"I can't even explain the experience," Brazzil says now, in his soft drawl. "It was extremely traumatic. It was extremely religious. It opened my eyes and my life to things I had never even dreamed of, as far as being alive. Back then, they were still executing at midnight, so it was a long, hard day."
On the campaign trail, George W. Bush has had to explain why Texas puts more people to death than any other state, with over 130 executed during his tenure as governor. But Brazzil faces more pressing questions from the 131 men and women he has counseled in the last two weeks of their lives, through the last full day of their lives, to the moment that he puts his hand on their leg and watches their last breath.
As witness to so many deaths, Brazzil no longer fears his own ("When I come to grips with life and death, it's not the death I'm afraid of," he says). Instead, he works to retain awe. Texas executes so many people that two men were put to death on the same night this August. "I try very hard not to ever become callous in this," Brazzil says. "I don't ever let it become a routine. Every man is different. When I first started this job, I tried to find out everything I could about the inmate. I knew his crime. I knew the history of how many times he had been in prison. I knew his family environment. But I felt all that got in my way, because a lot of times it affected how I looked at him. And now I just go in there. He's already been condemned by the state and he's fixin' to die. He doesn't need somebody else there to browbeat him. I feel like what he needs is somebody to love him, to lead him to God, to lead him to repentance, and to prepare his life for death."
The prisoners' last statements, picked up by a microphone angled just above their mouth and broadcast in the witness booth, often reveal a remarkable peace, achieved partly with Brazzil's help. "...Y'all look after Sheila and Shannon and them," said Orien Cecil Joiner, dying at age 51 on the evening of July 12, "call 'em and get the pictures to 'em and everything and, ah, again, like I said, I feel sorry for the families, but if it takes my death to make them happy, then I will bless them. I have no hard feelings toward anyone, 'cause the Lord feels that it is my time to come home to Him, my work on earth is done and ... they will have to go through this one time again, cause sooner or later, whoever did this crime is going to be caught, and they'll have to come down here and do this again, and they will realize they witnessed an innocent man going to be with Jesus Christ."
"If I knew who killed Rosalyn I would let you know," Tommy Ray Jackson said in early May this year, "but, I am going to say this: I am going to heaven with God as my witness. Ros was a personal friend of me. She was a beautiful person, very educated. ... I am at peace, please believe me. Wherefore, I figure that what I am dying for now is what I have done in my past. This is what I am dying for. Not for killing Rosalyn. I don't know what y'all call her, but I call her Ros, I call her Ros."
Sometimes the ministers themselves must personally forgive a wrong. Juan Soria prayed to Allah at his death, but just six weeks earlier he had severed a chaplain's wrist down to the last tendon with a hidden razor blade.