Prayer Circles

Quigley~
Thank you so much for your kind words, and your prayers. They mean a lot. Thanks for your advise also.You are a sweet person. As far as the forgivness goes, yes, I CAN forgive Joe, but I'm not sure I can or even WANT to get back the feelings I once had for him. As you've read before from me, EVERYTHING about us, our lives, our "love", for HIM, was just the booze. It didn't have a thing to do with me or us. He used me for everything from money to sex, and has said so! To me, that means this whole "relationship" we have is built upon a LIE!! A whole mess of lies, and deciete. How do I LIVE with that, and whats more, WHY would I Choose to????? If I'd have known this from the start, I would not have even gone out with him, much less married the man!! Please dont get me wrong, I am very,very thankful for the strength, and wisdom that God has given me, and that people do come to me for advise, but it would sure be nice for ME to have someone I can lean on, and trust when I need someone too. (I also dont mean to sound like I'm on a pity pot!) Do you understand what I'm saying?
NO. My friend does not have relapses as long as she takes her meds. I've only seen her once on a manic episode, cuz of not taking them, and she was a totally different person. I was worried about her, and told her so, and let her know in no un certain terms that she couldn't do that, because it could really mess her up!! She stays in a bad relationship tho, cuz she doesn't want to be alone. I can imagine the difference you see in Brett. He should take the dose prescribed tho. I hope and pray for you, that this is an answer to your prayers, just remember if it is not, that GOD DOES KNOW BETTER THAN WE DO!! This is true in my situation also-just not for you! Haha!
How did your review go? Hope it went well. Yes, my friend is also on anti-depresants. Keep staying away from the booze, Q, and also Brett with his meds - that combo could really mess him up. You are in my prayers, as well as the rest of you on here.
God Bless, and keep you in His loving care.
Love,
Angel

Well hello everyone sorry I havent been here for a couple of days it has been still very hectic and I truely and honestly believe with all my heart that God is allowing Satan to test my faith. To see if I can be a "Job". or if I will turn from Christ. In a sense, Satan has succeeded but by the grace of God I have seen the deciet and have come back to the place where I can fellowship and be encouraged and hopefully encourage others.
I want to thank everyone for the assurance of your prayers for me and my husband.
I would like to first start with you Quigley. You have such a wonderful heart. As I was reading through the post that I missed, I began to cry when I read your to Angel. Everything you had to say to her about fear, applied to me as well. I am afraid to forgive Sidney for fear of disappointment yet again. Fear is nothing but the devils work. Although you were speaking to Angel, I took your words to heart. The first step is to give it to God.

Now to you angel, I honestly understand what you are going through. Although my husband has not outright said that he is using me, I feel that he is at times. Especially when he is out using drugs. I feel as if I am only a roof over his head, food in his mouth, and clothes on his back. I believe this because of how he acts and the things he does when he is stealing from me and our children to get his next high. it is hard to distiquesh wheather to forgive or not to forgive. In Matthew 6:12, part of the Lords prayer. It states "and forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors." it goes on to say in verse 14 "For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:", v.15 " But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses" Wow, What a wonderful and eyeopening passage. This is one that I myself will have to hold dearly. I wish you the best of luck with Joe.
Soulspeak: My heart cries out to you as you are recovering from your heart attack. I hope your recovery is going well. I will keep you in my prayers. Do not let this get you down and keep your eyes on Jesus and what He has to teach you from this.
No to give an update on Sidney. He has been doing somewhat well. He has been struggeling with the alcohol but as far as I know no drugs. A praise, nothing is gone from my house. lol. Seriously though he has been sober for going on 24 hours now. PTL But on an even better note, He was struggeling with the temptation to go out today. He called out to me to help him. he need to talk to someone for encouragement. I first showed him this site, but he wanted something where he could speak with someone right now. We found a site called sober24 where they have a chat system. We got on there and got so much helpful advice not just for him but for me as well. advice more geared towards recovery and the 12 steps. it was a wonderful expierence to be able to go there togeather. I ask you to keep us in your prayers. For our marriage to survive these troublesome times and for Sidney to stand strong and look the Devil in the eye and say NO.
Thank-you all and my prayers are with you.
Dear heavenly father,
how preciouse is your name. I come to you to ask for forgiveness of my sins. Help me Lord not to give in to the Devil when it comes to fear. Help me Father God to look to you for the comfort I need in life. I also want to ask you to forgive me for being unforgiving. I ask you to help me to forgive as you want me to forgive and as you have forgiven me time and again.
I love you Lord and I praise your wonderful name. I ask you to enter into my heart and clean it from all the decietfulness. I come to you today to ask you to watch over soulspeak as she recouperates from this heart attack. Heal her physically and spiritually. Give he the strength she needs Lord. I ask you to be with Angel as she is struggeling with Joe. Ease her heart Father and show her the way to a happy and healty life and relationship. Show her how to forgive as you forgive. as for quigley, Dear Lord Shine down on this wonderful and wise Child of yours I thank-you for giving her the wisdom you have given her and I thankyou for puting all of these wonderful people in my life to comfort and encourage in your most precious and holy name. amen

