We are intended to be in relationship with the ongoing movement of life. But when you look at life as though nothing will change, it won’t. The more you push away what you don’t want, the more you keep it in place. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xn8iQ8D8H_o&t=14s
We all tell ourselves that we want a new life; we spend hours dreaming of the day when we are freed from self-limitations or otherwise self-compromising behaviors. In our minds we see ourselves walking away from destructive relationships with others, or from habitual negative thoughts and feelings. And this is the problem. We talk to ourselves about the “fresh start”; we plan the path to be taken when things are right; we conspire with others and encourage one another to begin again, to just let go of what “was”. . . but that’s it. We talk but don’t walk! We plan but don’t act. We dream but never awaken to the fact that the New Beginning we long for is Now or never. There is no such thing as “tomorrow” for anyone who really has it in his or her heart to start over with life.
The only place where we can hope to make a genuine fresh start in life must be made in that one “place” where life itself is New all the “time.”
We must dare to step out of our past — and into the Now — every time we can catch ourselves about to be carried off by some common self-consideration. This means we watch, catch, and then drop our thoughts as they appear within our awareness, instead of picking each one up and holding it to our ear like a seashell in the hopes of catching the sweet sound of (our) self again.
This deliberate work of walking away from one’s past is a prerequisite for any true fresh start in life.
Do your inner work to live in conscious relationship with the ever new Now. Persist until you see that nothing in the universe can interfere with your wish to start life over because this wish comes to you from Reality itself.