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bonnie; how much pain you must be feeling and i feel so much for you and the promblems that are weighing you down, it is sad when our loved ones make the choice of putting their addictions in front of everything else,it never solves the situation , it only makes it more heartbreaiking for the ones that love them , but i am glad that he has made an effort to go with you and paige to church, that is a start, and i or anyone else here can sympathize with you very much on lashing out like you did. i know many a times i felt like doing the same thing to the ones i was with , but was too afraid.only one time did i ever do that, and it was because i had taken all i could takeand i ran for cover when i did it , but yes you can take so much and then you just cant take it anymore, andi think that is what happened with you, you saw someone you have truly loved throwing his life away again and putting it in front of you and paige, and that can be too uch to bare at times. i hopem it knocked some sence in him and he will be willing to comprehend and understand that you love him and that it is tearing your family apart that he is choosing to hide behind this when things get a little complicated or too hard, and too much to overcome. that is the choice he has to make , to do what is right for his family or to do what he has been doing. and yes i do tell it like it is when it comes to all that, because as the saying goes, been there , done that.we have to willing to let GOD'S HANDS FULLY MOLD AND SHAPE US , tyo let HIM BE FULL FOCUS, TO LET HIM HAVE FULL CONTROL. MY HEART IS WITH YOU BONNIE AND I WISH THE VERY BEAT FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. LOVE,KRIS.

HEY QUIGLEY;SO SORRY TO HEARABOUT YOUR PROMBLEMSWITH BRETT AGAIN, AND IT'S NOT JUST BECAUSE I KNOW THIS SCENARIO ALL TOO WELL, IT;S THAT MY FRIEND, I WORRY ABOUT YOU AND TAYLOR , I WILL WRITE BACK SOON , WHEN I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO SAY HERE, YOU ARE LOVED YOU MATTER , YOU ARE SOMEBODY.

BA; SORRY TO HEAR THAT YOU HAVE BEEN HAVING TO WORK SO LONG HOURS AND IT IS TIRING I KNOW , AND I AM STILL VERY PROUD OF THE THINGS YOU ARE ACCOMPLISHING AND I STILL BELIEVE IN YOU AND QUIGLEY. NEED TO GO FOR NOW .BUT I LOVE YOU ALL. IN MY HEART ALWAYS, YOU ALLL ARE . KRIS

Please pray for me now to have the courage and the strength to withstand the anger that my daughter Rachael is hurling at me right now. She is angry because her boyfriend keeps forging her name on hundreds & hundreds of dollars worth of bounced checks. Her finances are in such disarray and she is looking to me to bail her and her baby out again. Two years ago we set her up in an apt. not once but twice and now she said she is trapped living with John and his family. My husband (her stepdad) feels VERY strongly that she can't live with us--she and her boyfriend both have heroin addictions. She won't hear of us taking her 10 month old son while she puts her life back together in rehab & AA. She only goes to Outpatient rehab. She doesn't qualify for a long term program because she is still working full time. She is still in denial blaming her boyfriend for bringing the drugs home and me for not getting her out before she got hooked... She says I am abandoning her in her most desperate time of need. I am trying to stop rescuing her so she will come to terms with her situation and turn in surrender to JESUS to turn her life around. This is so hard for me to back off and just TRUST that the Lord will make a way for her when she is willing to go HIS way and not her own. Please pray for our difficult crisis. I know with God all things are possible...
Thanking Him and you for your prayers
Joni

Dearest Joni~
My heart is very heavy for you as I read your post. I have been exactly there. Your daughter CANT blame herself, because that would make her responsible for her actions ~ she cant face that fact.Realize when she is hurling remarks at you, THAT IT IS THE DRUGS and not her.YOU HAVE TO STAY STRONG FOR HER SAKE, YOUR SAKE, AND CHRISTIANS SAKE, AS WELL AS YOUR MARRIAGE. YOUR HUSBAND IS RIGHT. YOU DO NOT NEED THE INSANITY IN YOUR HOUSE. IF YOU DID, THEN WHERE WOULD CHRISTIAN HAVE TO FEEL SAFE, SECURE, LOVED?????!!!YOU ARE NOT ABANDONING HER!! TUFF LOVE IS TUFF!! nO ONE BUT HER MADE HER DO THE DRUGS!! NO ONE MAKES HER DO THEM OVER AND OVER. THERE IS HELP IF SHE WANTS IT, AND I GUESS SHE DOESNT THINK SHE NEEDS THAT MUCH HELP RIGHT NOW. YOU STAY STRONG, AND THROUGH ALL YOUR TEARS, AND PRAYING, AND JUST CALLING OUT TO GOD, YOU JUST STAY STAY STAY FOCUSED ON JESUS CHRIST. HE WILL BRING YOU TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS IF YOU DO HIS WILL AND LIVE FOR HIM.KEEP CHRISTIAN AS OFTEN AS YOU CAN!! GO TO HIS PARENTS HOUSE & visit! Even if you dont like to, you CAN do it for your grandson!! HE is the one you need to focus on! Whats best for him! He cannot make any decisions for himself! All he can do is be put subject to drug users taking care of him! THATS NOT FAIR!! HE DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS!!! BECAUSE OF GOING THROUGH ALMOST THE VERY SAME SITUATION WITH MY SON, I GET very much TO THE POINT OF THIS SUBJECT. I HAVE LEARNED THE HARD WAY A LOT OF TIMES, BECAUSE I TOO WANT TO PROTECT MY CHILDREN! BUT IF WE AS PARENTS DO NOT LET THEM LIVE, AND MAKE MISTAKES, AND learn FROM THOSE MISTAKES, THEN WE ARE NOT BEING THE PARENTS WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE!!! I will be praying for you Joni, and you please just ask God for strength, and guidence, and dont give up for that little boys sake!!! He needs to be loved, and living with drug addicts, is not the way to recieve it!!Let us hear from you soon, OK? Thanks! :)
Love & Prayers,
Cindy/Angel

