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I pray for all of you and ask that you pray for me I am having a very hard time dealing with my precious son's death Feb 21,05 he had a chance to turn thirty but fifteen of those years were filled with hospitals pain and plenty of gods work via his smile faith and pure feelings for all he ever met. Pray for me please my heart is so broke and he often prayed with me and asked to help me because he was so tired and was worried about me and his sister. It was us three and god most of the time I feel a hole so deep and i don't want to shame my son. He truly was god's soldier her on earth

and also thank you all and shaner and loved ones for the beautiful prayer it is helping me .

Dearest momcandoit,
You are not alone in your pain! There are many moms here that can help you; I'm just glad that you are reaching out for help. I don't think that you can shame your son by grieving; you have to let it out and not hold it in or it will turn your body inside out. I 'lost' 4 grandchildren (no child of my own) but didn't start letting myself grieve until about a year after the last two deaths in 2004. You definitely have my prayers! You were probably still in shock in 2005 and are just now starting to grieve and feel the pain; it's deeper and larger than any of us. Talk with the sisters in grief here and they will help you. Most of all, keep talking to God to comfort you and give you peace.
Love to you,
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-27-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://mylovelygarden.com/2beautifulgirls.html

Connie, I was going to ask you today how the memorial service was coming along. It sounds like you are doing well but I agree with Jane that you shouldn't overdo. Only you know what you can do though; we just don't want you to get so worn down that you sleep for a week after the 'festivities'. :o)
My prayers are being said on your behalf today and tomorrow; may God surround your days with PEACE and REST and JOY.
Love you,
Charlene

Dear Momcandoit,
I am so sorry for your loss of your precious Son. Words cannot express the feelings we have when we loose our children. It is a pain that just cannot be described. I am so glad that you were lead to this circle. It has helped me so much. We can help you here. My Son Wes went to Heaven on Aug. 11, 2005. He was 23. When he passed away, I had the same feelings that you have about shaming my Son. I wanted Wes to be proud of me. I wanted to hold my head high for him and let him know that I would be ok. There are times though when we just can't do it alone. Fortunately we have a very loving, compassionate God that helps us every single day.

Heavenly Father, I come to you today for this Mother. Please give her the strength she needs each day to walk this long road. Give comfort to her and to her family. Please guide her to peace Lord, as only you can do.

We are here for you. Please keep coming to this amazing circle of love. God and my Son both lead me here, I have no doubt that you were also lead here. God knows there is strength in numbers. God bless you.
Kathy

Dear Charlene,
Thank you so much for posting all of our special days. What a blessing you are!
Kathy

Dear Charlene,
I have read many of the past posts, however not all. I know about Casey and Carey, and Michael, but not the baby boy. A have a couple of questions. Is Michael Casey and Carey's brother? The baby boy has two dates, with the last one being he was adopted. Is that how you lost him, through adoption and therefore he was not named? I understand if this is too hard to talk about. Also, I read about your daughter's last "memory" of her daughters. It's a precious memory, but she might be stuck there, expecting them to come home on the bus (in her mind). In times of grief our minds can really do weird things. Thank you for all your prayers and advice for our group. Thanks again for the list. Love, Jane

Dear Momcandoit,
You have come to a safe place. All feelings here are accepted. Most of us have felt the same way at one time. When you feel comfortable with us, please tell us your first name. It really bonds us together and helps us to pray more specifically. Please know right now you are being prayed for and you are loved and accepted. As the saying goes, "Welcome to our group, sorry you are here." Love, Jane

To all my Angel Sisters,
I will be away for a much needed break for about five days. I will keep all of you in my prayers. Be good to yourself this holiday weekend. I saw a sign once that said, "Expect a ramdon angel act." I know I spelled that wrong, don't know how to do spell check while sending messages. Also can't do bold or underline. So for those of you who do, would you please let me know how? Everyone have a restful, fun, and blessed weekend. Love to all of you. Jane

Hello dear momcandoit, a loving, warm welcome to this Circle of Love and I'm so sorry to read that you lost a beloved child too. We're all in this Club that no one wanted membership in!
Aw, sweetie, I can feel your pain right through your post, it hasn't been very long since you lost your son, so please, allow yourself to grieve, feel the awful pain that's with you 24/7 right now and cry, don't hold back on your tears, it's very important to let them out. You are not shaming your son in any way by grieving for him, he and God know the pain you're going through right now, your son may have told you not to grieve or cry over him when he passed, but he know's that impossible for you to do right now, so please take some measure of comfort from that. I lost my Shane suddenly, but I know he would have said the same to me.
I know that black hole you're in right now and so do the other Moms, its the ultimate loss for a Mom, Dad, to lose one of their precious children to death. I know you probably won't believe me right now, I know I didn't believe others when they told me this, but you will come out of that black hole, in your own time, when you are ready to, not when others expect you to, that's also important to remember.
I can tell you were a very tight-knit family, the 3 of you as you said, as well as God, but I also pray you have other's around you who are supportive and understanding. My prayers, our prayers, are with you dear one and this Circle is a very safe haven to post and talk about your feelings, you'll only find love, support, understanding, prayers and a judgement -free zone, so please post back and tell us about your son, your daughter and yourself, we all understand this pain and want to help you, but no pressure, you post when you can. Lean heavily on God right now, He'll be your Rock for you, I know I would have never made it this far without His loving help. May He pour His Graces over you right now and know that we're always here for you,
Love, prayers, & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Connie,
I wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers today. What a wonderful day you have planned for your precious Derrick! I know he will be with you all. Please take care of yourself and rest when you need to. Let others help if you can. I somehow feel that all of our children will be there! What a wonderful thought.
Love to you,
Kathy

THOUGHT FOR TODAY

In meeting a challenge, we become
witnesses to our ability to go where we haven't gone before, do what we've never done before, and arrive at a new place in our lives. Indeed, once witnessed, the courage, fortitude, self-trust, and even the humility that helped carry us through can never be "unwitnessed."

