Azules_de_Las_Tablas.jpgToday is testing day for me–an annual CT scan to make sure I remain cancer-free. Gah.

This means I started the day feeling like a bereft five-year-old when I couldn’t find Sharky, the stuffed animal who comforts me around these times (sharks are kind of my cancer spirit guides); he must have swum off to a deep sea of my closet. It means details will escape me like scattered ants today. It means I will receive love from many directions. It means nail-nibbling and deep breathing and sitting on the floor of the bathroom and crying a little. It means feling grateful for the cascades of love in my life. It means having compassion for others going through a day pretending to be normal even though they feel all wonky inside.

So what’s a gal to do? Well, I just came across this lovely Mary Oliver line that gives me my task for the day: “What can we do but keep on breathing in and out, modest and willing, and in our places?”

I also just received my daily Breathe Text. Today it says: “Let’s BREATHE together.” Wanna? Three deep breaths, if you would.


Sniiiiiiiiiiifffff. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Sniiiiiiiiiiifffff. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Sniiiiiiiiiiifffff. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.


Thank you. May your heart, my heart, the hearts of all beings fill with cooling, calming, soothing breath today. Amen. 


Related Features  

10 Ways to Prepare for Scary Medical Tests

Songs for a Waiting Heart

[Image via:]


Like what you see? Click here to subscribe and get Fresh Living in your in-box every day.

More from Beliefnet and our partners
previous posts

This is the post in which we say goodbye.  We’re both leaving our respective jobs at Beliefnet, and so it’s time to step away from the blog. So, this is the post in which we say goodbye…by saying thank you.  Thank you to you, the readers, for clicking and visiting and sharing the myriad ways […]

Are you a frustrated dreamer? I know I am. I often wake up with fragments of scenes echoing in my mind that seem really meaningful–but then I leap out of bed, start my morning routine, and in seconds they’re gone. I want to linger in that realm and tap into the guidance and insight rising […]

Because I lack an engineering degree and don’t understand why we can’t just stop this thing NOW with a 10-ton wad of gum or giant boulder or massive Q-tip, I’ll share more spiritual wisdom from elders. This is from the beautiful, amazing International Council of 13 Indigenous Grandmothers–they each represent a continent and a native […]

“Worry is a prayer for something you don’t want.” – Sharon Gannon I love that. The other day someone expressed concern about my excessive worrying habit, and I’ve been contemplating on it ever since. Doing my best to actually contemplate, rather than worry. I’ve been on a renewed Gilmore Girls binge lately and last night as Lorelai, […]

Close Ad