As I mentioned in my last post, on the discussion thread, “Dear God: A Little Venting,” Group Beyond Blue member Luthitarian posted his letter to God, and then wrote a poignant reflection on what God’s response would be. Other members did the same. Reading these responses from God was so empowering. I think it’s a wonderful exercise to try on your own. Here’s Luthitarian’s letter, a great example:
Please, Please, know that I am with you! The very tears you shed are my own. The very ache you feel is my own heart breaking. And I know that you are feeling helpless, lost, and angry. I know it’s hard to be carrying that anger and not have anywhere to direct it; no one to ‘blame’.
First, though, don’t blame yourself! I created you with the freedom of choice and the limited, finite being that you are is going to make some bad choices. So, even if the suffering you are going through is the direct result of your choices–or even the innocent suffering as the victim of someone else’s choices, so, let it go. That’s simply the way things are. It’s not the best system, but it’s the one that gives you the greatest freedom to love and to be loved, or even to reject the option of love. Love should never be forced, controlled or manipulated, but always unconditional. Love can only be love when it’s a conscious, unconditional, choice. And unconditional love can hurt like hell. Believe me, I know.
Also, it’s frustrating when circumstances are beyond your control, as life circumstances and health issues often are. Know that you are not a bad person who deserves any of your “fate”. Know that you are not being punished by me, the universe, Mother Nature, the Norns, the Furies, Sauron, the Wicked Witch of the North or any other entity.
Forrest Gump had it right: “sh*t happens”. And if you want to blame me for that, then that’s okay. I wouldn’t be God if I couldn’t handle it! Dump all your anger and bitterness on me, and I’ll return it to you as healing love.
I’m as close as your own heartbeat and as much a part of you as your own breath. My Being moves in and through you, supporting and sustaining you. Yes, “Shit happens.” But I’m happening in the midst of that shit. Turn around. You won’t see some God sitting on a high throne pure and pristeen in robes as white as anything you’ve ever seen in a tv laundry detergent commercial. No, I’m at your side, deep in the muck with you, deep within the creation, moving, a touch here, a nudge there, a comforting pat and an encouraging, loving word, drawing creation–and you–to fulfillment.
You are my very Life embodied in the world! How could I not love you!? How could I ever let you go?
To read more Beyond Blue, go to www.beliefnet.com/beyondblue, and to get to Group Beyond Blue, a support group at Beliefnet Community, click here.
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