I Am More Productive and Active
Growing up, I was always super anxious. I would constantly be skeptical about trying new things and a lot of the time my anxiety prevented me from figuring out what I did and didn't like to do. I was always worried that whatever I tried I would fail at, which would cause me to feel embarrassed and inadequate. I learnt that staying in my comfort zone kept me feeling "safe". However, looking back at my life now I can clearly see that staying in my comfort zone and not exposing myself to risk of failure and other fears was hurting me in the long-run rather than helping me. When I stopped drinking, I realized that I was going to have to find other activities to entertain myself with. I also realized that I had to push myself to try a bunch of new things in order to figure out what it was that I like. I was determined to fight some of my irrational fears and expose myself to things that made me anxious, such as completing a ropes course (fear of heights, check!) and paddle boarding/swimming in a waterfall (fear of fish, check!). I had so much fun doing those two activities and I felt a sense of accomplishment after I had finished. It turns out, facing my fears isn't as scary as I though it would be and even though I wasn't the best at the ropes course, I still put in my best effort and managed to enjoy myself. During this past month I've found a bunch of new things I like, such as kayaking, paddle-boarding, hiking, swimming in rivers/waterfalls, being outside, croquette, pool, ropes courses, etc. Lately I have felt super inspired to keep trying new things and pushing myself out of my comfort zone, and it feels awesome.