{"id":560,"date":"2011-03-10T13:10:19","date_gmt":"2011-03-10T13:10:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.beliefnet.com\/thinplaces\/2011\/03\/perfectly-human-playing-with-trucks-by-rabbi-margot-stein.html"},"modified":"2011-03-10T13:10:19","modified_gmt":"2011-03-10T13:10:19","slug":"perfectly-human-playing-with-trucks-by-rabbi-margot-stein","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.beliefnet.com\/columnists\/thinplaces\/2011\/03\/perfectly-human-playing-with-trucks-by-rabbi-margot-stein.html","title":{"rendered":"Perfectly Human: Playing with Trucks by Rabbi Margot Stein"},"content":{"rendered":"


\n\"buddysteintruck1.jpg\"<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n

In our house, we are both rabbis. <\/span>We knew we would soon be called to minister to our colleague
\nand friend S, who had struggled for months to live fully despite her cancer. <\/p>\n

The call came at 6 am: <\/span>S had finally taken her last, labored breaths with her two grown
\ndaughters by her bedside. <\/span>One of
\nus attended to the bereaved on the phone while the other (me) distracted Buddy,
\nour 9 year-old son with autism. <\/span>A
\nperpetual early riser, Buddy was already watching his treasured YouTube videos
\nof basketball players. <\/span>He can
\nwatch the same videos over and over. <\/span>He seems just as excited to watch the same clips of the Lakers on this
\nmorning as two weeks ago and two months ago  <\/span>For the millionth time, I find myself wishing for his
\ndevelopmental progress. <\/span>I yearn
\nfor his mind to awaken to more than sports and trucks.<\/p>\n

When Buddy heard the phone ring, he immediately began
\npeppering me with questions. <\/span><\/p>\n

I’m not going to lie to him.  <\/span>Even if he doesn’t understand what is going on, he is going
\nto hear all the planning and be affected by his parents’ sudden absence over
\nthe next few days.  <\/span><\/p>\n

“S died,” I told him, simply.  <\/span>I waited for his reaction. <\/span><\/p>\n

“Where did she die?” he wanted to know.<\/p>\n

“At home.  <\/span>In
\nher bed.”<\/p>\n

“Why did she die?”<\/p>\n

“She was very sick. 
\n<\/span>Her body wasn’t strong any more. 
\n<\/span>It was her time to go.” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Is she sad?” <\/span><\/p>\n

“No, honey, she is not sad.  <\/span>Her family is sad. 
\n<\/span>They miss her already.  <\/span>But
\nshe is not sad.” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Why isn’t she sad?” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Because she isn’t in her body any more.  <\/span>She is going back to God.”<\/p>\n

 <\/span>“Are you going
\nback to God?” <\/span><\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

<\/p>\n

“Well, one day I will.”  <\/span>I thought this might make him afraid, so I added,  <\/span>“But not any time soon.  <\/span>I hope not until I’m really old.” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Was S old?”<\/p>\n

“No, she wasn’t old. Well, maybe you’ll think she was old.  <\/span>She was almost 60.” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Sixteen?” he asked.  <\/span>I suppressed a smile, wondering if he thought 16 was old.  <\/span>Wondering if 16 was any different to him than 60.  <\/span>Wondering if he will ever learn to tell time to the minute, ever comprehend the meaning of the numbers on a clock.<\/p>\n

“No, not sixteen.  <\/span>Sixty.  <\/span>But lots of people live way past that.  <\/span>She died too young.” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Why did she die young?” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Because her body was sick.”<\/p>\n

“Where is her body now?” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Still at the house.  <\/span>The funeral home directors are coming soon.  <\/span>They will take her body back to the funeral home so mommy and some other people can get it ready for burial.” <\/span><\/p>\n

Apparently finished, he looks around the playroom.<\/p>\n

“What should we play now?” <\/span><\/p>\n

Well, that was that, I thought.  <\/span>Time to move on.  <\/span>“What do you want to play?” <\/span><\/p>\n

“Trucks.”<\/p>\n

No surprise there.  <\/span>Day in and day out, one of the features of autism is this frustrating repetitive play.  <\/span>For our son, only the tiniest of variations are allowed in the type of truck.  <\/span>I have spent countless hours pretending to move around gardening trucks, trash trucks, recycling trucks.  <\/span>Construction trucks, tree mulching trucks.  <\/span>I can only expect rebuff if I suggest trains, planes or automobiles. <\/span><\/p>\n

I sighed, thinking it way too early in what was surely going to be a difficult day to be trapped in the same old truck stories. <\/span><\/p>\n

“What kind of trucks?” I ask, summoning patience.<\/p>\n

Thoughtfully, he replies, “This truck is for the funeral director.  <\/span>He is coming to take away the dead body.”<\/p>\n

Not for the first time, my son takes my breath away.<\/p>\n

Rabbi Margot Stein works with special needs kids and their families to create meaningful life cycle ceremonies.  <\/span>rabbimargot@booktobimah.com<\/span><\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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