Dear Heavenly Father I praise You for who You are and for Your Son Jesus Christ who died for all sins of the world. Please keep Tommy's family in the hollow of your loving arms and bless them Lord for this site. May his death from this addiction not go in vain and let it be a lesson for his friends that they will see that drugs of any kind can and will kill them. I also want to lift my daughter up to You at this time because she is struggling to stay off of drugs. Keep her and all those that are addicted to drugs and or alcohol safe. Take them in your arms and hold them and remind them that you love them and care for them and that through you they can concour their addiction because with you on their side nothing is impossible. Put Christian people in their path to encourge them and pray for them. Guide them to this site so that they can see that someone is praying for them. We may not know them but You Heavenly Father do know them and We are praying for them (you)no matter who they are. Put it in their hearts to seek help through You and a drug program. I want to thank you for answering these prayers that are on this site. I ask all this in the name of Jesus Christ Your son. Amen and Amen

GOOD MORNING TO ALL!!!
Closs- I appreciate your words, and my heart goes out to you as well. You are in my prayers. Its like I told Quigley - I CAN, and DO forgive Joe, but that does NOT mean by any means that I have to stay in this emotionally abusing relationship. I do not believe this is where the Lord wants me. I have now had confirmation of this from two loving God fearing Christian people who didn't even know they were giving me confirmation. God does not want us to be miserable!! This is not a new situation with Joe - it has been going on for 4 years now. I have done ALL that I can do - and it has been to no avail.Just thought I needed to pass that on to you all.
I do have one observation that I HAVE to mention to you Closs, and any one who has interacted with me on here, knows when something is bugging me, I gotta tell it like I see it!! Haha! I noticed in your post that you gave satan respect by always CAPITALIZING his name, and he is in no way worthy of any thing CLOSE to respect!!!!! he is a lying, sneeking lowest life form there is! And you did not use capitals (all the time)when referring to our wonderful Lord. I'm sure it was not intentional on your part, but its the little things like that -that satan can use to get a foot in the door. Just thought I should bring it to your attention. :-)
Vidie~ You are in my prayers as well as your daughter. Recovery - true recovery takes a LOT of work, paitence, prayers, and there is power in prayer, and in numbers! We will all be praying for you.
I do not mean to overlook anyone, but I must cut this short, and I HAVE to get a message to KRIS!!!!
WHERE IS YOUR NEW NUMBER?????? THE WORDS YOU LAST SPOKE TO ME ON THE PHONE - WERE THE SWEETEST WORDS IN MY HEAD LAST NIGHT, AND I HAVE GOT TO SHARE IT WITH YOU!!! YOUR WORDS WERE "WAIT - WAIT - I DO THINK IT IS IN GODS PLAN FOR YOU, BUT WHAT I AM GETTING RIGHT NOW IS WAIT" REMEMBER?????
CONFIRMATION OCCURED LAST NIGHT!!! :) SUCH A BURDEN LIFTED. PRAISE GOD! :) I STILL HAVE THINGS TO WORK THROUGH BUT PRAISE GOD!! GOD BROUGHT ME TO IT, AND GOD WILL GET ME THROUGH IT!! PTL!! OUR GOD IS AN AWSOME GOD!!
Thank you all for your prayers and concern, and encouragment. Above ALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART! THAT IS THE FIRST AND GREATEST COMMANDMENT. KEEP THE FAITH - NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH CHRIST JESUS!!
THANK YOU LORD FOR EVERY TRIAL, EVERY "PRUNING", EVERY TESTING. PRAISE JESUS. I LOVE YOU LORD. THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS BEING THERE - ESPICALLY WHEN WE GET TO THE POINT OF QUESTIONING IF YOU ARE OR NOT- THANK YOU FOR BRING US THROUGH TO WHERE WE KNOW YOU HAVE BEEN THERE ALL THE TIME.
EVERYONE HAVE AN ABSOULTLY WONDERFUL DAY IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD.
LOVE & FAITH
ANGEL

