The next month, ... Verna, (my name sake, :) ... my brother's daughter), lost her teenage son, who, according to newspaper clippings was destined to become a pro-star someday. He was injured while playing sports; (a head injury, ... and died the next day! In less than a year, ... I lost two more relatives; first, one of my brothers, and then one of my great-nieces. [ENOUGH said! :)]
The point I am trying to get over to you, and also the other moms who are just beginning on this never-ending journey of grief, is this: [Even after all I have been through, still I find joy!]
The joy I speak of is not because I am stronger than any of you; but because I lost my battle with God! :) I had no intention of serving Him, or accepting His help! I was so angry, (HURT), I fought Him with all my might, ... for such a long, long time! I did not want God's help, and I told Him so! Well, not out loud. :) I know this may sound awful; but it's the truth!
When I finally got started on my book, I made a promise to God Almighty, that if He would allow me to, I would tell others the whole truth about how I met Him and how I finally got to know Him, as my God; my Lord and Savior, ... and my Friend! :) I can't help but smile as I type these words, :) because I thank God for giving me the opportunity to share how far He as brought me! :) And, I know in my heart that if He did it for me; Lord have mercy! (laugh) ... I know He will do it for other bereaved moms; whether they feel they deserve it or not! :)
You see, as we have been told somewhere in His Holy Bible: God's ways are not our ways, ... :) I wish I was able to quote scripture as well as my daughter, Cheryl. :) Unfortunately, I have a long way to go in that area. :) But I'm working on it, with the help of my daughter and her husband who is studying to become a minister. :)
[I'm almost finished with the copy/paste!] :)So, please bear with me!:)
As, I was working on my book one day, I stopped and turned to my daughter, Cheryl, and said, (with a thoughtful look on my face), ... "You know, ... it's a miracle that God didn't zap me right off the surface of the earth!" And, then, we would have a good laugh! You see, Debbie, during the early stages of grieving, I use to think some awful things about God; things I wouldn't tell God if He didn't already know! :) And, as unbelievable as it may seem, sometimes I was foolish enough (my thoughts:) ) to write little nasty notes to God! And, I tried to make sure that God had time to read what I had written, before I would tear it up! In the notes I wrote, I would ask Him all kinds of questions; some of which I'm sure many other bereaved moms have at least thought about at some time. Questions like; Where was God when my child needed Him! What had I done? What had she done, to deserve dying in such a tragic manner! And, I really wanted to know why was it that; of the seven people who were involved in that tragic chain reaction wreck in which my Diane was killed, ... I wanted to know from God, ... Why my child! Why was she the only one to die? I mean I was completely angry!!!! :)
I once told Cheryl, ... now that God has helped me learn how to handle my heartfelt grief, during my many valley days, sometimes, in my mind's eye, I can just see God dragging me along, kicked, and continued to resist all the help He kept sending my way! :) I mean I was a mess, spiritually speaking! :) But, because God, in His tender mercy, ... helped someone like me, ...someone who accused Him wrongly, ... placed the blame on Him, ... I have no doubt in my mind that He stands ready and willing to do the same for others who are still lost in their wilderness of grief and pain, ... over the loss of their precious child. :)
It is no easy task; regaining the will to live after losing one's child! We never get over it; but with God's help, and the help that He sends to us, through family and friends, and sometimes, even strangers whom we have never met, :) we, ... gradually, learn to live with our losses, and move on; ... only, in a different way!
