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Letting Go with Guy Finley

Guy Finley explains the necessity to remain as conscious as possible to any inner pain as it’s occurring. He points out the paradox that in spite of the burning sensation, something in me wants to hold on to it. Our work is to find out what it is that seems dedicated to holding on to the pain.

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Question: How do you begin to be open, when the pain and anger is so strong? How do I support my loved ones when I feel so cold inside? Is it fear that is keeping me locked up in this pain?

Answer: It may seem difficult to understand at first, but we must come to a new understanding that there are parts of ourselves that sit in direct opposition to our wish to be happy, whole, and loving human beings. In this instance, any fear that we have of expressing what we really feel towards another (as long as we are not being cruel, or otherwise just venting vicious states) is really the fear of somehow losing ourselves.

Let me briefly explain this idea: to begin with, we all know (more or less) that there lives within us an unconscious violence — a kind of untamed rage that given its leash would run away with us, and run over whomever else is in its way. So we swallow our anger and frustration in the face of relationships with others that ignite it. We don’t want to lose control of ourselves, or have other people see us as being out of control. As a result, we resist the pressure of our own negative states until they finally can no longer be suppressed, at which point we finally explode, producing the very unwanted result we had hoped to avoid. Clearly this approach of suppressing one’s negative states doesn’t work.

On the so-called “positive” side of this equation, we also fear (at times) expressing the depth and breadth of our love for someone; we sense (and often properly so) that telling someone we just can’t live without them will give them license to do toward us whatever they feel like doing because we told them the extent of our dependency upon them. So again, we fear losing ourselves to a situation that seems greater than our ability to deal with.

What’s the solution to this seeming dual edged sword upon which we dance? If we see the truth of our interior state, then there is only one action we can take: we must do what we fear doing. In this instance, we must ask ourselves what’s more important to us? Do we want to be someone who remains outside of a relationship and a captive of it at the same time — for fear of what may happen should we speak our heart (no matter how poorly this may be done, by the way)… or do we want to be free of these love limiting, resentment producing fear states, regardless the cost? This is a question you must answer for yourself.

The experience of every moment of our life is a direct reflection of our nature. We never experience anything that does not arise directly from our own inner life. Life always happens from the inside out. What we know and perceive and look for is what we get. The pain we feel as we enter a room and move self-consciously from the door to the chair is a reflection of what is in us, and not what is in those people we see before us. The fact that we have those pains is proof that we don’t understand what our pains are about, for if we did understand, we would no longer tolerate their presence in our psychic system.

The realization that there are parts of us that are against us can hit us with a jolt. But when we see that these wrong parts have actually created the pains that they then falsely promise to free us of, we eagerly seek — and find — the real Friend who will bring all pains to an end. Only the Truth is on your side. When you live from the Truth, the whole universe will be on your side as well.

Work consciously to deliberately drop the names of your pains

and you will also learn to let go of all the reasons you have for experiencing them.