Hello All,
Hope everyone is doing well. I could do better. Had a few drinks last night and am worried. My Dog kept crying last night and couldn't walk..Needless to say, I called in sick today and took him to the Vet. He is having surgery $421.00 on Monday. He has a huge tumor under his armpit on his left back leg, so it makes it painfull for my Cocker Oscar to walk..I no..Its just another excuse to drink..Havnet been getting drunk but have been having a few beers still here and there..I pray his surgery goes well and there is no cancer..He is 10yrs old...my BEST friend and buddy whom means the world to me..I pray you all have a great weekend and overcome any trials that are weighing you down, I pray God is there for you and answers all your prayers and helps us all overcome our addictions, In Jesus name I pray,
AMEN
Love you all,
Bettyann

Will start this by saying HI to all on here. Was finally getting time to visit with KRIS for a while these days have been pretty busy. Right now my 85 year old dad has been with us and he is nothing but Trouble! He can get very nasty to my husband and i. We do have plans of putting him back in a nursing home within the next three months. He had been in one and we brought him with us as he was not eating and lost lots of weight but now he eats good now that he is out of the nursing home. He is so embarrassing to have anyone around that i really shy away of having anyone in so it finally go to the point i asked KRIS to not come in very often . The one time she was in for the 1st time all week he was talking behind our backs to her. So please be praying for us. Which mnight lead to a real good subject here on this post yes he used to be a drinker, well a good christian frien of mine once told me something like 10 years ago that even though people quit drinking if they don't get counseling they never lose the games that are played!Whoops, would you believe that he has never lost them even at 85 years of age. yes my friend had been an acholic and was delivered by God. She ended up being a counselor so which she later taught the Hazelton program which is a program a lot of the movie stars have gone to it is in Minnesota they do teach that around the country. Not to good of news to think one could carry that dirt around your whole life. ANYWAY; KRIS says to say hi to all of you and she loves all of you and you all are in here prayers CINDY,QUIGLEY,JONI,BETTY ANN,SOULSPEAK,CHRYSTI AND EVERYONE. CINDY she says she is sending you a package. NO she does not have a phone yet. SHARON

HI i do believe this is for more than one person as i was reading over the posts i ended up getting one word i kept feeling led to and that was the word wisdom. Started also thinking of a very good verse in the bool of James which by the way Kris and I had been discussing lately and that is Blessed is the man that endureth temptation;for when he i tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the LORD hath promised to them that love him. James1:12. Got my bible out and kept reading this is great But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed. James1:14 I have heard time and time again God will always offer a way out. So go on in the chapter a little farther and it says WHEREFORE LAY APART ALL FILTHINESS AND SUPERFLLUITY OF NAUGHTINESS, AND RECEIVE WITH MEEKNESS THE ENGRAFTED WORD, WHICH IS ABLE TO SAVE YOUR SOULS. JAMES1:21 Ihave been praying for all of youo even during the night sometimes i wake up and just lay there and think of you all and pray. The burden i carry for all of you is out of Love. Ins't that something how you can carry burdens for people you have never met. HOPE AND PRAY IN THE NAME OF JESUS THAT HE KEEPS YOU ALL IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND. PLEASE LORD DISPENCE ANGELS AROUND ALL THE PEOPLE ON THIS SIGHT IMMEDIATELY. AND PLEASE HELP OUR HEARTS LORD TO STAY LOVING TO THE ONES THAT HAVE WRONGED US. THANK YOU JESUS FOR BEING OUR SAVIOR. AMEN SHARON

Hello all. I am just getting on to let everyone that you are all in my heart and prayers. I am going to keep it short tonight because we are all ill. I do want to thank Angle though. I am so glad that you checked me on my typing because I never even realized it and you are correct about satan using it as a loophole. from now on I intend to carefully make sure that doesn't happen again.
Dear Lord Jesus,
I praise you wonderful Name. You are the Alpha and Omega, The Beginning and The End. I life up my friends tonight. I ask you to bring Joy to their lives. Help them to be healed from this addiction. Give them comfort and patience to do your will Lord.
In Your Heavenly Name
Amen

My prayer if for David, that you help him eat healthy and give him inner peace about the pain of the past. Help him to love himself Lord. Erase any wounds that contribute to his need for food. Help him not to be angry all the time and give him the peace that meets all understanding. Let him feel our love and concern and allow him to open his heart so we may help him. Amen