As Sandy reminds us in her own special words and in her compassionate way, we cannot set a time limit on how long we need to grieve deeply our loss. Each Mom and dad; and also other family members and friends, ... must be allowed to grieve in their own way, ... and for as long as they feel the need to. There will always be valley days, ... no matter how far along we have come. But, the good news is, ... after each valley day, comes a hilltop day; just as the sunshine always follows the rain. :) And, I believe that is the way it will always be, ... until our work here on earth is finished! :) And through it all, God will never leave our side! :)
Right now, each of us are exactly where we are supposed to be, while on this never-ending journey. :) We try to encourage each other, as best we can, as often as we can. Sometimes, we ourselves, are the ones who need to be encouraged. :) God always provides the help or encouragement that we need to get up, brush ourselves off, and continue on our journey, in spite of our grief! :)
Debbie, this post is getting to be a little long, :) ... so I'll try to bring this to a close, so that it doesn't disappear when I try to submit. :) I pray that each you and the other bereaved moms who reads this post, will know in your hearts that God loves you because ... you are His child! :) God doesn't cause our heartaches, even though He doesn't always keep bad things from happening to us or our loved ones. He doesn't always answer our "Why" questions. He hurts when you are hurting! He, in His tender mercy, is reaching out to you, me, and all the other moms who post here and those who have yet to find this wonderful prayer circle. :) He will wrap His loving arms around you, and all the other wonderful bereaved moms; just as He has done and will continue to do for me, many, many times during one of my valley days. :) Yes, ... I still have them, :) ... but I also know there is no valley so deep that God cannot rescue me, and give me the courage and the strength to move on, ... in spite of all I've been through! :) He loves all of us bereaved moms just that much! :) And, someday, the "Why" questions will be answered; and, in the words of an old spiritual; We will understand it better, by and by! I hope you, and all the other wonderful moms will always remember, ... you are in my thoughts, which places you in my prayers!
LOVE2U, and All the other Moms, :)
To all my wonderful moms: This is how I had to trick the submit button into accepting such a long post! :)
Oh, and Debbie, just in case I forgot; Congratulations on passing your math test! :) I am so proud of you! :)
Woops! Sorry for misspelling your name! I just noticed my mistake! :)DEBBY! :)
Hi Debby, nice to hear from you again!
You probably needed that time off, it helped you to focus on yourself, Michael, and more importantly, have some good times with your Chris. I think it's pretty neat that we both had boys, and one of them is a Chris, I loved that name, so I chose it for him, my hubby named Shane, so we each had our turns! And I know that your Chris no doubt loved having his Mom there for him, just to spend some quality time with, and have some fun. That's terrific that he has his Aunt, you sis to confide in too, sometimes it's easier to talk with somebody else about how you're feeling, and as you say, if it's important, your sister will let you know. They must have a very good realtionship! Yes, my two boys surely were BOYS and had their fair share of hanky panky sometimes, and now it's fun to look back with our Chris and be able to remember all those times, it helps our Chris too. I'll always listen, Debby, you've got my ear for life, :) and I care about how you and your family are doing. YES, He does listen to our hearts, isn't he awesome! Love and prayers to you Debby, and some peace in your heart today,
Hello Verna, thank you for all your wonderful posts, we appreciate your kind words and prayers for all! It also proves to me that you're staying up very late again each night, :), and that's not so good! We have to take care of ourselves, so get some sleep, we would all miss you dearly if you couldn't post! OK, now that I'm done lecturing you, :), you know we all love you dearly and love how much effort you put into each of your wonderful posts.
Our love and prayers are always with you too, love you dearly,
Good Morning Sandy! :)~ I am laughing right now because I just knew you would lecture me about staying up again all night.:) I promise from now on, I will really try harder not to do it again. It's just that for years now, I have spent most of my days sleeping so I could stay up at night and work on my manuscript. Now that it is all finished, I am having a hard time getting back on a normal sleeping schedule. I must do better. :) I will talk to my doctor about it next week. One problem is due to medication which causes insomnia. Right now, it's around 8:00 AM, and I still don't feel sleepy. :) and I've been sipping hot tea off and on all night! :) I guess I'd better ask about that too, when I go in for my check up. :)
I just wanted to let you know that I, too, recommend the Rabbi's book to all bereaved moms. :) It's the one book on grieving that I have continued to re-read over and over again. :) At first, I had so much difficulty accepting and fully understanding his use of the word "can't"; even though he clearly explains why God can't always stop bad things from happening to good people. :) Cheryl has helped me to understand his meaning a little better over time. :) However, I love the way he gives clear examples of why he believes as he does. It really is a good book that I would highly recommend to all our bereaved moms! :) Having said that,... I'm off to bed! :) Thanks for reminding me to take better care of myself. :)
Hello again Verna, oh gosh, it's good to have a laugh! You've got your nights and days switched on you, but as you say, your meds may not be helping.
