Prayer Circles

Chris, as always, thanks for posting the Special Dates List. God bless.

To all our November Special Dates Moms ... Remembering each of you and keeping you in our heartfelt prayers!
Lee Ann (lask): Ryan Nov. 5, 2005 (HD)
Sue: Gary Nov. 11, 1985 (BD)
Imelda: Shane Nov. 17, 2004 (HD)
Yvonne (dovesffromheaven): Joseph (Joe) Nov. 20, 1999 (HD)
(BabyJay14) Jason W Smith Nov 29,2007 (HD)
Angel Mom Prayer
Dear God in heaven
We know you have our children there
Please keep them in your loving care
Please let them know not a day goes by
That in our hearts our souls still cry
Oh God in heaven we miss them so
We wish they did not have to go
Still home to heaven all must return
For that we thank you oh Holy One!
by Verna [Coleman] Clay
Mother of two Angels:
Diane - 8/31/96
Cheryl - 3/13/09
Forever in Our Hearts

Lord , I come to you are your daughter , as your follower. My brother and my sister-in law just loses her nephew, that was like their own son.He was just 18 years old, He was kill 4 day ago. Lord I am come to you , to ask you to please help them to heal and also her nephew parents , and the family . I know my Lord that you are there always for all your children, You will never give more then what we could handle. I believe in you always , You had answer all my request and prayers. Amen

Father I pray for the family above who have just lost their family member and loved on only 4 days ago. Lord, please wrap your loving arms around them and ease their pain. Thank you Lord, Amen

Father, I pray for all parents who have lost a child. I also pray for all family members and friends. I pray for victims who find themselves in harms way. I pray for those who would knowingly do harm to others; that they will somehow be touch by the spirit of God and refrain from doing so. Father I pray for peace and love to fill the hearts of people all over the world. In your precious name, Amen.

Have a wonderful thanksgiving! And remember to give thanks and eat lots.
This marks another holiday without a loved one and whether it be the first (without) or many down that long road, I wish you a good day.

SPECIAL DATES LIST FOR DECEMBER:
Charlene (havelost4): (granddaughters) Casey Marie & Carey Grace Dec. 1, 2004 (HD)
Selva (selvam): Solange Dec. 7, 1981 (BD)
Anita (astarte1225): Kimberly Dec. 7, 1998 (HD)
Donna (arqt): Marcus Dec. 12, 2001 (BD)
Jennifer (jhdanner): Aimee Nichole Dec. 20, 1992 (BD)
Barbie (momcandoit): Garry Dec. 29, 1974 (BD)

Annie (Weary23) 3 children
(Nitin24) Nitin 24th BD, HD

Love Chris

Praying for all who have lost a child. Special Dates parents: Please know we will storm heaven with prayers for you throughout the month of December and into the new year. May God continue giving us the strength to press on. Amen

Thanks everyone for your heartfelt prayers for family and me.
God's peace and blessings,
Verna aka Miss V. :)
Diane's and Cheryl's mom
8/31/96 & 3/13/09
Forever In Our Hearts!

Selva and Anita are with you today. Hold fast to the fond memories and always know that God will give you peace as only He can.
Love and Angel Hugs,
Verna

That should read "our thoughts and prayers are with you today." :)

Dear Lord,

Please comfort and ease the pain of those who had lost their loved ones. May they seek the peace and comfort knowing that their loved ones are in thy hands. Amen.

A poem for our children - our guardian angels - who left us much too soon …

If tears could build a stairway
and thoughts a memory lane,
I'd walk right up to heaven
and bring you home again.

No farewell words were spoken,
no time to say good-bye,
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knows why.

My heart's still active in sadness,
and secret tears still flow,
what it meant to lose you,
No one can ever know.

But now I know you want us
to mourn for you no more,
to remember all the happy times,
life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today,
A hallowed place within my heart,
Is where you'll always be.

God knows why with chilling touch,
Death gathers those we love so much.
And what now seems so strange and dim,
Will all be clear, when we meet Him.

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Hello all, & to Shane's Mother... Thank You for creating this prayer circle. My name is Lydia & I've STUGGLED w/ the loss of my daughter, Stephanie for the last 3yrs. We lost our Steph on, October 11th 2006, she was only 15. Her passing has just CONSUMED me. I'm @ a loss, I never got to say good-bye. This month is especially hard on me (us)she would have turned 19 on Dec. 16th & then there's the Holidays. We've yet to celebrate Christmas since her passing, it's just too PAINFUL. Please include us, The Rojas Family in your Prayers. Thank You & God Bless.(Stephanie's Mom) 12/16/90- 10/11/06

