Prayer Circles

My dear Charlene. Thanks for your posts and prayers. I hope that you are taking it easy this long weekend. May God's Peace fill your heart and you feel His love all around you. My love and prayers. Selva

My dear Angel in Chief. I know that you are busy during the weekend, but I also know that you always make time to check in our Circle. Just wanted to tell you that my love and prayers are also with you. Selva

Yes, I'm taking it easy; I started a baby afghan this past week and I've been working on it today. Our church has a craft/bake sale the end of this month so I'm making the afghan for that; the money goes to a local children's home. They used to average taking in 1 child a month, but since Meth has been on the increase they take in about 30 children a month. That's a lot of children to feed and clothe; where their other family members (grandparents, aunts, uncles, etc.) are I don't know. If I was younger, I might consider taking in a couple of the kids; I really feel for them with their parents all mixed up.
Then tomorrow we'll go to church and Mon. evening we go to a grandson's birthday party. He'll be 4. No big plans; I still don't have the energy or enthusiasm to do family get-togethers this year. I'll probably do Thanksgiving and Christmas unless one of our girls wants to do that. I just know that I'm not going to be elaborate with my plans this year.
I hope you have a very good and restful weekend too Selva!
Love and prayers,
Charlene

Hi my dear, dear sister, my co-pilot, the one who understand's me so much too, :-), great to see you here posting, I'm so happy your phone line is fixed and you can talk to all of us again! So many new Moms, sadly, but they can take comfort from your wise, loving Posts. And our Angel sister Charlene is helping out so much, she's such a big help to us!
Aw, thank you for your love and prayers, I treasure them and you know you're always in my love and prayers too.
Love you my dear, dear sister,
Sandy

Dear Momcandoit, ~ Welcome to our circle of love, prayers, and support. I am so very sorry to read about the loss of your beloved son. It is easy to tell from your words of love and devotion that your beloved son knew the Lord and was covered in God’s unconditional love and also yours and your daughters.

As an angel mom of 10 years, I can tell you and the other angel moms who have joined us recently, that although you will never get beyond your loss, the day will come when the pain won’t be so very, very raw and intense. Right now, however, you are still in the very early stages of grief, so be gentle with yourself and know that it’s OK to grieve deeply the loss of your beloved son in your own way and for as long as you feel the need. We all learn slowly and over a long period of time that grief has no time table; especially when it is the result of losing one’s beloved child.

You will always miss your son’s physical presence, but in time, [and lots of it], you will begin to go for longer periods without feeling such intense sadness almost 24/7. No, it doesn’t seem like it will ever happen, but it will.

As difficult as it is to believe, every angel mom here can relate to the indescribable pain, the hole in your shattered heart.

During the early stages of my grieving, I could not believe that anyone could have felt the kind of pain and loss I was feeling, and live … so I prayed that God would just let me die. I became suicidal, and had it not been for God and my beloved daughter leading me to this circle of love, I may not have made it this far. Knowing so little about computers and surfing the net at that time, I know it was God that led me here.

I’ve often shared in the past that I had very little support along the way; because friends and family were so afraid of upsetting me … they were afraid to mention my daughter’s name, and some even stopped coming around. God knows I pray that you are surrounded and have the support of family and friends. So many times I felt that dying was the only way I could get rid of the pain and loss I was feeling so intensely. I needed to talk about my child and also about the indescribable pain I was feeling. It took a little over 3 years for me to regain my will to live, and to restore my faith in a loving and caring God. The only reason I share again and again what it was like for me during the very early stages is to encourage you and other newly bereaved parents to not give up. As hard as it is to believe, you will begin to experience God’s healing power and the kind of peace that only He can provide. I pray that you feel God’s and your beloved son’s unconditional love and ours also.

