Prayer Circles

I, in the Name of Jesus and Authority of Jesus bind you the enemy in Jesus Name, and send you back to the pit of hell from whence you came. You will not torment Phillip's mind anymore with these nnegative and trick schemes to prove God a liar.
Behold the Lamb of God who taketh away all his pain, fear, disappointments, and negative speech. I plead the Blood of Jesus over you Phillip, and all your circumstances, I command the devils be subject unto the Name of Jesus, and go in Jesus Precious Name, I pray, Amen!

My dear brother Phillip:
It was my first thought to write you and tell you my testimony the the Holy Spirit helped me to see this is more than such; it is spiritual warfare. The enemy is tormenting you and wants to keep you in this pit you're in. But rise up in the Name of jesus and be set free.......For there is liberty, freedom, and Peace in Jesus Name.
The bible tells us to set our minds on things above (in heaven) and not on things of the earth or this world.
The bible is a record of God and His existence before man or anything, Jesus, His calling to walk among men, His life, death, resurrection, and His Power given to Him by God right now.
All things are subject unto the Name of Jesus, every knee must bow, every tongue must confess Jesus is Lord!!!!!!
The most basic thing to do is admit you are powerless in your life, and ask God to control it. Admit you're a sinner, and believe in your HEART, Christ died, was buried, and resurrected for your sins; and now sit at the right hand of God; believe these things in your heart and confess with your mouth, and begin to live for Christ and allow Him to make your life worthy again.
God Loves you and will continue to, we can't think on who or what God is until we get to know him. How can you judge a book lest you read it, Amen brother, AMEN! Find the facts and then make your judgement. I pray for you, but in doing so I will not compromise God's Truth, if hadn't happened for you simply because you haven't given it to God, it almost seem like you enjoy being tormented by the enemy and his lies; when you can be free in Jesus name, just try it and see the Peace of God and all His Promises.
We love you here and are concerned for your soul as well as your everyday concerns. I will continue to lift your prayers before the Almighty, but remember there is life and death in the power of the tngue, so watch what is being said, the enemy listens as well as God, Amen brother, Amen!
Speak those things that's not; to be as though they were, and walk in faith believing though you don't see it YET!
I leave you with Phillipians4:7.
God's Speed, Tam~

Praise God Kris:
So great to be here and I'm praying fervently for all. I will get around to e-mailing you. I've been very busy with church, bible studies, etc.
Glad to hear your garage sale was a success, send B-Day greetings to your loved ones and God bless all in Jesus name, I pray, Amen!
Kris, almost forgot say a word of prayer for my mom she got sick on me Sunday morning, and is in the hospital. Tomorrow they're doing tests to check a supposed spot on her colon. But God is the great Physician and Healer of us, and all sits in His big and powerful hands. Amen sis, Amen!
Love you with the Love of Christ, Tam`

hey linda;I STAND IN TOTAL AGREEMENT ON WHAT YOU SAID HERE TO PHILLIP. IT IS NOT GOD'S WILL FOR HIM TO GO THROUGH MOSERY OR DEFEAT , OR TO GIVE UP, THAT IS NOT OF GOD, AND PHILLIP NEEDS TO WAKE BACK UP TO THE TRUTH THAT IS STILL BEFORE HIM.I WILL PRAY FOR YOUR MOTHER. DEAR GOD, I COME IN REQUEST FOR LINDA'S MOTHER RIGHT NOW . I UPLIFT AND UPHOLD HER TO YOU NOW O LORD. I PRAY THAT YOU WILL JUST LAY YOUR ANOINTING ON HER RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT , FOR LORD YOU ARE THE WORKER OF MIRACLES , AND WE COME AND HUMBLY ASK THAT YOU PLACE A HEALING OF YOUR ANOINTING ON THIS BLESSED WOMAN. LORD, WE KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE GREAT HEALER, THE ALMIGHTY PHYSICIAN, AND JUST BY YOUR TOUCH WE ARE HEALED. LORD, I PRAY THAT YOU SEND HER A HEALING AT THIS TIME, I PRAY FOR LINDA, FOR HER SONS, FOR HER FAMILY. IN ALL THIS I ASK AND PRAY IN YOUR PRECIOUS NAME , IN JESUS NAME I PRAY. AMEN AMEN AND AMEN, LOVE YOU ALWAYS,KRIS.