Moring to ALL,
Dear Jesus, I pray you bless all on this site. I come to you today Dear Lord to protect my dog Oscar as he has his surgery. I pray there is no cancer and he comes out of anthesia just fine. I pray the angles surrond him and he will be fine, I pray you help Todd and I get thru work today and not worry so much, I pray you help our healths' and diets and drinking..In Jesus name I ask all of this;;;Please be with all my friends on here and give them direction, peace, love and patients..Guide them Lord to the right path and help us all overcome all our addictions...thank you for all my friends and this site,
God bless,
Bettyann

Hello all. I am swamped at work today but wanted to say hi and to let eeveryone know I'm thinking of them - Angel, Good point. It's true that you can forgive him but that doesn't mean you have to be with him - I want what makes you happy so - I pray that you find someone who will treat you with the love and respect you deserve - Clossi - my prayers are with you and Sydney - stay strong and I pray that he can find the strength to stay sober - BA - I'm praying that you can stay away from the drinking - Brett and I had another argument about my drinking Fri night - and I know he is right - I just can't seem to stop at a couple - and of course he can - and doesn't understand why I can't. I hope your dog Oscar comes through with flying colors - it sounds like he means a lot to you -
well, I should go back to work - love you all - hang in there monday's almost over.

Dear Lord,

I pray that you watch over my friends, Clossi, Angel, Sharon, Kris & BA and guide them through their difficult times and help them to make the right decisions. Give them strength and inner peace. I pray that you can help me to make the right decisions in life. I want to follow the path you intended for me to. Please watch over Taylor, Brett, Tyler and I and keep us close as a family unit. I pray we can be patient with one another and loving. Thank you for helping me get thru this Mon. since it was a long one and I pray that business can pick up for Brett so that we can start paying some of our debts. I pray you can guide me into the direction I should take as far as job wise. Amen.

Hello, i want to thank you quigley. you to angle. you are both so right. especially when you have children involved as i do. Today was our oldest daughters fourth birthday, this would be the first one that he has ever spent with her and he couldnt even come home to see her with her cake and open her presents. It was so sad that it had my mom in tears to see her grandbaby sad on her birthday because her daddy wasnt there. I have decided that i will not subject my child to that type of pain ever again and told him to leave for good. any ways have a good day
Thank-you Lord for giving my precious Kenya another year. watch over her as she grows into a beautiful woman
keep her close to your side. Help me to be a better mother to her Father. Give me the strength as i go this on my own. Be with all the wonderful people You have sent to this site. Bless them with Your presence.
Amen

Good Evening everyone~
Its good to read your posts, and know that we are all still hanging on!
Clossi~ I will be praying for you - it takes alot of strength to do what you are doing. I know - I raised 3 boys by myself, & never got one penny of support! Praise God!! He led us through it all! I know how it breaks your heart to see your kids hurt from stuff like that. Seen it too many times. You keep your FAITH and your HOPE in our Lord, Jesus Christ. He will be with you always, and He will never leave you. (Ever notice how it is always US that does the leaving?)
Sharon - My prayers are with you, but I don't understand about your Father very well. Why would he be embarrassing to you? Did he not bring about your life? Does GODS word say "Honor your Mother & Father"? I don't remember it saying "if he's not too embarrassing to you, or if you think they deserve honor, or if you feel like honoring them" It just says HONOR YOUR MOTHER& FATHER. Period. OBEYING GODS WORD is what counts! Not how someone makes us feel. Don't mean to get on a soapbox, but felt led to say that. Also don't mean or want to upset ya - hope ya understand. :)
Quigley~ I have such a good feeling about you since I last said you sounded more at peace than I heard you in a long time.I really do.Have you tried AA meetings? The hardest step is the first meeting, ya know. But there are a lot of really good people there, that are in the same boat. I really think you should give them a chance. Go enough times to get to know some of them, and see if it doesn't help. Thank you for your words. God did not put us here to be doormats!(referring to myself here:) You are in my prayers.
Bettyann~ I hope all went well with Oscar today, and that he will be home soon :) I pray you are staying away from the booze!! You know you should!!
Soulspeak~ I hope you are recovering well from your surgery, and things are going ok with your son, and grandkids.
I will be praying for you.
Kris~ I MISS you SOOOOOO MUCH!!! It will be such a blessing when you can get back on here, and you can get a phone again. Love ya lots!
For everyone who comes to this site:
May you find HOPE, LOVE, UNDERSTANDING, FAITH, ENCOURAGMENT, and a FRIEND to share your ups and downs with. YOU WILL FIND PRAYER PARTNERS HERE!!
God Bless you all and keep you all in His loving arms.
Love,
Angel
P.S. Joni~ Hope all is going ok with you and Racheal, and Christian. Drop us a line once in a while~you are still in our thoughts and prayers :)

