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Ugh…that mom again.

posted by jperry

“That” mom is different for everyone. Some people dread seeing that mom that is perfect.  Some may not want to that mom who seems angry and on edge.  Yesterday, I was hoping I would not be that latter mom, as I was so her the day before.  I can have a lot of patience and then sometimes it seems like I have none…zilch…zero.  But it’s because a lot has led up to it.  My four year old is still adjusting to not being the baby and acts out, plus he’s four and they’re crazy.

As for being that mom that is perfect has NEVER been me.  I’ve always been too much something and not enough something else for that.  I met one of these moms recently and she had the figure, that perfectly highlighted hair, you already knew what her house would look like, and her kids will reflect her magazine cover of “This is what your life should look like.”  She is BFF’s with “Mrs. Should,” that woman who represents all your should in your own life.  I wanted to be that mom that is perfect, has it all together, not as many junk drawers as me…in fact, she has none.  Her drawers have organizers in them.  When I’d meet that mom in the past, I’d beat myself up.  In my twenties, I’d really want to be her.  Life looked so easy for her.  She made parenting look easy too.  Truth is, it’s not real.  Yes, there are women out there who maybe are really that mom in their home as well as their public persona.  But it doesn’t have anything to do with me.  I’m perfectly me. Comparison and competition will only make you feel like a loser at some point.  Just win at being you.  Focus on your own race, lane, green grass, life…and be that mom/dad/person who is happy with themselves.

Back to my beach day madness two days ago.  I could feel this older couples eyes on me when my son was acting up on the beach. The crowds had thinned out so there wasn’t as much distraction, as in you can’t see our crazy show going on.  “Stop throwing sand.  Don’t kick your brother.  Come here.  Seamus, Seamus….SEAMUS!!!!”  Yep, I’m that mom you judge for her kid being very spirited.  Good thing he’s cute.  When a mom is having a moment like that, smile at her.  It’s a reassurance without any words.  You’re telling her you’ve been there, you can see she’s trying and that her kid is not evil.  When she raises her voice and grabs his hand to show she means business and needs respect in order to keep her kids safe.  When you are that mom, on the beach, in the grocery store, on the playground, struggling with your kids and having the judgment eyes on you it can make you feel alone, angry, and like the worst mom EVER.   Less judgement and more compassion always feels better in our being.  We’re all trying to do our best for the most part.  Let’s try to lift each other up.  To see peace in the world, let’s be peaceful people with our minds and hearts on our own neck of the woods.  And relax.  Be easy on yourself.  Forgive and let go quickly. This goes for your kids and yourself as well.

Prosperity prayer

posted by jperry

Are you broke? In debt? Feel like you can never make enough money?

In our society, we are driven by marketing to have the latest and greatest. To keep striving. To have the ideal life that includes a sizeable bank account to fund it. Do you feel like a failure because of your net worth?

It’s not your worth. It’s just where you’re at today. You can soften the anxiety you feel about your finances by using affirmations like:
Money is always flowing to me.
I attract abundance.
My needs are always met.
Good things always come to me.

They are doable. You can even reach for higher vibrations with:
I am prosperous.
I am abundantly blessed.
I am rich.
My bank account grows every day.
My finances are transforming beautifully every day.
Money is my friend.
I love money.
I love the feeling that money brings.
I am free.

See how each feels to you. Affirmations are a feeling. They are not words alone, but rather an energy. For me, money used to feel like security and peace of mind. Then it became a feeling of fun. It ultimately represented freedom to me. I realized I could have that feeling at any time.

I will lead a special prayer for prosperity.
“Dear God (Universe or whatever feels right), I ask that you bless my prosperity and that of all that need it in the world. That I may see my riches are peace, love, joy, nature, family, my body, my life, and my breath. In my God consciousness, I see it’s done. I need not do another thing. My blessings surround me and I acknowledge them and they grow. I bless others with my prosperity. Gratitude is the perfect channel for me to receive. With open heart, I open to more good in my life and allow prosperity to flow gently into my life without force. I will count my blessings and add blessings to others. My soul is forever and eternally one with you and I step into this knowing fully. I attract abundance because I focus on it. I see with my true eyes all I’ve been blessed with. I seek to be a pillar of Light and as my vibrations raises higher, I open the door for more greatness. My brilliance is further revealed as surrender all my fears, doubts, or worries, to you. I will not longer reach and grasp for richness and plenty, I will be it. Thank you. I love you. In all your glory and grace, Amen.”

Blessings to all that is.  Wishing you all good things, Jenny

Are you in?

posted by jperry

Tomorrow starts the Oprah Deepak 21 Day free meditation again. I love when I recommit to a practice that nurtures my soul. It’s the same with exercise. I’ve said I don’t have time before. There are guilty pleasure reality shows I make time for, but they do nothing for me. Tonight is the Full Moon. It’s a perfect time for me to recommit to a deeper spiritual practice with myself.

For some people, they honor their connection to God-Goddess-Spirit-Universe on Sunday.  Some read their holy books or say prayers at bedtime.  Deepak Chopra mediates two hours a day.  I’m thinking holy moly!  I think it’s beautiful to commit to connect to your higher power in the morning and in the evening.  Some do more than that, but I’m recommitting to at least twice a day.  But really, when we are loving, we are in that space.  When we are in nature, we are in that state of grace.  When we remember to be grateful, God permeates that moment.

