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14 Ways to Recover from an Emotional Affair

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An anonymous reader writes:

Over the last several months, I began an online relationship with a man. I was taken aback by our ability to connect. It was uncanny to me how much we understood each other. The sense of completeness is there when I am chatting with him. I feel validated, understood, and special. I want my marriage to work. Cognitively, I understand that the relationship with my online friend is not complete and based on false circumstances. It’s not real life. But my flesh is weak. I miss the conversations and the feelings that I got from this man. It is almost like an addiction to a drug and I am having a horribly difficult time breaking the habit.

I know this woman is not alone in her struggle because I read a few comments or e-mails like that every day from readers. Boundary issues are extremely difficult when you have two human beings who crave friendship and intimacy, but are vulnerable to the complications that sexual attraction can cause in an uncommitted relationship. With the growing trend of social networking sites like Facebook, emotional affairs are more rampant than ever. And even if the two persons involved haven’t crossed the line into a physical affair, these relationships are still just as challenging–sometimes more–to dissolve and recover from than a romance based in the bedroom.

To help all of my readers who struggle with this issue, I have compiled these 14 tips to overcome an emotional affair: techniques to let go of the pieces in these relationships that can entangle a heart in sadness and distract a person from the goodness of the committed relationship she is in.

1. Distinguish romance from love.

In his book “We: Understanding the Psychology of Romantic Love,” Robert A. Johnson distinguishes human love from romantic love. This is helpful for chicks raised on too much Disney: who believe that two people can fall deeply in love with each other after a three-minute duet like Sleepy Beauty and her Prince did. Or for women who read too many books like “The Bridges of Madison County” and “The English Patient,” where the mystical lover makes one grand entrance, followed by hot, steamy sex. And then he disappears for the rest of her life.

Johnson defines human love (committed, normal love that we see in every day life) as “stirring-the-oatmeal” love. He writes:

Stirring oatmeal is a humble act–not exciting or thrilling. But it symbolizes a relatedness that brings love down to earth. It represents a willingness to share ordinary human life, to find meaning in the simple, unromantic tasks: earning a living, living within a budget, putting out the garbage, feeding the baby in the middle of the night. To “stir the oatmeal” means to find the relatedness, the value, even the beauty, in simple and ordinary things, not to eternally demand a cosmic drama, an entertainment, or an extraordinary intensity in everything.

2. Schedule some obsessing.

As I wrote in my “15 Ways to Stop Obsessing,” sometimes the best treatment for fantasies is to pencil them into your schedule. When you find yourself fantasizing about an intimate moment with the woman who has custody of your heart, don’t yell at yourself, “Snap out of it!” Simply say, “Thought, I appreciate your coming, but I’ve scheduled you for 7 this evening, at which time you can totally distract me if you want.”

Dr. Christine Whelan, who writes the “Pure Sex, Pure Column” on BustedHalo.com, explains the logic of allowing a bit of fantasy. She writes:

If you are trying to banish a sexual fantasy from your head, telling yourself “I’m not going to fantasize about her” or “I won’t think about what it would be like to be intimate with him” might make it worse: In a famous psychological study from the 1980s, a group of subjects were told to think about anything but whatever they did, they were not supposed to think about a white bear. Guess what they all thought about?

3. Be accountable.

This technique is especially effective for Catholics whose first lessons on human morality involved scary confessions. Do I have to tell everything? What if he sends me to hell? Even when I stopped going to confession regularly, I could hear the devil and angel duking it out on my shoulders, one guy telling me that he was going to go rat me out to the pope, the other guy telling me hysterical St. Peter jokes.

Moreover, accountability has always worked for me, even when I’m free from the nun with the ruler, because, as a stage-four people pleaser, I crave a good report card. So I better make sure I have a few people in my life passing out such reviews: my therapist, my doctor, my mentor Mike, my mom (she can still read my voice like a map, dang it), my twin sister, and my best friend. By giving them the skinny on what’s really going on inside my margin for error decreases ten-fold.

4. Invest in your marriage.

The best way to prevent an affair is to invest in your marriage. And the best way to recover one is to invest in your marriage. It’s a simple physics equation: the energy and time you supply to one relationship has to come from another one. That is, you can’t build and nurture a true partnership if you’re spreading intimacy over too many places.

After a violation of trust–and according to marriage expert Peggy Vaughan an affair is more about breaking trust than having sex–the best reconciler in a marriage are small acts of kindness. Because for most spouses, “I’m sorry” doesn’t cut it. Contrition needs to be supported with evidence: backrubs, special dinners, cleaning toilets, a listening ear. To quote Robert Johnson again: “Jung once said that feeling is a matter of the small. And in human love, we can see that it is true. The real relatedness between two people is experienced in the small tasks they do together: the quiet conversation when the day’s upheavals are at rest, the soft word of understanding, the daily companionship, the encouragement offered in a difficult moment, the small gift when least expected, the spontaneous gesture of love.”

Here’s a thought: whenever you are tempted to send a heartfelt and kind e-mail to a special someone, send it to your spouse instead.

5. Replace it with something.

Whenever I grieve the loss of an important relationship in my life–whether it be a friendship that falls apart or a loved one who passes unexpectedly–I’ve found it helpful to immerse myself in a new project, or new challenge. A few years ago, when I was severely depressed, I realized I was clinging to certain relationships because I had no adult interaction in my day: the oldest person I talked to (until Eric returned from work) was 4.

So I pursued a tutoring position at the Naval Academy–in an effort to place myself in a stimulating environment that would force myself to stretch a little. The job didn’t take away all the sting of grief, of course, but it did help to distract me in a positive way.

6. Stay with the loneliness.

I’m not a big fan of loneliness. Because that aching hole in your heart feels too much like the scary black chasm of depression. But they are different beasts. One can be treated, the other must be felt. Writes Henri Nouwen in “The Inner Voice of Love:”

When you experience the deep pain of loneliness, it is understandable that your thoughts go out to the person who was able to take that loneliness away, if only for a moment. When you feel a huge absence that makes everything look useless, your heart wants only one thing–to be with the person who once was able to dispel these frightful emotions. But it is the absence itself, the emptiness within you, that you have to be willing to experience, not the one who could temporarily take it away. When you can acknowledge your loneliness in a safe, contained place, you make your pain available for God’s healing.

