{"id":523,"date":"2006-09-22T06:00:00","date_gmt":"2006-09-22T06:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.beliefnet.com\/jazztheologian\/2006\/09\/time-to-confess.html"},"modified":"2006-09-22T06:00:00","modified_gmt":"2006-09-22T06:00:00","slug":"time-to-confess","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.beliefnet.com\/columnists\/jazztheologian\/2006\/09\/time-to-confess.html","title":{"rendered":"time to confess"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m a compartmentalizer.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/jazztheologian.typepad.com\/.shared\/image.html?\/photos\/uncategorized\/dual.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" height=\"235\" alt=\"Dual\" src=\"https:\/\/jazztheologian.typepad.com\/findingthegroove\/images\/dual.jpg\" width=\"200\" border=\"0\" \/><\/a> <\/p>\n<p>I know I&#8217;m not unique when it comes to this inadequate way of being. It shows up in so many ways.&nbsp; Why do I hide my weaknesses?&nbsp; Why do I have to think things through in one setting before I share them in another?&nbsp; <span style=\"font-size: 1.2em\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.jazztheologian.typepad.com\/improvisus\/\">Why do I have two blogs?<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<p>Who am I?&nbsp; My answer depends on the time of day, where I am, what I am thinking, what I am unwilling to admit that I think.&nbsp; Why am I not willing to tell strangers that I am a pastor?&nbsp; Sometimes when I meet people, I so much want to be someone else.&nbsp; I&#8217;m a writer, a teacher, a father, husband&#8230;&nbsp; Why can&#8217;t I be wholly me?<\/p>\n<p>Who am I?&nbsp; It&#8217;s such a difficult question and yet it shouldn&#8217;t be.&nbsp; I&#8217;m grateful for a conversation that I had with a friend yesterday about authenticity and doing life deeply with people.&nbsp; <\/p>\n<p>Isn&#8217;t that why we love Bonhoeffer&#8217;s poem <a href=\"http:\/\/www.religion-online.org\/showarticle.asp?title=385\">&quot;Who am I?&quot;<\/a>&nbsp; &nbsp;Isn&#8217;t that why we resonate with Romans 7 &amp; 8?&nbsp; Because we desire to admit the paradoxes of what we say we believe and what we do&#8211;what we are thinking now verses an hour ago&#8211;the tensions that we are.&nbsp; What would it look like to truly claim who we are fully?<\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s why I love about Coltrane&#8211;he was a &quot;combiner.&quot;&nbsp; His struggle with drugs and his desire for the transcendant were one and the same and he brought them together in a third place&#8211;his music. 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It shows up in so many ways.&nbsp; Why do I hide my weaknesses?&nbsp; Why do I have to think things through in one setting before I share them in another?&nbsp; Why do I have two blogs?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":79,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-523","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-misc"],"yoast_head":"<!-- This site is optimized with the Yoast SEO plugin v23.9 - https:\/\/yoast.com\/wordpress\/plugins\/seo\/ -->\n<title>time to confess - The Jazz Theologian<\/title>\n<meta name=\"robots\" content=\"index, follow, max-snippet:-1, max-image-preview:large, max-video-preview:-1\" \/>\n<link rel=\"canonical\" href=\"https:\/\/www.beliefnet.com\/columnists\/jazztheologian\/2006\/09\/time-to-confess.html\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:locale\" content=\"en_US\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:type\" content=\"article\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:title\" content=\"time to confess - The Jazz Theologian\" \/>\n<meta property=\"og:description\" content=\"I&#8217;m a compartmentalizer.&nbsp; I know I&#8217;m not unique when it comes to this inadequate way of being. 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Author of Finding the Groove: Composing a Jazz-Shaped Faith (Zondervan) and the upcoming, Strange Fruit: The Cross as a Way of Life (2011). Founder of Project 127, a ministry dedicated to seeing the day when there are no children waiting for homes in Colorado's foster care system. Robert deeply desires to see the body of Christ mobilized to serve the least of these. The poor, the down and out, the disenfranchised and disabled, those deemed unimportant and the unborn. He believes that God loves all people yet he has a special heart for the poor and the poor in spirit, the miserable and the marginalized. A Contributing Editor for Leadership Journal and Urbanfaith.com. He acquired a B.A. in Bibilcal Studies from Colorado Christian University and a Master of Arts in World Christianity (Missiology) from Denver Seminary. Robert is married to the love of his life, Barbara, and they have six energetic children (3 boys &amp; 3 girls--one bio, five adopted--two from Ethiopia). 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