Prayer Circles

Dear Anita and Charlene, ~ I am so sorry I wasn't able to get here earlier; but my prayers were with you both on your special days. We've had rough weather in our area which causes problems getting online. This is the first time I've been on today. I thought my pc had played out, but found the ISP was having problems instead. A lot of people were without power for hours due to a tornado touching down in Bossier City which is right across the river from Shreveport. Things seem to have improved now, thank God. My heartfelt prayers are with you all today and will remain with you in the days ahead as you continue on your on personal journey. Thank you all for your remembering me in your prayers.
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Dear Anita and Charlene. I am sorry I could not post until today, but please know that my prayers and my love were with you like always, we had to change the line we use for the internet because our fax line just went down and we need the fax open that is why I just couldn't post. Anita I just read about Adam, he surely need our prayers, I pray that God will give him strenght to go on and His wisdom to make the right decision at this time, I know how hard that must be on you also. Dear Charlene, I also know how painful it is just to wonder about your grandson, the ifs, how and whys are very hard on us, I pray for a Miracle, maybe one of these days we will know about him and who knows you might be together again, God can give you a Miracle and I pray that He will. My love and prayers. Selva

Thank you all for your prayers; I knew what day yesterday was and I thought about it off and on all day but it didn't 'hit' me until I went to bed. Then I cried and prayed for what we had lost and what we could have had if we had kept him; I kept apologizing (in my mind) to my daughter for not keeping him. Who knows though? All our lives could have been REALLY messed up if we had kept him. We can't go back and un-do the past; we just have to live with the decision that we made. My counselor told me that boys usually don't seek out their birthparents like girls do. I told her that I didn't need to hear that; it just discouraged me. Thank you Selva for praying for a miracle; maybe that's what we'll have some day if he does seek us out. He turned 18 yesterday; if he's still alive somewhere, I'm hoping that God will put the thought into his mind to want to find us.
ANITA, you and Adam are in my prayers for peace and strength. May God wrap His arms around you both and give you wisdom in how you counsel him. Kim's been gone 8 years and it seems like a long time to be holding in his grief; maybe he's typical of most men, though, and doesn't show his emotions. I tend to agree with Jane that maybe a divorce will compound his problems, but I don't know what he's having to live with every day either. Maybe if she would agree to go to counseling with him, they could work through this together; if she's not willing, then he should definitely go without her. He needs to do what is best for HIM right now, which is seek help. I'll definitely add him to my prayer list.
Love and (((HUGS))) to you all,
Charlene

I'm sorry that I neglected to post for Jennifer yesterday. She's been in bed and sick for several days; she was going to the doctor sometime yesterday and needed our prayers. She sends us her love and butterfly hugs. Sorry Jennifer that I didn't get this posted before now.
Love and (((HUGS))),
Charlene

SPECIAL DATES LIST for March:

Lisa (LisaLou862): Aaron Mar. 2, 1983(BD)

Yvonne (dovesfromheaven): Joseph(Joe) Mar. 7, 1975(BD)

Sandy (shaner): Shane Mar.15, 1999(HD)
Cindy (cindys1021): Kristina Mar. 15, 2001(HD)

Charlene (havelost4): (granddaughter) Carey Grace Mar. 18, 1994(BD)

Kathy (KPETERSEN): Wes Mar. 25, 1982(BD)

Alexandra (mis4mary): Kristian Mar. 26, 1980(BD)

Charlene (havelost4): (grandson) Michael Mar. 27, 1989(BD & HD)

To All,
I just received word that my grandmother is in her last days. She has had another stroke and it has left her semi-conscious and unable to eat. She has a living will that states she is not to have a feeding tube, so now it is a matter of time. Just finished relaying the message to my youngest sister who is pretty devastated about it. I'm just sad, but I have been preparing myself for months now. My sister told me tonight that Gram was the only person in her life that really believed in her. Those were my exact words I used to describe Gram. I didn't know my sister felt that way also. How do you say goodbye to someone like that? Need to go and process this. I really would appreciate your prayers. Love, Jane

JANE,
I just wanted to tell you that I'm praying for you! I also wanted to say that your grandmother must have been a good example of our Heavenly Father's love, when you said you and your sister thought she was the only person who believed in you. That's just like our Heavenly Father! If we could just wrap our thoughts around that concept, we would be happier than we could ever imagine: Our Heavenly Father, God in Heaven, believes in us. Now I've got to go and process that thought.
Love and (((HUGS))),
Charlene

To ALL,
I've just been notified that I have to report to the courthouse Friday morning at 8:30 AM for possible jury selection. I've never done anything like this before and it's a scary thought at my age. Who knows; maybe I'll learn something new. :o)
I'd appreciate your prayers.
Charlene

Dear Charlene,
That is an awesome thought! So many times we put our self esteem in other's hands, accepting what they believe about us. If we could only focus our thoughts that the Creator of the universe believes in us and wants the best for us, we couldn't care what other's think.