Love & prayers,

Verna [aka Miss V.]
Diane’s Mom
8/16/60 ~ 8/31/96
Forever In Our Hearts

Our dear Miss V! Please keep sharing over and over again, you speak for all of us, or most, when you do, we all know this awful pain and you express it for all so well, please don't ever stop, :-)
Much love, prayers & Hugs,
Sandy

Hello our dear Phyllis,
I hope you're still reading here, especially today on your precious Rhonda's Heaven Date, you'll know that you're not alone on this special day, that our love, support and prayers are with you always, but in a special way today, as you mark Rhonda's Anniversay date. May our dear, sweet Lord surround you with His love and peace today and please, if the tears come, let them out,
Much love, & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Thank you SO much Verna, for sharing your pain. It give me hope; as Christians, we are not to grieve without hope. You have restored my belief that God will see me through.
Thank you!
Charlene
p.s. I'm in a lot of pain today as I slipped and reinjured my shoulder yesterday evening. I'd appreciate your prayers. I've also been researching Lyme Disease this morning; for some reason I've had that on my mind since I woke up this morning. I've found some very interesting reading and treatments and I'll talk to my dr. about it when I see him next week.
Much love to you all!!

Hello dear Phyllis, ~ I'm a little late getting here, but I want you to know that I join the other angel moms in a special day prayer for you and your beloved Rhonda. I pray that your special day has been filled with a measure of God's peace as well as fond memories of your beloved daughter, Rhonda. As Sandy said, if the tears come, let them. Please know that you are not alone. May God keep you in His love and care today and always.
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Charlene, ~ It warms my heart when my sharing seems to help others in any way on their painful journey. I feel as though God is using me and all who share their painful stories here to give hope, as well as strengthen our faith in a loving and caring God. I guess I had to try going through the storm alone so that I could discover that it was impossible. :) I was so angry and my faith was so shattered I had the nerve to ask God Almighty where was He on the night that my daughter died? [I recall telling someone “It’s a wonder God didn’t zap me right off the face of the earth during those pain filled days!" Once God began to speak to me and reveal Himself to me in such powerful ways, I began to realize that never again would I doubt His existence or His unconditional love; no matter how great the storm! God understands that there will be many, many times that our grief will surface as anger, and a lack of faith. We must remember that God continues to love us "unconditionally" especially during our valley times! Remember, He has walked this painful road long before any of us! :) OK, ladies, end of sermon. :)

Oh gosh, Charlene, I am sorry to read that you reinjured your shoulder. You can count on my heartfelt prayers.

Thanks again, my dear sister, for doing the Special Days list, and for all the love and encouragement you contribute to our circle of love. :) Right now though, you need to take care of you and allow some time for healing. You don't want to make it worse by continuing to do too much! I will try to get here a little more often to check on everyone.

Much Love & Prayers,

Verna

God sent His Son to save us,
Oh how He must have loved us!
To send His Son ...,
His only begotten Son!

By: Maxine Frazier
Shreveport, La.

Hi my dear Phyllis. I just want you to know that my prayers are with your today, may the wonderful memories of Rhonda fill your mind and heart, and please know that she is safe and enjoying her Heavenly birthday with all of our dear Angel kids. My love and prayers. Selva

Hello all my sisters, I hope everyone is having a safe and happy holiday. You are all in my thoughts and prayers today.
Love you all,
Anita
ps. It is a quick note but I did want to let you all know I was thinking about you.

Hi dear Anita,
That's so thoughtful of you to post that, I pray you're having a safe and happy Holiday too! Quick note or not, it's really nice to know - and you know the same goes out to you,
Love & Hugs,
Sandy

Happy Holiday to all. I want to thank each of you for posting your regards for me on my sons' birthday. That really meant a lot to me. I did not post yesterday because that was the birthday of my baby brother and he was called home to glory six years ago the same way my son was. He told was found in the street taken by asthma. Derrick and him was very close and you see their birthdays are a day apart and they both were called home the same way. Before I get into the memorial run down, I want to ask Charlene how she's doing? I am so sorry you reinjured yourself. Also to welcome momcandoit. Mom you are at the right place. A place where there is love, concern, and compassion. You are not alone here because we all have that child. All of our hearts are still breaking along with yours. We will always be here for you to vent to and just so you know, there cyber arms that will always wrapped you in them.