7. Outsmart the body.

A little biology lesson here. When you are infatuated with someone, your brain chemistry whispers lies into your ears that can have you doing really stupid stuff. The spike in dopamine and norepinephrine produced with heightened sexual tension might tell you that all your troubles would end if you only kissed the handsome guy you just friended on Facebook, or ran off with the barista that makes you a perfect cappuccino.

Most people who have experienced an emotional affair describe it as a head rush. Helen Fisher, an anthropologist at Rutgers University, author of “Why We Love: The Nature and Chemistry of Romantic Love,” explains why:

Love is a drug. The ventral tegmental area is a clump of cells that make dopamine, a natural stimulant, and sends it out to many brain regions [when one is in love]. …It’s the same region affected when you feel the rush of cocaine.

Thus, identifying the physiological components of infatuation can be a strong ally in fighting the war against infidelity.

8. Detach

The Buddha taught that it is attachment that leads to suffering. So the most direct path to happiness and peace is detachment. I know that to be true on so many levels. In his book, “Eastern Wisdom for Western Minds,” Victor M. Parachin tells a wonderful story about an old gardener who sought advice from a monk. Writes Parachin:

“Great Monk, let me ask you: How can I attain liberation?” The Great Monk replied: “Who tied you up?” This old gardener answered: “Nobody tied me up.” The Great Monk said: “Then why do you seek liberation?”

9. Treat the addiction.

Categorizing an emotional affair as an addiction is helpful in two ways: first, it depersonalizes the experience, making it easier to let go of, and it also provides some tangible steps a person can take to kick her habit. Craig Nakken, author of “The Addictive Personality: Understanding the Addictive Process and Compulsive Behavior” defines addiction as “a pathological love and trust relationship with an object or event … the out-of-control and aimless searching for wholeness, happiness, and peace through a relationship with an object or event.” Addictions induce a trance-like state that allows the addict to detach from the pain, guilt, and shame she feels. Temporarily. Until reality hits.

It makes sense that so many depressives and alcoholics find themselves in toxic relationships. Nakken explains that the “addictive logic”-buying into false and empty promises, a false sense of intimacy and fulfillment–stays with a person long after she has broken off the relationship or stopped her destructive behavior. She is vulnerable to it resurfacing in a different form or with a new person at any time and especially during stressful periods. Which is why recovery never ends. It’s a way of living that involves one smart decision after another that fosters true intimacy.

10. Surround yourself with friends.

For a person who has just broken off an emotional affair, friends aren’t optional. They are a life-support system. In his book, “How to Break Your Addiction to a Person,” Howard Halpern writes:

The value of this network is so great that having it or not having should not be left to chance. It can make the crucial difference in your success in ending the relationship. IT has many specific and even specialized uses, but overriding all else is that when you are terrified of being all alone in the universe, it can give you the comforting assurance that there are other caring people out there. And this assurance, by making you feel reconnected to the web of life, can firm up your determination to make and sustain the break.

Safe friends are especially important if the relationship you are mourning formed at work, among mutual friends. You’ll need to befriend colleagues who are not connected to him in any way, or hang out with your non-work friends, safe folks, until you feel strong enough to socialize with friends who might talk about or involve him.

11. Think with your new brain.

In his bestselling classic “Getting the Love You Want,” Harville Hendrix distinguishes between our old or “reptilian” brain that is weighted down with unconscious baggage from our pasts and reacts automatically in fear, and our new brain: the “analytical, probing, questioning part of your mind that you think of as being ‘you.'” Harville theroizes that when we get sucked into intense, emotional relationships that hurt us our old brain is holding the helm. It wants to recreate the pain of our past in order to heal the wounds.

So what we have to do is to squeeze some of the rational and cognitive skills of our newer brain into the old brain before the unguided driver gets us into too much trouble. This means to apply a little logic or to fill in the details of our love story. For example, you think this guy on the Internet is your soul mate. Okay, then visualize what you would have to do to spend the rest of your life with him: give up the marriage you are in and everything it provides you, disrupt the stable home life of your children, disrupting their lives in a negative way, and so on. The new brain can also remind you that no one person can make you happy. That job is all your own. You may very well think this person can fill the hole in your heart. But once you are there, having given up so much of your life to get there, you will realize it wasn’t him after all that you needed. It was some self-healing.

12. Help someone else.

When I’m in pain, the only guaranteed antidote to my suffering is to box up all of my feelings, sort them, and then try to find a use for them. That’s why writing Beyond Blue contributes a big chunk to my recovery, why moderating Group Beyond Blue has me excited to wake up every day. When you turn your attention to another person–especially someone who is struggling with the same kind of pain–you forget about yourself for a split moment. And let’s face it, that, on some days, feels like a miracle.

13. Write about it.

If you get the feeling your friends are quite over hearing about your emotional affair, try putting your emotions to the page. In an August 2003 issue of Australian Journal of Psychology, University of Texas psychologist James W. Pennebaker summarizes dozens of studies linking expressive writing to improvements in immunity, academic performance, social behavior, and mental health. In a 2003 British Psychological Society study, results indicated that writing about emotions might even speed the healing of physical wounds. If journaling about pain can heal your knee scab, think about what writing might do for your broken heart.


14. Let yourself grieve.

A relationship without sex can be every bit as intense as one involving lingerie. A special connection between two kindred souls needs to be grieved just as a marriage or committed partnership.

In the case of an emotional affair, guilt can impede the grieving process. Since a person feels as though she is wrong to have had these feelings to begin with, she often won’t allow a time of tears and loneliness that are necessary for healing. But just because the relationship happened outside of a committed relationship doesn’t mean the heart isn’t broken and needs some repair work. Also, an emotional affair rarely happens overnight, and neither does recovering from one, which is why you need to be as patient and as gentle with yourself as you would a friend who just ended a primary relationship.



  • Your Name

    Excellent article! So many women (and men, too) look to the internet to find someone to fill a void in their lives. You addressed some really great topics and resources for women who find themselves in this situation.
    I also suggest another book for women, in addition to the really great ones you’ve already mentioned. It’s Ready to Heal by Kelly McDaniel. Kelly is a therapist, writer and speaker. She designed a program called the Relationship Restoration Program in San Antonio, Texas, and she is very active in women’s issues.
    Ready to Heal is truly one of the best books out there for women who find themselves in the spiraling cycle of love, sex, or relationship addiction.

