Prayer Circles

I know that when I left my abuser, I told no-one except my mother where I was and I lost contact with everyone. It was the only way I felt safe. I trusted nobody at that time. I pray she stays safe. That must be why he holds the computer. To get information!

Thank you for the prayers, I pass them on to MIke. Steph has given us many signs! The songs, the presents she leaves for us, and the presence we feel is a wonderful thing. All though we miss her "Oh so badly" We do know she's very near.
Gotta get ready for work. Love Chris

Hello dear AngelMoms, Grandma's,
Yes, I believe that Chris is correct, Charlene's husband has the Computer, otherwise how could he access your e-mail address Jane and write to you? I also believe that he's looking at the Posts here and Charlene unknowingly gave him a lot of information about herself since she left.
CHARLENE, do not post anything here that remotely refer's to your situation, do so in a private e-mail to Jane or whomever.....its for your own good and safety.
My prayers remain with you and your husband as well, that a peaceful resolution will come about for you both, whether you reconcile or go your separate ways,
Love & Hugs to you and all,
Sandy

Hello All, and thank you so much for your prayers. I missed BOTH appointments; ill one day and overslept the next day! But thank God, I feel better today and will try to make AND keep both appointments next time. The first one, I called in to let them know I wasn’t feeling well enough to come in, but the second one I forgot to tell hubby to wake me in time. As you all know by now, I am still the night owl although not as often as in the past. Night time is my favorite time to pray for everyone and just spend quiet time with our heavenly Father.

Like most of you, I’ve been on this journey for a while now, and I know in my heart that our God has been with me/us through it all. Sad moments or joyful moments, His is with us. In stressful times and times of trouble, He is with us! He hears every prayer, and has brought us through many life storms.

Prayer is the most powerful tool we have to reach out to one another in times of trouble. Sometimes I have to remind myself that we are His beloved children, and He is not out to punish us. He is the only one that can give us the help we need to make it through any and all life storms. We are all here on this earth to fulfill a divine purpose. May God continue to give us the desire and strength to discover that divine purpose that lives within each of us.

Father, I ask that You watch over all of Your beloved children tonight. Be with us 24/7. Give us Your divine protection, wisdom, peace of mind and faith that You are in control. Help us to know the truth; that at all times, Your grace is sufficient! Thank you Father! In Jesus’ name I pray, - Amen!

Every now and then I feel moved to share a favorite poem that has touched my inner spirit through the years and brought a measure healing. The following is one of them. I had the awesome task of learning this poem and reciting it well over 50 years ago. :)

THE LAND OF BEGINNING AGAIN
I wish that there were some wonderful place
Called the Land of Beginning Again,
Where all our mistakes and all our heartaches
And all of our poor selfish grief
Could be dropped lake a shabby old coat at the door,
And never be put on again.
I wish we could come on it all unaware,
Like the hunter who finds a lost trail;
And I wish that the one whom our blindness had done
The greatest injustice of all
Could be at the gates like an old friend that waits
For the comrade he's gladdest to hail.
We would find all the things we intended to do
But forgot, and remembered too late,
Little praises unspoken, little promises broken,
And all of the thousand and one
Little duties neglected that might have perfected
The day for one less fortunate.
It wouldn't be possible not to be kind In the Land of Beginning Again;
And the ones we misjudged and the ones whom we grudged
Their moments of victory here
Would find in the grasp of our loving handclasp
More than penitent lips could explain.
For what had been hardest we'd know had been best,
And what had seemed loss would be gain;
For there isn't a sting that will not take wing
When we've faced it and laughed it away;
And I think that the laughter is most what we're after
In the Land of Beginning Again.
I wish that there were some wonderful place
Called the Land of Beginning Again,
Where all our mistakes and all our heartaches
And all of our poor selfish grief
Could be dropped like a shabby old coat at the door,
And never be put on again.
** Louisa Fletcher **

Verna,
I love that poem! It is what I have been thinking about today, in one way or another. It makes me want to cry but then I am always crying these days it seems. Thank you also for that beautiful prayer. I love your prayers, you say them so well.

Sisters, I am very concerned about Charlene, I was hoping that there would be a post from her today. Has anyone received an email or anything? It seems the only contact since she went to get her things from the house is from her husband to Jane. My prayers are with you Charlene, I am very worried about you!

Wishing you all a very blessed weekend. I have much to do and one of the things on my list is to organize a closet that contains things that belonged to Wes. I have been putting it off but feel like I need to get it done. Even now, just thinking about it makes me want to jump out of my skin! Who knows, maybe I will find something in there I missed the 1st time I went through it and it will be a blessing...something to make me smile.

Love to all, have a great weekend!
Kathy

Hi Everyone,

Thank you Verna for that beautiful poem. I so wish on this side of Heaven there was such a place as The Land of Beginning Again! Since there isn't all we can do is move forward, knowing our past is forgiven. The 12 step progams always has a step for making amends for those we have offended. I tried that with my sons. Two accepted it, the oldest didn't. His comment was "It's up to God to forgive and me to hold grudges." If only he knew what holding grudges does to someone. I agree with Kathy, your prayers are always heartful, thank you.

