I have to share this with you. Even though I've lost a lot of weight and kept it off, and enjoy almost total recovery from compulsive overeating, I still slip occasionally. Here's what happened yesterday.
I had no time for breakfast, and it was noon before I could manage to grab something to eat. So I decided to have a quick muffin on the run. It was really delicious. I thought to myself that I would have a sandwich shortly, with some protein and vegetables in it, which would really be healthy.
But what I really wanted was another muffin. On the run, I ran by a bakery and saw a gorgeous muffin with icing on top smiling at me through the front window. I was under her spell, so I went in and bought her. It was one with cream filling – very fattening, overly sweet, but it looked and tasted really good.
Shortly thereafter, I got that awful "too much sugar" feeling. I was a little dizzy. A headache threatened under the surface. I felt stuffed but unsatisfied. I craved protein from meat or fish, and energy from live vegetables, but I was too full to eat any. I no longer had room for lunch.
I had fallen for the muffin's good looks; forgotten how too much sugar feels. The beauty was only skin-deep. My body and my soul got cheated. Did I feel guilty? Yes, honestly, but only for a moment. I apologized to God and my body, asking again for some grace, and now I feel better. I had no more carbohydrates the rest of the day, ate my daily amount of protein and vegetables and some fruit for dessert, and all was well.