Michael P. Desronvil, the lone juror who refused to find Lindsay Clancy not guilty by reason of insanity in the deaths of her three young children, is breaking his silence about why he stood alone.

“I didn’t have any doubts,” Desronvil said in a statement first reported by NewsNation.

Desronvil was the lone holdout on the 12-person jury considering the case against Clancy, a Massachusetts mother who admitted killing her three children — 5-year-old Cora, 3-year-old Dawson and 8-month-old Callan — in January 2023. Her defense argued that severe mental illness left her unable to understand that what she was doing was wrong, while prosecutors maintained that evidence showed she planned the killings and understood her actions.

After days of deliberations, the jury remained deadlocked 11-1, prompting Judge William Sullivan to declare a mistrial on September 4. Several jurors later publicly claimed Desronvil had acknowledged reasonable doubt but refused to join them in finding Clancy not criminally responsible.

Desronvil now disputes that account.

“As I tried to explain different possible theories during deliberation, I kept getting cut off as if I had doubts based on the evidence present,” he said.

Desronvil said the physical evidence, witness testimony and the prosecution’s case convinced him that Clancy understood her actions.

“I thought it was enough proof that she knew exactly what she was doing and planned,” he said.

Since the mistrial, Desronvil has faced intense public scrutiny. His attorney, Edward Paltzik, has described him as a devoted father and “man of God” and said his client has been unfairly attacked for fulfilling his responsibility as a juror. Desronvil has retained Paltzik as attention surrounding his identity and personal life has intensified.

Desronvil’s Christian faith has also become part of the public discussion surrounding his decision. But standing alone does not prove someone right or wrong. Scripture contains numerous examples of people refusing to follow the crowd because of deeply held convictions, while also repeatedly emphasizing wisdom, truth and righteous judgment.

For Desronvil, his conclusion came down to the evidence presented in the courtroom — not to uncertainty about it.

His decision ultimately prevented a unanimous verdict and left the future of the case unresolved. Clancy is scheduled to return to court on September 29 as prosecutors consider whether to pursue another trial.

Whatever comes next, Desronvil has made one thing clear about the decision that left him standing apart from 11 fellow jurors: He says he did not waver.