Hello again Kris, Tam, and everybody else. Your mom is going to be ok, after all she has you on her side. Kris, Tam and everyone else, I really do appriciate all your kindness and insparation. But in my case it's too late, all I have left is an empty shell wher once a person lived and was happy. Now all that is gone, taken away and never to return. Take heart friends, I have managed to get somewhat used to it all, and accept my fate. I wish I could find happiness within myself again, but it no longer exists. All I have left is what is here, emptiness, and loneliness.
I keeep hoping things will get better, but when reality closes in I know it will never be for me.


Phillip

Dear Pholley, Maybe you are mistaking loneliness for boredom. Go see old friends, go to church, Get a new pet, do something for yourself if you still care. TReat yourself like the very besst friend you've ever had - because you are your ownbest friend and God be with you and in you. Paula

hello everyone!another sleepless night,so thought i'd get on here and writeand check the sites and posts, i havent got to write on some of them in a couple of days,these past few days took a lot out of me, but im strong and i am going to be fine.momma is having an angegram done this morning , they were suppose to do at 5a.m. , we found this out last night, my daughter called me about 9 and told me ,her tests she had took came back showing that her main artery is block and cutting off her blood supply to her colin and other areas, but i know she is going to be fine, for i know that GOD IS RIGHT THERE WITH HER. AMEN.

TAM, HOW IS YOUR MOTHER DOING? I HOPE SHE IS DOING BETTER, WE KNOW THAT WITH god ALL THINGS WORK FOR THE BETTERMENT , ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE.

PAULA;THANK YOU FOR THE WORDS YOU SAID TO PHILLIP AND GLAD TO SEE YOU BACK .THAT WAS VERY GOOD ADVICE YOU SAID .THANK YOU FOR SHARING THAT.

NOW PHILLIP;OH PHILLIP,YOU BREAKIN MY HEART BY LETTING THIS NEGATIVE JUST WEIGH YOU DOWN,BY LETTING IT GET TTTHHHEE BEST OOOOOOFFFFF YOU . WHY ARE YOU ALLOWING THIS, SURLEY, YOU CANT POSSIBLY BELIEVE AND THINK THIS LOWLY OF YOURSELF, BECAUSE WHEN YOU DO , YOU THINK LOWLY OF GOD. HE CREATED YOU , HE SEES YOU EVERYDAY,24/7,365 DAYS A YEAR. HE KNOWS YOUR WEAKNESSES, HE KNOWS YOUR PAIN, HE KNOWS YOUR HEARTACHES, HE KNOWS YOUR LONLINESS, HE KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU.AND WHAT YOU SEEM TO BE FORGETTING IS HIS UNDYING LOVE FOR YOU . WHETHER YOU CAN SEE NOW OR NOT,HE HAS NOT LEFT YOU, YOU HAVE LEFT HIM , BY ALLOWING YOURSELF TO HAVE THIS DEFEATED ATTITUDE, AND ALLOWING THIS DEEP DEPRESSION TO SEEP AND COVER ALL YOUR GOODNESS THAT IS SO IN YOU AND THAT GOD SEES IN YOU . PHILLIP, I GOT TO BE A LITTLE HARSH HERE, BUT ITS BECAUSE I LOVE YA AND CARE ABOUT YA AND I DONT LIKE TO SEE YOU THIS WAY , SO GET READY FOR IT , CAUSE HERE IT COMES MY FRIEND; IT IS TIME TO BUCK UP , GET YOURSELF TOGETHER, PUT YOURSELF IN PRIORRITY, AND GIVE IT ALL BACK TO GOD.IM NOT FINISHED.SO WHAT, IF ANOTHER DID'NT SEE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE, THAT'S NOT GOD'S FAULT, IT'S HER FAULT ,BECAUSE SHE WAS NOT WILLING TO TAKE THE TIME TO GET TO KNOW YOU!!!!!! IT IS NOT GOD'S FAULT THAT YOU ARE WOLLERING AS WE SAY IN THE SOUTH IN SELF PITY,BECAUSE YOU FEEL REJECTED, GET OVER IT , THERE IS PLENTY OF FISH IN THE SEAI KNOW THIS SOUNDS REALLY HARSH, BUT IT WAS TIME FOR ME TO SAY, AND LIKE I SAID , IF I DID'NT CARE, I WOULD SAY, WELL THIS IS SOMEONE IS TURNING HIS BACK ON GOD AND EVERYTHING, SO WHY BOTHER, BUT THAT AINT MY STYLE.I GOT TOO MUCH OF MY DADDY IN ME. AND MY HEART, PEOPLE HAVE ALWAYS SAID AND IT'S THE TRUTH,I WEAR MY HEART OUT ON MY SLEEVE.AND ITSTRUE I DO, BUT I WOULD'NT CHANGE IT FOR NOTHING, BECAUSE IT'S THE KING OF HEART GOD GAVE ME AND MY DADDY HAD THE SAME HEART, FULL OF COMPASSION, OF LOVE FOR OTHERS, AND TRUE MAN OF PEACE.PHILLIP; YOU SEE WHERE AT TIMES I PUT DADDY'S SERMONS ON HERE, I EVEN DEDICATED ONE OF DADDDY'S SERMON'S TO YOU,I DONT JUST DO THAT FOR ANY BODY, AND WHEN I CAN COME ON HERE AND SHARE DADDYS SERMONS, IT MAKES ME SO VERY HAPPY AND PROUD THAT HIS LEGACY IS STILL BEING CARRIED ON.YOU HAVE GOT TO STOP THIS BLAME GAME YOU ARE PLAYING AND YOU HAVE GOT TO STOP PUTTING YOURSELF DOWN,I MEAN IT, IREALLY MEAN ITPHILLIP. YOU HAVE FRIENDS AND PEOPLE WHO REALLY CARE ABOUT YOU , BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY THE MAIN ONE YOU ARE TRYING TO PUSH AWAY IS THE ONE IS STILL THERE IN THE MIDST.REACH OUT TO HIM PHILLIP.HE HAS'NT GONE ANYWHERE.LOVE&FAITH,KRIS