Kathy, I have heard nothing from Charlene and not received anymore e-mails from her husband. We just need to keep her in our prayers. I know I will be real concerned if she doesn't post next week cuz she always posts the special days in the beginning of the month. Kathy, I'm going to pray that when you clean Wes's closet you will find a special blessing.

As for me, I'm doing ok. Had another bad stomach episode on Tuesday night while I was at my accountability group. I had to be driven home and Mike had to drive my friend back so I would have my car the next day. I keep thinking there has to be a trigger but so far haven't been able to pinpoint one. Each time I have had something different to eat. It can stike at any time of the day or night. Hopefully the GI will know something when I see him on Oct 4th. Right now I'm grateful that I have the next three days off! Love and gratitude to all, Jane

HI ALL!
Charlene here; I'm using a friend's computer--I didn't have access to one before now. DO NOT SEND ANY EMAILS TO MY OLD EMAIL ADDRESS!! My husband evidently has broken into it and has access to all my information on it. I was unable to get into my house to get anything last Saturday because he was sitting on the porch and refused to let me in. He even called the sheriff to have me arrested because I was 'violating the restraining order by being around him or the house'!!!!!!! The agreement was that I give him 24 hour notice so he could be gone but obviously he didn't leave! My mother and brother were with me so we just left peacefully and I filed for divorce this past Monday. Now the ball can roll faster and hopefully I can escape his clutches for good.
Thank you all for your prayers!! God has been VERY GOOD protecting me from harm. I'm in the process of setting up a new email account and I will email some of you when I get that done. I don't have access to the special dates list because they are still at my house. I'M VERY SORRY that I won't be able to post the dates for October! :o(
I'll try to stay in touch!
Love and (((HUGS))),
Charlene

Chris,

Would you please e-mail me? I tried to e-mail you but B'Net doesn't have your address. Thanks, Jane

Hi All! I found the first list that Charlene did for us that I had saved in my files, but I am sure it is not up to date. It appears their are no special dates for October. Therefore, if anyone has a more resent special date for October, please post and let us know. Verna

Here's my list so far, if that helps you.
SPECIAL DATES FOR BEREAVED PARENTS
Charlene: (granddaughter) Casey Marie Jan. 7, 1992(BD)
Charlene: (grandson) Baby boy Feb. 25, 1989(BD)
Lisa: Aaron Mar. 2, 1983(BD)
Cindy: Kristina Mar. 15, 2001(HD)
Sandy: Shane Mar.15, 1999(HD)
Charlene: (granddaughter) Carey Grace Mar. 18, 1994(BD)
Charlene: (grandson) Michael Mar. 27, 1989(BD & HD)
Cindy: Kristina April 6, 1980(BD)
Jennifer: Aimee Nicole May 1, 1993(HD)
Sandy: Shane May 28, 1974(BD)
Kay: Joshua June 12, 1982(BD)
Kay: Joshua June 15, 2005(HD)
Marci: Sean-Michael July 15, 1985(BD)
Marci: Sean-Michael Aug. 9, 2003(HD)
Selva: Solange Aug. 15, 2002(HD)
Verna: Diane Aug. 16, 1960(BD)
Yvonne: Joseph (Joe) Aug. 19, 1975(BD)
Verna: Diane Aug. 31, 1996(HD)
Lisa: Aaron Sept. 26, 2002(HD)
Yvonne: Joseph (Joe) Nov. 20, 1999(HD)
Charlene: (granddaughters) Casey Marie & Carey Grace Dec. 1, 2004(HD)
Selva: Solange Dec. 7, 1981(BD)
Jennifer: Aimee Nicole Dec. 20, 1992(BD)

Hi our dear Charlene, ~ It is a blessing to come here and see a post from you! Thanks for letting us know that you are ok. Please know you and hubby are in my heartfelt prayers 24/7. I pray that you let go and trust God to reveal the unfolding of His divine blessings and guidance daily. Know without doubt that on Him you can depend.
Love, hugs, and heartfelt prayers,
Verna

PRAISE GOD CHARLENE!! We're all so relieved to see a Post from you and know that you're safe!! Everyone is going to be so happy and grateful to see this Post from you, believe me! Yes, your husband wrote Jane, so we have a strong feeling that he's reading here, so be very careful about what you say. (read my post above)
Anyway, thrilled to hear from you, our prayers are with you and your husband,
Much love & {{Hugs}}
Sandy

Thank you our dear Miss V for posting the list, I'll check the one I have to see if anyone has been inadvertently left out.
PLEASE my dear Miss V, keep those Dr. appt.'s, loved the Poem too and yes, you're still Miss Night Owl, :)
Lots of love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

My son Ryan's birthday Oct. 19(1982)
and his Heaven day Nov 5 (2005)

So glad to hear from Charlene..

