Prayer Circles

QUIGLEY, GLAD TO SEE YOU ARE DOING ALLRIGHT, AND GOOD LUCK ON FINDING A JOB SOON, AND ALL I AM GOING TO SAY , IS WHAT WE HAVE ALL SAID HERE BEFORE , I HOPE YOU HAVE LEARNED YOUR LESSON WITH BRETT. you are loved , you are some body and you matter. good luck quigley, and i do wish you the very best. i am so very sorry that that happened with brett, but it is no surprize, i am sorry. kris

dear renee; IT was SOOOOOOO GREEAAAAAATTTTTT talking with you the other day on the messenger, i enjoyed it sooooooooo much. i am so glad we got to talk, and hope we get to again soon. have you got to plant your flowers yet? i am still trying to get there on mine, hopefully this week, i am hoping to be able to get out there and get my gladiolas and wild flowers planted, and i think i am going to plant some daises and pansies, and a couple of rose bushes. i cant wait to get started. anyway, it was great to talk to you, and i will talk to you again soon. love you always, kris.

THANKS KRIS,
I WASN'T UPSET AT YOU OR ALL THAT NO MY PAST,,JUST THE ONES THAT ACT LIKE YOU CAN CHANGE OVER NIGHT(NOT TRUE) GOD WORKS IN HIS TIMING FOR A REASON. i SO LOVE YOU AND NO ALL ABOUT YOUR DISEASE AND FEEL FOR YOU, HEP C ,CIROSSIS, ETC.I NO I CAN TRUST GOD,ITS GETTING CLOSER WITH SCHOOL GETTING OVER AND ME WORKING 40 HRS A WEK, THE STRESS AND ALL AND NEW PUPY IS TOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH BUT I WOULDNT CHANGE A THING OTHER THAN THE DRINKING TO SLEEP AT NIGHT.,GOTS TO GET TO BED, I LOVE YOU AND ADMIRE YOUR STRENGTH WITH YOUR DISEASE AND KIND WORDS, I NEVER GET MAD I JUST HAVE TO VOICE MY OPION.GOD BLESS TO THE REST OF YOU AND MAY ALL THINGS WORK OUT. :-)

BETTYANN

Hi all,

Well, I'm finally on line at home. I can't sleep and it's 3:30 a.m. - seems to happen a lot lately. I had time to read a few posts and BA - I understand what you are going through. I will pray that you can change your direction and live a life of sobriety - I have been in your shoes on the gambling and the only explanation I have for it at the time is that I don't care and I'm fed up with life. I'm either drinking or doing drugs (usually the latter) - It is no worse a sin than any other - I am not making excuses for our actions, I'm just saying keep praying and trying to beat it because that is the only way it will happen. Draganess & Kris - I know it is hard to believe someone when they keep crying wolf but I am truly done with Brett this time. It has been over 2 weeks since it all happened and we finally talked today and made arrangements for what is left to be done with the money and each others belongings. He is trying to accept the fact that we aren't ever going to be together again - which is a first - I also had a little help this time from a few people who have basically said stay away from her or you might not like what happens - I know that is not the christian way to do things but I needed something to make sure he left me alone this time - he is afraid of these people and I finally feel safe. Taylor has been having a very hard time with it. She's wetting the bed again and she cried this morning before school - I'm not sure what to do for her - all she knows is moms leaving another guy that loved me and that I loved too. I have decided to do an online class for medical transcription so that I can work at home - Medford is a retirement area and there is a huge demand for medical transcriptionists. It only takes 4 months to take the classes and to get my degree as a probation officer would be another 2 1/2 years. I just pray that I can make it financially on what I have until things get going. I think losing my job was a blessing and God knows I couldn't have concentrated on a job through all of this stuff with Brett so please pray that I can succeed at this new career and that I am making the right choices. In my heart I finally feel that I am. Anyway, I am starting to feel tired so love you all, thanks for keeping me in your thoughts -Q

