Dear sisters. Our dear Angel in Chief Sandy is also with the flu, she is feeling very sick and that is why is not posting, I am sure that you all will join me in prayers for Sandy and for all, so that everybody will start feeling better soon. Love Selva
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
Wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughing in the rain
Still can't believe you're gone
It ain't fair you died too young
Like a story that had just begun
The death tore the pages all away
God knows how I miss you
All the pain that I've been through
Just knowing no one could take your place
Sometimes I wonder who you'd be today
Would you see the world?
Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family?
I wonder, what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue
I feel like I can talk to you
And I know it might sound crazy
Today, Today, Today
Today, Today, Today
Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope
Is I know I'll see you again someday
Lyrics to "Today" by Kenny Chesney
I really like the words to that song; I don't listen to much country music but I recognize the name of the man who wrote it.
I was looking over the Special Dates List and realized that I don't have Wes's birthdate. If you can't give it to me right now, I understand; I just wanted you to know that his birthdate is not on our list.
You're in my prayers!
Love and special (((HUGS))),
I'm praying for your complete recovery. Meanwhile, get all the rest you can! (take advantage, if you know what I mean) Spend this time on concentrating just on yourself and no one else; pretend that you're on a tropical island (or your dream spot) where you are being waited on constantly and have everything you want or need. Maybe that will calm your mind so you can rest better. :o)
Love and (((HUGS))),
It is a beautiful song, if you ever get a chance to listen to it, it should be at a time that you want to cry! I think you can listen to it online....beautiful. It came out a few weeks after Wes passed. Wesley's birthday in March 25, 1982. It is coming up. That is funny because while I was waking up this morning I thought that I needed to ask you to please add his birthday to the list! That is something isn't it? Thank you so much for your prayers. I am a little better today....until next time I guess. I just can't believe that we have to live the rest of our lives like this. You just can't get past it can you?
Sandy, I am sorry that you are sick. You have to rest because it is a real hanger-oner. I am just feeling normal after 3 weeks. I will be praying for your quick recovery. Miss seeing your posts! Love to you,
Thank you so much for your prayers. You are right, we can just cry, get mad, stomp our feet and cry some more. There is nothing we can do. That is why I think I am in Hell. I can't imagine living the rest of my life with this pain. But I know that I must. That makes it worse! I just pray that we keep our hearts very close to God's during the rest of our lives. I couldn't get through without him. I know all of our angel kids are together, that is what it is all about, still I want them here.
I will be praying for all of the kids involved in the accidents. They are so young. I wish they would not give kids licenses until they were 25! Kids just don't make good choices most of the time....it is a shame too that some have to live with a death on their concience. My prayers go out to them. Yes it would be so nice to have a God with Skin on. That is a perfect choice of words. Trust me, God gets all of my thoughts! I find myself yelling (not at him) but to him when I am driving home in my car. It is a way to get it out and also I know he is listening. Fortunatly I take a road home that is not very busy so I don't look crazy..ha ha. Thank you for your support.
Hi my dear sisters, ~ so sorry to be MIA for so long. Like most, I am still dealing with several health and stress related issues. Also like you, I pray for all even when I canít post for whatever reason.
Charlene, I was so sorry to read about the robbery. I am so glad that your hubby wasnít caught up in it. Here, we just lost a store owner who was shot in the head by a 15 year old trying to rob her store. She unfortunately refused to hand over the money, so he shot her, and then ran. They arrested him not long after. Although it happened last week, I still feel the grief and sadness for all involved. Our new mayor and the chief of police and officers have taken to the streets to visit all the businesses in our area and talk to the owners about things they might do if faced with something of this nature. Lord knows, no amount of money is worth losing ones life. So again, thank God your hubby is safe. It may take a while but unlike loved ones, material things can be replaced.
I am grateful I am able to post. My computer is low on memory and dragging. I will try to get it worked on soon. Selva, I am praying for you and family, that you are safe and were not affected by the tornado and I am praying for all the other families; especially those who lost loved ones. For those remaining, I pray they will receive help and shelter in a timely manner God love them. Sandy, my prayers are with you. Please rest and take your meds. The flu is nothing to play with so rest, meds, and plenty of fluids OK?