  • @imarriage (Marc)

    Right on key…this is a growing concern with the myriad of social networking avenues via smartphones, online, etc. We simply can’t unplug…
    I believe Kelly was at the http://www.smartmarriage.com conference this year in SFO. I’ve been going to that conf for years and this is definitely a hot topic.
    Marc
    http://www.marriagetweets.com

  • A hurt wife

    Therese,
    Thank you for writing about this today. I am coping with this right now as I discovered my husband has been having an emotional affair with an old flame. You’re absolutely right when you say that an EA can be just as damaging as a sexual affair. We’re deep into counselling to try and mend the broken trust, and to reestablish our lost intimacy. I’m hopeful, but I must admit that I’m wary.

  • http://wow yousayisayweallsay

    I know someone personally that is having an online, chat love affair. I personally see this as a threat when you put time and energy into a smoke scream. There is differently,issues. And above all dangerous. We need to find satisfaction in the arms of Jesus. We hide behind the reason why we feel, whatever and so we react on those feelings and even tell ourselves that it is okay. That is the point FEELINGS. That change, we feel that we have a life of that is boring. We are unsatisfied with whom we are with and what we have.Where as if someone else wishing to have what we have. Feelings— loneliness is how we feel it can be based on a mate not having a mate or having one that is not who they once were.Having a life not having a life. It is that sense of lost. We get lost, we get comfortable, we image what we do compared something or someone to what we have. I love God,and I am thankful for what I have. I could have something else and would be saying LORD WHY ME??? Fill your bucket with Jesus He is always there He want to fulfill your every need and desire.When satisfied with Him you will not look for everyone and every thing to satisfy you and when these feelings occur you can look to God for the answer, and to He fill the void, He will lead you. We cause a lot of our own pain and disappointment. He no what we need, we think we do.

  • So Hard to Let Go

    Letting go has been pure hell. My wisdom and better judgment says redirect all thoughts and feelings away from the affair. Five counselors, months of seperation for 20+ year marriage, a forgiving wife, and still I long for the closeness and intimacy of what I have come to realize is my beloved. My feelings, emotions, and body is a wreck. Love the recovery tips, heard them said in different ways for nearly a year. I am so weak.
    My source for healing is ultimately found within. This is so hard to let go. And in the process I will likely lose my marriage.

  • Bill

    I am deeply involved in an emotional affair . I don’t even know for sure if my”friend” feels the same as me . Which is very scary . She works as a waitress and I see here 4 days a week where she works when have lunch. She did flirt touching when we first met , which has ceased , but she sets down with me for a little while each time I go before I leave . One time she said “I can give you a little time” as she sat down . She hold glances I give here that are more than normal glances , for a little while anyway . To show how trapped I am I enjoy thinking about her and think about her off and on on the 3 days a week I don’t see her . We are both married – I at 53 married 33 years , and she is 40 married 20 years . This article gives me some ideas to get free , but the larger part of me does not want to let go of friend at all . I am beginning to take “risks” in what I say to her . I have asked her to lunch alone away from her work . Did this after she stated at bill pay counter that she wante d to have lunch and she was or acted frustrated that with the holidays she didn’t know when she would have time. She brought up the lunch thing out of nowhere ( I am trying to sort out if it was alluded to that day while having lunch . I was cAught WAY OFF GUARD by this . I called her from my work later that afternoon and told her I would really like going to lunch with her . Her response was , well I’m not sure , sort of cold . I don’t oknow and wonder If I am being manipulated as well as manipulating here myself to make this affair progress . I have , by her request, taken my wife there for lunch . Don’t know what that was all about . I nedd help desperately – Bill

  • Karen

    My daughter has just ended an emotional affair but not after her husband found out about it. She is heartbroken that she has hurt him so much. Not to make excuses, but she craved attention from someone who would say nice things to her which her husband has not done. He grew up in a non-emotional home where both parents are alcoholic. He drinks heavily on the weekend but thinks that is OK because he doesn’t drink during the week. My daughter and granddaughter came to stay with us for a few days and my daughter realized that she belonged home with her husband and loves him. She asked if she could come home and he said no that he had to work through some things.
    My daughter said she is going to fight for her marriage, recommit to God and be the wife and mother God wants her to be.
    She asked her husband today if she could come home and he hesitated showing her that he did not want. She is depressed. It is very hard for me not to say anything. I wish she would just go home anyway and talk to her husband.
    Do you have any advice for my daughter or even for me?

  • needhelpplease

    After a big fallout with my husband of 12 years, I met a sweet guy. We kissed only, and wouldn’t let things go any further. We really clicked. But after the 2nd “date” I told him I couldn’t see him anymore and that I wanted my husband to move back in because of my kids. He was disappointed. We saw each other a few times after that. But then he started pulling back. He said I need to make a decision and that he won’t wreck my marriage. He didn’t want to sneak around. He wanted an actual relationship. He was really decent and didn’t try to take advantage of me at all. I emailed him a goodbye letter saying that I’ve decided to give my marriage a chance and that I wish I still had him as a friend. He replied saying that he’ll always be my friend. Now I send him emails, but he hardly ever responds. I don’t know if he’s sick of me, or if it hurts him to be in touch with me since we can’t see each other anymore. I feel like I need closure but I don’t want to ask him how he felt about me, if he still thinks about me. He ended it kind of abruptly, saying “no matter how he feels about me, things can’t go on the way they are.” He told me on several occasions that I mean a lot to him and stuff like that. Is that true? What reason can he have to lie if he didn’t even try to sleep with me? Now I feel like I’ve been dumped without knowing if he did it for my own good or if he was just sick of me. I keep hoping to hear from him but I don’t. I want to get him out of my mind but it’s so hard. I know I should focus on my marriage and not him. I love my family to death and I have no intention of getting a divorce. But I really wish I knew what this guy is thinking. What do you think? I keep checking my email only to get disappointed each time. I want to just close the account but I don’t know if I’m ready for such a final move. I’m just desparate.