Dear Lord, I ask that you let your heavenly spirit descend upon my cousin, Lynzi, tonight Lord. Let your spirit fill her to overflowing capacity with the feelings of self-worth, love, peace and security. I pray Lord that her heart never aches again. I pray that she finds security and love in you, the kind she never felt as a child. Lord only your power can fill that void in her life. The void that drives her to use drugs, pull away from family, not feel worthy of love and affection. Lord, please I beg you, lay your hands on her as she sleeps tonight and give her all she needs. My heart aches for her. Love your daughter. Thank you for what you are going to do in her life. Amen.

Good Evening,
Just wanted to say a prayer before bed:
Thanks for all your prayers...I got home from school and PRAISE JESUS...My dog lived thru the surgery..He's in terrible pain but the Vet said hes ok( the tumor) not cancerous but he has Hip Displaysia..so we need to work on that..pills, anti inflamitory's..excersise...etc...once again thanks all for your prayers..Im also starting to notice quite alot my typing and home work..Im starting to think Im dyslexia..I spell things backwords when I write or type but yet I no how to spell???/ Like their? thier? Strength? strentgh?..I see lately reading my posts and home work I displace the words?????????? Hope its nothing????? God bless you all and have a great nights sleep and once again thanks sooooooooooo much..My buddy will be ok ......~~~~~~~~~~Love you all :)
Bettyann

Cindy No don't worry you didn't step on my toes. To keep people out of my hoouse now as much as possible cuts down on a lot of confusion. This man will say nasty things to people and sit behind their back and make funny cutting looks at them. He has caused so much trouble my husband has even threatened to leave because of having him here , my husband comes before him. Like i told Kris you have to earn the respect for the title of father. Honey i well have many times honored this man. 25 years ago him and his son [my half-brother ] lived with us when i had 4 children to raise, never paid a dime and i never c/o and never asked him for a penny.[Thought a little history whoul help you understand] And even at that time no one else would take him in. And i have one sister and 2 more brothers. And its the same today as it was then none of them will take him in. He belongs in a nursing home, he was in one a year and a half ago for 8 months and he was jumping in bed with the woman and driving my daughter crazy [she is a nurse at the nursing home where he was] she said he was the toughest resident she ever cared for. They finally had to send him to the hhospital for 2 weeks and they started putting him on more medicine. Well he started passing out and we'd rush to the hospital and he'd be just fine no stroke no heartattack nothing. So i decided to have him put in a different nursing he was there 4 days and passed out again. The DR. LISTENED,PRAISE GOD. I told him if you take him off some of that medicine he's on you will find the problem. They cut way back. He hasn't passed out since that day and that was 10 months ago. Then he quit eating lost weight, so we brought him here he has gained weight and eats lots more that i do. I THOUGHT WE WERE HONORING HIM BY BRINGING HIM INTO OUR HOME IN SPITE OF THE FACT HE NEVER IN HIS LIFE EARNED THE RESPECT OF ANY OF HIS CHILDREN. But Cindy i don'T BELIEVE in the way he talks to people. I don't care to have the PEACE of people stripped that enters our home. So i hope this has helped you understand. BYE FOR NOW, Sharon

Clossi,

Wow. That was a huge step. Congratulations. It takes a very strong person to make a decision like that. How sad that your husband doesn't realize what he has lost. But he will... it seems it takes some longer than others but if it is anything like any of my relationships - he will be begging to come back, that's when it is the toughest. I left Brett not too long ago because of his temper and his cruel actions. But I knew when I did it that I was unsure it was the right thing to do. I knew there was a good person in there - I just couldn't figure out what was wrong. Now that he is on the medication he has changed so much. But it didn't change who he was totally, he still has a temper and can say angry things. I guess it's what you are willing to deal with. My prayers are with you that you stay strong and you do what is best for you and your children. I pray that God opens new doors for you - doors to peace, love and happiness. Love and God Bless Q

Angel, thank you for your words - I am more at peace - funny that you can feel that through my words. I still have my daily worries of finances, Taylor's disabilities and such but I know that God is guiding me. And I can't tell you how much it helps me to have all of you here to pray with and to talk to. I hope things are going better for you. You are starting to sound a little more like yourself. I have been to 1 NA meeting but basically did it for show. Brett asked me that last week if I had ever been to an AA meeting. He has because of being in anger management and such. It's a thought. I still have a hard time telling other people here locally (besides Brett). I hate the stigma that comes with it. Anyway, I'll give it some thought. Thanks, for caring.

