxiety can be like this crazy woman with makeup smeared, wild hair, swigging on booze, and mumbling all this terrifying stuff in my head. I used to listen to her daily. I tried to build a shield around my heart to protect myself. It left me off center and I couldn’t stand not being sensitive. Who would have ever thought that one? I just softened myself and drove along soaking in the light from the sunshine.  I thanked God for all my blessing and knowing anything can change, worry will never prevent anything.

Kellie and I got our scones and coffee and sat outside in the fresh air. I was so glad to see her. I know she always wants what’s best for me. Friends like that are gems. She shares her experiences and wisdom in business which I am grateful for. She is the queen of freedom, she preaches freedom and wants us all to have it. I realized some of what holds me back in any way from my career is that I don’t like that heavy feeling of obligation. Don’t get me wrong, I have tons. I have five kids. That’s why if my business side gets too crazy, mom me feels off, and then where the hell do I fit in? The me that is just me wants freedom. Money can give us that. We also can choose it as a mindset as well. I do love a challenge though, if I’m really honest. I remember chasing boy’s hearts or girls to be friends with if I thought they were cool. I don’t chase anything or anyone now. I follow my heart, intuition, inner knowing, and soul energy. Bliss is a great guide for me, but I also won’t let go of my big dreams, I’m just in the middle of tweaking them and letting Divine guidance transform them. Spirituality and business go hand in hand for me as it does for Kellie, so she gets me,

She reminded me of all that I already have and that was a great remembrance to feel as I’ve graduated from the just saying I’m going to do stuff (like projects) and actually doing them. It’s a high-diving, surviving, thriving, striving in the world of business. You jump off the high dive, you learn you survived, then you’re thriving as you’re swimming along…but then you strive to jump again or swim even further away to find another type of high-dive so you can dive deep again into the deep abyss of unknown and scary places that only exist in your mind.

I had lots to think about and digest, as we said goodbye. In truth, I’m still looking for complete clarity on things. As I drive home, I got tear-eyed as I thought, I will always be okay. Like God filled my heart with peace. That is a wonderful feeling. The broken me of my twenties can get really scared when I realize how loved I am, how much love I’ve let in, and how much I’ve let out. Really, it is always safe to love. Love is what we’re here for.

Heart Knows No Borders

posted by jperry

I am not one to talk politics here, but this is tugging at my mama heart. So I’ll share my inner knowing.  God talks to me through my writing, when I just allow it to come through and trust it.

Fighting in any holy land is against God. When children are dying, it’s never good. You are never fighting for God, that is not Divine energy in any way. Love for God. Wanting peace for those that are right or chosen is not spirit. Wanting peace, love, safety, well-being, and grace for every human being is a holy thing. That’s your spirituality, no matter what your religion is. Families and cultures pass down hate for people they don’t even know. This breeds what they don’t even want to continue. Teaching your children goodness is how we can shift things. Pray for all. BE-ing spiritual means you reside in the love space within your heart that wants all children of all races, religions, and nations to smile. You want all children to thrive with a loving family in a free environment. Love is the only way to help because arguing with others about their truth only separates. The idea of all God’s children, all of us a Divine spark of awesome, a creation of a higher power that connects us all through consciousness.

Is land worth blood? What kind of war is justified? We can turn our nose down at those we deem barbaric because we’re so civilized, but people are made into people who hurt, hate, and destroy. Babies don’t hate. When there is no hope for youth, that energy turned toxic and people manipulate them. I always have hope for the future. I believe they can become compassionate, loving, healthy people who create change for our planet. What can I do? I always ask. Can I try to have peace in my own home no matter how mad my kids get at their siblings and how much it can feel like chaos versus calm. Disagreeing is part of being human. It doesn’t have to get ugly.  We are evolved beings who can think before we act.  Consequences are cause and effect which is also about our vibration.  Raising my vibration and letting go of grudges with myself and others, regrets, guilt, or anything I need to forgive to move forward from my highest place to assist others.  I will continue to walk in the Light and bless those that even annoy me in traffic. I’ll let my potential tip the scales for good since we all have the potential to hurt or harm. I build my foundation on self-love and my infinite connection to the Universe. Life is a sacred thing. Each one of us is worthy of the good. Let’s send love out to the world and visualize peace as a blue light and that the Unconditional Love and Divine white Light of God fills all the of men, women, and children who’ve forgotten their center, Our true center is our soul. It will never lead us astray. We are never disconnected to it, we just forget. Remember your soul’s nature and you’ll never go wrong.

