8 Ways Illness Can Be a Spiritual Practice

Though illness can be scary and unpleasant, there are spiritual gifts to be found in it.

By Toni Weingarten
Most people think of illness as inconvenient at best, tragic at worst. We focus on what we are not doing: our normal daily routines, work, outings with friends, being physically active, time with family. Yes, illness is a time-out from our normal lives of health and activity, but it needn't be time 'lost.' Illness can be a fertile time if you can focus your attention away from what you do not have, and focus on what it offers in abundance.
Even if your illness is one from which you may not recover, making it a spiritual practice will imbue your journey with rich rewards. Here are eight ways to turn physical infirmity into a sacred time of life.
Toni Weingarten is a spiritual director, and has completed a one-year hospital chaplaincy training. She lives near San Francisco and writes on faith, spirit, and religion. Visit her online at ToniWeingarten.com.

Slow Down and Watch

"Healing happens in the slow lane," hospital chaplains tell patients. Think of life like film, 24 individual images moving rapidly in sequence to create the illusion of action. When illness makes you slow down, you have a rare opportunity to view each individual moment of your life on its own, and see how you unconsciously string moments together to create patterns of behavior. This new view gives you the chance to reorder moments into new and healthier patterns of behavior.

For instance, when I was bedridden for 3 months last year with pneumonia, I realized how I had grown used to being able to rush to rescue someone with a problem. I spent my precious energy on others and thus depleted myself, contributing to my illness. Weak from illness, I couldn't rush to anyone's aid and had to rescue myself. It felt healthy and I've since made it my practice to give others a chance to resolve their own issues, and fix my own first.

Practice Acceptance

Spiritual practice is about bowing to and saying 'yes' to the reality of life, even when that reality is illness. During my pneumonia, my daily mantra and spiritual practice was the phrase, "It is what it is." When I came to fully embrace this concept, I felt a deep sense of peace with my situation. I gave into my newfound understanding that my illness was as much a part of God's plan for me as my health. And, I used my energy to heal instead of struggling against my unpleasant reality.

"I believe that fighting or doing battle with any disease creates strong emotional currents that feed and strengthen the condition," says hospital chaplain Brent Davis. "What we resist, persists."

If the truth of your situation is you won't get better, accepting this frees you to make good choices for yourself in these circumstances, and to be honest with loved ones. It also frees your heart to feel God's love.

Let Yourself Be Held

The man lay on the bed in the emergency room, writhed in fear, as doctors worked to save him. I stood by his bed and gently stroked his brow and told him, "Let us hold you now. You are in good hands with the doctors and God. You don't have to struggle so hard here." He calmed down. I stood in the corner and prayed, knowing that God was holding him, and me. This man did survive and I learned about putting my fate in God's hands.

Often we feel we need to be in control of our lives, to constantly hold ourselves up - or what, we'll crumple to the floor? The reality is that much of life is out of our hands. We need to let ourselves be held by others - by the medical staff, by our families, by God. We need to let ourselves be cared for. We need to receive unconditionally and be fully vulnerable.

Keep Your Faith

A serious illness tests our faith. Even when doctors tell us eventually we'll recover, illness can seem to drag on interminably and we sink into despair; our current reality of pain, immobility, and weakness blot out our memory of health. Have faith that you will get well, especially if your doctors tell you so. Practice having faith that "the land of wellness" exists. Believe in your own recovery.

During my pneumonia, I came to imagine myself on a shipwrecked raft at sea. While I couldn't see land (health) I knew that it was out there and believed that I would someday wash up on its shore. As I slowly recovered, I had glimpses of it in the distance and my spirits rose; in my mind I rode the crest of wave towards this far shore. Then my strength waned and I imagined myself in the trough between two big waves, and I could only see water all around me. I kept faith that the waves carried me towards health, even if I couldn't see it. I held fast to my faith, as I would to a raft at sea, until I did indeed eventually wash ashore, stand up on shaky legs and slowly walk back to my life. Hold tight to your faith.

Be OK with Silence

Silence is the goal of many spiritual retreats and practices, and silence usually exists in abundance during illness. There is the silence at home when the rest of the household is at work and you are alone. There's also the silence of a hospital room (other than the machines beeping and medical staff, of course) between visiting hours.

Surrender to the silence and find what it has to offer. Look for the sacred in it. Rather than fear silence as an empty void, feel God's enveloping embrace in it. Cleanse yourself in the silence and use it to heal. Silence can be a mirror of your heart and soul, reflecting back to you what lies deep within you. If you can fill your heart with acceptance and self-love then the silence can sing to you of the Divine within and around you. Listen as it affirms that you are fine as you are - illness and all - and that you need do nothing but be there, resting and healing.

Find the Positive in Negative Space

If you've studied art, then you know that what makes a painting powerful and effective is not only the objects the painter depicts, but the negative space between those objects. Can you imagine a family portrait without defining spaces between family members?

Your life is also a work of art, and the pauses between the peak actions of your life say a lot about you and help shape your overall being and journey. So instead of feeling concern that you are in a period of down time amidst your otherwise active life, look to how this period of reflection and inactivity can give deeper meaning to the actions that bracket it - and how your illness may, eventually, redefine your activities. Embrace this negative space - it is something, far from nothing.