BA, that's great news. Hope life is going easier for you in everything else. I pray you are staying sober - I'm trying. I'm up and down. But I'm not giving up.

Sharon, I have been were you are and I understand how hard it is to keep trying to respect someone when you don't feel in your heart they deserve it. My dad was a great dad when I was growing up but now he has become a pot smoker who gets high from the time he wakes up until the time he goes to bed. He doesn't work and my mom supports them both. I get so angry at him - because he just gave up on life. But I try to remember what he did for us as kids - I know it's hard - you really have to work at it sometimes. And until Angel wrote those words, I hadn't realized that I haven't been the most respectful daughter lately.

I should go back to work. My review went ok except for I did not get a raise and I don't make enough money here - I'm not sure what to do - look for another job again or wait it out. I pray God directs me in the right direction - in the past year it seems I haven't been able to find a job that works for me. I worked at the last one for 4 years and I miss being in that comfort zone. I have actually never had to worry about money like this and now I know what stress it can cause. I pray that Brett can get his shop up and running again - things are very slow there because he had other people running it when he was going thru his divorce and they cheated people etc., so his reputation has been damaged. I pray that I can give my financial worries over to God and learn to live on a budget and not to waste my money on things I don't need. Lord, please help Brett to build his reputation back up and help me to make the right decision on whether to look for a new job or keep trying at the old one. Thank you for the happiness in our relationship and please help me to stay away from drugs and alcohol. Amen.

Hello all,

Where did everybody go? Hope all is good with everyone. Things are busy here. Brett's business really picked up (see, prayer works!!!)which I'm very thankful for.

I'm having a few problems with my ex and his new wife saying things to Taylor about how I'm not a good enough mom and I'm not quite sure how to handle that. I pray that we don't end up back in court - he is threatening me - I just wish he would leave me alone. Other than that, all is well - Hope everyone has a good Thursday - God Bless Q

Dear Lord,

Thank you for letting the shop business pick up - I am very grateful for that. I pray that Brett and I's relatinship can continue to move smoothly and I pray that I can be the best mom possible to Taylor - I pray for patience and understanding - I pray that Rick will move on with his life and accept that I have sole custody of Taylor and respect the court's first decision. I pray that we don't have another court battle. Help me to make fair decisions when it comes to his visitation. Amen.

Hello Everybody,
Hope things are going good for you people. I pray that you come back soon and share your stories with us. I pray that God leads us all in the right Direction and on the right path we are to follow. I hope everyone has a good weekend..I work and have finals all next week so Im very very busy studing daily..I pray that we can overcome our addicitons in life and trust in our Dear Lord, I still am drinking a beer here and then .......I pray that all your hearts are at peace and God watches over all your family and problems..How have you been Bonnie? Kris? Haven't seen you on here in a long time, I pray for you all nightly and hope to talk soon,
God Bless
Bettyann

HHHHHHHEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOO!!EVERYONE,GUESS WHO. YEEHIII, I AM BACK, AND I AM STILL HAVE'NT READ ALL THE POSTS YET , BECAUSE I WANTED TO GET ON HERE AND TELL YALL , THANKS BE TO GOD, I AM ABLE TO COME BACK ON AGAIN , AND I HOPE THIS TIME FOR A VERY LONG TIME.JONI, SHARON GAVE ME YOUR MESSAGE AND I SIT DOWN RIGHT THEN AND WENT TO PRAYING AND ALSO I SIT DOWN AND WROTE YOU BACK ON A PIEACE OF PAPER SO WHEN I DID GET TO COME BACK , I WOULD BE ABLE TO RELL YOU EVERYTHING I WANTED TO SAY, MY EMAIL IS ON HERE , GO TO MY EMAIL AND SEND ME YOURS OR PUT IT ON HERE AND I WILL EMAIL YOU.LOVE YOU VERY MUCH, KRIS.

CINDY;WHERE DO I BEGIN, I HAVE REALLY MISSED OUR TALKS AND I DO HAVE A PHONE ON AND I WILL SEND IT YOU AND PUT IT ON HERE,AND I TRIED TO CALL YOU LAST NIGHT , BUT YOU WERE GONE , I WILL TRY AGAIN LATER. I AM WAITING TO GO SEE JOSH'S LAST HOME BASKETBALL GAME , BUT I WILL BE BACK ON HERE SOON.I HAVE BEEN THANKING GOD SOOOOOOOO MUCH FOR ALLOWING THIS CHANCE TO BE BACK WITH ALL OF YOU AGAIN. GOSH, I HAVE SO MISSED ALLOF YOU .HERE IS MY #318-495 3041, AND 318-495 3126.CALL ME SOON AND I LOVE YOU LOTS, KRIS.

