We are intended to be in relationship with the ongoing movement of life. But when you look at life as though nothing will change, it won’t. The more you push away what you don’t want, the more you keep it in place. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xn8iQ8D8H_o&t=14s
The secret purpose of that self-loathing nature in us — that wants us to suffer today for what we could not do yesterday — is not there to help us make straight our mistakes, but rather to ensure that we waste the rest of our days struggling to escape the ache of useless regrets. Awake! Detect and reject despair! It is not the guiding light it seems to be, but it is a cold heat that compromises any heart into which it seeps.