Prayer Circles

Dear Sisters, this is a poem written by Kim Bates in 1997. It was given to me after Josh was killed. I want to share it with all of you.

If You Could See Me Now

God brought me up to Heaven when it was my time to go.
He held my hand through the light,I wanted you to know.
He told me of his love,And how it would always be,
Endless and eternal.Someday you too will see.
If you could see me now I spread my wings and fly,
I watch you down below, I'm an angel in the sky.
I'm going to see you again someday, It's time that keeps us apart.
But it's going to take more than love, To ask God into your heart.
If you could see me now In Heaven up above.
I'm happy ever after, I'll spend eternity in love.
When you enter into Heaven, You'll be happy in every way.
But always be ready,Today might be your day.
I wish you could have seen God open up the gate.
He smiled and said,
"You're home child"
And carried me away.


Love and Hugs, Anita

Dear sisters,
I have so much to catch up on. My brother whom I gave a kidney to 4 1/2 years ago had complete renal failure over the Labor Day holiday. I have been away to the hospital and trying to help his family. We are devastated by this but we also know that God has a plan here, we are faithful in that. I have missed you all. I will catch up my reading, just wanted to let you know that I am here. Love to you all
and prayers for peace and strength go out to you all..my dear Angel Moms!
K

That's a very beautiful and touching Poem Anita, that was very nice that someone shared it with you for your Josh and thank's for sharing it here!
Love & Hugs,
Sandy

Oh, our dear Kathy, I'm so sorry to read that! If we had known, we'd have been praying for him before now, but trust that he's in my prayers, as well as you and the rest of the family. Yes, don't give up hope, God does have a plan in place and put your trust in Him.
We've missed you too and are happy that you're back!
Love, prayers & Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Lori,
My heart is breaking along with yours. I feel your pain, we all do. I am so sorry. I know that you are burdened with sorrow and sadness. We can help you here. We all have strength together. We have love and a very special bond. What ever I am feeling I know that I can come here to my Angel Moms and get great comfort and understanding. I have also lost a young Son. Wes was 23. Far to young to be going away to Heaven. It has been just over a year now. The pain is not as gut wrenching as before, I can actually think of him now with a smile sometimes. It takes precious time. It takes rest and it takes God. You have to take care of yourself physically, God can do the rest if you let him. It is a slow process and agonizing somedays but somehow he gets us through. Please come to post here where we can apply a healing balm to your soul. I promise it helps greatly.
My love to you, your Taylor and your family. All of our children know each other, you will see that the more you come here. God bless you with peace.
Kathy

Thank you Anita for that poem! It gives me a picture in my mind of Carey and Casey smiling at me and reaching out their arms to me when I get to Heaven. What a grand reunion we all will have won't we! In the meantime we have each other as very close sisters in grief who have big enough hearts to help each other even though we are in pain ourselves. Thank you for sharing your life with me and us all here!
Love and prayers,
Charlene

Kathy it's good to hear from you again; I was just wondering about you today. I'm sorry to hear about your brother; my prayers are for and with you all. Yes, God is faithful to stand by us! Without Him (and you all) life would be hopeless. May God bless you today.
Love and prayers,
Charlene

I don't know about you all but today has been hard for me, 5 years since 9/11. I was listening to the radio this morning (as I was going to my dr. appt. about an hour and a half away) and my heart just started aching for all those who 'lost' someone that day 5 years ago. We all know what that awful, deep ache is like to lose someone that we love. And my heart just went out to all those who are grieving today. God, give them peace and comfort as only You can. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Love you all!
Charlene

Dear Lisa, welcome. I went to your website and marveled on what a fantastic memorial for Taylor. If this does not inspire anyone I dont know what will. It was as though I knew Taylor personally. This site here as well as Taylor's will help ease your pain. My heart goes out to you as well and as the others stated, we all are here for you. I too lost my only and first born son in January of this year. Its funny I was just listening to an program and the announcer stated there are only three men a woman can depend on, God, Jesus, and their son. It made me laugh but it also may be feel good because I know how close my son and I were and he was always there for me. Its the same thing I read about you and Taylor at his memorial site. Keep coming here and keep letting it out. I think the people here are the only ones that we can let it out to without feeling embarassed, chastised, etc. We all need each other.
Write to you later.
Connie

Anita, I wish I had that poem last week at Derrick's memorial. Its great. Thank you for sharing. I will save that it my Healing Book along with others I received from here and elsewhere.

