I'm new to this portion of beliefnet.com. I just want to offer you all my deepest sympathies. I have not experienced what you all have, but my heart and prayers are with you still. I know that tomorrow will be a very difficult day for a lot of people. I just pray that you will feel God's presence like you've never sensed His presence before.
If anyone needs prayer or if you would just like to talk, feel free to email me. Because of my online ministry, I don't get to come to Beliefnet.com often--usually just on Saturdays.
God bless you!
To all my dear Angel sisters. My love and prayers are with all of you today. May God wrap His Arms around you and may you all feel the presence of your precious child next to your hearts, may God gives us all Strenght to go through this special day. Love Selva
Hi to all my sisters,
I actually made myself go to church today. I knew it was still my month to serve communion and I didn't want to let my friend down. She's in charge of getting volunteers to do it. Anyway I'm so glad I did go. After serving I was beginning to cry and asked my friend if I could go now. She was like yea, thanks for keeping yur commitment. I went to get my purse when my son stepped in the aisle, he gave me a huge hug and said happy mother's day. I just lost in. He was there with his wife and daughter. They traveled an hour to get there. I was so shocked and just hugged him and cried. Everyone around was crying. I'm sure the people in front of the church had no clue what the commotion was about behind them. During church he gave me two cards, one from him and Cindy, the other from my granddaughter, Elizabeth. After church they took me to lunch. It was also cool that the message wasn't the typical Mother's Day one. She focused on the children and as a body we needed to pray for our children in our church. She used examples of how the power of prayer changed many young people. She stated that sometimes when you're so close to a child (parent) you don't have a clear picture to know how to pray. She really encouraged me to start praying more for the children in our body. I have received phone calls from my other sons. One was planning to come over, but his car broke again.
I did call my mother and asked forgiveness for things the Holy Spirit put on my heart. That wasn't easy, and she didn't help. I started by telling her I had something to say to her and I really needed her to listen. There were interuptions but I was able to tell her what I needed to. She kept saying "That's water over the bridge." I kept telling her I needed to hear that she forgave me. Finally she did. For the first time that I can remember our talk was almost all positive. One sister was mentioned and I changed the subject. I just told her that was between the two of them and she needed to address it. So far, today has been a great day, one I dreaded turned out so unexectedly! Thank you everyone for your prayers. Love and gratitude to all, Jane
JANE: I felt so happy for you I even started to cry because I could just imagine how you felt when you saw your son.
I spent the weekend at our trailer up country. We have bcome friends with this man that lives up there and have been through tough times. He had visits with his little boys when we first met and had him on weekends and had to return him to his mother and the boy would cry to stay with him. One day he called me and said his son's mother died while the boys was there with her. since then he comes to me and ask me to be his Mom. I told him I will always be there for you and your Dad but I can never be your Mom. He said Ok but this boy brings me flowers and every time he goes shopping and sees something that I might like he gets it and pays for it with his own money. He gave me flowers this mother's day and my boys gave me flowers and that is all i got. I didn't even get a call from my daughter. well that is enough of my rambling so " GOOD NIGHT to all and hope your day was happy and peaceful"
Love You All Lee Ann
Dear Lee Ann,
I just discovered that my son had this trip planned on Friday but kept it a secret. I think I embarassed him that I cried so much, but I think he finally realized how much I love him and want him in my life.
I know I have posted before that I understand how hard it is for my sons to buy me a card. I have the same issue with my mom. I will not lie and tell her what a great mother she was. Neither will my boys. Last year I didn't receive a card from him, but his daughter gave me one. This year he did give me a card and it was so beautiful and appropriate. It starts with "You have been good to us in so many ways..." To me that meant that he sees me for who I am now and can affirm that. One year about 10 yrs ago he gave me a card that said something like I turned out great despite your influence. We have both come a long way! We still have a way to go, but I'm confident we'll get there. Love and gratitude, Jane
Thank you for your prayers and kind words. Also your offer to talk. There are times when one of us just needs to talk things out so your offer may be taken.