Thanks Kris,
Not mad at anyone, just meant for some people to overcome trials it just doesnt happen over night even if THEY WANT TO CHANGE...I Praise all whom have overcome any sort of an addicition because I no how hard it is to fight it. I no I shouldnt be drinking but I sometimes enjoy the way it relaxes me and yes a way to avoid all the stress and excuses. All I can do is pray and try and try till I get back to the way I was SOBER and drinking O'duls. School is done May 13th and I think alot of the stress will be gone because no homework or studying all night.Quigley I hope things are going good for you and you find a job. YOu would love going back to school, you meet nice people and have a goal and you feel proud when you do something you love to do. I cant wait to work for a doctor and also I will miss school, it's fun and a great experience at age 40 heheheheeheheh..Well off to study for test tonight, GOD bless you all and no harm intended, I pray for all of us to seek God, do his will and HAVE THE DESIRE TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. May he give us willpower, patience, and strength to endure,
Love yah,
Bettyann

Hey all,

Just wanted to check in and say hi. Things are going ok. Taylor is doing better and I am up and down but I know what I am doing is the Best Thing I could ever do for us. I am drinking some ... I know - I'm self medicating - no excuses - BA - I'm excited about going back to school but it will be on line but I'm still excited about the career change and the opportunities. I pray this works out that I can support us on this. If not, back to the drawing board but the relief of not having to go into the office from 8 to 5 and dread it every day just exhilarates me. I'm happier right now than I have been in a long time it seems, I can't wait until I am not so self absorved and can be there for others again - Love Q

Hope all have a great weekend, I will be busy working like usual..Take care and all be happy and healthy and walking in the right path, In Jesus name I ask all to be protected and feeled with the love of GOD and that we may overcome temptations and trials and serve him and finally find true peace like Kris and others..I pray for guidance and the WILL YO CHANGE, I pray for all suffering one way or another, lead them to a good job, spouse, b'f fiances,and overcome addictions, AMEN
Love Bettyann

Aloha, My name ia Anne and I am in recovery. on april 7th,2004 I will be clean 6 months. My drug of choice is crystel meth. I was surfing the web and I found this place. I am a single mother of 5 children. CPS( Child Protection Services) placed my children in foster care because of my drug addiction. I have had my children for spring break which is 2 weeks here in Hawaii. On Sunday they will be going back to the foster homes. It has been a bumpy road the last 6 months but the children are going to be coming home soon. Just don't know the exact date yet. Please keep us in ur prayers and I hope to meet a few friends on this site. Mahalo ANNE

Anniegurl,

What a great place to live. I will keep you in my prayers, meth messes up a lot of people's lives - it runs rampid here in Medford. Some people actually call in Methford - and I know what it can do to a person. Personally. What Island are you on? I have been to Kona a few times - and would love to go back someday although my life is somewhat different now than it was a couple of years ago. I will be praying for you -
BA, Draganess & Kris,

Hope you are all doing good. Life here is up and down. I was missing Brett this morning because I came home and he had left a bunch of my things at the front door. Then when I talked to him it just made me realize how much better off I am without the stress and turmoil - you are all in my prayers - love you Q

I PRAY FOR ALL , AND EVERYONE IS IN MY THOUGHTS..OFF TO BED, ITS 2AM AND WORK AT 8AM.WELCOME TO ALL THE NEW ONES, A GREAT SITE FOR INSPIRATION AND CARING..GOD BLESS ALL AND I WILL BE BACK SOON( NOT A GOOD NIGHT) LOST 400$ GAMBLING AGIAN :-( BOYFRIEND OUT OF TOWN IN RENO FOR A BOWLING TOURNYMENT AND WHEN HE CALLED ME TONIGHT AFTER WORK TELLING ME HE WON MONEY 300 AT THE CRAPS TABLE, IF FELT LONELY TONGIHT WITHOUT HIM AND DIDNT WANT TO DRINK AFTER WORK SO I TOOK THE CHANCE AND WENT TO THE CASINO.........LOST!!!!!!