Dear Lee Ann,

I just come here to post Ryan's BD and saw you already did. Love, Jane

To All,

My name isn't on Verna's list. Verna I think your list didn't get updated last September. My list has some more people added. If anyone else finds their dates are not on this list please post it and I will keep the record until Charlene can take over again. She does such an excellent job!

Elizabeth's BD May 18, 1979
HD July 14, 1979

Love and gratitude to all, Jane

Dear Charlene,

Thank you so much for posting and letting us know you are safe. You were real heavy on my heart all last week. I know you have limited computer use but please whenever you can pop in. We don't need details of what is happening with you, but for our own peace of mind we want to know you are ok. Or as ok as you can be under your circumstances. Please know that we love you and are praying for you all the time. I think I posted Ps 27:13-14 once before but I will do it again. These verses have been my constant source of hope over the years. I believe they are now coming into fruitation. "I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living! Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord." (ESV) You and I have talked about the waiting. We're both pretty familiar with waiting. A couple of Sundays ago the sermon was about God always being for us taken from Romans 8. Remember if God be for us, who can stand against us.

Also did you know that you can have a free e-mail account at hotmail.com or gmail.com? Love, Jane

Dear Sandy,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNDAY! Don't know if I will get a chance to post on Sunday and wanted to wish you the best. I find birthdays are a reminder to me to thank someone for all they do. So I thank you for keeping this circle going. I know it was started out of extreme pain. God has used your pain to encourage so many other grieving moms. Thank you for allowing Him to work through you. I also know that He uses you on other sites. You are a true vessel that God uses to show His love and compassion to others. Love, Jane

Dear All, Please accept my apology for the copy/paste posting I submitted of one of the first SD lists that our dear sister, Charlene did for us. Knowing that she did not have access to her PC, I had hoped that someone would see the list and add the appropriate dates [if any] for October. I know that sometimes the dates fall at the very beginning of the month, and I did not want anyone’s SD to be missed. I am sure you all know me well enough to know that I meant well. It’s just that sometimes, I don’t think things through during my many, many senior moments! Again, I apologize. Charlene, please know that you, and your frequent as well as inspiring posts and monthly updates have been sorely missed. May God continue to give you peace and protection. Much love and prayers from all of us here!
Love to All,
Verna

Thanks my dear sisters, I am glad the words of the poem I shared on the previous page spoke volumns to you too! I believe God sometimes uses poetry to help us through the healing of our hearts; and sometimes He speaks through us to let others know they are not alone.God bless! ~ Verna

Hi our dear Angel 'n Chief! [Gawd I miss Selva!]ha-ha! Remember she gave you that title; just like y'all nickname for me is miss v. Anyway, your card should arrive on time this year. ha-ha! 'Cause I scheduled it to be sent several days ago before the Zoloft takes over! Seriously, dear Sandy, Do have a most wonderful and peace filled birthday! And just in case you need a good belly laugh ... all you need to do is remember the little fwd page I sent to you several years ago; and had no idea what was being said! I think that taught me a lesson; although I don't recall exactly what it was now! [Ha-ha!] I just remember that it was extremely funny!
Love and B-Day (((HUGS!)))
Miss V.

Hi dear ones--sorry I haven't posted in awhile--Charlene, I add my prayers for continued strength during this trying time.

Daryl's first anniversary HD is coming soon, and I already feel myself going into a downward spiral--but recognizing it and knowing why, and knowing that it is something that happens to all us moms has helped. Thank you for your sharing of that pain. Daryl's BD is July 23, 1985, HD is October 16, 2006.

Jane, I don't have your e-mail. Mine is smile713@msn.com . I'm not afraid of abuser's anymore. any of them! I just have them arrested. If that don't work, I have them arrested "again" eventually they get the idea!

Hi Everyone,

Verna, please do feel you have to apologize. You got the ball rolling again for a new list.

Chris, did you know you can e-mail someone by clicking on their name that will get you to their profile. On the first page it will say send a private message (or something like that). I tried it on your's but B'net said they didn't have your address. Anyway thank you for posting your e-mail.

Sandy, I hope you had a great birthday weekend.

I'm doing well today. These days I take a day at a time. The weekend was a good one. Now it's time for sleep! Love and gratitude to all, Jane

Aw, thank you dear Jane for your 'Happy Birthday' posting. It's very touching and I truly appreciate it! You're right, though, God whispered in my ear those many years ago, when I was in the 24/7 pain to start this Circle of Love and I thank Him so much for blessing it so mightily and helping me in the process.
That's one of my daily prayers...for God to use me today. I really can't think of a higher honour than being His vessel!

And thank you all SO much for all the Birthday Cards, best wishes for my Birthday, they were all so beautiful and truly touched me.......I am among some amazing women!
May God bless you all on your Journey,
Love & {{Hugs}}
Sandy