I spoke with another sister today and she thinks my Gram is choosing not to eat. I haven't been able to get ahold of the sister who left me the message. My family is spread around the country so we have to deal with different time zones. If it is true that Gram is actively choosing not to eat it means she has given up and wants to die. I can't say that I blame her, but it is heartbreaking to know she is starving herself to death. Either way, unless God intervenes and takes her early, she will die of starvation. I was filled with mixed emotions when the Terri Shrivo (sp) case hit the news. Now my emotions are really mixed. What keeps me from falling apart is knowing this is what she wrote in her living will, and my faith in God and His goodness.

Boy, you don't get much notice about jury duty. We are told about a month ahead of time. Right now my friend is on call for federal jury duty. She has to call in everyday for two weeks. The week before she started she was taking care of her daughter who just had a baby and has a 3 yr old. Her husband is currently having medical problems and is undergoing many tests. She is also Bob's medical power of attorney. She can't wait until Friday when her duty is up. She went in on Monday and had a major asthma attack. It took her about 20 mins to get it under control and everything in the courtroom had to stop until she returned. She called in the rest of the week and so far hasn't been told to come in. I don't know how she balances everything and stays totally sane!

Thank you Charlene for your prayers. Love, Jane

PS Charlene,
You are in my prayers concerning your jury duty. Everyone here is in my prayers. Love, Jane

Hi All,
I just spoke with my Aunt (grandmother's daughter). The only part of my grandmother's brain that is alive is her capacity to breath. She was not actively refusing to eat. Her living will was being followed. It was determined at the hospital that she was not going to recover and was sent back to the nursing home. Hospice is now in charge of her care. It will be a matter of days maybe. According to my aunt she has lost a lot of weight after her first stroke, so with no nutrition or hydration her body won't be able to sustain itself for long. It's sad, but death is part of the life cycle and for 94 years Gram was very healthy. I pray for her to go to Jesus' arms soon. Thank you for your prayers. Love, Jane

Dear Lisa,
You are in my prayers today. Special days are so hard. May you have sweet memories on Aaron's birthday. May you feel the comfort of God's peace. Love, Jane

Dear Charlene,
I heard MO got hit bad again. I pray everything is ok for you and your family. I hope you will enjoy your jury duty. Many of my friends who have been on a jury afterwards stated they really enjoyed it and learned a lot. Know your in my prayers. Love, Jane

To our special day Moms for March ~ [Lisa, Yvonne, Sandy, Charlene, Kathy, Alexandra, ~ Please know my thoughts and prayers will be with you [God willing] especially on your special day, throughout the month of March and in the months ahead. I pray that God will give you peace on your special day and that you rest in the assurance that someday when your work here is finished, you will embrace your Angel in heaven where there will be no more tears and sadness; only joy forevermore!
My love to all,
Verna

Dear Angel Moms, Please forgive me for not posting more often. I wish I could get a post or two in everyday, but sometimes I get so busy with all that is going on here, I wear myself out and neglect my duties here. I want you to know that my prayers and thoughts are with you all throughout each and every day. I consider all of you a part of my extended family that God gave to me at a time when I needed the love, compassion, and support of family and friends whom I knew in my heart really understood or could relate to and share what I was feeling inside. For that I thank you all. I am truly grateful that God made us a special family. :)

I am up very early this morning because I slept in most of the day yesterday. I will be going back to bed in a few. I have an appointment for a stress test later this morning, that I pray will go OK. Thanks again for the many prayers that have been prayed for me and family. You and your family are also in my prayers.
Love & hugs,
Verna

LISA,
May you have more happy memories today of your Aaron than sad ones. May God grant you peace and joy today as you remember Aaron's birthday celebrations. May God surround you with His comfort today too. In Jesus' name. Amen.
Love and (((HUGS))),
Charlene

This is my "help" call. Not doing well at all. Jane

JANE,
I just got home and have seen your 'help' message.
Father God, I ask You right now to wrap Your arms of comfort around my sister Jane. Father, hold her and give her comfort in her tears. Father, in Jesus' name, I ask that You surround her with Your peace that passes understanding; give her rest for her body and her soul right now. Grant her relief from her deep aching sorrow and ease her pain right now, in Jesus' name and for His sake. Father, I thank You that You hear us when we pray and thank You that You care about us as no one else can. I praise You and give You honor right now. I ask You, Father, to bring Jane to our minds through the night and as we think about her remind us to pray for her and lift her up to You to take care of her. I thank You Father that You can do all of these things. Amen.