Hello dear Lydia,
You're among good company here Lydia, we can all relate to how you're feeling!
By the end of the 2nd, 3rd year, the reality of our loss sets in and that brings a new pain and grief all of its own, and then with the Holidays fast approaching, they pile on more pain without our beloved child here with us. Its so hard, isn't it!
Rest assured that you and your family are in our prayers, for peace, comfort and strength from Our Lord. Together, we can all help each other on this Journey of grief,
Love & Angelhugs,
Sandy
Mom of Shane

SPECIAL DATES LIST FOR DECEMBER:
Charlene (havelost4): (granddaughters) Casey Marie & Carey Grace Dec. 1, 2004 (HD)
Selva (selvam): Solange Dec. 7, 1981 (BD)
Anita (astarte1225): Kimberly Dec. 7, 1998 (HD)
Donna (arqt): Marcus Dec. 12, 2001 (BD)
Lydia Rojas (rojas805): Stephanie Dec 16,1990 (BD)
Jennifer (jhdanner): Aimee Nichole Dec. 20, 1992 (BD)
Barbie (momcandoit): Garry Dec. 29, 1974 (BD)
Annie (Weary23) 3 children
(Nitin24) Nitin 24th BD, HD

Try to have happy holidays! Jesus birthday. God lost a child too. It is always so hard at holiday times.
Lydia I pray for you and your family. I can only say, the pain never goes away but we can learn to live with it. We go up and down(valley days). Some days seem unbearable. And some times we catch ourselves happy and feel guilty. It's ok! Love to all during these hard days to come. Chris

I've been very busy so I will also post January now so I won't forget.

SPECIAL DATES LIST FOR JANUARY:
Susan (stwiny): Alex Jan. 2, 1983 (BD)
Charlene (havelost4): (granddaughter) Casey Marie Jan. 7, 1992 (BD)
((got2luv) Joshua Lyle Smith January 14th 2007 (HD)
Connie (connienevada): Derrick Jan. 18, 2006 (HD)
(LindaE) Jan 24, 2007 (HD) 1970 (BD)
Barbara (babbs): Jason Jan. 28, 2001 (HD)

Dear Shaner & Smile713, Thank you both! Your kind words & Prayers, Mean so MUCH!:) I'm SoOo HAPPY to have found you, coming here has helped me... And, in Helping me, you are Helping my Family as well:) I had been DREADING the Holidays, but..? Our 1st Christmas & the New Year, it ACTUALLY... Wasn't so bad, both turned out NICE:) My husband & son are EXTREMELY HAPPY to see glimpses of the old me again. I'm trying to make a "COMEBACK" I've been down for TOO long, 3yrs. to be exact. I Pray that, 2010 will be the year for many changes & GOOD things to come~ for ALL of us~ I wish you ALL the BEST that LIFE has to offer... And, Here's to New Beginings!!! Love. Lydia (Stephanie's Mom)

Hello Angel Moms, As always, my heartfelt compassion go out to our special dates moms and all who have lost a precious and beloved child. My old computer is still giving me fits; but finally got here after about an hour or so of trying. To God be the glory. :)

For some reason I am having big down in the valley time. At times I can't sleep or eat; still finding it hard to accept that God would allow this to happen to me again; [which is how the evil one wants me to feel.]I know God is not punishing me for some unknown sin, but that is how I feel sometimes. I still find myself wondering why didn't He take me instead! Angel moms, I went through the same feeling when I lost Diane. A few angel moms who have been here a long time know this. So bear with me; because it is all a part of the grieving process for me. Each person grieves in their own way. And I have learned through the years that there is no one best way to grieve.

Right now, among other things that are going on with me; I think part of it is I am so very, very tired of hurting. Having gone throgh this once, I feel I should be stronger. But I am not. It's been almost a year now; but I still miss my Rue so! Every time I think about it ... This was my baby! :(

Having already lost my Diane; for whom I grieved for years ... Then, just when I thought I had picked up the pieces of my life and was strong enough to move on ... I never dreamed I'd lose my baby girl too! In the same tragic manner??? No time to say goodbye to either one of them. :( WHEW!!!

Almost a year has passed and at times, I still feel as though my heart has been ripped out. Sometimes, like now, I don't feel like I can do this again! So please storm heaven with prayer for me.

I know given time this feeling will pass; but please pray anyway. To lose both my daughters is such a tragic manner is almost too much to bear.

