“I gotta get up”, “I gotta get up”, “Get up!” My leg began to shake as I hesitantly placed my foot on the rocky terrain. I was taking the first step, I heard the call. I squeezed my eyes shut and placed the other foot onto the gravel. I slowly opened my eyes and looked down the path as far as my eyes could see. The clouds started to move out of the sun’s view and the light descended like a spotlight. God? Is that you?
I didn’t know what to do next so I began to move ahead down my path. I knew this path was not going to be an easy journey. There would be blood and tears. Was I ready? Nope, not even close but living in the past was like a vine growing around my neck, suffocating me from moving forward into my future. After all, every new day is our future, yesterday is long gone but for me not forgotten. I needed to let go so I didn’t stay stuck in the what could have been.
As I looked at my clothes I realized that I did not have the proper attire or gear. How was I going to make it down this path of mine without preparation? The fear was rising but I also knew I was not alone so I silenced those pesky voices of fear and doubt and kept walking, staying present.
What was on my path? It was all such a mystery waiting to be discovered. I knew there would be signs, opportunities, and even miracles waiting for me along the way. I would experience greater love and loss too. My step turned into a skip as I thought about this bright future of mine. Just breathe it all in. Wildflowers were growing on each side of the road. The water I could hear in the distance. Birds flying over head as if they were sent there to guide me.
I did not have a clue where this journey would take me. I just had to trust and lean into this adventure of what I would learn, discover and have to lay down along the way.
The day began to say its goodbyes and I could feel a chill in the air. I pulled the hood over my head and zipped up my jacket as I continued to walk. The trees were rustling in the wind and the noises in the forest were becoming louder as if they were closing in on me. I looked around to see if there was anyone else in sight but there was not. This was my path, my walk. Night swept in and I started to become afraid again. I could no longer see where I was going. I was cold, tired, and hungry. “Please don’t leave in me in the dark!” ” I don’t know where I am going, ” I cried out! I didn’t know what to do so I gathered some leaves and made a pillow next to a rock. I curled up tight and tried to rest but I could hear footsteps in the woods. “Please God, don’t let anything happen to me.” I was shaking uncontrollably as I heard the footsteps getting closer. I held on tight to the rock, not moving. Seconds turned into minutes as my whole body remained tense. I was too scared to turn around and see what was behind me. If I move, my prey will pounce.
Exhaustion finally set in and before I knew it I could no longer keep my eyes open. The night was long but somehow I survived. My muscles ached but I was alive. I was grateful for another day.
The sun was rising and the winds had died down. I reached my hand out and picked up some of the rocks. I held them in my hand for a moment and watched them slip through my fingers. Why am I here? What’s the plan? I still didn’t know but I heard the call so I got up, dusted the leaves out of my hair and took another step trusting in the one who would help me flourish into the woman He created me to be. He would unveil the talents and the gifting. He would show me how to love at a deeper level and give me the strength He knows I am going to need to make it all the way home. Just keep going for He is right there.
I will never be alone, trying to figure things out for myself.
I have someone who speaks gentle and kinds words over my life. He guides me through each day.
He gives freely without expectations or demands. He knows my heart and what hurts me and justice is only His.
I am living with someone who thinks I am lovely, special and who patiently shows me how to do the things that I seem to be incapable of doing.
He empowers me to use the gifts, the dreams He so graciously gave to me.
He sits with me when I feel hopeless, whispering “My plan is good.” “I have the course set, just follow My beloved.”
He is my knight and shining armor who cares for me and walks with me. He does not walk ahead or lag behind. He doesn’t keep secrets from me or try and harm me.
He fills me up with purity, cleansing me daily. He shows me His ways are everlasting life.
I sit in His lap when I feel tired or scared. He comforts me like no other. I can take a sigh of relief knowing the power He holds
I am no longer afraid to dream big for am I His chosen one. When all was lost, He showed me my true identity. I am royalty.
