In the Here and Now
Forgiveness and self-acceptance are part of the practice of being in the moment.
BY: Lama Surya Das
How can I forgive and accept myself? I have a lot of things in me that I despise, regret, and wish I could have done differently.
Forgiveness does not mean forgetfulness. I often counsel my Buddhist students not to forgive and forget, but to forgive and remember. This will help us to open our Buddha-like heart and mind; find inner peace, contentment, and self-acceptance; and learn to love life much more fully, just as it is.
Who is it hardest for you to forgive? If you would scrutinize your heart and psyche, would you find a list of people and things you have difficulty putting behind you? You might want to consider working on this sometime as part of your ongoing "higher education" or spiritual evolution.
Each resentment we harbor or grudge we bear is like extra baggage we carry around day after day--long after those who have wronged us are gone from our lives. It is in our own higher self-interest to be able to release some of those burdens.
Too often our deepest pockets of hurt and self-loathing are directed at ourselves. In order to start the process of forgiveness, we need to begin by being willing to make friends with ourselves; to do so, we must cultivate a soft, kindly, gentle and spacious, accepting, non-judgemental attitude. When we practice lovingkindness and compassion meditation in the Buddhist tradition, we begin seeing ourselves as we are and generating benevolent, generous, well-wishing thoughts towards ourselves, without trying to change or improve anything; only then do we start to spread those warm feelings out to others, in ever-widening concentric circles.