I have a wonderful life. It’s always getting better. The holidays are one of the times I really feel it the most. I look at those who have lost loved ones, have no family or the unhealthy dysfunctional kind, or just have so much less than I do and I send blessings. If I could, I’d wave my magic wand and give them all the good stuff. When people used to tell me how bad things in their life were, I’d want to relate to them and play down my life, complain, and minimize my problems in my own mind (guilt was my constant companion). I used to feel bad that I shouldn’t want more because I have a loving husband, healthy kids, etc. God didn’t give me my words in order to play a small life to make others feel better. That would be temporary anyway. I came here to reach many with my words and help them improve their lives in some way, whether big or small. No guilt or do I deserve all the good either. That’s hogwash baloney sandwich. We’re all worthy and no matter what hand we are dealt, good or bad, if we decide it will stop us, it will. I used to believe in and live in limitations.
Luckily, I have an insatiable desire to connect to my own soul, God, and self-help/improvement/empowerment/love, ya know…all the selfies movements. It means I believe you can change. If you want to change things in your life, you must look at your thoughts, beliefs, and subconscious gunk in the process. There will always be things I’m working on because I’m about growth and expansion, this epic love ride of self. I cannot imagine a life without striving to be more and understand even deeper, this experience on this planet. For instance, I had a block for years that I wasn’t smart enough to be a writer. If I didn’t work on myself, that would have been where I stayed. Not smart. I thought I could never change that. My second book will be out January 8th. I was so intimidated by business stuff. I thought I’d never know the business world and closed off a lot of possibilities for myself. But that was just a story. It wasn’t the absolute truth. Question everything is one of my mottos and especially question your thoughts. I am still learning business and working on upleveling. New thoughts on these daily.
If you have thoughts that make you feel bad, examine them. Are they truth? Are they what you think you should think? Are they thoughts that were passed down or you learned? Look to open your mind up to new concepts and ideas. This gives you clarity about what you really deep down feel, believe, or know. Knowing is that place inside, past the thoughts, where grace resides.
Writing in a journal helps us really get to our subconscious blocks and also on the other side of our issues, our holy space of wisdom. It’s also in writing what we are grateful for, where we can get to add more of that consciousness within us. Focus on what you want to grow. So always balance the wanting to learn and release more, with integrating and looking within.
Think good thoughts. Many blessings to all.