I have to hit the bed by 11pm or I'm not much help the following day, but then I'm also up with the birds, I'm definitely a morning person! Yes, Rabbi Kushner's (sp?) is a wonderfully comforting read for a beareaved mom, as you know, he wrote it after he lost his own son, so he certainly can relate. Another wonderful one that I would recommend if you've lost a son is "Lament for a Son", it too helped me greatly in the very beginning.
Love and prayers to you,
HELLO SHANER AND VERNA,
THE POST HAS TAKEN MY BREATH AWAY. I'M WAS READING AND CRYING AT THE SAME TIME. IT HAS OPENED MY EYES AND UNDERSTAND ALOT MORE THAN WHAT I DID. I WOULD LOVE TO GET THE ISBN #'S FROM THE TWO BOOKS THAT YOU HAVE MENTION TO READ. I THINK IT WILL HELP ME EVEN MORE. THANK YOU VERNA FOR TAKEN THE TIME TO POST IT ALL FOR ME AND THE OTHER MOM'S TO READ. PLEASE LISTEN TO WHAT THE DR'S ORDERS. SORRY YOUR NIGHTS AND DAYS ARE MISSED UP BUT DO TRY TO REST. LOVE AND PRAYERS TO YOU.
SHANER, I TOO THINK IT'S PRETTY NEAT THAT WE BOTH HAD BOYS AND ONE OF THEM IS CHRISTOPHER. MAY I ASK HOW FAR APART FROM EACH OTHER YOU HAD THEM? MICHAEL WAS 8/12/81 AND CHRISTOPHER IS 5/5/83 WHEN WE WHERE CELEBRATING MICHAEL'S FIRST BIRTHDAY I FOUND OUT I WAS HAVING ANOTHER ONE. WHAT FUN THEY WHERE GROWING UP SO CLOSE TO EACH OTHER. THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ME. THIS IS THE FIRST CYCLE I HAVE BEEN COMING TO THESE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS SINCE I'VE BEEN HOME. I WONT BE GOING BACK TO WORK UNTIL TUESDAY. I'M TAKEN ANOTHER SICK DAY FOR MONDAY. I BELIEVE THAT CHRIS AND I TRUELY NEEDED THIS TIME TOGETHER EVEN THOUGH TODAY HE SAID TO ME (YOU NEED TO GO BACK TO WORK) I LOOKED AT HIM AND LAUGHED AND TOLD HIM HE IS STUCK WITH ME UNTIL MONDAY. HE JUST LAUGHED. I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOUR IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.
I GUESS GOD WAS TESTING YOU AND KNEW YOU WHERE STRONG. THIS WAS THE FIRST IN MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS THAT WE ALL KNOW.MY SON WAS IN A TRAGIC CAR ACCIDENT AND HE WAS A BACK SEAT PASSENGER BEHIND THE DRIVER. HIS HEAD HIT THE WINDOW AND THEN THE DASH AND HE WAS FACING DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND TWO OF THE PEOPLE IN THE CAR WHERE ON TOP OF HIM AND HE WAS GASPING FOR AIR. OUT OF THE 4 PEOPLE MY SON DIDN'T MAKE IT AND THEY ALL WALKED AWAY WITH MINOR CUTS. THE GIRL WAS 16 AND DIDN'T HAVE A LISCENCE AND NO PERMITT. SHE WAS SPEADING AROUND A BAD CORNER AND DIDN'T MAKE THE CORNER. THE CAR WENT 800 FEET INTO THE WOODS RIGHT INTO THE PATH OF A TREE THE FRONT OF THE CAR SLAMMED AND THE BACK OF THE CAR FLIPPED UP WITH THE TREE CRUSHING THE ROOF. THEY SAID MICHAEL WASN'T WEARING A SEAT BELT. I'VE HAD A DREAM AND MY SISTER TAM DID THAT HE HAD IT ON BUT TOOK IT OFF AND LEANED OVER THE SEAT TO HELP THE DRIVER GET CONTROL OF DRIVING THE CAR. SHE WAS DOING OVER 70 IN A 35.
