Prayer Circles

Dear Kathy. I am so sorry about Frank's passing, yer, he is now in the presence of Our Lord, free of pain and illness, I pray that God will give you and the family, enough strenght to accept it, may you feel God's Arms around you all with all His love and comfort. My love and prayers are with you all. Selva

Dear Chris,
Thank you so much for both the special days list and the articles. I have read them before and I believe I have a copy somewhere. It's very powerful. I posted somewhere that I wished the rights of the bereaved could be handed out at all funerals. Loe, Jane

Hi Everyone,
So sorry I haven't been posting regularly. So much is going on right now that I'm fearing that I'm going over the edge emotionally. I find myself crying a lot. I'm exhausted, mostly from dealing with the pain in my stomach. Yesterday, I spent the better part of two hours in the bathroom finally getting rid of the barium. I called work and said I would be there as soon as I could. I was only about 15 min late but could hardly function. My manager was great, I was suppose to work alone but she found someone to help. She also said if I needed to go home don't feel bad about it. I stayed for my whole shift, except I took more breaks than allowed. I just needed to go somewhere to cry. The last test did show something. My stomach is really inflamed again and the radiologist saw something she thought might be an ulcer. My dr thinks it could be something else since my last scope in June didn't show it. On Tues (6th) I going to have another scope which means both Mike and I have to take the day off. At least I know I will sleep a long time afterwards cuz it has to be general and not twilight. Yesterday, my dr called and said it wanted it done right away. His office was going to set it up for today but couldn't cuz of the general.
It does concern me that he wants it so fast. I'm at the point where I can hardly eat at all. If it wasn't for Mike, I wouldn't. Last night I just burst out crying when he asked me what was for dinner. He finally convinced me to eat some scrambled eggs and toast. Tonight I ate a teeny piece of meatloaf and some mash potatoes. I knew I had to finish my potatoes cuz I asked him to make it for me. I feel like I have to force feed myself. So, I'm hardly eating, therefore am getting weaker by the day. Then I work retail in a dept that requires some heavy lifting. By the time I get home I have nothing left in me. It does concern me that he wants it so fast. I'm at the point where I can hardly eat at all. If it wasn't for Mike, I wouldn't. Last night I just burst out crying when he asked me what was for dinner. He finally convinced me to eat some scrambled eggs and toast. Tonight I ate a teeny piece of meatloaf and some mash potatoes. I knew I had to finish my potatoes cuz I asked him to make it for me. I feel like I have to force feed myself. So, I'm hardly eating, therefore am getting weaker by the day. Then I work retail in a dept that requires some heavy lifting. By the time I get home I have nothing left in me.does concern me that he wants it so fast. I'm at the point where I can hardly eat at all. If it wasn't for Mike, I wouldn't. Last night I just burst out crying when he asked me what was for dinner. He finally convinced me to eat some scrambled eggs and toast. Tonight I ate a teeny piece of meatloaf and some mash potatoes. I knew I had to finish my potatoes cuz I asked him to make it for me. I feel like I have to force feed myself. So, I'm hardly eating, therefore am getting weaker by the day. Then I work retail in a dept that requires some heavy lifting. By the time I get home I have nothing left in me. (cont)

Add to that the grief for my Gram has really begun to hit me hard. Like I stated to Cathy, and Chris wrote about, we don't get to pick and choose when the pain and sadness hits us hard.

Then, there's all the conflicts happening in my house. The one with my friend/landlord actually worked out better than any of else could have anticipated. Mike was able to express his feelings, and she hers. Part of the problem was things she was hearing about Mike "thru the grapevine." When Mike told her it wasn't true she just accepted that it was like the game telephone, where someone whispers something and by the time it gets to the end it's totally different. That day, she also had a hard time with her husband. She was hurting so badly that Mike told her what she really needed was someone to show her some love. He went to her and gave her a big bear hug. He gives wonderful bear hugs. She just melted. No one had ever done that to her before. I was so proud of Mike. Our housemate situation is the same, we just try to avoid him. And right now there is a new conflict brewing with someone else over my e-mails. She actually blocked me because they were inappropriate. She emailed me this and I replied to her, then realized it was blocked. Those who know both her and I want me to just drop it. Right now I don't have the energy to deal with it. I'm also not getting much "me" time which means I'm not even processing everything. I'm also feeling like I'm beginning to squeeze God into my schedule. To all the prayer warriers, this is my cry for extra prayer before I totally lose it.