  • Bill

    NeedHelpPlease –
    Firstly know that you are not alone with your heart felt conflict . There must be millions of us – Trapped or recovering. This emotional addiction is insidious and SO damaging . STOP the emailing , as much as it will hurt , as much as all your being cries against it – Stop for your own sanity . I wrote a letter ( the only way I could do it) to my emotional manipulator partner . I told her I was committing head adultery with her and just could not continue as much as I wanted to .
    I fell ” in love” if you will with a woman who knew how to play a man like a harp . She had me so wrapped around her finger , So trapped . I have told my wife what happened and is happening . That for me was the beginning of freedom . Still my EP lives in my head rent free . I never believed in 33 years of marraige anything like this could happen to me – I feel so foolish and so used and so hurt -Hang in there my friend – keep asking for help anyway you know how till you get it
    Bill

  • Danville Girl

    thank you for this, there is often much written for the deceived partner, but not the deceitful (the category I fall into). I am going through this, currently ‘taking some space’ from my emotional affair. It is devastating, I am having great difficulty realizing that it was based on wish and want, rather than reality. Moreso, because what I am feeling now is so painful. I miss him terribly and rely on any scrap of strength I have to not contact him right now.
    Worse, I feel unworthy of my husband. Perhaps I am.

  • Your Name

    I am 33 years old, I have two kids(6 &2). I have been married for a while. we are both professional. Recently I have found out that my husband had an affiar with a rep for about 2 years. She is young and beautiful. Since I have confronted him and going through….I have not seen any more contact with the girl(3 weeks now). He never admited, he said he has seen the girl may be couple of times in the gym. He says I am sensetive and geting crazy. There was nothing, I love you and I never cheated on you. I have lost my trust. No one knows what I am going through. I feel humiliated. I am trying to put everything behind. I can not enjoy anything, kids, food,…I have started taking anti depressent medicine. I am getting worse and worse. Any advice?

  • TJS

    I have been married 14 years. I have known my husband for 21 years. I am one day out of the final night of an emotional affair that had been developing over the past several months and intensified and accelerated over the last few weeks. I am in intense emotional pain from this experience. So is my husband. I have never seen his body shake uncontrollably the way it did the moment he realized what I have been up to. I have gone from several months of euphoria to the shock of my life – being caught sending my unknowingly last email to the man that I had convinced myself was my true love. Eight years ago, we worked together in a separate setting from the current one. We were not well acquainted, but I had feelings for him and I felt a chemistry with him that resulted in my fantasizing that he would kiss me someday. I do not know if he had any feelings towards me at that time. I believe I was just another coworker to him, and we went on with our professionalism, with me keeping my secret wish to myself. That shared work setting ended, and we were not together again until this past year. Over the years, I recalled my little kiss wish every once in a while. My marriage has not been happy for pretty much the duration, both before and after meeting this new man. I would never have thought of seeking out a relationship, however. I just allowed myself to have dreamy thoughts about made up situations to escape the loneliness and sadness of an unfulfilled, unloving, dispassionate marriage. All the while, my husband has been sad, depressed, and feeling rejected by me. His self concept has been crushed, and his sexual desire has gone down hill. He has accused me of not loving him for years. I kept denying it, and convincing myself that I was a good wife, and maybe I just didn’t have a sex drive that matched his. In the recent several months, I have been going through a new stage of confidence in my life. At the age of 39, I feel the most physically attractive that I have ever felt about myself. I am skyrocketing in my abilities at work and endeavors outside of work. I feel like I’m reaching the summit of my life and I am a shining star to those around me. This has drawn in the interest of many men in my immediate circles and outside as well, and a good handful of them have had the confidence to tell me directly how they feel about me. They have enough information about my marital instability that I think they saw a crack in the door and a possible opportunity. It has been overwhelming for me to learn of the attraction they have felt and their forwardness in telling me. They have laced all of their admiration with words that made me think it’s okay. It’s just human nature to have these feelings, and when you love someone, you need to tell them, because life is too short to let those opportunities pass you by. In response, I have gained an extreme amount of confidence and a new feeling of being a sexually desirable woman. I recently had some professional photos taken, and my sister commented that there is something different going on in my eyes and my body in those pictures that she has not seen in me before. Signals of sensual invitation flowing out of me. I have been thoroughly enjoying being this new sexually desirable and desiring being. It has fed my hunger to find what I thought was real, true love. When I read about the definitions and profiles of an emotional affair, I see every single sign of it in my recent relationship. I know it was wrong, and I knew at different intervals during it that it was wrong, but I was so hooked, and I’m still going through withdrawals. I made several comments during the relationship directly to the man that I felt like I was on drugs or intoxicated. Every word he spoke and wrote to me, every time I heard his soft, gentle voice over the phone, every time he would walk around the corner at work, glancing to see if I was in my office, every time I saw the light on in his office as I passed by, every moment he stayed late at work to talk with me, all of this and more, my heart would leap and I would get the most intense buzz from the top of my head, buzzing through my brain, and a hot glow throughout my whole body, making me feel totally aroused and wanting him. I craved at least a kiss from him with such intensity, I thought I would just crawl out of my skin, if I couldn’t have it. I planned and schemed ways to be alone with him and when I got those opportunities, I would try everything I could to entice him into a kiss. He was strong and would never go there, although it took everything in him to hold himself together against it. During all of this, we convinced ourselves that it was healthy, beautiful, a gift, and wonderful real love. He is also lonely in his marriage, but he won’t leave her because his children really need him. I believe he is mentally divorced from her, and he needed this relationship to give him a sense of living again. We both felt that way. We used words like that. Lifeline. Feeling alive again. And, it did feel that way. Apart from each other, we lived in shades of gray. Together, there was sunshine and rainbows, creativity, liveliness, laughing, sparkling eyes, dancing souls. We called ourselves Twin Brains, because we thought and talked so much alike. We commented often about how struck we were by the way we understood each other so naturally. He is a real person who was very real to me. He said I was part of his real life and he writes real songs for me. We shared alot of music. Both writers, both poets, both enjoying music and admiring each other’s talent. But, late on July 9, 2009, I had come home from recording a song made from lyrics he had written to me. It was going to be a surprise for him. He still has no idea that I made his beautiful words into a song, and as much as I still want to share it with him, I’m sure I cannot do that now. I was just about to hit the send button on a message I was sending him. I thought my husband was in bed and was either watching a movie or sleeping. I only needed a few more seconds, and the message would have been sent, then deleted, trash emptied, computer off, and me walking into the bedroom smiling and satisfied, looking forward to the morning and seeing another email from my true love while my husband went off to work. I was even planning a time for a sweet phone call that afternoon. But, fate stepped in, and my husband, with some kind of sixth sense, barged in while my message was still on the screen. He recognized immediately that it was an unfamiliar looking email account, which I had secretly opened a few weeks earlier. I tried to cover it up and demand that he respect my privacy and leave the room while I finished up my business. My world crumbled beneath me, and I knew it was going to be all over. We did not sleep at all the entire night. It was hell. And all the while, I was worried about my ‘love’, who was sleeping peacefully, dreaming about me, and would wake up not knowing what had happened. I dreaded the moment when he would feel the same shock and despair I was going through, and have to start accepting that this was over. I have sent him farewell voice mails, full of apologies and asking forgiveness for my part in this entire situation. I have sent him a farewell email, trying to acknowledge how wonderful I felt throughout our relationship and how much I still value him and wish the best for him. How much it pains me that we cannot do this anymore. He is still a real person with real feelings, and I will always care about him. It is so hard to turn away from him, but I need to put my husband first now, and it’s going to take a lot of work to rebuild. We actually have to start completely over, because our original marriage was not based on a firm foundation. I have to face the reality, that if I could choose all over again, I would not choose him. We are not compatible and I do not naturally desire him, but we have young children, and I have grown into a fuller, more mature woman with an understanding of my own sense of sensuality that I did not have for the f
    irst 14 years of our marriage. I will pour myself into reading anything I can about recovering from an emotional affair and preventing it from happening again. I will seek counseling again, that I hope will be more helpful than previous counseling we have had. Everything within me wants to go back to the feelings I got from the man I fell in love with, but I need to take my time and take the steps I can to repair whatever is going on inside of me that will break down this family. I have lived a life of relatively few issues and I’ve never done anything wrong. I have always had this creeping feeling that someday something big would change my life. When I look at the magnitude of what I’ve done here, and I can admit that it fits into the category of infidelity, I am stunned. For those who are in similar situations, I can say that it does help to start the healing process to distance yourself from the euphoria and look at it for what it is. I want so badly to believe it was good and that it’s okay to seek more of it. But, the repercussions are too dangerous. I want to hold onto every scrap of it, but I will take the time I need to let those things go. Like I said, I’m only a day out of this. Maybe I’ll write more here when more time has passed that might help someone again. For now, I ask anyone who is so inclined, to please pray for me and all who are struggling with this problem. There is healing and forgiveness on the horizon for us all.