LIVE AND LEARN AS THEY SAY!!!!!!! GOING TO BED AND HAVE TO JUST LET IT GO SO IT DOESNT EAT AT ME.
lOVE YOU ALL,
BETTYANN

First, I would like to say I haven't been to this prayer circle in a long time. And I thought this was a prayer circle for Tommy Glenn. So to all of these people who are communicating back and forth to each other and have nothing to do with Tommy we all appreciate your prayers but please leave it at that. Lastly, I would like to say that there is not a day goes by that I don't miss Tommy and I know he has been watching over me and his family since he left us. I pray for him and for those who are suffering. I love you, Tom and you are always with me.
Love,
Erin

I agree punkin, But this site was sarted because of Tommys's death.. It cant just be a site in his death to pray for him daily esp..now that he's out of pain and in heaven in a better place. He's gone and his family is till alive and has to deal with it, so this site is also started bye Renee whom we love and appreciate in her dedication to Tommy, this dosent mean no body cares not about Tommy but now thru his expetience we are praying FOR THE LIVING because of what happened to him, so dont take offence to this site if not is all about Tommy, it is HIM that has brought us all her due to his death, and I believe Tommy's spirit is on this site streghting us daily, I feel for your concerns, but when a person dies life must go on, that doesnt mean we EVER forget about that person or quit talking with them or praying but sometimes things like this make a whole lot of people in this wordl suffering from his terrible drug overdose wake up and smell the coffee, Im sorry your hurting and upset but I PRAISE JSESUS AND RENEE for starting this site IN HIS MEMORY!!!!!!

GOD BLESS

quigley, Mahalo for the welcome. I am on Oahu............................... punkin902
I did not come on this site to cause anymore DRAMAS then there already is in this world. I don't know anything bout Tommy and I found this link under a site for Prayer circle for anyone who suffers from addiction. I really think that was messed up that you came out like that but hey your intitled to you own opinon. I just was requesting prayers for my family that all.. Well anyway I pray that who ever is still out there suffering will find help soon and that people who already found help continue to stay strong in their recovery. I was taught never push anyone who suffers away because what we learned was given to us freely and we are supposed to give it back freely!!!!!!!!

DEAR LORD, TOMMY AND MANY OTHERS SUCH AS MYSELF NEED YOUR STRENGTH TO OVER COME ADDICTION IN OUR LIFE. PLEASE KEEP US CLOSE TO YOUR HEART ALWAYS.
AMEN

Punkin902, I'm a little confused at why you would be so offended by Tommy's site bringing all of us together to share our stories about addiction and to help one another. I am not trying to disrespect his memory in any way, I just suffer from the same disease he died from and therefore have something in common with him - as do the others on this site. You were obviously close to him and I'm sorry for your pain but please don't try to alienate people from communicating their lives and problems on here, it helps all of us with the healing process and gives us the strength and willpower to keep trying to stay sober. Q

So, that said... BA, sometimes our lives seem parallel, I gambled $240 tonight - shouldn't have - I pray we both can be stronger than to give into the addictions of gambling and drinking. I'm still staying away from Brett but I miss him tonight. Thank God I have so many friends - I pray to stay strong and to move on without Brett amd to never give into the temptation of going back to him. God bless Q

wow i just read and had to reread what was said, pumkin...i'm with all of them,tommy's spirit lives,and it aseems to me that you havn't come to terms with the fact that he is gone. and his wonderful family has put this p, yes.but God has kept it goiing and addicts both in recovery and ones that are trying to hold on by a piece of thread. so i don't mean to be blunt or hurtful. but if you truley understood then you wouldn't have come out with those words or assumtioms because w all know what assumtions do to us. and another thing, i can respect your feelings because i am a grateful recovering addict and can relieze that you don't have to be an addict to be sick,so i'm actually going to ignore your comments because my GOD works wonders in my life today,and having patience is a gift that i have today. so with that i' sorry for your pain,but we all move on. and Tommy passing on physically from this disease and this site staying on as long as it has. tells me something.IT IS MEANT TO BE.....TO everyone else WELCOME.....Q i'm so glad to hear from you i was worried krs and all you guys are in my prayers, and miss hawiwii lol this is a great site for recovery and congrads on you cleantime it's amazin and beautiful thing. one that i will never trade. i love you all keep me posted i love hearing about your lives....love Jessica