Hi all,
Sorry Joni about your problem, yes Tuff Love is hard but is needed here, My mom@dad did the same thing when my brother was a Senior in hi school and on drugs, they quit bailing him out, he finally went to jail then joined the Military and straightened out his life. Years later he thanked my parents for being so strict and not letting him come back home or bail him out of jail. I will be praying for you, Trust Jesus, he is the only answer. I pray the rest of you are doing fine, Im going thru a trial now with work, they are messing with me giving me 16 hrs a week caz the lady that writes my schedule is jealous that Im moving forward with my life and she is stuck at Albertsons, I cant believe they treat me this way after 12 yrs!!!! I did drink last night after the union told me they couldn't help me since Im not avaiable to work nights caz I'm in school.I had 3 beers then today took a different approach~~~~I prayed, read bible and told God Im quitting again, its not solving anything and things at work are getting bad. I put my faith and trust in him that I will start getting more hrs at work to pay bills till Im finished with school which is April.The enemy is trying to bring me down and I WONT ALLOW IT..I just have to hang in there and hope things will get better at work, other than that life is good. I will be thinking and praying for each and all, need to shower to go to school,
Gob bless you all and talk soon,
Love Bettyann

Dear Kris, BA, Angel, Joni, Bonnie and anyone else I missed!

Hope everyone is having a good Tuesday. Gotta make this one quick - took part of my break to go to Dutch Bros! I love their brain freezes.

Dear Lord, I pray that your love and strength be with Joni as she deals w/ the struggles w/ her daughter and that her daughter may find her way to you. Please heal those of us who have addictions and are praying for our own or loved ones' recovery on this site. I thank you for the last few days of peace between Brett and I and I pray that we can continue to communicate and understand one another - please grant me patience with those I love the most. I pray for inner peace and contentment for all of us who pray together. Lord, direct me to a job in which I can be content to stay at. Amen

DEAR JONI; I STAND IN TOTAL AGREEMENT WITH ANGELCINDY;YOU HAVE TO REALIZE THAT YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND HAVE DONE ALL THAT YOU CAN, YOU HAVE BEEN THERE TIME AND TIME AGAIN, BUT UNTIL SHE IS READY TO MAKE THE COMMITMENT FOR HERSELF AND HER SON CHRISTIAN, THEN IT IS A FIGHTING BATTLES OF STRUGGLES AND DISSAPOINTMENTS. FOR YOU ARE TRYING TO REGAIN A DAUGHTER BACK THAT YOU LOVE SO MUCH , THAT IS JUST NOT THERE RIGHT AT THIS TIME, BECAUSE IN HER EYES ANDALL THE DRUGS ARE AND HAVE BEEN MORE IMPORTANT, AND NOW TAHT SHE IS FACING ANOTHER DILEMMA; WHO DOES SHE WANT TO CRYING TO AND BAIL HER OUT,???YOU!!!BECAUSE SHE KNOWS THIS IS THE PATTERN THAT HAS WORKED FOR HER FOR SO LONG. SHE HAS GOT TO MAKE UP HER MIND AND SEEK HER HEART TO KNOW THAT THIS IS NOT A LIFE THAT IS BEFITTING ESPICALLY FOR A CHILD TO GROW UP IN , THAT IS THE ONE RIGHT NOW THAT NEEDS YOU THE MOST. YOUR DAUGHTER, NO MATTER HOW TOUGH IT IS , HAS TO REALIZE THAT IS PATTERN OF HERS IS NO LONGER GOING TO BE ACCEPTED, AS WELL MAYBE THIS TIME WILL BE DIFFERENT, NO IT WONT, IT IS ONLY A MEANS FOR HER, BECAUSE SHE HAS NO WHERE TO TURN OR GO RIGHT NOW. SHE IS YOUR DAUGHTER AND YOUR LOVE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE AND WE ALWAYS WANT THE BEST FOR OUR CHILDREN AND ALWAYS WANT TO BE ABLE TO BE THERE AND BE THERE FOR THEM WHEN THEY ARE IN TROUBLE OR HURTING OR THERE IS A PROMBLEM. THERE IS A PROMBLEM HERE.A BIG PROMBLEM , FOR YOUR DAUGHTER AND HER BOYFRIEND WHO IS SHOWING SUCH IRRESPONSIBILITY, AND JUNKIES AND ADDICTS OF DRUGS WILL SAY AND DO ANYTHING, THEY DONT CARE ABOUT NOTHING OR NONE BUT THEIRSELVES AND WHENTHEY CANGET THEIR NEXT FIX. SO PLEASE DO NOT WORRY ABOUT HAVING TO DO THE TOUGH LOVE THING RIGHT NOW , BECAUSE IT MAY JUST BE THE BEST THING THAT COULD EVER HAPPEN TO HER. YOU DID'NT CHOOSE THAT LIFE FOR HER , SHE CHOSE IT HERSELF, YOU DID'NT CHOOSE THE ONE SHE WANTED TO BE WITH , SHE CHOSE HIM HERSELF, YOU DID' NT MAKE ALL THESE PROMBLEMS FOR HER, SHE DID IT TO HERSELF AND SHE IS THE ONLY THAT CAN CHANGE IT AND RECTIFY IT AND SHE FULLY AND TOTALLY NEEDS TO FIND HER WAY TO GOD, FOR HE IS THERE FOR HER ALL SHE HAS TO DO IS REACH OUT AND ACCEPT HIM IN. MY PRAYERS WILL BE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN MIND ALSO. LOVE &FAITH, KRIS.