  • NMJ

    Thanks TJS for your post. I just recently discovered my wife was having an emotional affair with a friend of mind. It’s crushing… Almost every single word you have written is the exact same situation my wife went through and is going through. Reading your words are like reading a letter from my wife. I know it’s 100% both our fautls for creating a situation for this to happen. Kids, work, limited time makes the internet an easy way to escape… I know there are a lot of lonely married people out there wanted closeness again with someone just to feel alive again. I have learned that an emotinal affair is only the sign of the deeper problem in a marrage. What is so scary is that our marrage has been really good and this still happened. I understand how hard you must work to keep this on the right path all the time (again why the internet make it so easy for this to happen). I know for me I’m crushed because I alwasy thought I was trying my hardest to be a great husband and father… But the biggest miskate for me was not understanding how much a women craves an emotional bond with someone on a daily basis and need attention. If shes not getting the attention from her husband then that only opens the possiblity of getting it from somewhere else… and we all know there are plenty of guys that want to give women attetion. I’m pretty sure will make it but everyday is a struggle to push onto the next. I know I will always battle the thoughts of her wishing she could see him or wishes she was with him. In the future as we have small dissagreements I will think she wants to run to him and talk with him. I do hope that with time her wanting of him will slowly dissappear and our love will grow even stronger and i will be the man she wants to come home to and share her trouble with… Thanks again and I have to say its so weird to read your words… I almost thought my wife had made the post.

  • hurting at work

    I’m hurting deeply right now. My husband has been ill for two years and prior to that I felt happily married and satisfied. But I met a co-worker four years ago and recently began having feelings for him. He admitted to feeling attracted to me and we even went as far as hugging and kissing. But my co-worker admitted that it was just too hard for him to do this to his wife and kids and therefore it needed to stop before it got worse. I know I should feel the same way, but my emotional tank is empty not having my husband as healthy as before. It hurts really bad to see him everyday and know that he tries his best to avoid me and treat me like a friend again. I don’t know what to do. It’s like I’m addicted. I look for any moment to talk to him or run into him. I just hope that this too shall pass.

  • Molly

    What a helpful article, I am contemplating showing this to my husband who was having an emotional affair until August when everything hit the fan. I’m having a lot of trouble grieving and getting over everything (especially lately) and found this in a search to help myself. I am glad to have found this though and maybe I should show my husband who is lately experiencing some sadness and grief and feels bad about those feelings.

  • Confused

    I am a 33 yr old married full-time student with 2 children. Earlier this year our marriage went through what I call a defining moment in which my husband decided that he wanted out and even went as far as saying he hated me and my teenage daughter (not his whom the issue was about).
    Basically the teenager got with the wrong crowd got into trouble at school and he flew off the handle told her to get out the house @ age 12 and all sorts of crazy stuff while I was stunned and did nothing. When I took up for her he went balistic! Prior to all of this he was getting tired I do belive of the responsibilty of having two kids and me being in school full-time which is very demanding. He later told me he was jealous and trying to aid in my failure. I almost dropped out of my fourth semester it was just too much for me but GOD carried me through I cried everyday for about a month and a half and still cry often. It is though we are strangers and I don’t feel fullfilled he talked to me any kinda way prior to this and did not respect the marriage.
    In the mist of all of this I met a guy who is also in a relationship not married though, I am crazy about him this emotional affair has progressed over the past 4 months…I know it is just infactuation, but part of me wonders if there could be more. What am I missing, I know a marriage should not be like mine we aren’t even friends anymore. The trust on my behalf is gone because he wanted to run out on me in a crisis. I always think that he will do it again.
    I am so confused as to what to do now. Its like I want to make it work but I feel nothing anymore, I want the kids to have a family but I want to be happy in the process. He is trying to make the marriage work but I feel I have nothing left to give. I wonder sometimes if it is because of my emotional attachment to the other person. But honestly if I did not have him I don’t think my marriage would have lasted this long because at least he could make me smile for some part of the day.
    I feel so ashamed and awful for my actions, but I also feel that if my husband would have given me more over the past 5 years of marriage maybe I would not have looked elsewhere, prior to this incident I never even looked at my emotional affair in that way he was just a guy I saw on a daily basis, but the pain I felt made him more and more attractive not to mention the attention he gave and still gives. We have discussed intimacy but I don’t wanna even go there I know that would be the worst. Its like I just want out so that I can have time to sort through my feelings.