Tam, Paula, and Kris,

Okay, okay! You win, how can I not feel better after that pasting I just got from all of you! I feel much better now, okay!


Phillip

HEY PHILLIP:YYYYEYEEEEEEEEHHHIIIIIIIIII!!!!I AM SO GLAD TO SEE YOU ARE FEELING BETTER, AND DONT EVER LET YOURSELF GET BACK DOWN TO THAT LEVEL AGAIN, IT IS SUCH A DEEP DEPRESSION AND SUCH A LOSS WHEN YOU ALLOW THAT TO HAPPEN AND TAKE GOD FROM OUT OF THE MIDST,KNOW THAT HE IS THERE AND DONT FORGET THAT, YOU KNOW WE CERTAINLY AINT GONNA LET YA.GLAD TO SEE YOU ARE FEELING BETTER.LOVE ALWAYS, A FRIEND IN CHRIST ,KRIS

Praise God for emotional uplifting and healing for phillip and for me and my mother. For years she did not want me in her house. But I kept praying that God would heal the breach between us and last summer after 12 years of not being in her house I flew into Havre, Montana and visited her. It made me feel differently about the whole human race to be at least somewhat accepted by my family again. I've been more open to others since then. Friendships have grown since then. Praise God for this site where those who are alone can communicate and at least have cyberfriendships. This is truly a healing site. Amen

HEYMOSESANN' HOW ARE YOU; GLAD TO SEE YOU HERE AGAIN AND IM SO GLAD THAT THINGS ARE SO MUCH BETTER WITH YOU AND YOUR MOTHER, 12 YEARS IS A LOT OF YEARS WASTED, HUH?AND YOU BETTER BELIEVE,OH YES THE POWER OF PRAYER, SUCH AN WONDERFUL AWESOME GIFT, GOD GIVES TO US. AND IM SO GLAD YOU PRAYERWS WERE ANWSERED. IT NEVER COMES IN OUR TIME SOMETIMES, BUT IT ALWAYS COMES IN GOD'S OWN TIMING. IM VERY HAPPY FOR YOU . AND JUST KEEP PRAISING AND LIFTING THOSE PRAISES UP TO GOD. HE IS TRULY TRULY TRULY AMAZING.LOVE AND FAITH, IN GOD WE TRUST,KRIS.IN JESUS NAME WE STAND IN VICTORY OVER EWVERYTHING.AMEN .KRIS

Dear God I need guidance from those at this prayer site. I have a boyfriend who flies in from Chicago and demands I pay for half of his plane trip. I am living on a limited income but I crave his attention. What should I do? It is not really being a good Christian to carry on with him like this, and really get very little attention from him and now he is asking for presents too. Please pray for me. Paula

