Reprinted courtesy of Guideposts Magazine.

Summer 1947

Cowbells clinked on the door as Grandma and I entered the secondhand store not far from my grandparents' farm near Greeley, Colorado, where I was visiting the summer I was 5 years old. The sign outside said Junk, but to my grandma and me this place was a gold mine, packed floor to ceiling with woolen quilts, old records, and boxes of who-knew-what, its musty smell alone the stuff of promises.

"Mornin'," Grandma said to the lady inside. "We'll just be a-lookin'."

Moving sideways through the crammed aisles, I stopped for a moment to admire a chipped pomegranate sugar bowl. "Keep an eye out for something that doesn't belong here," Grandma hinted. "Something of value to you."

Eventually we wound our way back to the front of the store, and Grandma gave the junk lady 25 cents for a big box of buttons. "Thank ya," she said, repositioning the rhinestone-lined comb securing the pile of hair atop her head.

That's when I saw the doll. Her cloth body slumped against a book, her head tipped slightly to one side. But her eyes--her bark-brown eyes--gazed directly at me. I knew she was meant to be mine.

"Grandma," I said, "I want that doll more than anything." I pointed to her. "That one, there on the shelf."

"Costs fifteen cents," the junk lady said. She reached for the doll and held it up for Grandma's inspection. A whimper came from the doll. "The crier doesn't work right," the junk lady added. "She cries every time you move her."

And how often had that been? I wondered. Moved from place to place, probably, with no one to love her for very long. I guess her crier didn't work right. It was worn out from crying.

Grandma looked the doll over, then glanced down at me. The junk lady said, "I'll let ya have her for ten cents." With that, Grandma snapped open her coin purse and the doll was mine.

"Thank you, Grandma," I said. "I'll love her forever."

We settled into the pickup truck, the doll on my lap. I cupped my hand over her painted-on hair. "I'll call her Sylvia," I told Grandma on the way home. "You'll never be without a family again, Sylvia," I promised. She was my adopted doll. I kissed the crack over her eye, determined to make up for whatever sadness she'd known in the past.

I knew there were real kids in the world just like Sylvia. Surely God--whose love Grandma said stretched even farther than the sky--wanted all children to have a family. And then it became as clear to me as Sylvia's eyes: "When I grow up, Grandma, I'm going to adopt a real child."

"Why, that's wonderful to hear, Muriel," Grandma told me. "I can see already that you have the love in you to do it, God's love. And that's what makes everything possible."

Sylvia let out a cry when I brought her close to my heart. I watched the road markers tick by through the car window. "Does it take a long time to grow up, Grandma?" I asked.

"You'll be grown before you know it, child. Time has a way of passing."

Winter 1973

My husband, Steve, our two children and I sang and told silly jokes for most of the drive from our home in Northglenn, Colorado, to a big family gathering at my aunt and uncle's farm near Greeley. My cousins Danny and Susie had told me lots about the foster child they'd taken in, and I looked forward to meeting her.

The kids were outside when we pulled up, and Steve had barely stopped the car before Kim, 11, and Steve Jr., 8, jumped out to join their cousins. Kissing and hugging my way into the house, I headed for the kitchen to help set out the food.

As I walked through the living room, I was surprised by a girl with honey-brown locks twirling past me like a whirligig. "Sorry, sorry, sorry," she said, stopping to face me mid-spin.

"Well, hello there," I said. "You must be Stephanie." She giggled and nodded her head so her hair bounced around her face. With a shy smile she twisted a strand of hair round her finger.

"I'm Muriel," I said. "Danny's my cousin." Stephanie was standing completely still now. She was a wisp of a girl, whose face somehow managed to convey both joy and sadness at once. And her eyes, her bark-brown eyes .

She's meant for me. The thought came out of nowhere.

"Gotta go," Stephanie said, suddenly. "See ya later!" And with that, she was off again, spinning out of the room.

"I see you've met Stephanie," Susie said, coming from the kitchen. "Caring for her is a challenge. She's not even 10 years old yet and has already known so much sadness. She's been in and out of countless foster homes. It's taken a toll on her, and she's a difficult child--angry, aggressive with the other kids, a discipline problem in school. The agency is desperate to find her a permanent home."

With us, I thought immediately.

Stephanie belongs with us.