  • Magical Winds

    Well I am dealing with my former husband walking out of a storybook marriage after 24 years due to a plane accident and depression. He was “working” his way back to me, so I did nothing to “rock the boat” but in the end, he met a drunk and he took me for one heck of a ride. I lost everything! EVERYTHING. no alimony nothing. Left me with gutting our log home and 10 acres and having to sell my roots. Its been allmost 6 years and I am 59 trying to start over. I was a stay at home mom, and can’t compete with the younger job seekers with degress. Just can’t wait til the time comes when I can collect HIS SS and have a decent income and stop living like a gypsy. The economy has really hurt me as far as finding work. I won’t have anything to do with men. I had my greatest love and now I guess the universe has other plans for me. let this be a lesson to all you women…stash some money away. You never know what tomorrow will bring.

  • lauragirl

    NMJ–those first words of advice–the are for AFTER it’s over, and you didn’t say that it was!!!! That is sad and hurtful. I know you are probably the best dad you can be and try to be a great husband. You both can meet once a week and ask her, her feelings…what does she want, her needs, her dreams, and vice-versa. START IMMMEDIATELY AND ASK HER FOR A DATE; I LIKE WEDS, MYSELF. GO SOMEWHERE YOU CAN TALK..MAYBE A EARLY MOVIE FIRST, OR HER FAVORITE…THEN, GO TO A PLACE WHERE YOU CAN ENJOY AND TALK–MAYBE GET A LIL DRINK, FACE EACH OTHER, HOLD HANDS, AND TALK..JUST TALK….LET HER TALK…A LOT….WITHOUT FIXING IT OR INTERUPPTING (IF possible). You absolutely need a marriage counselor–even a rabbi or priest will work…Let her tell u everything shes feeling, dreaming… We have a heavy world going on inside, that needs to get tapped into.. Please start getting help now, trust me, if you value her, AND WORK AT IT- she won’t have to go somewhere else for it..AND I’M BEING BLUNT, CUZ I KNOW. IF YOU DONT DO THE WORK NOW, YOU WILL LOSE HER…ONLY IF DO THE WORK, WILL IT WORK…NOW ITS UP TO YOU, BUDDY..MY BEST WISHES ARE WITH YOU–UR WIFE WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU ALL OVER AGAIN!!! WRITE ME BACK THE GOOD NEWS!!!!!!

  • lauragirl

    re emotional affairs, simply put, folks are somehow really talkative and real over the internet or phone, but if often changes in person…you can fall in love online, of course, but you have to know a person before you truly know. How do you think that they get those poor young girls to meet them?? Be careful…

  • lauragirl

    Ms. Borchard, that was really simple and wonderful advice…I always try to be celebratory, but now I know that the “oatmeal” part is ok. I would say, old sock, but with oatmeal, I’ll think differently. I just found out about your “Pocket Therapist;” Going today to get….great book…your’e wonderful–thanks for helping..Happy Valentine’s Week…..Laura

  • marie

    Therese, I think it’s so important to DISCOURAGE impure thoughts…!
    Matthew 5:27-28) 27 “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery;’
    28 but I tell you that everyone who gazes at a woman to lust after her has committed adultery with her already in his heart.
    In the area of purity, banishing thoughts (replacing them with other thoughts) is absolutely the only way to AVOID A SIN. We can’t help impure thoughts that pop into our heads… but to deliberately entertaining them (which is what you are advocating) is A SIN and would certainly (due to the nature of sexuality) increase the odds of more and more obsessive thoughts in this area.
    I loved the other suggestions, and I appreciate your tackling this extremely important subject.

  • ME

    Emotional affairs and actual affairs happen when a relationship is dying. NO one comes into a marriage thinking we will go into another. Humans are humans and sometimes life directs you to survive. I have met woman who are having actual affairs and when questioned says they avoided a suicide because of it and hence are willing to accept the guilt associated with it. It is wrong and really wrong but circumstances causes it. Nobody is bad all over, the good or bad in us come out based on what your life is dishing out for you.

  • LDgirly

    HI. Good advice, but how do you end the relationship? I know it is wrong, but I like chating with him online. I would never meet him and take it further.

  • Sabrina

    You touched all the bases here and did a thorough and compassionate job of addressing this very important subject. As a narrative therapist, I see the Internet and emotional affairs affecting so many of my clients’ lives, and as a woman who has lived a complex life myself, I understand from personal life experience the intensity and complexity of these relationships.
    Thank you! I will refer to your article again, I am sure!

  • Suzanne

    My husband and I are getting a divorce. Two years ago I found him on dating sites. It broke my heart in half when I saw what he was writting to these women. He even wrote about our little girl, he just did not say he was married. To this day he will not admit it. Says someone just played a joke. I know for a fact not one of his friends would ever do that. Plus our credit card was used for true.com. Two years I tried but you can not heal if it is one sided. Emotional affairs hurt.

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    I’m dealing with all the above right at this moment. E-mails were found and read…..I feel so foolish and I agree it is a DRUG, a HIGH that you crave. I guess you could say I am in withdrawal now and it’s very painful but the pain I caused was a real wake up to the reality and seriousness of this which I really thought was a little harmless fun.

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    I am going through this now,I have been having an emotional affair for 11 months,I love him,but can’t destroy my family,It hurts like hell,We speak at least 3-4 times a day,He lives 4000 miles away.Everyday I try to stop,but am to weak.I wish I had never started this.I dont know what to do..

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    lover looking for some one to love you, bring back lost money and magic
    money spell or spell for a good job.i’m now happy & a living
    testimony cos the man i had wanted to marry left me 3 weeks before our
    wedding and my life was upside down cos our relationship has been on for
    2 years… i really loved him, but his mother was against me and he had
    no good paying job. so when i met this spell caster, i told him what
    happened and explained the situation of things to him..at first i was
    undecided,skeptical and doubtful, but i just gave it a try. and in 6
    days when i returned to New York, my boyfriend (is now my husband ) he
    called me by himself and came to me apologizing that everything had been
    settled with his mom and family and he got a new job interview so we
    should get married..i didn’t believe it cos the spell caster only asked
    for my name and my boyfriends name and all i wanted him to do… well we
    are happily married now and we are expecting our little kid,and my
    husband also got a new job and our lives became much better. in case
    anyone needs the spell caster for some help, email
    drogudospelltemple@gmail.com you can see what he can do and i believe
    that he can do so four you tooo