SHE HAS BEEN CHARGED WITH VERHICKULAR MANSLAUGHTER. NOT SURE WHEN COURT IS STILL WAITING FOR THE LAWYER. SHE ALSO HAS OTHER CHARGES TOO.
I'M SO GLAD THAT I'VE GOTTEN TO KNOW ALOT OF MOMS FROM THIS CYCLE AND YOUR ALL IN MY PRAYERS AND THOUGHTS. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.
SORRY JUST A LITTLE UPSET RIGHT NOW I'LL CONTINUE TOMORROW. LUV DEBBY
Debby, ~ I found this online after reading your post above. I know you get a lot of help from reading this book. I believe the sight was allbooks.com. I searched by title and nothing happened. Then I searched by author and there it was. Hope this helps.
Author: Harold S. Kushner
Publish Date: January 1983
List Price: $5.99
I know it's so hard on you right now. I will keep praying that God will give you moments of comfort and peace. I smiled when I read your post above. :) No, it wasn't that God knew I was strong.:) God knew He would have to be my strength, and help me learn how to live with my loss. :) And, that is exactly what God is going to do for you.:) I just know it!:)
I think it's wonderful that you are spending some time with your other son, Christopher. :) It sounds as though the two of you also have a very special bonding.:) My other daughter, Cheryl, and I are very close, and we find such comfort in being there for each other when either of us is having a valley day. Spending this time together will do wonders for both of your spirits.:)
Debby, you might also want to check the MADD website. They have so much helpful information there. There is a lot of helpful information on Victim's Rights; on both state and national levels. There was so much I didn't know about the rights of victims and survivors. You may also find help at your local MADD organization. Even if no drinking was involved, I believe you might find out a lot about your rights.
I want you to remember to give yourself all the time you need to grieve your loss. Also, I thank you for praying for me and the other moms; even as you grieve your own loss. I will always keep you and the other moms in my heartfelt prayers.
p.s... and I promise, I will get to bed before daylight! :)
Hi Debby, hang in there sweetie, your bad days will become better. But if you feel like grieving, and crying, you go right on ahead, that's how we let our pain out and being to slowly heal.
Yes, our boys were close too, Chris was born Dec.16/71, and Shane, May 28/74, so for part of the year, there was only two years between them. They had a good relationship, had many friends in common, and hung out with the same crowd, doing things together. Chris misses his brother very much, and grieves for him in his own way. Chris lives and works now in another city, but he was up for a visit last weekend, with his girlfriend, so I was very happy to see him again!
That's so nice that your Chris and Michael also had a close relationship, he must miss his brother so much too. I think it's wonderful for you to spend some time with your Chris, the child that's left behind needs comfort and our love very much now, so good for you, taking an extra day off to be with him. Verna gave you the ISBN for the book "When Bad Things Happen to Good People", and I bought "Lament for a Son" right here at Beliefnet, go to their grief and loss page, and in the right hand column, you'll see it advertised there. I could identify so much with what the author wrote about his feelings he had over losing his own son, it'll make you cry reading it, but that's ok, it's a terrific book that helped me a great deal! And Verna's suggestion that you join MADD, or another organization like it is a good one too, especially since your Michael was killed in an automobile accident, God love him.
You and Chris have a ball, stuck with each other on Monday, :) and my love and prayers are with you still!
