Recently I have seen a few real questions about what is popularly termed spiritual “quickening,” so I thought I would post a few thoughts about the same.
We need never be afraid of whatever may take place within us as a result of our inner effort to be free. This isn’t to say that one won’t feel fearful, only that we need to be as watchful as we can to not allow ourselves to identify with this negative state. The moment this identification takes place, resistance starts. Such resistance, and all of the pain it brings, is immediately engaged whenever we don’t want something that already “is” going on within us.
What’s important in such moments is to remember yourself, your true wish, and (as best you can) your love of the Light for which you long; in truth, this is really one wish, but it holds all of these elements in it. The “self” that seeks doesn’t know — can’t know — for what it seeks. But when the Light of the Divine that is sought after actually enters this darkened level of being, the same “self” that starts the journey Home is (and must be) “washed” away. This can happen in no other way, and doesn’t happen in any other way… although there are varying degrees of the onset.
Consider Paul on the road to Damascus, as opposed to the gradual illumination of certain other fully illumined men and women.
Nevertheless, here’s the most important thing to remember now, and always, regardless of “quickening” — or of finding your heart suddenly become hard as old molasses: what has led you to this point in your rebirth is not about to mislead you at any juncture of your journey. If you must fear, then so be it… but always strive to do the interior work to bring this fear (and the “self” stricken with it) into your remembrance of the Good for which you long. The Good will see to all else.
The following five lessons contain special insights into the invisible pressure-filled states that cause human beings to run themselves ragged. The more clearly we can see that it’s impossible to reach a place of rest by rushing to get there, the sooner we’ll arrive at the true solutions that allow us to relax, slow down, and realize the relaxed pace of an inwardly liberated life. Study each of these lessons separately, but see them as telling one story whose happy ending goes something like this: You not only find the courage you need to step out of the rush, but you also awaken to a whole new order of yourself that gets everything done without you doing yourself in!
- Anyone who rushes through life always finishes last! This is a truth unseen by the masses, but evident to those weary of going nowhere fast. You race as you do to escape the unhappiness you feel being where you are, running towards what you imagine will free you from that dissatisfaction. But such races are always lost before they begin because you can’t outrun yourself!
- Patience is a great virtue whose cost is paid by becoming painfully conscious of what our impatience does to others.
- Allowing the rushed state of another person to push you into an anxious state of mind is like letting the horse you’re about to ride convince you to wear the saddle!
- Rushing through life lends the one who habitually hurries the feeling of being “important,” but loans such as these come at the high cost of always having to justify one’s unkindness — like when we have to convince ourselves that our impatience with others is a necessary evil along the way to that “greater good” towards which we think we run.
- The most important thing to remember whenever you find yourself in a mad rush is that what you are really trying to get to is a quiet mind… a peaceable state of self reached only by realizing there is no place more empowering for you to be than in the present moment.
We’ve all probably “run over” someone emotionally or hurt a friend, a loved one, or even a complete stranger while racing to get somewhere or do something “important.” Then, we regret it — most likely too late to do any good.
There may be no greater self-deception than the false notion that rushing through anything actually helps us in any way whatsoever. After all, if anxious thoughts and feelings had any power to deliver us to a place or time where peace awaits, don’t you think we’d have gotten there by now? Let there be no mistake here:
When it comes to being in a hurry, what difference does it make how fast you can get somewhere when all you find there is the next thing for you to rush through?
When it comes to healing mental or emotional pain, the first step to freeing oneself is in seeing the following facts: resistance to anything (including psychological pain) is a secret form of fascination with it; and to be fascinated with anything — regardless of its nature — is to be identified with it. Add to these insights the fact that to be identified with something is to be attached to the same, and then one can see how an unseen dependency on dark states gets formed.
It is the light of this understanding that alone shatters not just the walls of one’s psychological prison, but the level of “self” that has built and maintained them. Therefore it is an axiom: before one can be healed, one must stop hurting oneself. There is no other way.