K, my prayers are with you and your family. God has the last word and for that, we must stand by and abide by it. Let your brother know all of your sisters are praying for him because he is one of our brothers as well.
Charlene, I am with you. Today was kind of sad day for us as I well. I am still praying for all of those families, and for the families that are still searching for their loved ones.

Dear K You are in my prayers if there is ever anything i can help you with as in questions please do not hesitiate. Anita that poem was just what i needed tonight before i go to bed GOD PLEASE BE WITH ALL OF US IN OUR HOURS OF NEED HELP US TO HELP THEM IN HOW YOU SEE FIT. i PRAY FOR ALL THE LOSSES from 911. I pray for all those who lost their loved ones . I pray that all who lost there children you help them find their way here In the last 3 days with there love and prayers I have been able to grasp and hold on to the truth in all the prayers of the past 352 pages/

My Dear Angel Sisters,
Thank you so much for your prayers! My brother is getting ready to go home from the hospital today. He is in good spirits and is very faithful. He knows that God is directing his life and will go where he is lead. I have read all of your posts and want you all to know how much you all mean to me. I am so thankful to be part of this circle! I am praying for each and every one of you. God Bless you!
Kathy

I do not ask to walk smooth paths
nor bear an easy load.
I pray for stength and fortitude
to climb the rock-stewn road.

The broken chain

We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone;
For part of us went with you, the day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide;
And though we cannot see you, you are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same;
But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.

Peace to all

Hi my dear Angel sisters. Anita, thank you so very much for those beautiful poems, I just loved it, they are such an inspiration and help, I really needed that.My dear Charlene, how is your hubby doing? I pray that he is feeling much better and so do you. Kathy, I am really so sorry about your brother's problem with his kidneys, ay my dear sister, I will keep on praying very hard for him and you, I also pray that God will give you a Hill, like anita's poems says, you are really going through a lot, but please know that prayers works, I am so sure of that, otherwise I would not be here writing this, Thanks to all of your prayers God gives me the strenght to carry on until He decides is my time to go and be with my Solange again. My dear Connie, you had such a wonderful Memorial for your dear Derrick, I am sure that he is showing off with all our Angel kids, about his mom, yes my dear sisters, I KNOW that all our Angel kids are together, they already know each other, there are no coincidence, if God brought you to this wonderful Circle of Love, is because our Angel kids are together and they are all happy that we are together, because some day, we will be all together again, like a big wonderful family and this time in Heaven with all the Glory and with Our Lord smiling at us, I am so sure of that!. I can not remember, (and I said this many times before, if you read the back posts) how I came to this wonderful Circle of Love, I have no recollection at all, but I know that God led me into this Circle when I needed the most, I was ready to take my life, and thanks to my Dear Angel in Chief Sandy and also my dear Ms. V., they talked me out of taking my life and with their prayers, and now with yours, I keep on pressing On, like our dear Eva said, this is really God's sent my dear sisters, at the beginning I didn't find comfort with anybody including my family, none of them lost a child, my good friends also tried, but they still don't understand of the pain that we are going through, only here, my dear sisters, I can say whatever I feel, and I am sure that you all understand, and ha ha, even if you don't, you will, that is what makes this wonderful Circle of Love a real Miracle. My love and prayers are with you all. Selva

Hi all my angel sisters,
I'm glad you all enjoyed the poem. It's been 6 months since Josh died and someone put that in my hand but I could'nt bear to read it until yesterday. It helped me and I wanted to share it with all of you.
Kathy, I liked your poem the broken chain it was beautiful. Thanks for sharing it with us.

To all my sisters you are in my thoughts and prayers today.

love you all, Anita

I read all about Taylors site and said to my self 45 minutes! well I'll take a quick look and I did. that was about an hour ago. With tears in my eyes and a smile on my face all at the same time I watched and I listened. This is an amazing memorial.
What I notice about all these angel kids are they were wonderful, funny, helpful, and always seen the best in everything and everybody (godlike if you will) It makes me glad my kids are not perfect. I don't want to join the club you all belong to.
I mean no harm by that, It''s said with love and support.
With valley days comming I am with a heavy heart on a daily basis.