CINDY; IT WAS GOOD TO TALK TO YOU LAST NIGHT, I ENJOYED OUR CONVERSATION.AND THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU SAID TO JONI.AND GIRL YOU KNOW I GOT YOUR BACK. HAHAHA.GLAD THINGS ARE GOING BETTER IN SOME WAYS, KNOW WHAT I MEAN.AND REMEMBER WE TALK ABOUT VICTOR LAST THE OTHER NIGHT , WELL HE CALLED YESTERDAY TO TALK AND THURSDAY IS OUR FIRST GRANDBABY ZACHARY BIRTHDAY, HE WILL BE 7 YEARS OLD.I ASK V ARE YOU GOING TO CALL ZACHARY ON HIS BIRTHDAY, HIS REPLY,I'M GONNA TRY IF I DONT FORGET.UUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!I JUST KINDA WENT, OOOOKKKKKK!!!!!UMMMMMMM!!KINDA SPEECHLESS ON THAT ONE.HAHAIT IS GOOD TO TALK TO HIM , BUT THINGS LIKE THAT ,NOT ACCEPTABLE AT ALL. ANYWAY!!!!!!,GOT YOUR AND BA EMAILS TODAY, IM REALLY SLACKING ON MY WRITING BACK, BUT I AS YOU KNOW GET THERE EVENTUALLY!!!!HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT REST OF THE WEK AND I WILL TALK TO YOU SOON. LOVE YOU ALWAYS, AND ALLOF YOU ARE SO IN MY HEART, WE ARE LIKE FAMILY HERE AND I THINK THAT IS SO GREAT , HOW AMAZING OUR GOD IS THAT HE CAN BRING US TOGETHER IN THE PATH OF GREAT FRIENDSHIPS.

BA;THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY ON YOUR BROTHER . IT SOUNDS LIKE IT MADE A HUGE DIFFERENCE IN HIS LIFE AND THAT IS WONDERFUL. SORRY THEY ARE MAKING IT HARD FOR YOU AT WORK AND THAT YOU AE HAVING TO WORK SUCH LOND HOURS NOW. I HAVE WORKED THOSE 16 HOUR SHIFTS BEFORE AND THEY ARE VERY DRAINING ONN YOU . I AM NOT GOING TO COMMENT ON THE DRINKING AT THIS TIME , IM GONNA JUST SAY THIS;I WILL NOT STOP HAVING FAITH THAT THIS CAN BE DONE AND YOU CAN STOP , BUT AS OF SAYING ANYTHING AT THIS TIME, NO I DONT THINK SO RIGHT NOW,IT;S ONLY WORDS, RIGHT??????????//////LOVE YA LOTS, AND IM STILL GONNA BE HERE FOR YOU, BUT I CANT FIND THE WORDS RIGHT NOW TO SAY ON THE OTHER, SO ANYWAY.KRIS

QUIGLEY; SAME APLLIES GIRLFRIEND!I JUST AM SPEECHLESS. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY ANY MORE, EXCEPT AS I TOLD BA, I STILL LOVE YALL, AND AM HERE ALWAYS, BUT AT THIS TIME,I JUST HAVE NO WORDS. LOVE YA LOTS . YOU ARE LOVED, YOU MATTER, AND YOU ARE SOMEBODY