Although its been almost a year now since I/we lost Cheryl, most family members seldom mention her name or ask how I/we are doing or even mention that they miss her as I know they do; but are afraid of bringing it up or acknowledging that she existed or that she is gone. I know they are afraid to say anything; thinking they will make it worse; but what they don't know is there is nothing worse than losing a child and feeling that family and close friends have turned away and left you to deal with it alone. Even when you tell them how you feel they still seem clueless ... and that hurts deeply. Maybe someday, huh? :)

Thank God, I can come here and let it out and not be judged! Thanks Chief Angel Mom, Sandy, and thanks to all angel moms whom I know can relate to much of what I am expressing and feeling. Please know I keep each of you in my thoughts; which places you in my heartfelt prayers.
Love and angel hugs,
Verna
Cheryl's and Diane's mom
03/13/09 08/31/96

Dear Lydia (Stephanie's Mom)~ A warm welcome to our circle of love, compassion, and understanding. I am so sorry to read about the loss of your beloved Stephanie. I join others here in praying for you and family.
Love and angel hugs,
Verna

Ah my dearest Miss V, my sister, I just can't imagine the amount of grief and pain you're in, losing both your beautiful daughters, I don't know how I could handle it if I lost my Christopher as well!! God forbid! You knowq you're not being punished, you're just trying to make some sense of the senseless...God does NOT punish people, He loves you very much and intimately knows your pain!! Losing Diane could never prepare you for losing your Rue too, so never ever think you're being weak!
Boy did you hit the nail on the head, after a couple of weeks, people seem to forget you lost a child and they don't acknowledge it anymore. It hurts and it hurts badly, but you know that selva and I and the other dear Angelmoms will NEVER forget your Diane and Rue! You know we love you dearly and will always be here for you and you will always be in our prayers and love!
Love you lots and lots and then some,
Sandy

Hello Angel Moms, ~ Thanks soooo much Sandy for your words of compassion. You've always had a way with words that just makes me and the other angel moms feel so much better. You do your Daddy, God, proud! And your darling Shane, too! My heart has been so heavy for so long; as our dear sister Selva would say it, I just had to let it out.

Of course I know friend and family who have not walked in our shoes simply don't understand how we sometimes feel. I have to remind myself there was a time when I did not understand and even though I though I did many times I was at a loss for words of comfort and compassion. Being very tender hearted, I was always afraid I would start crying and not be able to comfort the person who had lost their child or another loved one.

Nowadays, it has gotten so bad at times I just stay to myself. At times, I am afraid I might miss and say something out of anger. So I just stay to myself and pray and ask God to help me get through this. As you know all too well, it will be a year in March; the same month your Shane went to be with the Lord. [I just know Diane, Shane, Solange, and all the other angel kids welcomed her home. But in my heart and soul, it seems like yesterday.

So many wonderful memories I have of my Rue. Can you imagine me trying to function day after day and week after week and month after month and not ever hear anyone other than her husband mention her name? We send each other instant messages saying how much we miss our “Rue” And I still take my rides so that I can let the tears flow when I get bogged down in the valley.

I thank God every single day and night for you, Selva, and the other angel moms whom I know understand or relate to what this must be like for me. To lose one is bad; but both … I keep telling myself it’s not about me, it’s all about Him and His will in my life now that the worst has happened. My faith tells me God understands and will forgive me and help me weather this storm just as He did when I lost Diane. I just hope and pray that He doesn’t get fed up with me before I finish the ultimate purpose that I wrote about in that poem so long ago; just months before I lost my Diane.

I am close, but not close enough; now that this has happened. Please pray that I get rid of this writers block and finish what I started because a chain reaction this has truly been and as I point out so vividly in the first and final copy of my manuscript … “Out there beyond the horizon, … I did not see that a major storm was headed my way!

I must get some rest now; it is 6 AM here! The good news is I can sleep all day!

Love and Angel Hugs.
Verna

Oh my Dear Sister, I've have prayed for you every day, and ask God to help you through this tornado of Grief, you who have had so much love and compassion for all of us who have suffered loss, I came very close to losing Justin he's doing great now but he was stabbed, for just that time I was lost and hung on, no my Dear Sister I can't imagine or understand the reasoning of God but I know he brings Good from bad, it is said in the Bible and when we go through the storms we can't possibly see or understand but my prayer is that with God's help you will come through, all I know is we hang on closely to God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit but know those of us who have walked through our storms never forget ever, we ask repeatedly for His Angels to be near and hold you up, I wish we all didn't live so far away but in our hearts and spirits Dear Sister even though we haven't experienced this storm that you face daily we pray for his sonlight to reach through your suffering and speak to you as you have to all of us, there are no words we know but there is our Love and desire to understand if we could all reach in and draw out the pain to help you carry we would, you are not alone, we know the darkness and heaviness and we would carry the pain to ease yours but know we don't forget your love for your Beautiful daughters or the stories, you have told us, please keep sharing the memories with us and never be afraid to share your pain, we hear you and all we can do is Love and Pray,God never gets tired of prayer, He has asked us to come to him climb upon his lap and he will cover with you with his feathers, You who have done so much for us please keep letting it out. We carry you in our Hearts even when we aren't here, forgive me for being absent, I will come back now that we have a new hard drive, I Love U Dear Verna and I remember and will keep remembering Diane and Rue and the Love written within these pages and if I could I would get you the puppy you so desperately want, but alas all I can do is Pray. Hang on to all you know. Love & Big BearHugs Donna