Hey all,

Thanks for caring Jessica. Today was not the best Sunday i have ever had. It started at 8:15 with Brett calling me and long story short him and the guy that offered to scare Brett off from me decided to have a big fist fight. Well, the guy pulled a gun on Brett. Scared him to death. I never wanted them to even fight let alone a gun be involved. Now I think this guy is a little more crazy than I first realized. Brett hates me which is probably good but so do some of his friends. Somehow he turned it around to be me that was to blame for everything and the violence, etc. doesn't really matter anymore. And to top it off, I think the guy has a thing for me which I don't want him anywhere around anymore. I'm not sure what to do but just say never come around here again. And for some reason, I still miss Brett after all this stuff. he called me after the guy pulled the gun on him and he sounded awful, my heart sunk he sounded so scared. I'm half scared now too if the guy is that crazy. I feel heartbroken over Brett still even tho I know it is the right thing to do. Taylor told me tonight that she didn't really want to come home fromm her dads but she didn't know why and I think it is because she misses Brett. Things are very quiet here now. I pray that my life is headed down a better road now and that I can be strong for Taylor. I start school tomorrow on line and I'm still looking for a part-time job. Things have got to get better, right? At least I have good friends that are there for me. Hope everyone is doing well and you are all in my prayers. Love Q

first of all i would like to welcome our new ones, annie, and queendebi1, and to punkin, i agree with bettyann, quigley, and jessica. i hvae not been able to come on here in a few days, but i think that you need to go back if you have'nt and reread these posts on here , and you see the way that this site that our precious friend renee , in honor of her dear beloved cousin has helped so many many people on this site. it is a site that has brought people to it, that was so lost and needed to know that there was someone here that had been there where they was, or that is still struggling with the addictions, but are overcoming them day by day. this site is anoited with GOD'S LOVE IN IT , AND IT IS BECAUSE OF THE DEVOTION OF A COUSIN'S LOVE FOR ANOTHER THAT WANTED TO BRING THE HELP TO THOSE WHO WOULD KNOW THAT THEY HAVE A PLACE WHERE THEY CAN COME, AND THERE ARE THOSE OF US WHO HAVE BEEN THERE AND CAN HELP THEM THROUGH IT, WE ARE THE ONES WHO CAN HELP THEM OVERCOME, SO THAT THEY CAN KNOW THAT THEIR LIVES DONT HAVE TO BE A TRAGEDY LIKE TOMMY. BUT I TELL YOU, TOMMY HAD A PURPOSE, JUST HAD RENEE HAS A PURPOSE , AND THIS WAS IT. I AM SORRY IF YOU CANT UNDERSTAND THAT, AND YOU CANT SEE THAT GOD'S LOVE IS HERE, AND THERE ARE THOSE OF US WHO HAVE FOREMED VERY STRONG BONDS HERE, AND IT IS A PLACE FOR THE TRUTH TO ENTER , AND BE HEARD , AND FOR OTHERS TO KNOW THAT THERE IS SOMWEONE WHO TRULY CARES ABOUT THEIR LIFE , AND WANTS TO SEE THAT THEY HAVE A CHANCE AT A BETTER WAY OF LIFE. I AM SOORY FOR YOU, AND THAT YOU CANT SEE THE POSITIVENESS HERE. LOVE AND FAITH, KRIS

QUIGLEY; be very careful on who you deal with girl. i am on my way to court in a few mins here , because of that crazy thang that was married to one of my very best friend's and almost killed her, and i am on my way , to court, because he decided to fixacte on me, this ole world can be crazy, and i wish and hope you the very very best. love always, kris
ba. thank yiu for what you said, and stay strong , you can do it, you just gotta want too!!!!! love always, kris.
jessica, you are such an inspiration, and i am so very very very proud of you. keep up the good work. love , kris
cindy, what can i say girl , you're the best!!!!!!!!!!
joni; i hope that everything is alright, and christian is better, i will email you soon.love kris
renee; you are in my heart girl, keep doing what you doing!!!!!!!love, kris.
well; just got back , i didnt have enough time earlier when i wa swriting this , to submit it, so i am just writitng under what i wrote, we won!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. love kris