Hello Verna, hmm, 2:30 in the morning? You're getting a little better, - your advice to Debby and info was wonderful of you to post. Love and prayers to you too,
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE INFORMATION. I'M GOING TO THE BOOK STORE TOMORROW TO GET THE BOOK. I WROTE THE ISBN# DOWN SO SHE WILL BE ABLE TO ORDER IF THEY DON'T HAVE IT. THANK YOU AGAIN. I'M ALSO GOING TO CHECK OUT THE MADD WEBSITE WHEN I'VE DONE POSTING. IT WAS SO KIND OF YOU TO TAKE THE TIME WHEN YOU SHOULD OF BEEN SLEEPING :-) I ALSO WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT NO ONE WAS DRINKING. THEY WHERE JUST JOY RIDING TO GO TO THE MALL. AND PASSING ANOTHER CAR. I GUESS THE YWO CARS INVOLVE KEPT PASSING SO THEY KEPT PASSING. THE LAST TIME SHE TRIDE TO PASS SHE NIPPED ONE OF THE CARS AND THEN LOST CONTROL WHEN THE CORNER CAME UP. THE OTHER MOMS HERE HAVE HELPED ME ALOT AND I WILL ALWAYS KEEP YOU AND THEM IN MY PRAYERS.
I was reading my old emails today and foudn this beautiful prayer, and I thought how wonderful it would be if more people had access to it so here I am posting it , if you wish copy and paste in your email account so you can send it to others. Thank you and may God bless your every step : )
Please take a moment to relax your mind and humble your heart to focus on Christ. Allow God, to be the only person
on your mind while you read this prayer. If we can take the time to read
long jokes, stories, etc., we should give the same respect to this prayer.
Friends that pray together, stay together.
I thank You for this day. I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding
God. You have done so much for me and you keep on blessing me.Forgive me for everything I have done,said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask
now for Your forgiveness. Please keep me safe from all danger and harm. Help me to start this day with a new
attitude and plenty of gratitude. Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things. Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. Let me continue to see sin
through God's eyes and acknowledge it as evil. And when I sin, let me repent, and confess with my mouth my wrongdoing,
and receive the forgiveness of God.
And when this world closes in on me, let me remember Jesus' example-to slip away and find a quiet place to pray. It's the best response when I'm pushed
beyond my limits. I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart.
Continue to use me to do Your will. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others. Keep me strong that I may help the weak. Keep me uplifted
that I may have words of encouragement for others. I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way. I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood. I pray for those who don't know You intimately. I pray for those that will delete this without sharing it with others. I pray for
those that don't believe. But I thank you that I believe. I believe that God changes people and God changes things. I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes that they
are out of debt and all their needs are met. I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than
God. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that
confesses them willingly.
This is my prayer in Jesus' name Amen.
If you prayed this prayer, change the number in the subject box before forwarding the message so people can SEE how many people have done so. God Bless!!!!!!!!!!!
Just repeat this phrase and see how God
Lord, I love you and I need you, come into my heart, please.
Pass this message to 8 people except you and me. You will receive a miracle tomorrow. Don't ignore and God will bless you. Know that you are already
blessed by the person whom sent this to you.
p.s: I gues I don't have to explain the miracle part right?! :)
Hello asmileforyou, and thank you for posting here at our Circle, we welcome all who post here, and treasure their prayers for us all. I've received this prayer before myself, but never tire of it, it's very beautiful! I love the lines that say "I pray for all my sisters and brothers" what a wonderful world it would be if we could only grasp that concept, that we're all one!