All the memorial service was emotional, awesome and just fantastic. Everyone felt Derrick's spirit throughout the whole house. I had programs made so we had everything in decent and order. We had the prayers service, the lighting of the candles, and half of the ballons were let go here on my deck and we all marched to where they found him in the street, a couple of blocks from here, let the other half go there. We all gathered in a circle there and my minister sister prayed. We stopped traffic but we let them know they can get out and joined in the celebration. I made dvds of pictures from the time Derrick was born up to when he died and I also through in Derricks comical videos so that everyone will also have his voice. Everyone loved this. They all wanted me to make more so that they can pass them out to others. We ate and gave a roast to Derrick. We had tears of sadness but most of all, we had tears of gladness. I miss him so but I know he's up there saying well done mom. I just have to tell you all as well, the strangest thing happened. My granddaughter, his favorite, video the march there and back and when we viewed it yesterday, she stopped taping at spot where Derrick was coming down the stairs talking. In other words, its like he was saying now this is the end. I still have the last word. I did not know we had him on tape, this tape was from New years eve 2005 and I told everyone the last video we had of him was Thanksgiving 05 and I put that on the DVD. This was the most miraculous (sp) thing I have ever seen. What do you all think? Is he giving us all a sign? Let me know your thoughts.

prayerbunny, I did not post yesterday but it still does not mean my heart was not with you. I pray you are still in your faith and even though its hard, everyday will get a little bit better. I know He will not put no more on us that we can't handle because his love for us is awesome. He too lost a child and that is what keeping me going and knowing I will see my child one day. Much love for you my sister.

Hello connie,
What a wonderful Memorial and tribute to your precious Derrick! From letting the Balloons go, to your Pastor being there, putting together a special DVD of Derrick, watching other video of him, ggod food, ggod friends and family, it sound's as though it was a very special day for you and all!
The bittersweet moments, the tears, all a part of making the day one to remember, year's from now. I'm very happy for you and all.
That is a strange occurence, isn't it - Derrick walking down the stairs in the video. Our children send us sign's quite often to let us know that they're happy, they're OK and I do believe that you, dear Connie, received one!
God is good, all the time and especially to grieving Moms, He allowed Derrick to put his own 'message' on the video! Yes, it is amazing,
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi my dear Connie. So happy that you had such a wonderful memorial for your dear Derrick, I am sure that he was showing off in Heaven with all our Angel kids about the wonderful party his mother gave him, yes my dear sister, they all celebrated with Derrick and he was so proud of his mom! I am happy for you, my love and prayers. Selva

My dear Ms. V. I am so happy every time I see a post from you, that means that you are feeling better and stronger. You know that I am always sending you Healing Lights and my love from my heart. You will be just fine my dear sister, just fine. My love and prayers. Selva

Hi my dear Anita. Thanks for taking the time to post, you are such a sweet Angel here on Earth, somehow I know. I am so glad you are part of our Circle. Love and prayers. Selva

Hi my dear sister Charlene. How are you doing with your shoulder, and now the extra pain, ay my dear sister, please rest and take care of the pain. You have to be careful now, but it is so great what you are doing, taking care of other little children that are in need, that is what God wants us all to do, take care of the people who has so little. God Bless you my dear sister. My love and prayers. Selva

Hi my dear Angel in Chief. I had to work today with very little time to e mail, I left at 5pm because we are having primaries elections today, so of course I had to go and vote, under heavy rain, OMG I have not seen the sun in more than a week, and we are "The Sunshine State", ha ha. I hope that Ernesto is gone and that you , Palmer and PJ can enjoy some sunshine.Love you my dear dear sister, my prayers always. Selva

Hello my dear co-pilot, :-)! OMG, it's still raining there?? You must be so tired of it by now, yes, the tourists must be saying "This is the Sunshine State?", ha, ha. I hope it stop's soon for you, a stretch like that can affect your mood, not to mention flooding! Yes, we had the tail end of Ernesto on the weekend, heavy rains but no wind. The sun is out here right now, but they're calling for rain, :-). Palmer work's inside, so it doesn't affect him, but little PJ love's being outside, so he hasn't been that happy, :-). Love you too, my dear, dear sister, and mine are always with you too,
Sandy