Love you sis,
Charlene

TO ALL,
I wasn't picked for jury duty today, but it was an interesting morning anyway going through the questioning process. It was a criminal assault charge and the jury had to reach a unanimous verdict; I think that's why I didn't make it, because of the feeling of intimidation I would have if I disagreed with the other jurors. The trial was this afternoon and I'd like to have stayed and seen the outcome of it; sort of a follow-up on the case, but I didn't think of that until after I'd already left the courthouse. We were given just enough of the facts to see if we would be prejudiced one way or the other, but I would like to hear 'the rest of the story', if you know what I mean. Oh well, it was interesting and I DID learn a few things. Maybe next time I won't be so nervous before I go in. Thank you all for your prayers; I survived. :o)
Love and (((HUGS))),
Charlene

Dear Charlene,
Thank you for your prayer. I checked the time it was posted and figured out the CST. Right after you posted that I became very drowsy and fell asleep for about an hour. How awesome is that? I'm feeling somewhat better now, but mornings and early afternoons have been bad. I'm dealing with a lot of anxiety, which I haven't experienced in many years. My old pattern would have been to pop a pill to escape and feel better. For me, right now, I don't believe it is the right thing to do. I had such a dependence on prescription drugs in the past and had abused them. However, I do still take something for sleep because my body "marches to a different drummer" according to several doctors. Without medication I wouldn't sleep until about 5:00 AM. I do have Xanax for those nights when my meds don't work. In the last year I may have taken 3. It's the Xanax I wanted to use to escape. When I posted the help signal I was shaking both on the inside and out. I haven't had that in so long I can't remember when. I know for me part of the anxiety is worrying Gram is suffering because of lack of hydration. I was praying that she wouldn't suffer when I heard God say, "What if her suffering brings her to me?" It was like, OK You are God and I am not. For right now I have been able to place her in God's hand. Tomorrow, I'm sure I'll have to again, because I know I'll want to take her out of His hands and start worry all over again. So thank you so much. I'm finishing my neb treatment and the heading to bed. Love, Jane

JANE,
I'm so glad the God helped you to rest! His mercies are from everlasting to everlasting; how great is His faithfulness! I'm still praying for you as He brings you to my mind.
SELVA,
I've been praying for you in this busy time at work; that God would give you rest when you're at home, that you would be able to 'wind down' and not be too keyed-up to rest when you get home. Don't fall asleep on the way home though! HaHa. I pray that you are doing okay.
SANDY,
I haven't seen a post from you here in a while. I pray for your peace as Shane's HD is coming up; that our Father will ease your tension and stress and that you will be at peace in the days coming up.

I've been learning to breathe deeply; it's supposed to put more oxygen in my blood and prevent cancer and a lot of other maladies. Make sure your diaphragm/abdomen pushes out when you breathe; that's deep breathing that's needed for a healthy body. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to hyperventilate when I consciously do that; then I have to slow down and try to breathe slower. Do that at least 10 times an hour (or more) and you will see a difference, with clear thinking and more energy.
Love and (((HUGS))) to all,
Charlene

VERNA,
How did the stress test come out? I hope and pray that you are doing okay. :o)

KATHY,
I never did hear how your trip to visit your son went. Would love to hear about it.

Love and (((HUGS))),
Charlene

Hey Charlene, ~ Thank you so much for asking about my stress test. Now I know for sure that my emails are NOT getting through! :( My daughter, Cheryl, has been saying that she has not received several emails that I've sent. So I began asking everyone to let me know they when they received an email from me. So far, no one has responded to my request. I will let everyone know when the problem has been solved. Thanks again, Charlene. :)
Love & prayers,
Verna

Charlene, below is a copy of the email I sent to you on yesterday. Your asking about my stress test let me know you didn't receive the email below. :) Thanks again!

Thank you again Charlene for the beautiful job you do as our Special Day Angel Mom! I'm down in the valley somewhat but counting my many blessings as God brings me out of it. I missed my stress test appointment but rescheduled it for Mar. 9th. God willing, I'll see you at our circle of love later when/if all is quiet again. I think I did a group post last night just to make sure I don't miss anyone. I am baby-sitting my 2 neices today. Our church's 125th anniversary is tomorrow. I sure hope I'm feeling well enough to attend; it's been a while, and I really feel I need to go.

Love & prayers always,
Verna