My spirits are lifted high as I openly wept while reading all your posts. I don't know any of you personally but we are truly family... Thank you for the words that I know the Lord wants me to hear. These are the toughest things to do but The Lord is so good to me to bring me to this website to share my burden with all you wonderful people. It is my heartfelt prayer that the Lord be with each of you in a special way this day and that you will FEEL HIS PRESCENCE in such a real way as I did reading the posts. I will remember you in my prayers as well. Thank you again
With HIS Love,
Joni

MOrning Kris and ALL:
Heading to work. Kris I didnt mean that I work 16 hr days, I meant they are messing with me at work and instead of 40hrs per week, they cut me back to 16hrs...THats@@@@#####....^^^^ I called the Union and they are trying to help, I need more than 16 hrs a week to pay bills.
Dear Jesus,
I pray today as I head to work you help me control my tempor if my boss brings up my hrs to me and why I called the Union, I pray I can let this anger towards work go and just do my job and move forward noing I will be out of there sometime this summer. I pray you give me the strength to get thru this new Quarter at school studying Medical terminology, I looked at the book last night and the words I have to memorize depressed me but I no I can do it with your help. I pray Todd and I get over are flu and cold for it's taking a drain on both of us, I pray for all else in this site you be with them and hear their problems and answer their prayers Dear Jesus, Give us all patience, guidance, Love,Peace,..I thankyou for keeping me sober yesterday and I look forward to staying sober today, In jesus name I pray for all suffering addictions that you make us strong to say NO and walk away from the temptations, Watch over all my friends this week Lord and lead them in the right direction,In jesus name I pray,
Amen
Love Bettyann

Hi everyone, I am having some computer trouble. So I won't be able to stay on long. Just wanted to say that I am doing well and I hope that You are all well. You are all in my thoughts and prayers always. Love, Renee P.S. Hope to have this comp. running again soon. I'll post again as soon I figure out the problem. Miss You All.

JONI; WE ALL HERE WELCOME YOU THIS SITE AND GLAD THAT THE LORD LED YOU HERE. WE STAND BEHIND AND BESIDE EACH OTHER HERE AND I DO HOPE THAT YOUR DAUGHTER RACHEL WILL MAKE THE RIGHT DECISIONAND TURN HER LIFE OVER TO THE LORD OUR SAVIOUR JESUS CHRIST;GOD OUR FATHER. I HOPE THIS TIME SHE WILL GET THE HELP THAT SHE NEEDS AND DO WHAT IS RIGHT IN THE LORD AND HER CHILD.ONCE AGAIN WELCOME.LOVE AND FAITH, KRIS.

RENEE;HEY YOU!!!!!!WAS SO GLAD TO SEE YOU ON HERE AGAIN ,SORRY YOU ARE HAVING TROUBLE WITH YOUR COMPUTER THOUGH.HOPEFULLY YOU 'LL GET IT FIXED SOON AND BE BACK WITH US AGAIN. HOPE ALL IS WELL AND YOUR FAMILY ARE ALL DOING GOOD. WE LOVE AND MISS YOU LOTS HERE. IN GODWE TRUST , WE STAND , WE OVERCOME.KRIS.

ba' sorry to hear about your work,did they give you a reason for why they done such a drastic cut in your hours?there suppose to let you know why they did that. and it is good you brought the union into this, for they should be able to help, i dont understand the promblem why they have'nt yet.hopefully you will get the help you need in this situation and it can be resolved.know that anger ,just like alcohol does'nt solve the promblem, it's only human that we allow our emotions to get the best of us at times,but when we stoop to their level, thenare we any better than the ones that wronged us?put itin GOD'S TRUSTING HANDS and let HIM be the negociatorand LET HIM BE YOUR SORCE of calmness, peace and serenity. and ba you and quigley both,have got to stop this GOD FORSAKEN rollercoaster that you are on.on and off you get back on the same ride and it leads to desruction , so why take a ride that is topsy turvy, bumpy, rough, hard, and leading nowhere but to a miserable and terrible ride. it is time to get off the roller coaster that has been yall;s lifestyle.you cant get drunk or have a feewwwww beers and then in the same breath ask GOD over and over for the same thing , you just cant. for all you have to do is ask HIM ONE TIME and that is it, it is up to yall to have the faith and belief that what you asked has been recieved.HOLD TO THE FAITH AND BELIEF THAT HE GAVE YOU INSIDE , AND KNOW THAT WHAT YOU ASKED FOR HAS BEEN GIVEN IN HIS NAME.HE IS NOT GOING TO ABANDON YOU, THROW YOU AWAY,AND HE WILL NOT DECEIVE YOU EVER, BUT RATHER INSTEAD RECEIVE YOU INTO HIS PRECIOUS ARMS AND HE WILL CARRY YOU THROUGH IT ALL.believe, and recieve in HIS PRECIOUS NAME.i know some of this might sound a little harsh, but IT IS THE TRUTH . and it is time to STAND FOREVER IN TRUTH.DONT DECIEVE YOURSELVES INTO THINKING WHAT I AM DOING IS OK, NO IT IS'NT!!!1BECAUSE YOUY CANT KEEP ASKINGGOD TO HELP YOU STOP DRINKING AND YOU STILL DO IT .WHAT IS THAT SAYING?/////HE LOVES YALL SO AND HE IS RIGHT THERE AND HE WILL NEVER LEAVE OR FORSAKEYOU, BUT YOU NEED TO KNOW IN YOUR HEART THAT WHEN YOU DO THE THINGS THAT ARE NOT PLEASING IN HIS SIGHT, THEN WHAT HAVE YOU GAINED?
FOR WHAT SHALL IT PROFIT A MAN ,IF HE GAIN THE WHOLE WORLD, AND LOSE HISN OWN SOUL?MARK8:35;

