{"id":2207,"date":"2008-01-07T07:56:00","date_gmt":"2008-01-07T07:56:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blog.beliefnet.com\/deaconsbench\/2008\/01\/veteran-theologian-and-survivor-of-ptsd-god-gave-me-my-identity-back.html"},"modified":"2008-01-07T07:56:00","modified_gmt":"2008-01-07T07:56:00","slug":"veteran-theologian-and-survivor-of-ptsd-god-gave-me-my-identity-back","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.beliefnet.com\/columnists\/deaconsbench\/2008\/01\/veteran-theologian-and-survivor-of-ptsd-god-gave-me-my-identity-back.html","title":{"rendered":"Veteran, theologian, and survivor of PTSD: “God gave me my identity back”"},"content":{"rendered":"

We hear a lot about returning war veterans broken in body, but less about those who are broken in mind and spirit. But here’s the story of one veteran<\/a> — who is also a theologian and teacher — who is working to see that those wounded warriors aren’t forgotten: <\/p>\n

John Zemler had nightmares. For 23 years, suffering from post traumatic stress disorder, he awoke every night from the \u201cscreamers.\u201d<\/p>\n

Then one morning in January 2007, he realized, the screamers were gone. <\/p>\n

\u201cA lot of my anger and fear, God just took it away from me,\u201d Zemler said. \u201cHe gave me my identity back.\u201d <\/p>\n

Zemler\u2019s mission is to provide that same gift to other sufferers of PTSD.<\/p>\n

<\/a>As an assistant professor of theology at Marquette University, with his wife Wanda Zemler-Cizewski, an associate professor, Zemler is in a unique position to provide outreach to those with PTSD \u2014 as a veteran, theologian, and victim.<\/p>\n

\u201cI\u2019m born into this job \u2014 theologian and as a veteran with PTSD,\u201d Zemler said. \u201cI\u2019m called to it. You can get through this. A relationship with God will get you through it. It won\u2019t defeat you.\u201d<\/p>\n

A former artillery captain in the army, Zemler served in Desert Storm from the United States, training soldiers. The PTSD stems from the special weapons work he did in the 1980s in Turkey. From teaching others to fight, he now educates others about the dangers of PTSD.<\/p>\n

\u201cIf you were to think of PTSD as a personified someone, like a burglar or mugger, its goal would be to kill you, to kill the person who suffers from PTSD,\u201d Zemler said. <\/p>\n

There are two types of PTSD, Zemler said, immediate and delayed, which usually manifests in 10 years. While \u201cyou always see it in combat people,\u201d a person does not have to be in combat to suffer from PTSD. Anyone who has experienced a traumatic event, including rape, a car accident or bankruptcy may be afflicted.<\/p>\n

As part of his ministry Zemler works with Veterans for Peace, a non-profit humanitarian and educational organization dedicated to informing the public about the costs of war. Damage from the current war in Iraq will be felt for decades to come, Zemler said.<\/p>\n

\u201cIf the war stops tomorrow, then we have 60 years of PTSD to worry about,\u201d he said. \u201cThe damage will continue. The Army teaches you how to fight, but not how to turn it off.\u201d<\/p>\n

The care he provides for veterans is ecumenical – reaching out to those who suffer in whatever faith capacity they are comfortable, whether it be artwork, writing, or creating rituals for before and after deployment, which can help ease transition \u201cso one day you\u2019re not in Fallujah watching your buddies get blown up and the next at home watching \u2018Friends.\u2019\u201c<\/p>\n

Zemler is also working with Catholic parishes to help set up outreach to veterans. The power of prayer and ritual, which helped Zemler end his nightmares, is immeasurable.<\/p>\n

\u201cBiblical stories help a person,\u201d Zemler said. \u201cWhether you believe in demons or not, what people do under demonic possession is similar to what they do under PTSD. Christ liberates them. He brings out their identity. Prayer is extraordinary. The deeper one\u2019s prayer life goes, the better they know themselves.\u201d<\/p>\n

Once that liberation occurs, a person can live again.<\/p>\n

\u201cYou see the life,\u201d Zemler said. \u201cIf a person with PTSD can be reignited to life, they are less likely to be killed by PTSD.\u201d <\/p>\n

John said he wouldn\u2019t be here without Wanda, his wife of 15 years.<\/p>\n

\u201cI would\u2019ve killed myself if it wasn\u2019t for her,\u201d Zemler said. \u201cThere are things I still can\u2019t talk about out loud. I can\u2019t even write them down.\u201d<\/p>\n

PTSD affects not only the sufferer, but those around them, as Wanda experienced with John, and her father, a prisoner of war in WWII. <\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Read on for more. It’s a heartening and hopeful story about a condition that — for too many — seems hopeless. <\/p>\n

Photo: by Allen Fredrickson, Catholic Herald<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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