SOULSPEAK; I WAS SO TOUCHED AND MOVED BY YOUR KIND WORDS AND THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME ABOUT YOUR FAMILY AND I TOO HAVE CHEROKEE, AND I ALSO AM CHOCTAW,FRENCH,AND IRISH. AWHILE BACK GOD BLESSED ME WITH THE GIFT OF BEING ABLE TO SPEAK AND PRAY IN NATIVE AMERICAN LANGUAGE AND I HAVE NEVER DONE THAT, BUT THE ONES WHO HAVE HEARD IT, SAY IT IS LIKE A SHAMAN WOMON PRAYING AND IT SOUNDS ALMOST LIKE A PRAYING CHANT. ALL I KNOW IS THAT I THANK GOD THAT IS GIVING ME THAT OPPURTUNITY AND BLESSING AND I LOVE HIM SO VERY MUCH THAT SOMETIMES WORDS JUST DONT SEEM TO BE ENOUGH. I DO HOPE YOU ARE DOING BETTER AND TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF, SHARON HAD CAME AND TOLD ME ABOUT YOUR HEART ATTACK AND WE WENT TO PRAYING, I LIFT YOU UP IN HIS PRECIOUS CARE AND I DO HOPE THINGS CONTINUE TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER FOR SHERRY AND SHE WILL TURN HER HEART OVER FULLY TO OUR LORD AND SAVIOUR. ONLY WITH HIM CAN WE BE FULLY COMPLETE AND CONTINTED.WITH HIM WE ARE PROMISED THE GREATNESS OF IT ALL. HIS LOVE, HIS MERCY, HIS PRENCENSE, HIS SALVATION THAT IS GIVEN FREELY. ALL WE HAVE TO DO IS REACH AND GRAB HOLD TO IT. LOVE AND FAITH, KRIS

SHAROIN; THANK YOU FOR BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL FRIEND AND ALLOWING ME TO HAVE A PRIVELEDGE TO STAY IN TOUCH THROUGH YOU WITH ALL THIESE I HOLD AND LOVE SO DEAR ON HERE. THANKS,SEEMS TO SIMPLE OF A WORD TO DESCRIBE HOW THOUGHTFUL AND CARING IT WAS THAT YOU DONE THAT FOR ME. LOVE YA LOTS, KRIS.

CHRISTY; MY PRAYERS ARE SO WITH YOU AND I WILL BE PRAYING THAT GOD KEEPS YOU AND YOUR LITTLE ONES SAFELY INHIS CARE.LOVE AND FAITH KRIS

QUIGLEY;DID'NT FORGET YOU, KNOW I CANT DO THAT, DONT YOU?HAHA I HAVE SO PRAYED FOR YOU AND BETTYANN ON HERE, AND I TOLD YOU I WOULD LAY IT REST ON THAT WITH BRETT, BUT I DO HOPE FOR YOUR SAKE EVERYTHING WORKS OUT LIKE YOU WOULD LIKE TO.YOU KNOW YOU ARE LOVED AND YOU MATTER AND YOUR SOMEBODY. I WILL EMAIL YOUIN A LIITLE WHILE. LOVE ,KRIS

BA;OK, WWWWWWEEEEEEELLLLLLLL FOR NOIW I AM JUST GOING TO SAY, I HAVE REALLY MISSED YOU TOO AND STILL LOVE YA, STILL HANGING IN THERE BELIEVEING YOU ARE GOING TO OVERCOME THIS. WHERE THE BELIEF AT? GOTTA HAVE IT, AND KNOW YOU HAVE IT. LOVE ALWAYS KRIS. LOOK FOR AN EMAIL SOON.