DEAR LORD; I COME IN REQUEST AT THIS POINT AND TIME AND ASK THAT YOU CONTINUE TO SHINE YOUR PRECIOUS LIGHT ON BA AND QUIGLEY, MAKE THEIR STEPS TO BE RIGHTEOUS ONES AND LORD JESUS I ASK THAT YOU CONTINUE TO FILL THEIR HEARTS WITH SUCH AMAZING GRACE, MERCY AND LOVE.LET THEM KNOW THAT YOU ARE ALL AND ALL. HELP CONTROL BA DRINKING AND ANGER, FOR I KNOW THIS HAS ALREADY BEEN DONE INYOUR NAME,LET THEM BE WILLING TO TAKE THE RIGHT PATHS.LORD, JUST LIFT THEM OUT OF THIS DESPAIRING LIFE CHOICES THAT THEY HAVE MADE FOR THEIRSELVES, THIS I ALSO I PRAY FOR JONI DAUGHTR ALSO.AND ALL WHO COME HERE IN THIS SITE ; THAT THEY MAY KNOW THAT IN YOUR NAME ALL THINGS ARE DONE AND MADE FINAL. LET THEM LORD THAT YOUR LOVE AND GUIDANCE IS ALWAYS THERE , THEY JUST HAVE TO REACH FOR IT AND FOR YOU IN THEIR HEART , SOUL , ,IND AND SPIRIT. IN ALL THIS I ASK ANS PRAY IN YOUR PRECIOUS NAME, IN JESUS NAME I PRAY , AMEN AMEN AMEN!!!!!!!LOVE ALWAYS , KRIS.

BA, I'm sorry to hear about your job - trust me, I know how it is to be unhappy in that situation. You've worked there 12 years? Don't they go by senority? I will pray for you to keep your temper and for them to increase your hours. Kris, when you say you have no words or don't know what to say - are you talking about my situation w/ Brett or drinking?

Brett and I have been doing good so far ever since the police episode - I haven't been doing very good on the drikning and I'm tired today. Oh well, today is a new day.

Dear Lord,

I pray for BA that she can control her temmper at work and she will be able to find the means to pay her bills - Keep her strong against the temptation of alcohol as I pray I can do myself. Thank you for letting Taylor and I discover the soccer team in which she is starting - I think this will help her make friends - I pray that you watch over Brett and I and keep us patient and understanding w/ one another. Lord, direct me to a career in which I am meant for and help me find my nitch - Watch over all my friends here on this site and help themm w/ their problems and situations in which they are dealing w/. I pray for peace and contentment for all of us who pray together. Amen.