One more thing. Does anyone know why we have to log out of B'Net and then manually log back in to get to submit on this site? It tells me to log in, when I just hit log in it says "Welcome Jane." Then I come here and can't submit until I log out and type my email and password. I can go to any other site but here by just hitting the log in. I really hope I don't sound like I'm having a big pity party, just wanted to say why I haven't been posting. You are always in my prayers, especially at work when I get to fold towels and there are no customers around. I found that is a great time to pray because I don't have to think about what I'm doing! Love and gratitude to all, Jane
PS Tried to post this last night and it wouldn't, kept saying B'Net was updating. Could post elsewhere. Love, Jane

My prayers are with you and with anyone who has lost a child, it truly is the most painful thing you could ever endure. I lost my 4 year old daughter July 2007, she had drowned and everyday is such a struggle. It's so hard to think of even having a life without having your child in it but i know she will always be with me. Guilt can also be your worst enemy and i just pray to God that he can lift that off my heart as well as anyone else who might be be dealing with it.

Hi Chris, thanks so much for posting November's Dates for us, appreciate it!
Yes, those are two powerful messages you posted, actually I've read both of them too and posted the 'Rules" one somewhere in the back pages, :). Its good though that you posted them again, for all the new Moms as well as the 'Club' one, I know they'll both be a help to them,
Love & Hugs,
Sandy

Our dear Jane,
You're really going through a lot lately and I think it's adding more and more to your stress. You really need to slow it down and think of yourself right now, you know there's nothing wrong in that. It could be that your family Dr. know's more about all the pain you've been in lately and your inability to eat and that's why he/she is asking for the test to be done sooner. I pray that you do get it done faster, it just may be an ulcer and then you can be treated asap for it....plus it'll take away a lot of the stress you're feeling right now. You've been putting up with your tummy problems for a long time now, its bound to have an effect on you emotionally and mentally, it would anyone!
Your cry for prayers has been heard and I'll definitely be praying extra for you, but please slow yourself down, even if it mean's taking a day or two off work,
Much love & Hugs,
Sandy
p.s. Sorry, I don't know how you can solve your log in problem, e-mail Beliefnet and explain it to them.

Hello nailzva and a warm welcome to the Circle. I'm so very sorry to read about your own loss and so recent too, your precious 4 year old daughter. I know you must be hurting a great deal.
We all feel at some point a certain amount of guilt, we are their Mom's and Dad's and we should protect them..but we couldn't protect them from death. Those who lose their child to an accident tend to feel a little more guilt, although it was not their fault. It can become a destructive emotion, so my prayers are with you for your recent loss and that the burden of guilt be lifted off you. Thank you for your prayers and please post back, we care here,
Love & Hugs,
Sandy

Thank you Sandy. I have been taking more days off work. Next week I only work two days about a total of 10 hours. That is good for me but bad for my checkbook! I have certain bills that are due in November that only happen once a year. My I-Pass and car registration, a total of 120.00. I'm not going to worry about it because I have seen God come through so many times when I have been in this situation. I'm actually looking forward to being able to sleep all day on Tuesday. It takes a long time for anesthesia to leave my system. One of the reasons I haven't been posting is because I'm trying to take care of myself. Sometimes the pain expressed on grief sites and prayer circles overwhelm me. That's when I know that I need a break. I actually made it through two days (so far) without crying. Still exhausted and in a lot of pain but I'm hanging in there. So thank you everyone for your prayers. Love and gratitude to all, Jane

Dear Nailzva,

Welcome to our unique group. It's always with sadness that we welcome newcomers because we know the cost involved. I'm so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. I wish there was a better word than loss, because when my daughter died and I heard that word I kept thinking I didn't lose her. Your grief is still so new and raw. This circle has helped countless mothers by giving support and love. I agree with Sandy when a child dies in an accident the guilt seems to be worse. It is also your worse enemy. I am also praying that burden of guilt is removed quickly. Please feel free to post here often. At times you will feel that you are the only one who isn't handling your grief properly. There is no proper way to handle it. We are all different and here you will hear words of truth. Love and hugs, Jane

May God always Bless, watch over, and be with Shane and his friends and family and always comfort and protect them.