, God bless you for reaching out to one in need. As you know, no good deed done is lost. Still, I agree that you must also allow others to help so that you donít get down. As we get older, we must sometimes be reminded to take care of self, too. At least, that is where I am now, so I know how hard it is to just say no when your desire to lend a helping had to very strong. So, again, take care of you.
Iíd like to ramble on, but my hands are beginning to ache so I will give them a rest and try to catch up on reading and post again soon. My love and prayers are with you all.
Jane, sorry, I forgot and left your name off but I am sure you know the part that was addressed to you in my post above. :)
Kathy: Your Wes's birthday is 3 days after mine and he was born in the same year as my Ryan.I need prayers for a friend I haven't talked to in about 2 years. She moved to PA and had to give custody to her exhusband because it has been a long court battle and she just ran out of money so she moved to Pa to be with her soon to be new husband. She is very upset about her 4 children not getting the proper care. She said they don't eat the right foods and the father has told them that she wasn't a good mother and didn't take care of them and they don't even want to talk to her only when they have to.She does get to have them on some weekends but it breaks her heart to see them this way. Just prayers to help her get through this and that the children get to know their mother again and will see what their father is doing to them. Bless You All. Now I got to get some rest since I feel like I am getting sick again because of my oldest grandson(Matthew) is getting sick with a cough and sore throat and he just can't keep from kissing and loving me and I just take it all in. Love You all
I used to live about 6 inches from the el (above ground train) in Chicago. I used to go under the tracks and scream my head off when I was upset. With a train passing no one could hear. I miss those tracks! Let me assure you that you will always miss Wes, but not to the intensity that you do now. It does get better and if we allow it and you will, real joy returns. The rest of your life will not be as it is now. Right now you are riding what I call the roller coaster of grief. One day it will even out. Until then it is totally ok to yell at God, He has big shoulders. We can be totally honest with Him because He knows everything anyway. The release you feel is Him comforting you. Several months ago, either Charlene or Verna posted that God didn't take our children, our fallen world did, however He welcomed them home. I take great comfort in that. You and everyone else are in my prayers. Love, Jane
Thank you for your kind words. Just today Bob went back into the hospital. This is getting real hard, but I'm committed to seeing him through till the end, whichever way God chooses. For the next couple of weeks help is limited due to illnesses and a mission trip that several of his supporters are going on. Then I will be away from Feb 13-16. Right now I know he is safe and getting the medical care he needs and I and others get a little break. Depending on how cold it is I will probably make a trip to the hospital after work tomorrow. I have been pretty diligent in getting proper rest, nutrition and down time. I thank all for your prayers during this difficult time. Love, Jane
I am so sorry your sick. Please take the advice and be good to yourself. From what I've seen here, it's the ones who push themselves that can't seem to get over it. Besides what has been mentioned (rest, meds, fluid, imagination) maybe you can get someone to rent a good movie for you. Whenever I am in the hospital (way too often) I use the time to draw closer to God, when my mind isn't clouded with so many meds! My prayers are with you for a speedy recovery. Love, Jane
Hello all my dear sister's,
Sorry I haven't been able to post (not computer problems this time ) I have tendonitis in my hand and that is painful.
I have been reading some of the post' though and I will be praying for each of you.
