O Me of Little Faith

O Me of Little Faith


Friday Housekeeping

posted by Jason Boyett

I returned last night from a great week in New York City where I had the privilege of speaking to the communities at Apostles Church (Tuesday) and Marble Collegiate (Wednesday) about faith, doubt, and living with both. Thanks to the leaders of both churches for the invitation, the shared meals, the great conversation, and the new friendships.

Now, for some housekeeping:

Congrats to Jarrod Haggard for leaving a comment and being the random winner of Monday’s contest. Two free copies of O Me of Little Faith are headed your way!

And congrats to Jessica for leaving a comment and being the random winner of Tuesday’s contest. One free copy of the book is yours…

If you’ll both email me with your shipping addresses, I’ll make sure your copies get in the mail soon.

More stuff to read until new content gets posted next week:

+ A Church Marketing Sucks interview with me about doubt, faith, marketing, and tanks.

+ A fun “Wordless Wednesday” contest at Soul Munchies in which you can win a free copy of OMOLF.

+ A review by the “J” at PJs til Noon.

+ Jen at Divinest Sense reviews the book and interviews me.

+ Interviewed by Janet O about O Me of Little Faith and our shared fondness for running.

+ Lauren Sawyer with a review and some commentary about OMOLF.

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See you on Monday, and have a great weekend.



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fireboy48

posted May 7, 2010 at 8:31 am


First of all, thank you for saying all the stuff I've been saying for years and was just too retarded to say myself. Also, thanks for the "shameless self-promotion". Now, I don't feel bad about linking my blog to Facebook and Twitter. The tip about how to use media for said self-promotion was nice too.



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TP

posted May 7, 2010 at 8:37 am


Thanks for coming to visit us at Marble. Your honest message was right in line with the kind of open mindedness at Marble that lead me to go back to church again. I look forward to reading more from you.



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the J in PJs Til Noon

posted May 7, 2010 at 1:07 pm


I just want to let you know how much I really enjoyed reading your book. It lets me know I'm not alone in this seemingly perfected walk that I see so many put on. I've got questions. Big ones. And I may never get answers, but that's ok. Thanks for sharing so openly and honestly. It truly is inspiring.



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Jason Boyett

posted May 7, 2010 at 1:12 pm


@Jen: You're very welcome. I truly appreciate the kind words and am thrilled that the book has encouraged and inspired you.



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Janet Oberholtzer

posted May 8, 2010 at 10:29 am


Thanks for the mention in this post, Jason. A friend read my interview with you and after reading the question about heaven/hell, she sent me this link. Interesting stuff to think about. http://justanapprentice.wordpress.com/2006/03/23/heaven-and-hell/



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libenn

posted May 9, 2010 at 8:41 am


I bought your book this week, so far I like it :)



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Jarrod Haggard

posted February 14, 2011 at 8:09 am


Oh my gosh! Dude, my friend was doing a random search and came across this and told me about it. I never knew I won! Well, thanks Jason, so much for the thought, and for what you are doing in opening up honest discourse in regards to faith and doubt.
I’m struggling sooo much with this right now, words don’t even begin to describe all that I’m feeling in trying to figure this out. I was raised in the church, accepted Christ at four, eventually became a youth pastor and worship leader, traveled the west coast speaking, and playing music…and then my world fell apart. I was eventually diagnosed with bipolar disorder. In the midst of my despair I found a little-known study that shows that people with major depressive disorder and/or bipolar disorder consistently feel a “loss of God’s presence” or “loss of belief in God”. It helped a bit to just think that my doubt was a symptom of BPD, but not enough to change me. I tried to just be an intellectual christian, in the sense that I felt no presence of God’s hand on my life, as I always had before, yet fought to follow God’s teaching through the bible.
The problem with intellectual Christianity is that you stumble onto things like textual criticism, and many of the inconsistencies of the historical biblical narrative. As a curious student of life, I’ve had to face the fact that evolution really does make great sense. Or the medical fact that there is absolutely no evidence of a soul in the human body. Instead we have centers of the brain that are triggered the same way whether we pray, meditate, attempt astral projection, or attend a concert or other mass gathering with a singular goal. All these things, regardless of denomination, or faith, show the exact same brain signals/chemistry.
Jason, I want desperately to believe, and I mean that. But I feel so disengenuous in worship, or study, or fellowship with other Christians. I don’t want to live a lie. I LOVE the church and all her people. There is nowhere else that I can find a group of people so focused on the greater good of mankind, that singular sense of selflessness that is a hallmark of a Jesus follower, the commitment to social justice, or even just the fellowship that lets me know I’m not alone in my struggles.
I have prayed in desperation that God would lead me to belief, that he would steal away my doubt, and allow me to follow him holeheartedly. And yet it seems my prayers are deflected off of brass skies, seperating me from my creator.
The more that I read, listen, and learn, the harder it is for me to believe. The more I see faith as a weakness, a crutch, an excuse. I HATE that I feel that way, and I wish I could ignore it. I have tried desperately to ignore it. But the doubt remains.
I am most comfortable identifying myself now as an agnostic. I desperately wish/want God to exist, I want the hand that shaped my life up to this point to be real. But I don’t know that, I can’t know that…intellectually. But my heart cries in desperation, begging for a resolution.
I have only told two people in my life the way I feel, and what I’m going through. I’m terrified to tell my family of pastors and deacons. I don’t want to break their hearts, or cause them to carry the burden of my salvation, whether I believe in it or not.
I bought your book already, so, no need to mail me anything. I didn’t finish it yet, but it was kind of frustrating because the arguments that you brought forth are some of the same things that I’m dealing with. Yet you seemed to simply accept these seeming truths about the lack of a God, and move forward anyways. I respect your decision to do that, and I’m thankful that you have found peace in that. It’s just frustrating because I can’t seem to find that same peace that you have. I can’t move forward another step, because it feels fake. I don’t want to live a lie.
I understand, very well, that without doubt, faith simply doesn’t exist. But I must have at least certainty enough to move forward in my faith, in my walk with God.
Even listening to my family teach their children bible stories hurts my heart. Because after a long, hard look, I have come to realize that I was indoctrinated into this faith, I was forced to look at eternity as a child, and make a decision that would change the rest of my life. I was not ready to do that. I couldn’t possibly understand the implications of my decision. And I hurt for the children when I hear them being taught about the six literal days of creation, noah’s ark, or many other stories that are simply stories, not factual events.
I’m tired of Christianities’ weak answers in the face of insurmountable evidence. I’m tired of the response to obvious, glaring discrepancies simply being, “God said it, and so it is”. It’s simply not enough for me anymore.
I don’t know if you’re a music fan, but I relate to David Bazan’s album “In Stitches”. His songs about losing his faith. It breaks my heart to agree so wholeheartedly with his sentiments.
Jason, if and when you have time, please pray for me. I’m tired of my heart hurting, and I want to know that God exists, and that I can follow the path Jesus set out before us with confidence. And thank you again for the time and care you’ve taken to address some of these issues. And for your willingness to interview people on both sides of the fence. I do find some comfort in knowing that, at least here, I am not alone.
If there is any place that you might point me, any book/article that you would have me read, any subject you would have me study, any person you would have me listen to, please do so. I feel like I’m grasping at straws, but I know that men far more intelligent than I have understood these discrepancies and chosen still to move forward in their faith. If you could guide me to something, anything that might help, it would be immensely appreciated. I look forward to your response, and my email address is above. Thank you so much for your time.
-Jarrod



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