  • Beto Alenjradro

    My name Lucia (Ohio, USA) i want to give thanks and i will always give thanks to Dr DAGAMA who brought back my love that has left me for 6years within 48hours, i have said about this last week but i promised to always tell people about this every week end so that those that did not read about it last will read about it this week, i have been looking for how to get this boy back to my life because i love this boy with the whole of my heart, i could not replace him with any body,one day i was watching my television when i saw a lady giving thanks to Dr DAGAMA and telling the world how he helped her i was so shocked i could not believe it because i never taught that there are powers that can bring back lost love, then that was how i decided to contact him too because i do really need my love back,when i contacted him i told him everything and he told me not to worry that my love will surely be back to my arms within 48hours at first i could not believe because i was thinking how could somebody that has gone for 6years come back within 48 hours,so then i decided to watch and see,unbelievable within the next 48hours i got a call from unknown number so i decided to pick the call the next thing i could hear was my loves voice he was pleading and begging me on the phone that i should forgive him that i should forget all that have happened that he did not know what came over him,he promised not to leave for any reason, that he was really sorry for what he did,i was so surprised because i never believed that this could happen,so that was how i accepted his apology and the next morning he came to my house and still pleading for me to forgive him i told him that everything is okay that i have forgiven him, that was how we started again and now we are married, i promised to say this testimony in radio station, commenting this testimony is still okay but before this month runs out i promise to say this in radio station and i will,sir thank you very much.World please am begging you people to try and thank this man for me,or if you need his help here is his email address: drdagamalovespelltemple@gmail.com

  • http://bravespellcaster.yolasite.com/ Jeffrey Dowling

    My name is Jeffrey Dowling, i live and work in Oxford shire, UK. My life is back!!! After 2 years of Broken marriage, my husband left me with two kids, I felt like ending it all, i almost committed suicide because he left us with nothing, i was emotionally down all this while. Thanks to a spell caster called Dr. oyinbo of Ultimate spell cast which i met online. On one faithful day, as I was browsing through the internet, I came across several of testimonies about this particular spell caster. Some people testified that he brought their Ex lover back, some testified that he restores womb,cure cancer,and other sickness, some testified that he can cast a spell to stop divorce and also spell to get a good paid job so on. He is amazing, i also come across one particular testimony, it was about a woman called Vera, she testified about how he brought back her Ex lover in less than 2 days, and at the end of her testimony she dropped his email.After reading all these, I decided to give it a try. I contacted him via email and explained my problem to him. In just 48hours, my husband came back to me. We resolved our issues, and we are even happier than ever.Dr.oyinbo you are a gifted man and i will not stop publishing him because he is a wonderful man. If you have a problem and you are looking for a real and genuine spell caster, Try him anytime, he is the answer to your problems. you can contact him on ( prophetoyinbojesus@yahoo.com or prophetoyinbojesus@yahoo.com) or call him +2348074066640. he is the best caster that can help you with your problems.

  • hope mary

    Hello to every one i want to testify of what a spell caster has done for me,i was in a

    relationship for two years happy with my partner few months to our wedding he left me and

    went after another woman he never came back home again,i cry all day looking for help i

    have contacted so many spell caster but no result one day i was on the internet when i

    came across a testimony on how Dr hope helped some one to get back his lover so i gave a

    try and it work out for me am so happy to have my lover back to my self again thanks once

    again Dr hope for helping me to bring back my lover if you are passing through the same

    problem or any kind of situation and you think all hope is lost my dear is not.contact Dr

    hope on his email : drhopesolution@gmail.com

  • Jones Nicole

    My life is back!!! After 5years of marriage, my husband left me and left me with our two kids. I felt like my life was about to end, and was falling apart. I was confuse and dont no what to do anymore and i decided to look for help on the Net and i saw so many comment of Dr Shiva on how he help them to get their husband back and i also contacted Dr. Shiva on his email: (reunitingexspell2@gmail.com) and after I explained to him all my problem. He cast a love spell for me which i use In just 2days, my husband came back to me and show me and my kids much love and apologize for all the pain he have bring to the family. We solved our issues, and we are even happier than before.He is the best spell caster Dr. Shiva, i really appreciate the love spell you cast for me to get the man i ever loved back in my life i will keep sharing more testimonies to people about your good work. Thank you once again in case you are in any problem with your relationship,you can contact this man for help he is always there in his temple to help you solve your problem contact him today with his email address reunitingexspell@yahoo.com

  • http://bravespellcaster.yolasite.com/ Jeffrey Dowling

    My name is Jeffrey Dowling, i live and work in Oxford shire, UK. My life is back!!! After 2 years of Broken marriage, my husband left me with two kids, I felt like ending it all, i almost committed suicide because he left us with nothing, i was emotionally down all this while. Thanks to a spell caster called Dr. oyinbo of Ultimate spell cast which i met online. On one faithful day, as I was browsing through the internet, I came across several of testimonies about this particular spell caster. Some people testified that he brought their Ex lover back, some testified that he restores womb,cure cancer,and other sickness, some testified that he can cast a spell to stop divorce and also spell to get a good paid job so on. He is amazing, i also come across one particular testimony, it was about a woman called Vera, she testified about how he brought back her Ex lover in less than 2 days, and at the end of her testimony she dropped his email.After reading all these, I decided to give it a try. I contacted him via email and explained my problem to him. In just 48hours, my husband came back to me. We resolved our issues, and we are even happier than ever.Dr.oyinbo you are a gifted man and i will not stop publishing him because he is a wonderful man. If you have a problem and you are looking for a real and genuine spell caster, Try him anytime, he is the answer to your problems. you can contact him on ( prophetoyinbojesus@yahoo.com or prophetoyinbojesus@yahoo.com) or call him +2348074066640. he is the best caster that can help you with your problems.

  • Don Dressel

    First of all these so called spell casters as you call them are all bullshit! You all are in denial! As far as my life goes my wife had an emotional affair on-line and it turned out to be a scammer! She lost a lot of money and felt sorry for herself because there was no man and left me broken hearted and empty! I am very angry with her but I keep it to myself and am dealing with it by losing a lot of weight and working out everyday! LAife goes on I just wish my wife had more empathy for me!