quigley; i meant what i said in what i wrote at the end of ba;s.and also yes, i have decided to leave that situation in GOD'S HANDS WIRH YOU AND BRETT. I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY,this is are going to have to learn yourself. this topsy turvy is not relationship material , it is not what GOD wants for you , and so i dont know what else to say on that matter, but the one main thing i am TALKING of is this consistency to drink and think that that is going to solve all of yall's promblems.i been where you and so many of you are, and still are, and i dediced that enough was enough.and i got some rude awakenings that WOKE ME UP. AND YALL DO THIS , I KNOW THAT YALL CAN, YOU HAVE TO BE WILLING, DONT KEEP ASKING FOR THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND YOU JUST GOING TO KEEP DOING IT, WHAT IS THAT SOLVING, NOTHING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.!!!!!!!I AM SUPPOSE TO STAND BOLDLY WITH YOU ON HERE AND THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO DO. I AM NOT DOING IT TO BE SPITEFUL, HURTFUL , MAEN SPIRITED OR HATEFUL.I AM DOING IT BECAUSE YOU NEED TO HEAR THESE WORDS.I STAND STRONG IN ALL I DO AND SAY,LET THE STRENGTH OF MY FORTRESS BE WITH YOU OH LORD, TODAY AND ALWAYS;THIS SHOULD BE THE MOTTO ,YOU GO BY EVERYDAY.AND STOP WORRYING ABOUT THE BAD THINGS,AND THINGS THAT BRING YOU DOWN TO WHERE IT GETS YOU AND BA AND ALL WHO DO THIS TO THE POINT WHERE YOU THINK A BEER OR DRINK OR DRUG IS GOING TO SOLVE THE PROMBLEM. WHEN YOU GO TO GOD IN PRAYER BELIEVE IN WHAT YOU ARE PRAYING AND KNOW THAT GOD HAS ALREADY ANWSERED IT, KNOW WHAT I MEAN. HE HEARS EVERYTHING YOU SAY, BUT HE WANTS MORE TO, HE WANTS YOU FULLY TO COME TO HIM. NOT PARTLY, NOT WHEN IT IS SUITABLE, NOT JUST FOR A LITTLE WHILE , BUT ALWAYS, JUST AS YOU ARE WITH HIM ALWAYS, HE WANTS YOU TO BE THERE FOR HIM ALWAYS. HOW ARE YOU EVER GOING TO KNOW THE WILL THAT GOD HAS IN STORE FOR YALL , IF YOU DONT GIVE IT TO HIM.I LLOVE YALL AND I KNOW THAT GOD BROUGHT ME TO THIS SITE MONTHS AS WITH SO MANY OF US HERE, AND I HAVE MADE GREAT FRIENDS HERE WITH YOU ALL AND IN MY HEART AND PRAYERS YALL ARE. A FRIEND OF MINE ASKED ME ONE TIME,I DONT KNOW HOW YOU CAN DO THAT,HAVE COMPASSION LIKE THAT?AND I SAID TO HER, IM TOO MUCH LIKE MY DADDY IN MANY WAYS, AND MY HEART IS FILLED WITH LOVE FOR THEM AND FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE HURTING, WHO NEED HELP, WHO NEED TO KNOW THEY ARE NOT ALONE, AND AS LONG AS GOD WANTS ME TOO , O WILL CONTINUE TO DO JUST THAT. AND I AM ALSO LOYAL, I DONT WALK AWAY WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH, I JUST KEEP PLOWING ON THROUGH. FOR IF YOU TOUCH THAT ONE PERSON, THEN WHAT A REMARAKLE ACCOMPLISH YOU HAVE MADE.IF I DID'NT CARE AND LOVE YALL , AS I SAID BEFORE I WOULD'NT BE HERE.YOU ARE LOVED, YOU MATTER, AND YOU ARE SOMEBODY, ALL OF YOU, AND IN MY HEART ALSO. KRIS

Good Evening all~
Joni, I am glad that you were uplifted here! How are you? How are things w/ you & your husband?(I know what a strain this can be on the two of you)How is Christian? You just LOVE that little boy, and let him feel your love for him. It will work wonders! You keep your eyes on Jesus and He will give you the strength to get through whatever you may face! SOMEONE HAS to be strong through this, and it looks to me like you have been elected!! God will get you through. Trust in Him only, and always believe without a doubt that you do the right thing in His sight. He will never leave you or forsake you. It may seem like it at times of great dispare, but in the end, you will see His hand at work.I, my son, and my grandson are all living testiment of that! When you think about it, who else CAN you trust to know best? NO ONE!! For we are all human, and therefore limited in our thinking. God is NOT limited!He IS the begining and the end! He IS the same yesterday, today, and forever! Praise God in all you do, and ask for guidance in all you say. LET Him be your comfort. Just curl up in His loving arms when you feel you don't have the strength to go on, or fight another battle, and He will renew your strength. For the war is already won! We just have to fight the battles sometimes. I will keep you in my prayers. Love in Christ, Cindy/Angel

RENEE!! I am so glad to read your post! :) Sorr about the computer trouble! They can be a pain at times! Glad to hear you are doing ok tho. This site is still so wonderful! Thank you again for having it! It is a blessing, and such a great place to share Gods word to us!and what He is doing in our lives. Tommys life was by no means in vain!! This place is BECAUSE of his life, and I think that is quite an honor! God Bless you & keep you always.
Love, Cindy/Angel

