A Christian Mom Makes a Bar Mitzvah

I've realized that helping my son become a better Jew has helped me draw closer to my Christian faith.

BY: Amy Cunningham


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Come third grade, our eldest was attending Hebrew school four hours a week on two separate days, a routine that seemed grueling sometimes, but necessary, since learning Hebrew takes time. As bar mitzvah prep, he currently studies privately with the synagogue's cantor, and sits still for another two hours of Jewish studies class. He has dropped other extracurricular activities for this. 


Yes, there were times when I disliked the commute to Hebrew school, and yes, my son sometimes protested the whole way. Occasionally, I even felt that the pressure of turning the boys into Jews was too much, since as a non-Jew I was the one doing all the driving to Hebrew school, getting more face time with Hebrew school teachers, working Purim fairs, and more. My husband had given them early Jewish homeschooling. When it was time to teach them Hebrew, a language he hadn't studied since his own bar mitzvah, he gracefully phased out.


But as we get closer to the bar mitzvah, I see that all the effort was well worth it: Something rare and beautiful has been engendered in the hearts of both my children by their Jewish studies. I like it that Jewish children seem commanded from the cradle to be excellent students, outstanding citizens, leaders in whatever field they choose to pursue, spiritually guided by the scriptures of the Tanakh, or Old Testament. Our temple, like many others, also requires bar and bat mitzvah kids to perform service projects as part of their mitzvoth. In the predominantly Protestant Chicago suburb where I grew up, there was no such coming-of-age ritual (we didn’t have confirmations). There was no service project, no moment of leadership, and a lot of the kids, boys especially, seemed to be riding a druggy, downward spiral.  


My husband has bad memories of the flamboyant bar mitzvah parties affluent Jewish families gave their kids back in the 1970s, and still throw—with even greater abandon—now. I am free of these images. But my attraction to things festive and theatrical has led to the only conflict we’ve weathered as we plan our son’s bar mitzvah and celebration. Here it is: I feel it would be tremendously meaningful for two Jewish folk/Klezmer musicians (on violin and mandolin) to accompany the synagogue's pianist at the bar mitzvah service and ensuing Kiddush (snack after the service). The expense of this seems immaterial. My husband is turned off by this idea, fearing that it will mirror the ostentatious quality of those travesties of his Long Island childhood. "This is not a wedding," he reminded me. "It's just supposed to be the normal Saturday service." But I love Jewish folk music intensely. I am moved by its sincerity. It opens the heart. So is wanting it at the service obnoxious? Is it Christian of me to desire it? (That J.S. Bach was such a showman!) My husband loves folk music too, but seems a trifle embarrassed by the extra jolt we’re apt to get. So while I’m excited about the prospect, I am now a little self-conscious. Am I bringing too much Martha Stewart to the service, and not enough shtetl?   


Beyond the musicians, I really don’t feel there’s any need for me to inject myself into the bar mitzvah’s content. This is not my day, after all. It’s my son’s! But when we heard of the Asian father of a bar mitzvah boy who ordered Thai silk yarmulkes to represent his side of the family at the ceremony, Steve worried I wasn’t including myself enough.


But something has occurred that will beautifully unite our mixed-faith family before the assembled congregation: Our son’s Torah portion, which will be studied in every Jewish temple in the world that week, contains one of the greatest prayers in all monotheism. My son will read Numbers 6: 24-26, the famous closing benediction uttered not only by rabbis everywhere, but also by my own childhood Presbyterian minister after every single Sunday service. The passage gives me as many goosebumps today as it did when I was a child. 


The Lord bless you
and keep you
The Lord make His face
to shine upon you
and be gracious unto you
The Lord lift up His
countenance upon you
and give you Peace.


"So I can say in my bar mitzvah speech that this prayer is part of my mom’s tradition as well as my dad’s," our son said over pizza recently, quick to intuit what I was thinking.


Yes. We share the same heavenly source. He becomes a better Jew as I draw closer to my Christian faith. We can contain it all.


And when the doors of the temple ark open before our son, when he chants his passage from the hand-inscribed scroll, I know he will be beautiful, and of course, I will be kvelling. I’ll cry! The little baby who once needed me for everything doesn’t need me as much. My involvement from here on will not lessen, but it will change. As a teen, he’s going to yell and slam some doors, but if we’re alert and can take it all in this May 26, we can build on the memory of how it felt to stand before the Torah scrolls, bridging two faiths. We’ll never forget just how much light there was up there to absorb.


Strange, isn't it? If I'd had Christian kids, I would have longed for them to have what my Jewish son is soon to experience. I feel blessed beyond measure.  

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