Self-independence Day

posted by jperry

What does personal freedom mean to you? What do you want to be free of? What do you want to become independent of? Ask yourself.

I began pondering this yesterday, where we celebrated the 4th of July in America, but due to bad weather the BBQ was rescheduled so I had lots of time to think.  I had rerecorded the Self-Love with my co-presenter in the morning, and after a million snafus my brain was fried from a busy week.  Freedom from obligations always sounds good after a long work week.  I thought about what freedom means to me.  Freedom is a beautiful thing. That’s what more money can mean. More time is freedom. That’s what a different job, a move to another place, and other changes can mean more freedom as well. This is living on purpose and with intention. We think circumstances dictate freedom or lack there of or other feelings like happiness or security. Can you feel freedom inside? It’s one of the best feeling in the world. There are many kinds of freedom and we seek them on all the levels.  Freedom of speech allows me to blog as well as freedom of expression.  I like to think I have freedom of being as a gift of my thirties.

As for independence, having a self-independent life can be more than financially or just living on your own.  It could be the opposite of co-dependent. Co-dependence is a funny thing in parenting, because when kids are younger, they need you 24/7 physically and emotionally.  As they get older, they need less attention in certain areas like tying their shoes and but you must be present and keep tabs on their friends, grades, and who they are becoming.  The degrees of that are what people must decide for themselves.  Parenting books can be helpful, but unless you write one for each specific kid, they often leave you frustrated.  Does your mood change if your child misbehaves or gives you an attitude?  Are you swayed by the tone of your house and its inhabitants or do you feel completely self-independent?  I’m so guilty of letting my zoo, I mean house, affect me.

On Independence Day, I was crabby for a while because I was letting my kids dictate my vibe.  Most parents get frazzled at some point, like after a long day, they reach their breaking point and yell.  The straw that broke the camel’s back can be when one kid slugs the other for the twentieth time (sounds like my house).  My youngest son can be Dennis the Menace at times, Ghandi the next.   He’s four.  Need I say more? “Why” is his favorite word.  If I feel off, out of balance, or not centered, it can be a roller coaster if I’m constantly refereeing in my own home or catch ‘tude from one of my older kids.  Each one of my kids is a gift and a challenge.  There is nothing wrong with them.  They just have different personalities.  Including my hubby, it means there are seven of us in one home.  If I had six roommates, I’m sure we’d get on each others nerves at times.  My kids have been watching Full House and they do have their squabbles, but my boys duke it out and if you have boys, you understand.  They have a LOT of energy.  I would be great to be able to have some “me” time, go for a drive, read a book, just be by myself…like a cocoon would have been great. I did try to zone out a bit while folding laundry and watching some reality TV, Ladies of London, because I love British everything.  It helped for a bit, but all the people celebrating outside while I was baking two different kinds of brownies while two kids were fighting before bedtime was salt in my wound…like looking at a parade from prison.

Did I do anything wrong?  Nope.  Bad days are human.  Could I have chosen something different?  It really doesn’t matter.  That day will never happen again.  The victim that lives in my shadow side came out to play.  It’s okay.  Today, I’m refreshed.  I am focused on what I do want.  That’s all you can ever do is MOVE FORWARD.  Don’t ever dwell on your mistakes, regrets, shortcomings, flaws, or bad days.  Never believe your bad days.  They pass.  You’re still a rockstar if you have them.  You are still self-independent if you get tripped up by other’s behavior.  You can strive to be less affected and more in tune with yourself.  You can aim to be independent and free of certain thinking you fall back into. This was my Vicky Victim coming in, Victoria was my confirmation name and I choose it because of a character on the old soap opera, One Life to Live.  What a coincidence and sign there.  Why play victim when we have this one life to live?  My Vicky Victim was telling me lots of stories yesterday.  She’s very dramatic.  I also read that yesterday Pluto was the closest to the Earth it’s been in 200 years which was saying our dark side was coming up, like your personality was going to be shouting in your face.  Old stuff was coming up for me for sure.  I love when I read about the astrological or woo woo stuff after my own gunk happened.  Because I feel so much and am sensitive to energy, I need to be a hermit and honor that.  Instead of trying to be free or independent of any negativity, thinking I must be energy up/high vibe/happy girl or I’m phony…I release self-judgment and more spiritual perfectionism.  I signed up to be a badass and live an authentic and blissful life. That I affirm and I give my victim within a big hug and tell her she’s safe and loved so she can stop feeling sorry for herself and start living.