OK! :)

Rambler didn't go through. Will copy paste my post later. Or ... Might try posting a little at a time. I got the same message as Jane from Beliefnet. San, the OK! [above]was my response to B'net's message when I tried to submit my rambler. Apparently, someone else and I were trying to submit our post at the same time. It looks as if I was responding to the post above. :) Sorry! Now I am really afraid to try to post my rambler! So, later everyone. :)
Much love and prayers,
Verna
PS: Sandy it is 3:30 here and I thought about the page you sent yeaterday and laughed out loud! Ha-ha! And guess what I had for supper last night! Ha-ha! hope to get this short post in ...

[yeaterday] ha-ha! yesterday! OK, the Zoloft has kicked in!

Praise the Lord! So grateful to be able to post again at our prayer circle of love. And this time, I didn't have too much trouble. I just clicked on forgot password [ha-ha][because they don't accept my old username or password] and they send me one of their passwords! However, I think I will have to continue doing that until they get all the bugs straightened out. And that's ok with me. :)
Praise the Lord! So grateful to be able to post again at our prayer circle of love. And this time, I didn't have too much trouble. I just clicked on forgot password [ha-ha][because they don't accept my old username or password] and they send me one of their passwords! However, I think I will have to continue doing that until they get all the bugs straightened out. And that's ok with me. :)

Dear Nailzva, Welcome you to our circle of love and support. I am so very sorry to read of your precious little daughter’s passing. Your heart has been shattered and all of us here can relate to the indescribable 24/7 pain you are dealing with. I lost my daughter tragically and without warning, and so did some other moms here so we can relate to the magnitude of your grief. As Sandy has said many times, when a mom loses a precious and beloved child, it leaves a hole in her heart because a part of her heart goes with her child. The bond between a mother and her child is forever. It is a bond that can never be broken. Please know that our older guardian angels will help watch over your beloved guardian angel child. If you’ve read some back post you probably know that many of us have received signs from our children. I pray that you will receive a sign, if you haven’t already, to let you know that your precious child is very much alive and well in God’s kingdom!

Kathy I am so sorry to read about Frank's passing. I pray that God wraps His loving arms around you and all the family and comfort and strengthen you all during this most difficult time. May it comfort you to know that Frank is no longer suffering and he is in no more pain … and like my brother’s Herman, Lee, & Charles, he is with our Father God and the rest of your family who went home before him. Oh what a day it will be when we finish our work here and can go home and join all our Lord and other loved ones FOREVERMORE!

Chris, thanks so much for posting the special dates for November and also those powerful and oh so true messages which I know will help those of us who may sometime find it hard to express the magnitude of our grief and they will also give others an idea of what its like for someone who has suffered the loss of a child or other loved one.

Selva, it is sooo good to see another post from you! Yes, I've been having a time getting signed in, but things are a little better now. Now I may even try to see if I can post to my beloved Diane's memorial site. It has been a longgg time since I have gone there. And would you believe her other site that our dear Angela built is down? Guess who I blame??? AOL! HA-HA! It is true my dear sister {I think} because no doubt someone tried to contact me to let me know it was time for renewal. But the email address was the old AOL address; which is the same one that is causing problems for me here! You would really laugh if you knew all of the stuff I had to explain just to get to submit a post here! ha-ha! But I didn't give up! You will be happy and surprised to hear that your grandson has been on his first unofficial date, with TWO girls from his class! ha-ha! They invited him to go to the movies with them. :) One of the moms took them of course, and according to him, they are just good friends. I am sure this is true, but we still like to joke about it when he is not around because we know it is only a matter of time before he will be on an official date. He is only 13 now, so it will be a few years [hopefully] before he goes on a real date. I will try to send you a photo or two once I can slow the rues down and get some updated ones. So be on the lookout for them. :)

Jane, my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry to read about all you are going through. Sometimes when it rains it pours! Just remember God will see you through it all! He doesn’t take away all crosses, but He sends us help to carry the ones we must endure for a while. Please know that you are covered in my/our heartfelt prayers!

Charlene, God bless you dear one. I am trusting in the Lord to take good care of you and provide some of your wants and all of your needs, according to His will for you.

Okay y’all, I think I have rambled enough for one night, so I’m going to get some much needed sleep!