His wisdom runs deeper than any ocean so I look to Him.
He is honest and loyal.
And loves me beyond measure
I now live from above and not below.
For I am not alone
I often like to share with my readers what I am reading. I do believe there are books that God purposely puts in my path to pay it forward sorta of speak. Simplify is one of those books. Let’s get started as I share a bit of this must read with you.
I looked up the meaning of simplify in the dictionary and this is what it said…to make simple, less complicated, easier to do and understand. Ok, well we all know that but I thought it important for you to see it in writing….easier to do and understand.
The author of this eye opening book spends a good portion of his work coaching and mentoring leaders, globally. He realized there was a pattern going on that included these words…. exhausted, overwhelmed, overscheduled, anxious, isolated, dissatisfied. This is a bi-partisan issue of young, old, poor, rich, professionals, parents, women and men, Republicans and Democrats. It’s a global issue that needs addressing.
Excerpt from Simplify ( I will jump around a bit)
I grossly underestimated the impact. Perhaps they hoped I would unveil a closely held secret, a key to the universe that would help them uncomplicate their frazzled lives. Perhaps they assumed I was well beyond these issues in my own experience and hoped I might whisk some crumbs of wisdom off the mahogany table of my life into their waiting and eagerly cupped hands. NOT SO! Those who know me can tell you Ive spent the majority of my adult life wrestling with the same dark swarm of words that I have been hearing from leaders around the globe. I am nowhere near immune. I know far too much about being overwhelmed and overscheduled and exhausted. I know all too well what it feels like to be anxious, dissatisfied, wounded, and spent.
Simplified living is about more than doing less. It’s being who God called us to be, with a wholehearted, single- minded focus. It’s walking away from innumerable lesser opportunities in favor of the few to which we’ve been called and for which we’ve been created. It’s a lifestyle that allows us, when our heads hit the pillow at night, to reflect with gratitude that our day was well invested and the varied responsibilities of our lives are in order.
If we don’t change how we live, our overcomplicated world will begin to feel frighteningly normal. We will become accustomed to life at a frantic pace, no longer able to discriminate between the important and the unessential. And that’s the danger. When we fritter away our one and only life doing things that don’t really matter, we sacrifice the things that do matter.
What if your life could be different? What if you could be certain you were living the life God called you to live and building a legacy for those you love? If you crave a simpler life anchored by the priorities that matter most, roll up your sleeves. Simplified living requires more than just organizing your closets or cleaning out your desk. It requires uncluttering your soul.
The author invites you to examine each chapter and its practices, access what Scripture has to say about it, hold a mirror to your own life, and then take action…There are no shortcuts to untangling yourself, it’s honest, rigorous work. ACTION IS REQUIRED
He challenges his readers to go beyond reading each chapter merely for theory. Apply what you will read with grit and courage.
Each day you will have a clearer purpose and each relationship will finally receive the investment it’s due without the needles clutter clanging around in your soul, you will be able to hear and respond to each whisper from God. Change is possible!
You may have to simplify to live the life God is inviting you to live. This process is not for the faint of heart.
Now go get the book.. xo
Simplify- Ten Practices To Unclutter Your Soul by Bill Hybels
If then was now and I had you back somehow, I would hold you more, I should have told you more.
If now was then and we were together again, I would listen more but now I miss you more
And never been to a dark place and stared loneliness in the face; all the lowest of my lows
There ain’t nothing so broken love can’t heal, I feel. Everyday I grow older time reveals that nothings really gone… we bring the past along and love goes on.
In my dreams you would come to me, through the door like before. When I wake, every breath I take is for you, now for you
Whatever to look upon your face, I wish I could change my place… Will this pain ever go?
There ain’t nothing so broken love can’t heal, I feel. Everyday I grow older time reveals that nothings really gone…. we bring the past along and love goes on
How do I fill this emptiness?
This heaviness I bear?
How do I go on giving it my all when part on me isn’t there?