I hate that so many of my posts are meta-posts. It was less than 6 months ago I was reflecting on where we had come from and updating my website with this as a regular feature. Yet here we are again, and what I feel pressed to write about is my own writing. <\/p>\n
Screw it, says I I\u2019m pretty much the only person who reads this thing anyway right? RIGHT? I\u2019m not doing this for ad revenue. I\u2019m doing this to process my emotions. And right now my emotions are questioning the future of this venue. <\/p>\n
\u201dFear of Whales\u201d was started by a college kid who was discerning his place in the world with a call into ministry despite serious concerns and misgivings about that career. It was a way for me to reflect upon my life as a person who didn\u2019t want to be called, but was going to try to go anyway. \u201cFear of Whales\u201d was about my path to ministry, and the ideas I had on the way there.<\/p>\n
I have a counter on my phone. 82 more days until I graduate from Seminary. It could easily be another year after that before I am an officially ordained minister, but still. The end is in sight. The path doesn\u2019t fork anymore from here. I could turn back\u2026 but that\u2019s not likely. Something in me that I\u2019ve previously needed to process is just about settled. <\/p>\n
There\u2019s another piece of it too. The times in the past ten years where I have written the most were always the loneliest and slowest times of my life. When I had a youth group, or a thriving campus ministry, or a cigars and theology pubnight I always wrote less because I was sharing my new insights with them instead of casting them into the ether(net). That\u2019s true again. I\u2019m preaching every week and posting those videos online. People are listening to what I have to say. I\u2019m saying more than I often care to. <\/p>\n
I dunno blogfans. I\u2019m not shuttering this thing yet. I still have 82 more days to fear whales. After that maybe I\u2019ll start a different blog about being a young pastor (as if that hasn\u2019t been done before) maybe I\u2019ll be writing church bulletins and that plus sermon will leave me with nothing to say. Maybe something new will break in me and I\u2019ll keep needing the reflection space for the forseeable future. <\/p>\n
Regardless I\u2019ll be as interested as you to see how it turns out. Probably much more interested<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I hate that so many of my posts are meta-posts. It was less than 6 months ago I was reflecting on where we had come from and updating my website with this as a regular feature. Yet here we are again, and what I feel pressed to write about is my own writing. Screw it,…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":391,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2622","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"yoast_head":"\n