For much of my life, I have resisted struggling. I know that sounds weird, since on some level, resistance IS struggle. Efforting. Pushing against what is, rather than accepting it. I have often denied that some things are just plain difficult, because I haven’t wanted to admit that sometimes I need help. Never liked to feel vulnerable and am learning that sometimes it is necessary.<\/p>\n
I have been calling into my life, the opportunities I have wanted in terms of writing and speaking. There are times when I bump up against impatience and pout petulantly that things aren’t happening fast enough for my liking. I then recall where I was a year ago and two years ago and a decade ago and realize how far I really have traveled to get from there to here.<\/p>\n
Today, I attended, via phone, a rehearsal for GMP (Good Men Project) \u00a0Live\u00a0<\/em>that is a story telling event in which I will be participating next week in New York City. Here I\u00a0was in my suburban Philly home and through the marvels of modern technology ‘sat’ with the other participants as we practiced telling our tales. I am both excited and nervous about sharing the story called Meet You at the Gate, \u00a0since it is about my parents who I treasure and miss. In the midst of counting the years since they have passed; seven for my dad and almost five for my mom, not a day goes by that I don’t think about them. Sometimes they pop into my mind several times in 24 hours. There isn’t an aching longing for their physical presence, but rather a wistfulness. I sense that I have indeed gotten accustomed to living without them.<\/p>\n Other potential struggles have to do with keeping up with the myriad deadlines I face. It’s not that I can’t keep pace\u00a0with them; rather it is thinking about thinking that I can’t meet the requirements people have of me. THAT is one the most annoying truths I know. The monkey mind on a hamster wheel keeps on spinning.<\/p>\n Much of my life these days truly feels like I am in the flow. People, experiences, money, messages and creative opportunities arise as if they whisked into my world and all I need do is stand there and let them in. Isn’t that how it oughta be?<\/p>\n I welcome life being pleasurable and effortless.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" For much of my life, I have resisted struggling. I know that sounds weird, since on some level, resistance IS struggle. Efforting. Pushing against what is, rather than accepting it. I have often denied that some things are just plain difficult, because I haven’t wanted to admit that sometimes I need help. Never liked to…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":233,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[40,1,2,13,8,70,41,3532,19,3757,1246,94,3,22,14,4,16,7,29,37],"tags":[4897,4511,3624,4512,3134],"class_list":["post-7858","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-affirmations","category-attracting-what-you-desire","category-bliss","category-blissfull-thinking","category-communication","category-community","category-death","category-edie-weinstein","category-empowerment","category-environment","category-faith","category-family","category-gratitude","category-healing","category-how-to-invite-bliss","category-inspiration","category-my-personal-bliss","category-re-creating-your-life","category-women","category-writing","tag-edie-weinstein","tag-gmp-live","tag-good-men-project","tag-in-the-flow","tag-new-york-city"],"yoast_head":"\n