And also the line that says, "Continue to use me to do Your will, Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others, ....Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others"
There are many lines in that prayer that are very beautifully put, but these lines especially 'speak' to me at this Circle for Beareaved Parents. May God bless you in whatevery way He knows you need, and our prayers and good thoughts are with you,
I'M GLAD YOUR SON CAME TO VISIT YOU. MY SON STILL LIVES HOME WITH US AND ALOT OF TIMES HIS GIRL FRIEND DOES TOO. I DON'T MIND SHE KEEPS ME COMPANY. WE GET ALONG GREAT. YOUR RIGHT BOYS WILL BE BOYS AND WHEN THEY ARE CLOSE THEY DO ALOT OF THINGS TOGETHER JUST LIKE TWINS DO. I'M FROM A FAMILY OF NINE CHILDREN AND I'M SECOND TO THE OLDEST AND WHEN MY MOM HAD HER LAST BABY 24 YEARS AGO SHE HAD TWINS BOYS. OUR HOME WAS ALWAYS BUSY.
I SEE CHRIS WAS BORN IN DECEMBER. WE HAVE ALOT OF DECEMBER BIRTHDAYS THAT MONTH. I START IT OFF ON THE FIRST. MY GRAND DAUGHTER'S IS THE SECOND MY SISTER THE 12TH MY DAD ON THE 15TH MY NIECE THE 23 AND SISTER IN LAW THE 19TH AND A ANOTHER SISTER IN LAW ON THE 20TH A NEPHEW THE 24TH. I THINK I'VE GOT THEM ALL :-) IT'S A SPECIAL MONTH WITH WHEN JESUS WAS BORN.
YESTURDAY WE SPENT THE DAY AT THE LAND THE THREE OS US AS A FAMILY. I TOOK ALOT OF PICTURE'S AND A VIDEO. CHRIS HAD ALOT OF FUN HELPING HIS DAD CUTTING THE TREES DOWN AND USING THE CHAIN SAWS. I ON THE OTHER HAND WAS A NERVOUS WRECK. I DON'T LIKE CHAIN SAWS. I'M GOING TO GO GET THE BOOK TODAY SO I CAN READ IT AND I'M ALSO GOING TO FIND THE OTHER ONE YOU HAD BOUGHT THROUGH THE NET. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE HELP. I'LL BE ON LATER TODAY. GOD BLESS YOU.
Hi Debby, it's so nice when we love the women that our boys pick, isn't it, my Chris's girlfriend is a lovely young lady, I couldn't have done a better job myself of picking her out for him! That's nice that they live at home still for you, keeps you company, as you say, and keeps the house 'full'.
Oh, yes, December is a busy month for us as well as you I see, I also have a sister-in-law that was born on Christmas Day, that's truly a blessing, to be born on that wonderful day!
It sounds as though you and your family had a good day yesterday, Debby, spending it together, I'm happy for you, and now you have it captured on video, to look at whenever you want. No, I don't like chainsaws much myself, you really have to know how to operate them, which I know your husband and son must. In my hands, it would be dangerous!, :) That's good that you're getting the book, it will certainly help you, and so will the one I recommended, "Lament for a Son", you can buy it right here at Beliefnet, it's on the Grief and Loss Page, on the right hand side. It's a wonderful book, especially when you've lost a son, as we have. Have a wonderful day Debby, and may our prayers and love carry you through the day,
I WENT TO THE LOSS AND GRIEF FRONT PAGE AND I'VE DECIDED TO GET THREE OF THE BOOKS, I WROTE THE ISBN #'S DOWN AND I'M GOING TO THE BOOK STORE TO GET THEM. I HAVE A MEMBERSHIP FOR WALDEN BOOK STORE SO I GET A DISCOUNT. I'M ALWAYS BUYING BOOKS FOR THE CHILDREN THAT I WORK WITH. I TRIED TO POST AGAIN BUT I NEEDED TO CLEAN MY COMPUTOR I HAD 9 INFECTED FILES SO IT WOULDN'T LET ME POST. NOW IT'S CLEANED I CAN POST. I HOPE YOU ALSO HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY AND MAY ALL OUR PRAYERS CARRY YOU THROUGH THE DAY ALSO.