Love you all, Anita
I get tendonitis often and there are braces or wraps that helps a lot. When I had it in my hands I wore the brace at night. Helped a lot. You can put up the braces at any pharmacy. Also if you can take an antiinflamatory med will help. I pray your's will get better soon. Love, Jane
Dear one and all of my special sisters,
I feel like I'm a broken record but I have to tell you all that I'm going through the valley again. I'm having stomach problems and I realized that I had the same problem at the same time last year. I'm wondering if maybe it is because Dec, Jan, Feb, and Mar. are anniversary months for me. Whatever it is, plus the robbery, has turned me into a waterfall and all I can do is cry. I don't want to add to your burdens, so I am praying that God would relieve some of this so I can go back to helping you all. I didn't know who else to tell, so you are it! :o)
Love you all! With many (((HUGS))),
My dear Charlene,
Please don't ever feel you are a burden to us. You have done so much for all of us. I'm sorry you're in the valley days again. You posted Dec-Mar was also hard last year. You may have several things going on at the same time. First, yes there are several special days during that period, second you just experienced a major robbery, and third you may be experiencing SAD, I think it stands for seasonal adjustment disorder. Actually it's the lack of natural light that makes many people depressed. There are actually special light bulbs you can use to combat that. I know many people who take medication only during those months to deal with their SAD. As far as the anniversities, they will get better with time, but it is something we will deal with the rest of our lives as you know. I love the song "Cry Out To Jesus" especially during those days. He truly does understand our pain. Remember you are not in this alone. We are here to support you and pray for you. Keep posting what you're feeling. Not only does it release your emotions it lets us know how to pray. You are a very special person and loved very much. Love, Jane
Bob is not doing well. They have him on very strong pain medication and it makes him incoherant and confused. I really don't know how they can send him home from the hospital that way. He has no insurance for a skilled care facility. If they have to place him somewhere it would be state run and usually they are pretty horrible. I believe this week major decisions must be made. I have two prayer requests that I wish you would join me in. First that wise decisions are made. Second, and this is much harder, that God would act quickly in how He wants to heal Bob. Those close to him just want relief for him. On the brighter side, many more people have come forward to help him. This will be helpful if he is placed in a state run place because we will be keeping a close watch on him and try to meet the needs the facility can't meet. I know that God is in control and He holds Bob's life in His hand. However, I believe that our prayers can influence His decisions, otherwise why pray? This whole situation is just so sad and hard. I am not in this alone and I'm not responsible for medical decisions or housing. I just coordinate all the care he needs. It's all teamwork and we support each other. We need all the prayer support we can get. Thank you for all your prayers. Love, Jane
Thank you so much Jane! It helps to have a 'clear head' (you) to give me some options. You may be right about the SAD. I haven't been feeling well for quite a while and haven't gotten out of the house very much; on the days that I do feel like doing something, I'm either snowed in or iced in and can't get out. What you've said has helped my attitude already! I should be spending my time praying and in Bible study but I'm just so tired that my mind doesn't even want to think. Today I've set a goal to accomplish at least one thing that I've been putting off; believe me when I say I've got plenty of things to choose from. :o)
I'm praying that God would answer your prayers for Bob as only He can; that He would show everyone around you that He alone is worthy to be praised, and that they would see that you are willing to follow where He leads you. Who knows, many could be watching you that you don't even know about. May God be praised and glorified today because of your service for Him.
Love you with lots of (((HUGS))),
I've been looking for the song 'Cry Out to Jesus' but I can't find it and I don't have it. I just received a daily devotion (that I get every day) that included the song at the end of the devotion! God is good!
Thank you for your prayers and kind words. If you need the lyrics to any popular Christian song you can go to KLOVE.com, click on music, then on lyrics. If you know the name of the song it will appear on the bottom. If you know only a phrase it will give you anything that has that phrase in it. I find many lyrics that way. There are also other sites, but I don't remember them right now. I pray you did accomplish one thing today.
Bob is still not doing well. I spoke with him today for about 5 minutes. In the middle of a conversation he fell asleep. Then he woke up and finished the conversation and stated he was too drowsy to talk anymore. He told me the pain meds he is on. In November when I was in they gave it to me for a bad headache. I was knocked out right away. It must be the new pain med of choice because several people have told me they had it and it did the same to them. There's no problem taking it in the hospital, but he will be sent home with it. Pretty scarry thought. I wanted to see him in person but the weather here is frigid. The hospital he's at is undergoing major construction and parking is almost impossible. Couldn't get myself to do the long walk, and was afraid my asthma would kick in. Love, Jane
I see you are still missing, so I assume you are still ill. Just wanted you to know that you are missed and I am praying for your recovery. Love, Jane
Just wanted you to know that I am already praying for you. I know the anticipation leading up to a special date is pretty awful. You have two this month, so I'm lifting you up early. Love, Jane