Love and gratitude, Jane
Jane, I'm real glad it turned out I prayed for you that it would. I had a hard sat, I played sad songs and cried alot so Sun I felt better. Pretty quiet but not sad. My second mom died in a short time ago, so I called her daughters and told them I was thinking of them, It was nice. It is our FIRST and we know those are hard. I got wonderful cards from my children and Mike was understanding of my quietness. His mom is in the hospital and cannot live by herself any longer so the family had to fiqure out what she was going to do. This will be my third mom, god i'm blessed to have such fine women in my life. I can't imagine being without someone like that to talk to. I guess that's why god gave me more than one. I will continue to pray that mothers and children, no matter what age get past their differences and love one another as god intended. Amen
My son Jimmy is getting an apartment tues and I ask that you think of him wed am for court that he gets on the road to a good life on his own. And this is the right place and the right thing to do. God Bless, mom's, love Chris
I'm so glad you had a good day yesterday because of your son coming to church and taking you out to eat. Forgiveness is a wonderful thing when it's applied. And you just keep doing what you need to do with your mother; she may never understand, but I pray that she does.
My brother took my mother for her second cataract surgery this morning so I stayed home and did some laundry and swept the floors. Now I'm ready for her to get here for the week; he's bringing her by after her eye surgery.
May you have a very blessed week!
Love and (((HUGS))),
I'm sorry I haven't been keeping up with the posts lately; this year I feel better so I'm spending more time out in the flower beds and the yard. We've had so much rain that the grass and weeds are growing like crazy. I still can't do a lot in one day, but I come in and cool off and rest a while, then do some more. And I've been busy driving my mother places until she gets both her eyes corrected and gets new glasses. Right now she sees fine without her glasses with one eye, but has to have her glasses for the other eye. Hopefully after this week she'll be able to get new glasses that aren't as strong as her others were.
I pray that you all are doing okay (as well as can be expected anyway) and have a very blessed week.
Love and (((HUGS))),
Hello Everyone! The 'day' is over, we can all say we got through it and relax a little.
Dear Jane...OMG, you had a Mothers Day Miracle!! Praise God for answered prayers and blessing you so mightily!!
I'm SO happy for you, this had to be the best Mothers Day you've had in years!!
My day was fairly quiet, Chris had sent me a Card in the mail, then phoned home on Mothers Day, that always makes me happy, (the Card and the phone call), he's such a loving, thoughtful son, I think sometimes though he tries to make up for Shane not being here on special days, but I don't want him thinking like that.
CHARLENE, its been so beautiful here lately that I'm also outside more than in, re-potting all the flowers, herbs I bought, today its raining though but that's OK, we need it. LEE ANN, CHRIS good to hear how your day went, we can now get back to our new 'normal', whatever that is,
Much love & Hugs to all
Dear Lashonda, its always so touching when someone who hasnt experienced this unique loss comes here to the Circle and posts a prayer for us all, thank you so much! May Almighty God bless you abundantly,
Love & Hugs,
Our dear Miss V, I miss you and one of your Rambler's, I pray that you're feeling well - LOVE to hear from you!
Our dear KATHY, love to hear from you too, I know the day must have been difficult for you, God love you,
Much love & Hugs,
Oh yes Sandy, it was difficult. I did try to stay away from the house and did the best I could. I took my little boy to the beach where we had lunch and he played in the water and had a good time. I watched all the people. I walked down memory lane. My heart was full of sadness and still is but I am keepin on! I just kept thinking of all of the things I could be thankful for and remembering that God has brought me to this place and I should leave it in his hands.
Jane how wonderful for you. I was so happy for you when I read your post that I forgot I was sad for a awhile. What a blessing.
Chris, I believe also that our dreams..at least like the one my son had about Wes is like a "visit". It makes me very happy and at the same time it breaks your heart.
It sounds like we all made it through, Amen to that. You are all in my prayers.
A single grateful thought toward heaven is the most complete prayer.
I am a mother of 3 young children and everyday I pray for them so hard because I cannot imagine going on if anything was to happen to any of them.My heart goes out to each of you who has lost a child.Rest assured that they are in the arms of Jesus,safer than we are at this moment.You will see them again as God's Word has promised.He knows best even if we, in our spiritual blindness, can't see the purpose.My love and prayers are with you all!!God bless!!
Thank you so much for your heartfelt prayers. I need to remember exactly what you just said....God does know best. Thank you and God bless.
Ah, our dear Kathy, I knew that Sunday would be very hard on you, God love you, I still don't care much for Mothers Day but those first few years - they brought nothing but intense pain and a floodgate of tears and that's exactly the place you're in right now.