WHAT A BEAUTIFUL PRAYER FOR ALL OF US TO READ. WHEN IT'S PUT INTO A BEAUTIFUL WAY IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ALL OF US. THANK YOU FOR THINKING OF US. LOVE AND PRAYERS TO YOU AND GOD BLESS YOU!
Hello Debby, good for you! Reading those books will help you, believe me, I read all I could get my hands on at the beginning, and still do! And you get them at a discount, so that's even better! Glad to hear your computer was cleaned, infected files could surely shut it down in a hurry! It was a beautiful day here, and I spent it mostly outside, I love nature, it soothes my soul, so I spend a lot of time outdoors during these wonderful summer months. Happy reading Debby, I know you're going to get a lot out of them,
I BOUGHT SIX BOOKS AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO PUT ONE OF THEM DOWN. 1.A TIME TO GRIEVE BY CAROL STRAUDACHER SHE IS A GRIEF CONSULTANT & LECTURER AND I THOUGHT I MIGHT NEEDS SOME OF HER HELP. HER BOOK IS DONE IN 3 STEPS OF GRIEVING AND YOU DON'T READ IT FROM FRONT TO BACK. YOU FIND WHERE YOU MIGHT BE IN YOUR STAGE OF GRIEVING. YOU JUMP AROUND BECAUSE SOME OF YOUR GRIEVING COULD BE IN THE BEGINNING OR END OR EVEN THE MIDDLE. SHE HAS QUESTIONS AND SPEAKS ABOUT THEM AND AFTER THAT YOU SAY A PRAYER TO HELP YOU. I THINK IT'S A GOOD BOOK SO FAR. 2.WHEN BAD THINGS HAPPEN TO GOOD PEOPLE. I CAN'T WAIT TO FINISH THIS ONE. I READ THE FIRST CHAPTER SO FAR. 3. LIVING WHEN A LOVED ONE HAS DIED BY EARL A. GROLLMAN 4. A POWER OF A PRAYING PARENT BY STORMIE OMARTIAN 5. THE EVERYDAY GUIDE TO PRAYER 6. THE EVERYDAY GUIDE TO GOD BY HUMBLE CREEK. WHEN I'M DONE READING THE FIRST THREE I WILL GO AND GET SOME OTHER ONES TO READ . THERE WAS SO MANY TO CHOOSE FROM. I WAS LOOKING FOR 2 OTHER BOOKS BUT THEY DIDN'T HAVE THEM SO I FOUND SOME OTHERS. I KEEP GOING BACK TO THE FIRST TWO BOOKS. WHEN I FEEL DOWN I'LL SWITCH. IT HAS HELPED.
YESTURDAY WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY AND I ALSO SPENT ALOT OF TIME OUTSIDE. I'VE DECIDED TO STAY HOME ANOTHER DAY. MY OLDER DOG ISN'T DOING WELL. SHE IS 16 AND NEVER HAD ANY HEALTH PROBLEMS UNTIL I TOOK HER FOR A YEARLY CHECK UP. THEY FOUND A TUMA OR KENDY STONE ABOUT THE SIZE OF A TENNISE BALL AND I NEED TO BRING HER IN TODAY FOR X-RAY AND DO SURGERY. THE VET SAID SHE COULD HAVE ANOTHER YEAR OR MORE BUT CAN'T GARANTEE ABOUT ANY OTHER PROBLEMS ALONG THE WAY BUT MY HUSBAND SAID TO DO THE SURGERY BECAUSE HE KNOWS HOW MUCH WE ALL LOVE HER. IT WILL COST BETWEEN 300.00 TO 500.00 BUT SHE IS ONE OF MY GIRLS. SO I MAY NOT BE ONE FOR ACOUPLE OF DAYS. I NEED TO GET THIS DONE BEFORE MY CLASSES START NEXT WEEK.
I WILL KEEP YOU ALL IN MY THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS DAILY. GOD BLESS YOU FOR GIVING ME SOME WISDOM. THANK YOU SO MUCH!