RENEE; MY FRIEND,YOU ARE GREATLY MISSED ON HERE AND I HOPE YOU ARE DOING OK. LET US HEAR FROM YOU.LOVE ALWAYS ,KRIS

FOR EVERYONE ELSE, PLEASE DONT THINK THAT I HAVE SIDED YOU IF I HAVE FORGOTTEN TO PUT YOUR NAME IN HERE . I WILL FINISH THE POSTS AND WRITE YOU ALL SOON.ALL OF YOU , ILOVE AND HAVE MISSED YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLL SSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

CINDY; I CANT WAIT TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT ALL THAT WITH JOE. I AM SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT GIRL,THIS MAY BE WHAT HE NEEDED TO WAKE UP.LOVE YA GIRL, KRIS

quigley; i am so very proud that you have been making such great steps to recovery in your life. i am proud of you wanting to make the first steps to aa.that is wonderful and i am so proud of your determination, and i must say that i am glad to hear that brett is encouraging that, but yall bith need to be encouragable to and for each other.i am glad he is on his medications. that is good to hear. i;m still no big fan of his, but i do want you to have the best that you deserve, and i am sorry to hear that about taylor and i do hope she is doing better. she has had such tough breaks in her little life that she needs nothing but love, protection and care. and i am sorry to hear that younare having promblems with rick and his new wife. he is just trying to cause trouble, he does;nt really want to take you to court for taylor , or he would have done that a long time ago.he has no grounds to stand on of you not being a good mother for taylor, we know you are nad you are doing your best and that is all any of us can do. you hold your head high, continue to seek and search the goodness that you heart can hold AND THE BLESSINGS THAT YOU CAN FULLY RECEIVE FROM GOD, WHEN YOU FULLY LET HIM COME IN AND LET HIM TAKE OVER.CONTINUE TO TRUST AND HAVE FAITH . AND KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED, YOU MATTER AND YOU'RE SOMEBODY.LOVE YOU ALWAYS, KRIS

Good Morning Friends ......I praise the Lord that I have been given this day and dedicate my self to serve the Lord today because after the scare I had I truly realize the meaning of "one day at a time" and all we have is today..............First of all I am doing well....I still cannot lift more than 2 pounds or climb stairs until the stents are embedded and I go back to the cardiologist Wednesday to see if I can do more....I am so blessed to have had the support of my children and church. I should say the support of part of my children. I have had to exert some really tough love with Jerry and one of the main things the cardiologist told me was "no stress".........I have forgiven Jerry and I did not prosecute him by law but I wrote him a "stay away letter" and had him sign it and a copy of it is logged at the police dept........My son-in-law came and changed all the locks on my doors and replaced the door Jerry usually breaks in with a steel door. I feel like I am living in Fort Knox........While I was in the hospital, Jerry used the opportunity to withdraw over a thousand dollars out of my checking account.I was only in the hospital 4 days.......He had also gotten into my financial papers and wired himself money off my credit cards which I rarely use and when confronted by my three other children sat right in front of me and told the other kids I had given him permission to use my cards.....and bank account.........I thought I had pin numbers pretty well hidden but he found them.........Of course he was insane on meth and everything was everybody elses fault.......He has contacted my daughter and she is working with him on getting things back on track. Gotta get to church will write more later.....GOD BLESS..soulspeak

soulspeak;i'm glad to see you are doing better.i am however sorry to hear that about jerry.until he is willing to admit to himself he has a promblem and he needs help, he will not change.im so sorry that he took advantage of you that way , espicially while being in the hospital. i think that giving him some tough love may just be what he needs. because an addict or junkie or alcoholic thinks of nothing else but their selves and how they can get the next drink, fix or high .and they dont realize the consequences of their actions and what they are doing to the ones who love them. but all at the time that matters to them is their way to get what they need.i hope that jerry will understand what he is doind to his family and hisself and get the help he so desperatly needs. because until he does and he allows GOD TO ENTER IN TO HIS HEART ;he is in a lost situation. because there is no peace in that kind of life existance, there is no joy,there is no worthiness. only that he may know deep down that what he is doing is wrong , but at this time, the drugs seem to be more important.i truly do hope that he will turn away from this and allow his heart to open to the GOODNESS OF WHAT GOD CAN OFFER. THAT IS THE GREATEST GIFT WE CAN RECEIVE, THE BLESSED GIFT OF SALVATION FROM OUR LORD JESUS.I HOPE YOUR DAUGHTER WILL BE ABLE TO GET THROUGH TO HIM.my thoughts and prayers and heart is with you and your family, and i truly hope jerry will see that this road is a lost path , that leads to nowhere, nothing but empitiness and heartache. and he will allow the truth to enter, and LET GOD TURN HIS HEART TO PEACE, JOY, COMFORT, LOVE, TRANQUILTY, HAPPINESS AND ALL THE GREAT THAT WE AS HIS CHILDREN ARE AND CAN BE, IS BECAUSE HE IS THE GREAT I AM.TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND JUST KEEP HOLDING ON TO YOUR FAITH AND HOPE AND BELIEF AND LOVE IN GOD .HE WILL NEVER LEAVE OR FORSAKE YOU. LOVE AND FAITH, KRIS.