Ahh…I’m free to love myself, victim and all.  Self-independence day is every day.  Woohoo!

Do you have a pain in the where?

posted by jperry

I can feel it all.  The world.  The vibe of the world. Whether you realize it or not, we are connected through the universal field of the collective consciousness.  Does this have to make you crazy?  No.  Can you broadcast your own frequency so you can positively affect others and feel better, rather than picking up on others? Yes. Mediation works for some, but also dancing, writing, getting in the zone will help clear any stuck energy and make your energy bigger.  Use crystals, prayers, intentions, or whatever connects you to your soul.  Why should there ever just be one path?  That’d be boring.  Plus, we evolve on our journeys as we learn, grow, shed what doesn’t serve us and cultivate what does.

Our emotions, stresses, grudges, subconscious blocks can manifest into physical form.  Instead of always running for medicine every time you have a pang, take a deep breath, feel Spirit fill you, imagine white Light coming though the crown of your head from the heavens and down through your feet into the ground.  Bring it back through to the heavens. Do that three times.  And send out love through your heart so that it fills the Earth.  One of my teacher-soul sister-friends, Christine Malenda, MhD, a metaphysical doctor taught me to send that love out seven times as a shield too.  It’s not out of fear, but of protective boundaries.  Think of it as soul personal space.

As I do big things, intend on bigger goals, reach larger audiences, shatter old beliefs, and just going BIG and Bold in general, growing pains occur.  Thought forms and negative energy can distract me as I try to move forward.  Self-doubt and fear in the mind can also be felt as legs (right legs can be a fear of moving forward, left leg can be about being stuck in the past).  Back pain can be money woes or not standing up for yourself (having a backbone), or being out of balance as in out of alignment starting in you core.  Weird feeling in your throat can be inability to say what you want/need/have to say.  My heart (chakra) can feel things like an antennae and I can send more love out that way too.  As someone who has intuitive abilities, I will tell you thyroid is related to solar plexus (power center) and second chakra (sexuality and creativity).  A lot of women have a hard time standing up for themselves and the balance of being a woman and mother as well.  That is a major thyroid vibe.  I’ll cover how we relate to our chakras, the seven energy systems of our body in my next post.  Right now, just simply be aware that you are beyond just your body.

Ask the physical pain in your body what the blessing is? Universe always delivers. Eyes, ears, hearts open. Stuck energy manifests into form and can disappear with no attention to it. Like an itch you don’t scratch. You could have made it into a rash with your attention. This is not about blaming an outcome on yourself EVER! Your body is giving you a gift. It signals a problem in the 3-D that can be healed in the 3-D, but on deeper levels must let go of something or it will appear again. Maybe you need to rest.  What do you need right now?  Tune in and listen to your own intuition.  Do not let the world hold more space in your being than you do.  When you question what a physical pain, diagnosis, or problem is, you can still take medicine and go to the doctor, but understand that you can heal with your mind.  Not to over simply this or to say if someone is sick or hurt, they are not strong enough and their mind is not powerful.  The illness can be a gift for our soul.  On a soul level, which we cannot usually grasp, there are other things at work. Just like we don’t know when we are going to die, on the level of our consciousness that is our personality, but we do not know what our soul came here to learn or to teach.  It’s a Divine timing thing which is our soul’s territory, not the mind. When we look back on an obstacle, we can see what we got out of it if we are conscious.  Physical pain is real, but it doesn’t always have to be forever is my point.  For me, if my back is screaming at me, I take a look at my life and make adjustments.

Next time we will look at Eastern philosophy on our bodies through the chakra system.  It’s very interesting.

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