It is so refreshing to have been able to find this prayer circle and to see that i am not alone. I have been going through a lot of negative issues for the last month and have caused much stress and anxiety in my life. I haven't been able to sleep or eat right. I have resolved some of the issues, but some are still lingering and my thoughts are overwhelming me and making me so sad. I also endured a hard breakup with my significant other last wknd. I am carrying so much pain and hurt and can't help but be angry with him for his deceitfulness and lies. I can't get it out of my head how good i treated him and loved him and how he turned out to be someone else. I am slowly back on the road to recovery from things, but am finding it very hard especially to regain the weight i have lost. I am very petite and now only weigh 83 lbs and I am 35 yrs old. It looks bad, very bad. I can't stand to see myself in the mirror each morning. I ask the Lord everyday for the stength i need to go to work and to keep functioning ... it has been hard. I just hate being alone right now and feeling the way i feel. I never felt so low or miserable in my life as i do now. Please pray for me.... thank you....

hi paula, first of all let me say that you should'nt have to pay for half of part or any of your boyfriend coming in to see you. and he has not right to demand that of you. he should to be willing to do whatever it takes to come to see you. iknow what it is like to be living on a limited income, i too have very little income coming each month, but it pays the bills.i think you need to ask or sit down and talk to him and ask him how he really feels about you, because i wonder why he is so demanding that you pay for his trip half, and you need to search your heart and allowGOD TO FILL YOU WITH THE ANWSERS YOU NEED , and HE will carry you through to the right conclusion. sometimes in life we put our whole hearts in to something and a lot of times our hearts get broken, but thankOUR LORD ABOVE, HE IS ALWAYS THERE , AND HE WILL HELP LIGHTEN THE LOAD THAT YOU ARE FACING AT THIS POINT AND TIME IN YOUR LIFE.your boyfriend needs some relationship help , because he certainly seems to almost like it is a beliitling thing with him , and i know that you want more than that in your life, someone who will care for you the way you do him.please do not , i reapeatDO NOT GIVE HIM ANY MONEY, YOU DONT OWE THAT TO HIM,HE IS A WILLING , I HOPE PARTNER IN THIS RELATIONSHIP, AND AS WE SAY INI THE SOUTH, SOMETIMES IT IS BETTER TO LEAVE WELL ENOUGH ALONE!!!!TALK TO HIM AND ASK HIM WHY THAT HE IS ACTING THIS WAY, PAULA , IF SOMEONE TRULY CARES ABOUT YOU, THEN THEY WILL DO WHAT THEY CAN,AND HE SOUNDS LIKE HE WANTS TO DO THE IMPOSSIBLE.I REALLY DO WISH YOU LUCK. I AM AS IF YOU HAVE READ ON HERE , THE DAUGHTER OF A BAPTIST MINISTER WHO FOR ALMOST 50 YEARES, PREACH THE WORD OF GOD. WE LOST HIM IN 1999.I COME ON HERE AS OFTEN AS I CAN AND SOMETIMES IT IS JUST SO SAD THAT WHEN I DO SIT TO WRITE, I ASK GOD TO GIVE THE WORDS I NEED TO SAY. SEARCH YOUR HEART, AND YOU WILL FIND AND YOU WILL KNOW IN YOUR HEART OF HEARTS IF THIS IS THE RIGHT WAY AND ONE FOR TO GO. MAY GOD BLESS AND KEEP YOU NEAR TO HIM ALWAYS AND NEVER FORGET HE LOVES YOU SO AND WANTRS THE VERY BEST FOR YOU, AND YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES. YOU HAVE A FREE WILL, JUST AS WE ALL DO, YOU HAVE TO MAKE A DECISOIN HERE IN WHAT AVENUE YOU NEED TO TAKE. GRAB HOLD OF GOD'S UNCHANGING HANDS AND KET HIM LEAD , GUIDE AND DIRECT IN THE PATH YOU HAVE TO GO. ALL THIS I PRAY AND ASK IN JESUS NAME.AMEN. LOVE&FAITH, KRIS P.S.

welcome darfab1 to the site, so glad to have you here and we will welcome you with open arms here. thank you for sharing your story.im very concerned about your health, and weight. 85 lbs is very tiny,and to loose that much weight is so hard oon your health , added with stress.JESUS SAIDS,"TAKE MY YOKE UPON ME AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST.IN GOD I WILL PRAISE HIS WORD, IN GOD I HAVE PUT MY TRUST;I WILL NOT FEAR WHATFLESH CAN DO UN TO ME.PSALM 56:4

HERE IS SOME OF MY FAVORITE VERSE , MAYBE THEY WILL HELP YOU , AMD GIVE YOU PEACE, AND ANY ONE WHO COMES TO THIS SITE, I JUST PRAY THAT THE ANOINTED BLESSEDFULNESS OF GOD'S WONDERFUL, PEACE AND GLORY AND LOVE DEVINE WILL JUST ENTR IN THIER HEARTS, SOULS AND MIND, SO THAT THEY MAY HIS MAGNIFICENT RAY OF BEAUTY THAT HE IN STILLS IN SIDE OUR HEARTS WHEN WE COME BEFORE HIM AND BOW DOWM AND GIVE TO HIM OUR ALL THAT IS WITHINI US.IN ALL THIS I PRAY,IN JESUS NAME,AMEN.