Kris~
It was indeed good to talk with you the other night! Thanks for the emails too, and I will write to you soon.Things are going well as for the other that we talk about! I agree with what you are saying to BA, & Quigley too.
BA & Quigley~
I too have not said anything about your posts of drinking in the past few days, or of the viloence that you(Quigley) and Bonnie talked about. I was too upset by it all, and needed some time to think and pray about it first. I really feel bad for you guys, but it doesnt seem that you are willing to let God have control of your lives. I mean, when you pray to God for help over and over for the same thing, you are telling Him that you dont belive He can do anything about it. When you ask for His help not to drink or get high, and then pick up a beer or a drug, WHAT DO YOU EXPECT HIM TO DO???????? HE WILL ALLOW YOU TO LIVE THE LIFE OF YOUR CHOICE!!! YOU EITHER WANT GOD AS YOUR LORD AND SAVIOUR OR YOU DONT!!! YOU CAN NOT IN ANY WAY HAVE IT BOTH WAYS!! ITS TIME TO EITHER DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT OR FORGET IT! THERE IS A.A. OUT THERE THAT MEETS EVERY SINGLE DAY OF THE WEEK, AND IT IS A SPIRITUAL PROGRAM! SO WHAT IS STOPPING YOU, BUT YOU??? IF YOU DONT LIKE GOING THEY WILL REFUND YOUR MISERY!! GOD IS NOT GOING TO STOP YOU FROM DOING WHAT YOU CHOOSE TO DO!!!! ITS CALLED FREE WILL!! HE WANTS US ALL THAT IS TRUE, BUT HE WILL NOT FORCE ANYONE. IF YOU CHOOSE TO BE MISERABLE, THEN THAT IS WHAT YOU WILL BE. IF YOU CHOOSE TO DRINK AND DRUG, AND FIGHT THEN THATS WHAT YOU CAN DO! WHAT KIND OF AN ATTUTIDE IS IT THAT SAYS "I HAD SOOOOOO MANY DRINKS OR SOOOO MUCH DRUGS, BUT HEY! NOW ITS TIME TO PRAY"!!!!!!!!GOD HATES THE LUKEWARM!!! IT IS BETTER TO BE HOT OR COLD, THAN TO BE LUKEWARM!! ITS IN HIS WORD!! READ IT!! Proverbs 28:9 says "He that turneth away his ear from hearing the law, even his PRAYER shall be an abomination." DO YOU HEAR THAT??? DO YOU UNDERSTAND IT?? GOD GIVES US INSTRUCTIONS IN NO UNCERTAIN TERMS AND HE MEANS WHAT HE SAYS!!! Those are not my words, they are GODS words. I just dont want you guys to keep choosing all the things of this world INSTEAD of what GOD wants for His children. This world, and the things of it will take you straight to hell on a one way ticket!! PLEASE GET YOU LIVES RIGHT WITH GOD, AND EVERYTHING ELSE WILL FALL INTO PLACE! IT REALLY WILL!! I DO NOT WANT TO OFFEND ANYONE, BUT I HEAR YOUR CRYS, AND I SEE THE CHOICES YOU MAKE, AND THEY ARE NOT THE SAME, AND IT CONCERNS ME VERY VERY MUCH! ALL IT TAKES IS A LEAP OF FAITH!! I say all these things with the love of Christ, and I pray that you recieve them in that way. You are very dear to me, and very special people that can have such happiness and contentment in this life if you but give your everything to God.
God Bless and keep you, and all with addictions until you come to Him completely, and surrender yourselves to Him. I love you all. Really
Cindy/Angel

AMEN CINDY!THANK YOU FOR THE WORDS OF TESTAMENT HERE,AND I DO HOPE THE WORDS THAT GOD GAVE US TO SPEAK HERE , WILL BE MET BY THE HEARTS OF BA, QUIGLEY AND BY ALL. I TOO LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH. BUT YOU KNOW ALSO , GOD WILL NOT BE MOCKED. HE KNOWS WHO IS FOR REAL AND WHO IS'NT. WHO IS WANTING TO DO HIS WILL , INSTEAD OF THEIR OWN.BA, QUIGLEY AND ANYONE ELSE IN THIS SITUATION,THIS IS NOT AN ATTACK, IT IS JUST THE BONOFIED ,SIMPLIFIED, UNDISPUTED TRUTH. GOD;S TRUTH.HE LOVES YALL SO MUCH , AND IT HURTS GOD TO SEE THE CHOICES YOU MAKE, HIS CHILDREN WHO NEEDS TO COME TO HIM FULLY WITH OPEN ARMS. YOU KNOW IT IS BAD FOR YOURSELVES, BUT QUIGLEY, YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER, AND THAT SHOULD BE YOUR FIRST PRIORTY TO DO WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE FOR HER WELL BEING.I KNOW YOU LOVE HER VERY MUCH,WHAT DO YOU THINK THAT IS DOING WHEN AN INNOCENT CHILD IS CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF FIGHTS, DRUNKENESS, HIGHS AND LOWS. ???//////THESE CHILDREN ARE OUR FUTURE, OUR NEXT GENERATIONS, SO WHAT ARE YOU SAYING TO THEM, OH IT'S OK TO DRINK , TO LET A MAN ABUSE YOU AND USE YOU,IT'S OK TO LET THEM GET AWAY WITH IT, CAUSE IT'LL BE BETTER THE NEXT TIME.THAT IS JUST SO UNCONCEIVEABLE TO DO THAT.AND NOONE IS JUDGING ANYONE, FOR THAT IS NOT FOR US TO DO ; IT;S JUST LOVE, AND WAITING TO SEE THE BEST FOR YOU.TURN IT TRULY AND WHOLLY OVER TO GOD,PLEASE MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICES.BA, IN YOUR LAST POST HERE, YOU WERE USING SYMBOLS TO HIDE CURSE WORD , AND THEN IN THE SAME ,SAY A PRAYER. IT IS TIME FOR YALL TO DO THIS WILLINGING FOR THE BETTERMENT OF YOUR LIVES.NOT BECAUSE WE ASK OR WANT YOU TOO, BUT BECAUSE YOU WANT IT FOR YOURSELVES. I DO STILL BELIEVE THAT YALL CAN DO THIS, BUT IT TIME TO SEE IT. YALL ALL ARE IN MY HEART, AND IF WE DID;NT CARE AS HAS BEEN SAID, HEY ,I'D SAY, GO FOR IT, YOU ARE ANYWAY, NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAIDS; BUT SO SORRY THAT AINT MY CUP OF TEA.AS CINDY SAID , PUT YOUR TRUST IN HIM; GIVE HIM ALL OF YOU. SURRENDER TO HIM.ACCEPT HIM.THERE'S AN OLE HYMNAL THAT I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED, AND IT SAIDS; ALL TO JESUS , I SURRENDER; ALL TO HIM I FREELY GIVE; I WILL EVER LOVE AND TRUST HIM;IN HIS PRENCENSE DAILY LIVE.