  • Sevda Gulea

    Have been all over looking for solution to my Marriage until i tried out the internet, I found Dr. Zexta Gio whom people talked about and shared good testimonies about him, My Husband has decide to leave our marriage, because he said he can’t stand my mom, But i love my Husband so much that i can let him leave after 8years of marriage. So the Dr. Zexta Gio did changed the whole problems and issue to testimony, He did a spell to calm and reconcile my mom and my Husband and then carryout a spell to make my husband love me more and remain in our marriage. I saw results after 2days and to be frank and sincere, this Dr. Zexta Gio is a God sent. My family is as peaceful and lovely as i asked for. I’m grateful friends in case you need the help of Dr. Zexta Gio kindly mail him on (airehobhuanuagbontemple@yahoo.com). Sir, i will forever recommend you all over the world.

  • Howard Ella

    .My name is HOWARD ELLA, and I base in CALIFORNIA, USA…My life is back!!! After 5 months of Broken marriage, my husband left me with two kids . I felt like my life was about to end i almost committed suicide, i was emotionally down for a very long time. Thanks to a spell caster called DR. TAJU which i met online. On one faithful day, as I was browsing through the Internet,I came across allot of testimonies about this particular spell caster. Some people testified that he brought their Ex lover back, some testified that he restores womb,cure cancer,and other sickness, some testified that he can cast a spell to stop divorce and so on. i also come across one particular testimony,it was about a woman called BECKY ,she testified about how he brought back her Ex lover in less than 2 days, and at the end of her testimony she dropped DR. TAJU’s e-mail address. After reading all these,I decided to give it a try. I contacted him via email and explained my problem to him. In just 48 hours, my husband came back to me. We solved our issues, and we are even happier than before DR. TAJU, is really a gifted man and i will not stop publishing him because he is a wonderful man… If you have a problem and you are looking for a real and genuine spell caster to solve all your problems for you contact drtajulovespellhome@gmail.com anytime, he is the answer to your problems. Here’s his contact: drtajulovespellhome@gmail.com or contact him through his website http://drtajulovespellhome.webs.com/ . you can also contact him through his mobile number +2348110496031
    You can also read my testimony on my blogger site: http://howardella.blogspot.com..

  • davisha

    i want to use this medium to testify of how i got back my ex boyfriend. After 8 years in relationship with my husband with 3 kids, he suddenly started going out with other ladies and coming home late, most at times drunk and each time i confront him about this it turns out to be fight, he even threatened to divorce me severally, I was emotionally devastated because i was not sure of what to do to make him love me again, I tried all i could to make him love me again but all proved abortive until i saw a post on the internet on how a spell caster Dr. Zaki helps people restore back their broken relationship/marriage at first i doubted this but decided to give it a try, when i contacted this spell caster via email he helped me cast a re-union spell and within 5hours my husband came to me apologizing and today we are happily together again. Contact this great spell caster on your marriage and relationship problems at dr.zakispellhome@gmail.com thanks

  • Khedra B Graham

    Hello everyone i want to share a live testimony on how Dr Alex was able to bring my husband back to me, myself and my husband were on a serious breakup, even before then we were always quarreling fighting and doing different ungodly act..
    My husband packed his things out of the house and we had to live in different area, despite all this i was looking for a way to re_unite with my husband, not until i met Dr Alex the great spell caster who was able to bring my husband back home, Dr Alex cast a love spell for me, and after some time i started seen results about the spell….
    Today my family is back again and we are happy living fine and healthy, with Dr Alex all my dream came through in re_uniting my marriage, friends in case you need the help of Dr Alex kindly mail him on( solutionhelpcentre@gmail.com ) or call him on +2347036013351, Sir i will forever recommend you!!

  • Luis Mary

    After being in relationship with Wilson for seven years,he broke up with
    me, I did everything possible to bring him back but all was in vain, I
    wanted him back so much because of the love I have for him, I begged him
    with everything, I made promises but he refused. I explained my problem
    to someone online and she suggested that I should contact a spell
    caster that could help me cast a spell to bring him back but I am the
    type that don’t believed in spell, I had no choice than to try it, I
    meant a spell caster called EZE MALAKA and I email him, and he told me
    there was no problem that everything will be okay before three days,
    that my ex will return to me before three days, he cast the spell and
    surprisingly in the second day, it was around 4pm. My ex called me, I
    was so surprised, I answered the call and all he said was that he was so
    sorry for everything that happened, that he wanted me to return to him,
    that he loves me so much. I was so happy and went to him, that was how
    we started living together happily again. Since then, I have made
    promise that anybody I know that have a relationship problem, I would be
    of help to such person by referring him or her to the only real and
    powerful spell caster who helped me with my own problem and who is
    different from all the fake ones out there. Anybody could need the help
    of the spell caster, his email: extremewhitelovespell@yahoo. com
    you can email him if you need his assistance in your relationship or
    anything. CAN NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT YOU SIR HIS WEBSITE ADDRESS is http://extremewhitelovespell.webs.com CONTACT HIM NOW FOR SOLUTION TO ALL YOUR PROBLEMS

  • eriannamoric

    My lover dumped me for any another woman he met on the internet on a dating site, and we separated with my two son after 8 years of marriage, and also i really love him, so i contacted Doctor Akim for a love spell to get my Husband back, to my greatest surprise he cast a love binding spell to get him back for me and my lover came back after 48 hours. i will advice you anyone looking for any kind of spell should contact Doctor Akin via email address: { amormedico@hotmail.com }

    From: Ontario

    Name : Erianna Moric

  • LYDIA E MILL

    After being in relationship with him for 3 years, he broke up with me, I did everything possible to bring him back but all was in vain, I wanted him back so much because of the love I have for him, I begged him with everything, I made promises but he refused. I explained my problem to someone online and she suggested that I should rather contact a spell caster that could help me cast a spell to bring him back but I am the type that never believed in spell, I had no choice than to try it, I mailed the spell caster, and he told me there was no problem that everything will be okay before three days, that my ex will return to me before three days, he cast the spell and surprisingly in the second day, it was around 4pm. My ex called me, I was so surprised, I answered the call and all he said was that he was so sorry for everything that happened, that he wanted me to return to him, that he loves me so much. I was so happy and went to him, that was how we started living together happily again. Since then, I have made promise that anybody I know that have a relationship problem, I would be of help to such person by referring him or her to the only real and powerful spell caster who helped me with my own problem and who is different from all the fake ones out there. Anybody could need the help of the spell caster, his email is DRAISEDIONSPELLCASTER@GMAIL.COM you can email him if you need his assistance in your relationship or any other problem.

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