My heart goes out to you Chris with your daily heavy heart. I pray for peace and rest for you, that God in Heaven would give you extra strength in the days to come. DO NOT do anything except what you feel HAS to get done in the next few weeks. Relieve your stress as much as possible by taking care of yourself and finding time to relax every day. My love and prayers are with you.
Charlene

Hi my dear sisters. I just wanted to share something that I read somewhere. When the Students are ready, The Teacher appears!, yes our Angel kids were Ready, and The Teacher appeared and took them to a Higher Realm. Now we all have to be ready, that is what I try everyday, you will never know when The Teacher will appear, and after all, I want to go where my student Angel daugher went, so we can be together again, and this time FOREVER. Love and prayers. Selva

Hello circle, this is my first time coming back to the circle since I reached out to you back in July when my nephew was killed. The reason I came back to the circle tonight was because I was feeling really down. Sometimes when I'm alone I think so much about my nephew. The program from his funeral and two draw up flower still sits on my bedroom dresser, I don't know why I haven't putting those things away yet. Since my nephew death I lost a cousin that grew up with me like a sister and that was hard. But after reading the responsed from Grandma Charlene, I too am a Grandma, and Shaner,and Selvam I'm feeling a little better. I thank you ladies for being here for me tonight. Even through it wasn't written tonight, I really did need it tonight. So thank you all and my God bless you.

Dear sister Angelcp,
Welcome back to your healing circle. This is the place to come when you are feeling down. It helps so much to get things out. I am so sorry for the loss of your Nephew and cousin. We all know how you feel. I think you haven't put your Nephew's memorial things away because it isn't time yet. It took me months to go into my Wes's room without falling apart. When it is time, you will know. It is ok to have them out, I have a a lot of Wes's things out. I can't bear to put them away. Please come here to let your feelings out. It is important to have a place to go and say anything you want. For so long I didn't reach out and now I wouldn't trade it for the world. I am praying for peace for you today. The peace only our Heavenly Father can give you. God bless you.
Kathy

THOUGHT FOR TODAY

A life hemmed with prayer is less likely to come unraveled!

Dear Kathy,it was like God lead me to the site tonight to read whats going on even though I should be doing something now but I am glad I did because you talked about when its time to put your loved one things away, it will come. I too have not put Derrick's things away. His room still smells like him, I have all of his clothes, except some items his best friends took, his room and pictures are the say way he left it the day he left for work and did not return. I cant bear to get rid of his stuff. I've asked my daughter over and over to come and help me go through his stuff and she keeps putting me off. I think she doesn't want to clean his room either, because all of the memories in there and I think his clothes keeps the room smelling like him and when I am really down, I go in there just to get a sniff of him. I needed the circle tonight just to get this off my chest. Thank you Kathy amd angelcp for bringing it up. Much love, joy, and peace to everyone.

Hi Everyone,
First I wanted to respond to when to pack up our loved ones room. It took me 15 months to clean out Elizabeth's dresser and closet, and that's only because I had to. Our new baby needed the space and because he was a boy, all the girl items had to be removed. I still have a memorial box for Elizabeth. All her pictures, the outfit she came home from the hospital in, special pieces of clothing and all the sympathy cards are in it. Now when I take it out to look in it, mostly I have happy memories. However, there is a picture taken shortly before she died. In the picture she is wearing the outfit she died in and in the position I found her in her playpen. I keep thinking I should destroy it, but I can't bring myself to do it. I know I don't need a picture, because that scene is forever sketched into my mind. Maybe I need the picture to assure me that the sketch in my mind is true, even after all these years. Now I find myself rambling again, so enough of that subject. This group has been pretty quiet this week, I pray everyone is doing ok. Love, Jane

This is for all the prayer warriers,
The Chicago area has been hit pretty hard this last couple of weeks with children dying. Two weeks ago, 3 youths were killed in a car accident. Last weekend 6 young children were killed in a fire. This week 3 more youths were killed in another accident. These are just the major stories. Altogether, 8 families are grieving as I write this. I don't know if our young people are under a severe attack, because even for the Chicago area this is an extreme loss of life. So I ask Father that you send your angels to protect our precious young people. I pray for your comfort for the 8 families who have suffered much loss over the last two weeks. I pray especially for the family whose 6 children died in the fire. I thank you for the community support and the outrage it has caused. I pray your good will come out of this and laws would be changed so that no family would have to risk their lives because their power was shut off. This family was without power since May and it is believed that a candle started the fatal fire. That just makes me so incredibly sad. I'm so grateful that the community is helping with all the expenses, but I can't help but wonder, if the community had come forward when this family was in such dire need, would the children have been spared? This was a tragedy that did not have to happen.