I was so touched the other day when my two younger sons, ages seven and four, came and told me they heard a lot of sirens and prayed for those people.  I’m not religious and not traditional, but I am old school in the way of kindness big time.  I want my children to pray for strangers.  To care about what is happening to people across the globe and to send love and pray as if we did know them.  Teaching compassion, kindness, and empathy is so important to me.  But again, I need to recommit to this.  I’m good at this with strangers sometimes and forget to really be there with my children, instead of yelling about bad behavior and the huge messes they make.  I’ve been burnt out and lacked patience.  I recommit to being kinder to myself and to my family.

I am not going to commit to any “shoulds,” like I should be better, be doing this, or not do this…but rather a new way of living.  A refresh of some things I’ve done that worked.  I’ll open up to explore some new things as well.  I’m not the angry person I was in my twenties, but I’ve noticed I’ve turned some business frustrations into an edginess at times where I’m snappy.

Time to go back to joy and feeling good.  Setting the tone for my day and knowing I create my happiness, not people, places, things, circumstances.  Nope, it’s my choice.  Going to reactivate my love muscles and take responsibility for my vibe.  It’s easy to complain.  I don’t take the easy way out.  I will focus on what I want, not what I don’t want.  I’m in.  What can you change that can make a huge impact in your life?  Your soul gives you nudges.  Ask yourself.  You are strong enough to do anything you put your mind and heart to.  Use this Full Moon tonight to set an intention for yourself.  What do you want to create?

Are you in?  Let’s go.

What’s the Center of your Universe?

posted by jperry

I get so many insights when I’m by myself or even when I’m in a crowd, but dwelling within. I get “a-ha’s” when I soul talk aloud, but not when I’m trying to figure out who keeps peeing on the floor in the bathroom of my home. I think it’s my youngest son. He’s four. Hopefully he’ll grow out of it. My connection to the Divine is heightened at certain times, through music and nature especially…and yoga.

The other morning I woke up to go do yoga on the beach which is like a hug from God by the way. My hubby and I had our once a year fight the night before and I went to bed mad. We are truly madly in love and this yearly argument about something dumb only makes us realize the love even more. I’ll share my insight I posted on Facebook at the end of the blog. But I wanted to share the personal challenge I experienced as I surrendered on the mat.

I left my youngest child snuggling in bed with my hubby as I left at 6:45 (I know…can you believe I get up that early to do yoga? Shocker to me too.) Because I went to bed with that yucky energy, I woke up to it. I almost went home before I got there and even during class. Anxiety was trying to trick me. I had to talk myself out of crazy. She’s going to roll out of bed and hit her head or all these scary scenarios were like a red light in my head.  This is nothing new.  I’ve had these struggles before with panic thoughts about my kids. It’s not intuition. I know the difference.

As I reach for more greatness in my life, as in success, business, prosperity, my comfort zone gets thrown in disarray as if it’s been ransacked. All the balls I’m juggling in the air fall down and I must pick them up, sort them, and see which one should be in the center of my Universe. Spiritual connection, my own connection to my soul, and then family. If you put others first energetically, it’s draining to them eventually. You must be centered as the foundation of your own Life with God flowing through your veins and filling the breath in your lungs in order to keep all the balls in the air going. Sometimes you decide you may just juggle one ball. There’s no right or wrong there.

So as my doubt monsters were trying to trick me that something would happen to one of my kids, I felt all stress of my daughter going off to college next year. I am being called to walk my talk and trust totally everywhere in my life. My family is my Achilles’ heel. When I feel like I’m not a good mom, there is nothing worse. I felt myself centering and knowing as I got into my soul space and out of my head on the mat.

As I took my two youngest sons to breakfast, this came to me and I posted it on Facebook:
Me and my hubby have once a year fights. We had one yesterday. They’re always a miscommunication. They always rattle my anxiety. The beauty of it is that we always realize how deep our love is. I hear people say that they never fight and I don’t know if I buy that they don’t even bicker once a year. And I don’t want a flat life. I want the experience and the richness. I want to be scared to love fully because it’s a risk that if taken away, I’d be broken in half. It’s where my trusting God comes in. You see, I am an “until death do you part” with my hubby, just like with my kids. I have no doubt in this. It’s a knowing we’ve done this for lifetimes. Did I luck out? Did I create it? It’s both. Our relationship works like magic though, because we have both given our full hearts. Daring to love fully is the bravest act of all. I wanted years ago to not need him, but I do and I eventually jumped in with both feet off that cliff. I need my kids too. Needing people is human. Could you survive without them? Yes, but what is life without love and wanting and needing and being. It’s a cycle. If you can just be, it’s wonderful, but it never lasts, you must always breathe again, exhaling and inhaling. Surrendering to who you are and all that you are makes relationships epic. We are responsible for our own shit. This is how relationship teach us. Love is a power, a force, a place within us, it’s pulsing through it all if you can remember to seek it and allow it.

P. S. We always say we’re sorry and we agree to disagree. I think he’s the bee’s knees. He’s my heartthrob.

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