Its good that you spent it the way you wanted to, your little boy could have some fun at the beach while you could just sit and 'be' with your thoughts, memories, as painful as they were. Just take it one moment, one hour, one day at a time right now. I'm so happy you posted and said how you feel, that take's more courage than holding it in!
We used to have a Mom here who posted regularly during those early painful years and at the end of her post she'd end it with "In His care, I press on."
That's what you're doing, dear one,
Much love, & tender Hugs,
Today was one beautiful day here. That little boy I posted about that brings me gifts called me this morning and told me that his uncle died this morning.He was sad because I heard it in his voice.I talked to his father and he told me that the boy(David)had to let me know as soon as possible and I told him that was ok because he needed to release this to someone and I was there for him.David had to talk to me one more time before I hung up and I told hin if he had to talk to me it was ok to call me at any time. This boy has lost his mom about 3-4 years ago,his nana just last April and now his uncle.When you pray have this boy in your prayers. Love to All
Aw, the poor little boy, God love him, he needs a mother 'like' caring person in his life and you're standing in the gap for him, Lee Ann - God will bless you mightily for it!
Yes, I'll keep David in my prayers and of course you too,
Much love & Hugs,
Our dear Jane,
Thinking of you with love and prayer today, on Elizabeth's special day. Time doesn't really mean very much when you've lost a precious child, the painful memories can come right out of 'left field' when you least suspect it and you have painful memories and moments. We're all here for you,
Much love & Hugs,
Hi everyone, ~ sorry to be MIA for such a long time, but thank God I’m back posting today. Sandy, if I were to start rambling now, it would take quite a while to share all that’s been going on with me and also around me. I thank God 24/7 that I am still here. We’ve had a lot of senseless rapes, shootings, and murders in Shreveport especially in our area, and that always adds to the on again off again depression. Still, I remind myself that I still have so much to be thankful for. When I think back to February 7, 2006, [the day I underwent double bypass heart surgery], I realize more and more just how lucky I am; and let me tell you, I am mighty grateful indeed. I am slowly beginning to realize how important it is that I do my part as it relates to my long term recovery. Having said that, I guess I’d better get ready to go take my 30 minute walk,
To all our special day Moms for the month of May, please forgive me for not doing my usual individual special day posts to each Mom. However, I can assure you that not a day goes by that you are not covered in my heartfelt prayers. Thank you for your prayers. Please continue to pray for me because, I still have a long way to go.
Much love, (((HUGS))), & prayers,
Verna [aka Miss V.] :)
Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you and Elizabeth today, you are both in my prayers. I pray God cover you with his love and tender mercy and you can feel your Elizabeth's love all around you.
Hi my dear Miss V! Its so good to see a post from you, even if it isn't a Rambler, :). I thank God you're still here too and I know He's not ready to see you yet! Gee, that's really too bad about all the crime in your area, sometimes we have to take a break from the Media, I think you should, especially if its not helping your depression.
I'm happy that you're finally taking charge of your own health and treating it more seriously, its up to you now and kudos for taking your walks!
Take care Miss V, appreciate your prayers and know you're always in mine,
Lots of love & Hugs,
Good Evening All,
Thank you for your prayers. My day was ok, however I'm sick again. I called my doctor at 4 and still haven't heard from him. I just want him to call in a prescription. Guess I have to wait until morning. Mike took me out to dinner again tonight. I keep saying we're just friends, however we're more like companions. We like each other's company.
I no longer feel an overwhelming sadness on Elizabeth's birthday. I just go to the wondering. Such as what she would look like, would she be married, any children, things like that. It's hard for me to feel her love because she was with me such a short time. I do find myself still wanting to hold her, but my brain says would be kinda hard now if she were still here. Somehow that makes me smile. Imagining holding as in cradling a 28 yr old!
Lee Ann sounds like you have a special place in your heart for David and he knows it. Every little one needs a mommy figure, thank you for being there for him.
Kathy, I'm so happy to see you posting more often. I know the winter and early spring has been so difficult for you.
Verna, the same to you. However I do miss your ramblings. I'm glad you're back to your 30 min walks. Need to get back to doing that also.
Sandy, thank you for being our glue. I know you have a special day coming up also. It just seems harder when the special days are close to another reminder date, such as Mother's Day, Christmas, etc.
Everyone please know you are in my prayers even when I don't address you particularly. This prayer circle is so special and we all need a lot of prayer. Love and gratitude to all, Jane