First of all, I don’t have multiple personalities, but we all have different aspects that sometimes seem to fade away over time.\u00a0\u00a0 Maybe you have had a Petty Betty inside yourself too?<\/p>\n
I noticed myself being petty about something for a moment yesterday and I didn’t like it. Listen, I own my inner bitch, which really is just my inner warrior, truth speaker. She’s sassy and doesn’t take any crap from anyone. She’s funny also, with her ‘tude which is a loving snarky at times. (Like to the kids…”Did you really just do that?”\u00a0 Or a look of the eyes when I know the one is about the clobber the other one.\u00a0 I have five kids, three boys in the middle, that like to wrestle…OFTEN!)\u00a0 She has to yell into room to get them to knock it off.\u00a0 She’s very Jersey.\u00a0 She means well though. She is a real champion for women and children especially.\u00a0 She calls it like she sees it.\u00a0 She is not afraid to get involved in a situation when she sees bad behavior.\u00a0 She gets mad at injustices and has a hard time when life isn’t fair to others.\u00a0 She earned me all sorts of nicknames\u00a0when she\u00a0helped me\u00a0yell at a teenager\u00a0last summer when he had a\u00a0seagull by the neck, until he let it go.\u00a0 The bird was fine.\u00a0 The boy’s ego was bruised as I did this in front of his friends.\u00a0 This gal I’d call Sassy Lassie.<\/p>\n
This was different. This was the mean girl who used to bully me daily with negative self-talk and wanted me to hold grudges all the time. This inner mean girl was always judgemental to everyone. It’s been forever since I’ve seen her. She was trying to get me to be annoyed about something and was spinning down nasty thoughts about another person and causing this separation\/competition kinda thing. I don’t play that. I do equals. So I was like…”Hi, how ya been? Did you do something different with your hair? It’s been a while since I’ve seen you. Things have changed since you’ve been around. Love dwells here. So stop stressing about whether you are good enough. You are, honey. No need for the negative vibes. You’re gonna be okay. I gave her a hug, without any judgement, just sent love to that aspect of my shadow side…and POOF! She was gone again. It was like she was never there.\u00a0 Petty Betty\u00a0doesn’t like us anymore.\u00a0 It isn’t a suitable environment.\u00a0 My head is ruled by intention now.\u00a0 I live on purpose.\u00a0 She can see I’m not weak anymore.<\/p>\n
I reflected. Petty Betty used to rule the roost often. I was unhappy and mean girl would tell me I was fat, a bad mom, not a good person, and that things would never get better…that I didn’t deserve them. Then she’d flip, like a hormonal teenager and she’d be on my side, but try and make me mad at everyone else. She had a scorecard on everyone and would fight me when I wanted to forgive someone. She’d keep bringing up what others did wrong and egged me on to argue with them.\u00a0 She loved to get me into an argument, wanted my feelings hurt so I could defend myself and have to make others wrong.\u00a0 She fed on this.\u00a0 She LOVED when I’d gossip about someone, recounting why I was a victim in a situation.\u00a0 She wanted me to be mad if others didn’t agree with me or be friends with someone I wasn’t.\u00a0 Another check mark next to a name on her score card.<\/p>\n
This is when I thought my “thoughts” were me, that they were in charge. I read about the Law of Attraction and started to question how I had been doing things. No matter what I read though, I couldn’t integrate it. I wanted ideas to transform me from the paper, like as if from osmosis. I thought teachers had the secrets to fix me.
\nI untangled my own web of thoughts as I became aware of what they were. I replaced them.\u00a0\u00a0 I burned her score card in my mind.\u00a0 Every day, I chose me.\u00a0 I\u00a0set my own vibe.\u00a0 This new attitude over a certain amount of years has gotten me more nicknames, one of which is “Susie Sunshine.”\u00a0Petty Betty rolls her eyes at this one. . .making a gagging face.\u00a0\u00a0I transformed my life through my thoughts, when I realized I had the power.\u00a0 \u00a0 We don’t realize our potential, until we try to make a change and get past the hard part.\u00a0 Sometimes the chrysalis stage, where you’re in your cocoon, feels like it lasts forever.\u00a0 Trust the process.\u00a0 Don’t worry how long it takes.<\/p>\n
Eventually I realized I was no longer a caterpillar. Flying around with my colorful wings is\u00a0much more\u00a0fun.\u00a0 I’m free to be me, without all the drama.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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