{"id":8086,"date":"2015-10-25T23:59:42","date_gmt":"2015-10-26T03:59:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.beliefnet.com\/columnists\/blissblog\/?p=8086"},"modified":"2015-10-25T23:59:42","modified_gmt":"2015-10-26T03:59:42","slug":"ive-decided","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.beliefnet.com\/columnists\/blissblog\/2015\/10\/ive-decided.html","title":{"rendered":"I’ve Decided"},"content":{"rendered":"
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What if what we truly desire is as close as our thoughts?\u00a0 How about the idea that our minds are like Velcro dartboards, or as I like to call them\u00a0‘heartboards’ that attract what we focus on? Over the years, I have marveled about the things I have intended that have come to be a here and now reality. When in the midst of the creation process, I have become impatient, wishing for things to happen more quickly. I need to remind myself that my timing and God’s is not always in alignment.<\/p>\n

What happens when I choose peace and happiness over turmoil and chaos?\u00a0 Magic. Wonder. Exquisite events. What happens when I experience spiritual amnesia and forget all of that? I can tell you first hand that it ain’t pretty. And I can admit that it is what I have been through over the last few days. Upped the ante on anxiety like, oh 1000%. Not prone to that state of emotion. I am not inclined to depression either, but have felt as if I was drowning in sadness. Major changes in many areas of my life. Was a walking waterworks. Crying at the drop of a hat.\u00a0Hard-pressed to find my joy. Even the Bliss Mistress gets the blues. I continued to up level my vibration. I imagined myself seeing my way clear of the impediments that felt daunting and nearly impossible to overcome. I walked, danced, drummed, prayed\u00a0and wrote my way through the jungle, mental machete’ at the ready.<\/p>\n

This song perfectly reflects a key concept in the process.<\/p>\n

“I’ve\u00a0decided to be happy<\/em>
\n I’ve decided to be glad<\/em>
\n I’ve decided to be grateful<\/em>
\n For all I ever had<\/em>
\n I’ve decided to let go…<\/span>
\nOf all this pain tonight
\nI’ve decided to let go
\nOf all these demons inside<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

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I know…I am blessed<\/em>
\n I know…all I ever wanted was this<\/em>
\n I know…I don’t need more<\/em>
\n I’ve got… what I came for<\/em><\/p>\n

I’ve decided to be open<\/em>
\n For that little voice inside<\/em>
\n Telling me I’m beautiful<\/em>
\n It’s okay to be alive<\/em>
\n I’ve decided to be kinder<\/em>
\n To myself when I am sad<\/em>
\n I’ve decided to be grateful”<\/em><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

My own determined demons have roared that I am either not enough of one thing or too much of something else.\u00a0 They have snarled that no one is strong enough to support me the way I have carried others. They have sneered that I won’t be successful in all areas of my life and that ultimately, I will be alone.<\/p>\n

Simultaneously, I am willing to accept the messages that remind me that gratitude is the key that opens the doors to my deepest heart longings and fervent desires.<\/p>\n