Dear Lord;
Plese forgive me for what happened last night in school and thankyu for getting me home safe and that my teacher likes me enough that I didnt get expelled. I pray for my sprained ankle to heal bye the time I work friday and I pray for the ALCHOLISM desire to LEAVE MY BODY. I have NEVER before been drunk at school and last night it just happened I went and drank at break and the whole class new it and my Instructor. She just gave me a warning and I fell and sprained my ankle..Dear GOD, Im not sure why Im getting worse drinking other than Im not that happy at home with my b'f..I dont feel Loved and needed, and the sex has always been these last 3 yrs so, so...I try and tell him how I feel so I think I just gave up and drink the bottle to shut up and ignore my home life caz the only real thing I LOVE is school and my dogs!!!! OH LORD IN THE NAME OF JESUS, I PRAY YOU HEAL ME!!!!!! i PRAY FOR ALL TO FIND INNER JOY, I pray I quiyt running and face the truth "IM NOT PERFECT, AND IM UNHAPPY AT HOME....I pray you lead me in the right direction..
GOD BLESS ALL,
Bettyann

well here I am again.. jus signed in to let u all know that today I made 180 days clean and sober. I am very proud of myself and I hope that my story will give someone else who stumbles on to this page a feeling of hope and that as long as we HAVE GOD in our lives that anythign is possible.
my children are going to be moving back home on April 9,2004 I am so so so so happy that I made it this far. Life has been an awesome experience since I became clean and sober 6 months ago. I have been truely blessed with everything that I have been goin thru. i truely believe that GOD gave me another chance to prove my abilities as a mother. DEAR LORD PLEASE CONTINUE TO SHOW ME THE MIRICLES THAT U HAVE IN STORE FOR ME AND GUIDE ME THRU THE REST OF MY RECOVERY. I ALSO PRAY TO FATHER GOD THAT I HAVE A CHANCE TO HELPS OTHERS ALONG WITH THEIR RECOVERY. AMEN

Good Day to all!
Welcome to all the new ones!
I pray for all of you who have strayed from God, because HE NEVER walks away from us - its US who does the walking, so I pray that you find (which means you have to LOOK!) your way back to HIM, and remember what He has done for us. He is there waiting with open arms to hold you, and to love you UNCONDITIONALLY, and to tell you everything will be alright - if you will but walk with HIM! I pray also for those who seem to be angry at GOD, that he will reveal Himself to you in a that brings you back to His joy.
Congrats to all who are making it one day, one moment, one minute at a time!!!
It is worth every bit of effort you put into it.
Bettyann, and Quigley -
I truly love you girls, and am so sorry you are hurting right now, and you seem to be in quite messes! It is myprayer for you two to turn your lives over to the care of our Heavenly Father,and start a brand new life in Christ Jesus. GO TO CHURCH!! FIND ONE THAT YOU FEEL GOOD IN!!! Life is SSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOO
GGOOOOODDDDD WHEN YOU JUST LET GOD TAKE OVER, AND FOLLOW HIM!! JESUS IS THE WAY! JESUS IS THE ANSWER!!
LIFE FOR ME NOW- I DONT THINK HAS EVER BEEN BETTER!! WALKING SIDE BY SIDE WITH MY SAVIOUR IS JUST THE MOST AWESOME THING IN THE WORLD!! HE LOVES US SOOOO VERY,VERY MUCH! TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY, AND I AM NOW 50!!!! WHICH IS OK, CUZ I AM EXACTLY AS OLD AS GOD WANTS ME TO BE!!!! :-) SO FAR HAS BEEN THE BEST BIRTHDAY I HAVE HAD IN YEARS!!
KRIS- WHAT CAN I SAY ALSO?????? THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOU ARE!! i LOVE YOU LOTS!!!
GOTTA GO FOR NOW- YOU ARE ALL IN MY PRAYERS & THOUGHTS
GOD BLESS EACH OF YOU -
LOVE,
ANGEL

Happy Birthday Angel,
Thankyou Jesus thatso far today I have no desire to drink. I pray I make it thru the day and continue to lose the desire for good. I pray I just drink O'duls when I want a drink and that I totally stay away from the stuff that has so much ruined many parts of my life. In Jesus name I pray for inner strength, courage, and willpower. I pray for all in here and all their addicitions, I pray the clean ones stay clean and no your Love..I pray for guidance and learn to love myself and quit trying to find the"void" that is missing in my life that no booze, drug etc can fill me up. IN JESUS NAME I ASK ALL OF THIS CAN GIVE IT ALL UP TO YOU
lOVE AND GOD BLESS,
Bettyann )