HEAR , O L0RD,AND HAVE MERCY UPONME;LORD BE THY MY HELPER.PSALM 30:10

THE LORD IS THEIR STRENGTH, AND HE IS THE SAVING STRENGTH OF HIS ANOINTED. AMEN. PSALM28:8

THE LORD IS MY LIGHT AND MY SALVATION;WHOM SHALL I FEAR?THE LORD IS THE STRENGH OF MY LUFE;EHOM SHALL I BE AFRAID?PSALM 27:1

THERE ARE MANY MORE, BUT IT IS VERY LATE AND I AM DOING ANUP ALL NIGHTER MY SELF,SO FOR NOW I WILL CLOSE. LOVE&FAITH, KRIS

KRIS:
I appreciate what you said. I, too, am concerned about my health and am very afraid to see myself wither away. I took comfort in your message and the verses you shared. I read my bible at night and look for God to give me the strength and guidance i need to get through this terrible time. I thank you again for taking the time to write. May God Bless you and all of us always,
darlene

hi darlene; im glad you found comfort in the verses that i wrote down, they are really comforting and im glad to see more of GOD'S PEOPLE COMING TO THIS SITE.it is truly wonderful when we can rely on the comforts of GOD AND HIS PRECIOUSNLOVE AND UN DIVIDING GRACE. OUR FAITH IN HIM IS ONE OF THE STRONGEST TOOLS WE HAVE AS CHRISTIANS.CONTINUE TO GO TO GOD AND HE WILL LIFT YOU OUT OF THIS TERRIBLE AND STORMFUL TIMES. HE WILL LEAD YOU THROUGH WITH AMAZING STRENGTH , AND VICTORY.I do hope that your health will improve, and get better, have you been to a doctor about this? sometimes we allow stress to come in and it can do a number on us at times, awhile back , i lost a lot of long hair, so i had to get it cut,oooooooooooo did'nt like that.ha.but GOD CAN TAKE IT ALL AWAY AND RESTORE PERFECT HEALTH IN US AGAIN . AND I WILL BE PRAYING THAT HE DOES THAT FOR YOU. FOR IN ISAIAH, IT SAIDS BY HIS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED. IM GLAD YOU FOUND THIS SITE, AND KEEP YOUR EYES FOCUSED ON GOD ABOVE, FOR HIS EYE IS ON THE SPARROWS.AMEN.here is my email address, if you would like to write-littlecreekwillow@hotmail.com. love&faith, kris. IN GOD WE TRUST.

HEY,TAM, PHILLIP, PAULA,AND EVERYONEHERE. HOPE YALL ARE ALL DOIND WELL AND CHARLOTTE, I HOPE ALL THINGS ARE WELL WITH YOU AND YOU WILL BE BACK WITH US SOON. YOU ARE MISSED HERE, WITH YOUR INSPIRATION.HAVE A WONDERFUL NIGHT AND TOMORROW AND I WILL WRITE AGAIN SOON.LOVEALWAYS, KRIS

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE; JUST WANTED TO SAY A QUICK HI AND WISH YALL THE BEST IN TODAY , AND HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GREAT ONE . LOVE, KRIS.

Hey all,

I just wantd to stop by and let tyou know everything's good!!!!

Phillip

PHILLIP; SO GLAD TO SEE YOU BACK AND TO KNOW THAT EVERY THING IS GOOD WITH YOU. IT IS ALEAYS SO UPLIFTING TO SEE THAT. YOU ARE SO SPECIAL TO GOD AND HE LOVES YOU SO AND HE IS SO THERE WITH YOU AND I JUST SO PLEASED AND HAPPY TO SEE YOU BACK , WHERE WE KNOW YOU ARE OK. LOVE,KRIS. IN GOD WE TRUST ALWEAYS AND FOREVER.

DARLENE, PAULA, CHARLOTTE, TAM , ALL OF YOU , AND PHILLP HAVE A HAPPY SAFEAND WONDERFUL WEKEND. LOVE, KRIS.