I SURRENDER ALL.I SURRENDER ALL; ALL TO THEE MY BLESSED SAVIOUR, I SURRENDER ALL.YOU ARE LOVED VERY MUCH AND IN MY HEART.KRIS

Cindy Angel: Thank you for your prayers and words of encouragement. I am facing another major battle today. Rachael's boyfriend is being released from yet another detox center after only 5 days. He comes home today and faces court tomorrow. His mom asked me if Rachael could at least spend the night with me because she is so freaked out that he's coming home so soon. I told her it would not be a good idea since my husband would never allow it. My husband is upset with me... He feels he is the only one of the four grandparents that is really trying to straighten out Rachael and John and I am hiding behind his decisions and not being strong in my own stand. He feels John should not be allowed back home (I agree.) But where my daughter is concerned, I always seem to faulter. He sees this as opening a door for her not to take control of her finances and her life and that we just keep rescuing and one night will turn into many nights. Rachael has been sending very hurtful e-mails to me and to him and now we are supposed to put that aside and take her in even if it's just for the night. I struggle with what's the loving motherly thing and what's ultimately the enabling thing. It's my prayer that God will strengthen me so I can deal with this immediate situation and not act on what will make me feel better but what will be best in the end for my daughter. I know that I need to surrender all to JESUS and leave it in HIS capable hands. Rachael needs to come to the end of herself and surrender control to HIM. I keep trying to help with that process but it doesn't work! I know all the right things. Please pray that the Lord will help me to DO the HARD but right things.

Thank you to all of you for making me feel welcome and safe to share my burdens. My heart goes out to all of you who are struggling... I speak to myself as well as you --we are more than conquerers through Christ JESUS! When we call on JESUS all things are possible...
With HIS Love,
Joni

Good Morning Joni~
I just read your post, and decided I'd share some of my story with you, and maybe it will help you, or at least let you know there is someone you know who has been on the same road, and understands. I DO understand Joni~going through this same thing with my son ( my youngest - my baby!) was the most agonizing time of my life! I have 3 boys, and I love them all unconditionally. Your husband is right. Its NOT that he doesnt understand. He can see whats going on more clearly, because he is not as emotionally tied as you are. That is NOT to say he doesnt care - he does! He also sees what all this is doing to you, and I am sure that upsets him. I still say dont allow the insanity into your home.DO NOT allow your daughter to put you on a guilt trip either! YOU would be the miserable one - not her! She is capable of pushing all the right buttons on Mom to get what she wants or needs at the moment, and curse you the next. I KNOW I'VE BEEN THERE!!! It IS NOT EASY!! But for your OWN sanity and health YOU MUST BE STRONG, AND TRUST THAT THE LORD WILL CARRY YOU THROUGH. One of the hardest things I have ever had to do was to put my sons clothes in a laundry basket, set them on the sidewalk in front of my house, and call the police. He ran, and the police told me they would leave, but that they would be close, and when he came back to just call 911. I didnt have to even say anything they would be here, and take care of it, and tell him that he couldnt come back. Well, he came back in about 15 minutes, and knocked on the door, and I dialed 911. They were here in about a minute, and he took his basket, and left. All I got a chance to say was I cant do this any more I just cant - I LOVE YOU.ALL I could do was cry, as I am doing now reliving it as I share it with you, and I kept telling myself that he wouldnt hate me forever! He never did hate me Joni, and neither will your daughter. He understood, and so will Rachael. She knows how she was raised, and she knows that you love her.I also agree that John should not be allowed back home. They always find a way to get drugs don't they? THEY WILL FIND A PLACE TO STAY AS WELL! Addicts have TREMENDOUS WILL POWER if you think about it for a minute. They may not have a penny to their names, but they can ALWAYS get their drugs, can' they? She will survive Joni. YOU trust in the LOrd, and pray WITHOUT ceasing as HE instructs us to do. KEEP a journal on what goes on in Christians PRESENCE! TRUST that the Lord will keep that baby safe! I hope I have been able to help you in some way, and I will be praying for you. Love you dearly in Christ Jesus,
Cindy/Angel