God’s peace and blessings,

Verna

Lord I thank you for your blessings daily. I lift up all who are grieving a child that you comfort them in this time of need and guide them forward in your joy and comfort in the child in your care now. I know you are the best father for us and you love each of us Lord and I know our lost children are up in your arms waiting to see us in that kingdom of yours when we pass on. Thank you Lord Thank you amen

Hi Everyone,
I really hope this posts. Tonight as I was ready to leave work, I was told a co worker's 4 yr old brother was hit by a car along with his mother. The little boy died of his injuries late Tuesday night. The mother is still in critical condition. The co worker is only 16. We weren't given much information and I can't find any more information via internet about the mother. Please pray for Armando and his mother. All of us at work are devastated. We have a card for everyone to sign but we want to do much more. I did find out the funeral home and I will call them tomorrow. They may know if there is a fund set up for the family. I'm closing this for now in hopes it will post. Thank you for your prayers. Love and gratitude, Jane

OK, that one worked. Now an update on the baby I posted about several weeks ago. She had to have another surgery. This time the swelling did not come back and she may already be at the rehab center. That is her only earthly hope of regaining any of her left brain functions. I am told they can stimulate the right side to take some of the left side function. She still has a long way to go. No one will even speculate how much she will improve. This rehab center is one of the best in the country for brain injuries. The fact that they took her means they think she has hope for some recovery. The family is still very much in need of prayer. God is moving in a powerful way to restore the marriage.
As for Taylor, I haven't heard anything recently. Will try to update when I can.

Physically, I'm feeling a little better. I have discovered if I eat very small amounts I can handle it. I worked 8 hrs today without much problems. I didn't get off till 6:00 and didn't get home until 6:45 and had to be at church by 7:00. When I arrived home, Mike had a ham and cheese omelet ready for me, along with bacon. I ate half and went to church and finished it when I got home around 9:30. I've been trying to get something in my system about every three hours. I'm really praying Tuesday gives us all the answers we need. I'm signing off because I'm tired of getting that awful page that says we're down. Also need to get that extra hour of sleep. Everyone have a blessed Sunday. Love and gratitude to all, Jane

Dear Friends, My name is Susan Grumbine,
from Charles Town WV. This prayer request is not for me. It is for my niece Sherry Bartgis Hurst, who lost her
son Mike a few days before Christmas
last year 2006. He died of an overdose of drugs. He was only 20 years old.
As he great aunt I grieve because I loved him so much. He was very talented,
great Musician, great fisherman, loving
and caring. No one nows why but it happened. He had been in drug programs before and came out of it like a champ!
Started fishing and just being the
real Mike. Something happended and we don't know really why. We miss him greatly. His Mother, Sherry is just about giving up! Please pray for her,
as the anniversary of 1 year is soon
to come. Michael James Hurst died December 17th, 2006 in Ft Myers Florida.
The Florida Southwest Adddiction Services,Vince Smith Cnter can use you prayers to for other who may fail to
drug addiction. Please, please pray for his mother, Sherry, his father Michael G, and his sister Sarah. I don't ask this for myself, but for them. Thank you, Susan Grumbine, 234 Harrow Pl,
Charles Town WV 25414, Aunt of Mike

Dear Susan [Greatharvest1], A warm welcome to our prayer circle of love. The inner emotions I felt when I read your post brought tears to my eyes. It is so easy to tell you are a very kind, loving and compassionate aunt whose concern for your niece's state of mind while grieving the loss of her beloved son, Mike, runs very deep. Your concern for others who are dealing with drug addition is also noted. Thank you for sharing this sad story of pain and loss. You may be sure that all the angel moms here will storm heaven with heartfelt prayer for your beloved niece & family as you have requested above. I pray also that God surrounds your niece & her hubby & daughter with loving support and caring souls now, and in the days ahead. Right now her/their grief is so raw, and with the 1st anniversary of his passing and the upcoming holidays, it will even more difficult. I pray that God will strengthen them and wrap His protective shield around her & family and give them His peace, as only He can. Thanks also for posting Mike's special date. I/We will keep you all in our heartfelt prayers, now and in the days, weeks, and months ahead! God's peace & Blessings ...
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna
Diane's mom
8/16/60 - 8/31/96
Forever In Our Hearts

Dear gr33nd4yg1rl,
Thank you so much for your kind words and prayer, may God bless you and your's always,
Love Sandy

Hello PastorPsalm91,
Thank you also for your beautiful prayer for all, we truly appreciate it!
May God bless you and yours,
Love Sandy

Hi my dear Miss V,
Happy you got your problems solved and can post here again!
Yes, ha, ha, I can just imagine what you had for supper, :),
Love ya Miss V,
Hugs too,
Sandy