TAM ; MY DEAR FRIEND I HOPE YOUR MOMIS DOING BETER AND THE REST OF YOUR FAMILY. I WILL WRITE YOU SOON, LOVE, KRIS.

Phillip:
Ha Ha Ha, A Holy laugh......Bless the Lord for you brother. I am ecstsatic to come here and find you are well. I had been so saddened by your posts, yet knowing prayer changes things that what I did for you though I didn't post as much. Phillip, we love you and do care what happens in your life. God sent us along to help you through out your rough times; now isn't that great Love, He has for you. God is the Creator of Love and has perfected it in us that we show it to everyone. I'm still praying for you brother; ride high in God's great and tender mercies that's new each day. Speak things that's not as though they were. Amen brother, Amen!
We love you and stay encouraged.
Peace, Love, Mercy, Grace and Blessings I bid you in Jesus Name, Amen!
Tam~

Kris:
God bless you abundantly.......You did it girl, when I seen Phillip, come on and say Tam and Kris you win.........
I laughed and laughed blessing the Lord for God did it through the words He gave you. Glory forever more be to God.
King of Kings and Lord of Lords, God I Love You...For You have heard our cry.
Thank You Lord!
Kris, my mom is well, she had been having trouble keeping her blood within normalcy; so the doctors thought some major was happening, Bless God, they only found kidney stones and treating those. Sis, love, love, love for all your prayers for me and family, Phillip, I thank you as well; and all who took time out of their busy schedules to offer prayer. Blessings upon your lives and loved ones.
Kris, my boys are great the really see God's hands in their lives. I was depressed so long just missing them. God did promise to take care of them not taking away the consequence of their crime (Thank You Lord) yet taking care of me and them; the only way to see correction. Bless Your Name, Lord.
I'll be back on later, I'll testify forever of the goodness of God, AMen All, Amen! I love y'all so much and pray for you and stay encouraged knowing God Loves ya, and has perfected Love in me toward you. Peace, Love, Mercy, Grace and Provisions be multiplied in Jesus Name, I pray, Amen!
Tam~

Dear Lord, thank you for good prayer partners who are not afraid to say what they think. Darlene I am so worried for you, I am probably slightly larger in bone structure than you but once I wasn't sleeping well and only weighed 112 and then I had a nervous break down. Please try to get enough sleep and take some time off if you can if your work is hard to get some rest and recooperation going. Maybe you can take more stress than I can but I feel badly that you are so stressed out right now. Try to visit some friends and also eat high calorie foods now - like meat and cheese and plenty of fruit and or dried fruit too.
Love to you.

Hi Kris, :o)

It's good to read that you are missed ;o) Well, I'm in the process of moving. I just bought a condo and I will be all moved in on next Saturday. Thank you for your prayers; they are much appreciated.

I have been having a hard time dealing with some other issues too. But I'll be fine. Just keep me in your prayers. :o) You are in mine as well.

I'll write again soon. Love to you all,
Charlottte

Thank you all for your concern and most of all your prayers. I am eating better this week, but still have not gained any weight back. I know it will take some time and i am impatient, but at least i am able to eat and not feel so stressed anymore. I have been able to sleep a little more than the last month and a half...thank you God! luckily i work in a family business, so i don't have the pressures of a corporate or demanding job and my family is very understanding that i am going through some tough times right now. My mental anguish has caused me to not take care of myself like i should have. Unfortunately, when it comes to hardships in my life i don't cope well with them... I have had many woes for the last 15 years of my life and i've come a long way since. I was once agoraphobic and now i just suffer from panic and anxiety disorder from time to time ... i remember when i couldn't stay home alone and now i bought my own place and have been living here alone for over a year. I remember when i was too scared to leave my house, and now i can be seen. I remember when i was too scared to drive alone and now i do. So many fears i've fought and had to overcome with medication of course. I hate having to take the meds, but i'm too nervous if i don't. I still have some fears, but i will conquer them slowly, one by one. Not many more to go. I know God has helped me so much and i continue to have faith in him that he will continue to give me the strength to fight my current battles and keep moving forward and not looking back. I have made too much progress to let myself get depressed again. I always remember this one thing that i read somewhere... "If God gets you to it, he will get you through it!!!"
so i believe i am in this place for a reason, temporarily, but i will see the way out eventually... i wish you all God's blessings over you and your loved ones. God will not fail us! he loves us no matter what...

love,
darlene
i can do all things through Christ who strengthens us...)