Hmmmm … I’ve got a lot to think about as we gear up for Friday’s Full Moon in Pisces. This is a very special Full Moon — not only because it’s a Blue Moon, but because it’s all about compassion, empathy and forgiveness.
I’ve got the compassion and empathy stuff down — those are easy for me, as I’m a humanitarian at heart. But forgiveness is another matter entirely.
This Full Moon urges people to let go of their anger toward those who have done us wrong, let bygones be bygones and make a fresh start. I know this is a good idea in theory — holding on to anger does as much damage to the grudge holder as it does the offending party.
But honestly, I’m not sure if I can do it. There’s one person in particular who did some major damage to my well-being a couple of years ago, and it’s taken all of me to get back to the strong, confident person I was before I met him. In fact, I’m not even sure I’m quite there yet.
Did this person inflict so much damage intentionally? Maybe not. Maybe he was so flawed he just couldn’t help it. And maybe I should be able to empathize with him for being incapable of honesty, integrity, personal responsibility and common decency. I should pity someone like that, right?
After all, some people plead insanity to get off the hook for doing very bad things. But while most of us can feel some degree of empathy for insanity, it still doesn’t make it easy to forgive some of the things insane people do.
So for me to forgive things like lying and cheating and broken promises is nearly impossible, especially considering the guy wasn’t even technically insane (although I’d be happy to argue that point if called upon to do so.)
Friday’s Full Moon in Pisces urges us to get in touch with our spiritual side and tap into something larger than ourselves. To let the boundaries fall away and realize that we’re all in this together — yep, even THAT guy.
So, I’m curious to see how I’ll feel about all this on Friday. I’ve definitely picked up the pieces of my life and moved on. I have no active anger about that betrayal. I rarely think about it anymore (aside from this blog, of course) and heck — I’m even happy. I met a better man who I adore and trust. I have great friends and family, I love my career and I have my health.
So, then, is forgiveness really necessary? Meh. We’ll see if I feel inspired to try harder under the influence of the Pisces Full Moon.