Dear Jane,
No, Michael isn't Carey and Casey's brother. He was their cousin, our oldest daughter's firstborn son. The 'baby boy' was Carey and Casey's oldest brother; our daughter had him when she was 16 and my husband wanted nothing to do with him so we gave him up for adoption. That was very hard for me but after I prayed (a lot!) I decided that since I had had 3 healthy daughters, I wanted some woman out there who hadn't been able to have even one child to have a baby. It was a closed adoption so we have no idea who his adoptive parents are or where he is; he would be 17 this year. I look forward to the day that he shows up at our doorstep asking to see us. My story about our 'baby boy' and Michael is on page 313; I was signed in at that time as 'lost 4'.
I hope you have a wonderful and peaceful time away.
Love, Charlene

Our dear Connie,
Prayers also for a wonderful, memory -filled Memoriam for your Derrick tomorrow. A very beautiful way to honor him!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Angel Moms,

I will be away for a few days but you all will never be out of mind. Hope that you all have a restful, peaceful, wonderful 3 day weekend. Prayers to you all.
Kathy

Dear Connie, my heart goes out to you on this your Derrick’s birthday. We all know how special days can cause sad memories to surface without warning that put us down in the valley big time. May it help to know that you are not alone and that everyone here is praying for you; especially today, but also in the days, weeks, and months ahead. May God wrap His loving arms around you and give you peace, a measure of joy and fond memories as only He can. If the tears come, know that it’s OK. Remember there is never any judgment among angel moms/grand moms and always know that we are here for you. I, too, think the memoriam is a very beautiful way to honor your beloved Derrick. :) But, don't over do; allow others to help, and make sure you get plenty rest afterwards!

Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna [aka Miss V.]

Dear Angel Moms, ~ Words fail me when I try to express how much I appreciate your prayers and support during my special days. Your prayers did wonders because I made it through both days with that special kind of peace that only God can provide. Realizing I've survived ten years; something I thought I'd never be able to do, just goes to show how truly awesome our God is. God's love as well as His great master plan is beyond our understanding; especially after the loss of a beloved child or other dear loved one. However, in time, we begin to realize that without Him we would never have made it through the storm. Once again, thanks for all the prayers, love, and support, and always know you have mine.
Much love & prayers,
Verna

O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are His judgements, and His ways past finding out!
Romans 11:33

There is no place beyond His strength ... no boundaries to His love ... no limit to His mercies ... no problem outside His solution ... no need beyond His care.

From: Never Forgotten - Always Loved!
By Roy Lessin

Hello to all my sisters.
I know it's been awhile since I last posted and I'm sorry I've been going through those days in the valley. But I haven't forgot the special days. Selva,Miss V you two were in my thoughts and prayers. August 24th was 6 mos. since Josh died we all had it rough in August.
I want to welcome all the new sisters who have joined our circle of love. I'm sorry I haven't done so before now.
Charlene, the attachment I tried to send you was 2 beautiful pictures of Jesus standing in a storm and then in the calm. I thought you would like them, but I know how these security systems work.
I've decided to do something positive in my life now, i'm going back to school.I think I may take Education or Criminal justice so between school and the project i started yesterday to stay busy I may not get to post very much. But I will still pray for you and of course I still love you all.
Anita

Yes, Anita, I would have liked those pictures. I don't understand yet why I can view some attachments but not others.
I'm sorry you're having some rough days; those seem to follow us around sometimes whether we want them to or not. As long as we cry and let out the pressure, we should be better in a short while (until the next time hits). :o)
Congratulations on your decision to go back to school. I'm sure that I wouldn't be able to concentrate enough to study now that I've been away from that sort of thing for a while. And I know that I wouldn't be able to keep up with the pace. I'll definitely be praying for you to have strength and peace and an alert mind to study and concentrate. (and for your days to be peaceful and calm)
Love you,
Charlene

Dear sister Connie. Just want you to know that my love and special prayers are with you today. I am sure that all our Angel kids are with Derrick today, celebrating his birthday, there is a heavenly Party in Heaven today my dear sister. God will help you go through this day with wonderful memories of your dear Derrick. My love and prayers. Selva

Dear momcandoit. Welcome to this Circle of Love, and yes like our dear Angel in Chief Sandy said, this is a club that noone wanted a membership, but we are lucky to have this safe Heaven of love and prayers. We all understand your pain, we are suffering the same agony and pain of lossing a child. I am sure that your dear son is watching over you, and of course he now understands of your grief, he will never be ashamed of you because you grieve, we are only humans, all I can say is please do not hold the tears back, or the pain, this could do you more harm than good. Please feel free to post here anytime you want, there will be no judgement here, we are all in this together and we understand this very complicated and lonely road. May God help you through your journey and know that you are not alone. My love and prayers. Selva

Dear Anita. Great to see a post from you and I am so happy you decided to go back to school and do some new projects, that will help a lot, it will keep your mind busy while you are doing something positive. Our love and prayers will always be here for you. Selva

My dear Ms. V. Yes we survived another year, thanks to our wonderful sister's prayers and God's love. I am glad that you are also feeling much better, just hang in there my dear sister, you will be back to the strong Ms. V. very soon, remember we have a date at the Riverboat. My love and prayers my dear sister. Selva