Prayer Circles

Hi my dear dear sister. Thanks for the link, I will go and read it. So glad it is nice and sunny, and PJ is having a great time, I'm sure he missed being outside. It is raining here today but very hot, actually we needed the rain, it has been very dry for the last few months. Hi my dear Charlene, I hope that you will start getting busy with your prayers Circle, but don't forget to post here too, we need you my dear sister. Love and prayers. Selva

Hi my dear, dear sister, yes, take a look at the article, we can relate to some of the thing's she say's. For me, it's the shoes, I'm still not ready to give them up.
Yes, it's another beautiful day here and I did some more transplanting, some white, red and pink geraniums, they look very pretty planted together if I do say so myself, :-) and yep, my little Buddy is outside, singing happily away. Hope your rain went away, when it's hot and humid like that sometimes the rain make's it worse. I just pray that this Hurricane Season isn't as bad as last year's for all of you!
Love you my dear sister, Hugs too,
Sandy

Hi, Selva and Sandy. Thank you for your warm reception. The truth is that I'm not technically Casey's step-mom anymore. I used to be married to her dad, but we've been divorced for several years now. Casey was such a wonderful little girl. Unfortunately, I didn't realize how truly exceptional she was until she was gone. I never had a problem from her. She loved me and I loved her. Even after I divorced her dad, she would call from time to time. She always sent the girls(my girls) a card and a small gift on their birthday. She would beg me to get back together with her dad so I could be her step-mom again. Of course, she understood that I just couldn't do that. Of course, my ex-husband holds that over my head. He tries to make me feel bad by saying the only thing she wanted was for us to get back together and now she's gone and she didn't get the only thing she wanted. I try not to let him get to me. My daughters are 8 & 10 and miss their big sister sooooo much. My 10 year old has just bottled everything up and doesn't ever want to talk. But, my 8 year old is very verbal about her feelings. It just breaks my heart to see them sad. I sometimes get angry and think how unfair it is that my girls didn't get to see Casey very much before......... They were so excited because they were going to get to see Casey at Christmas that year, they hadn't seen her is 4 months. But, the accident was December 1st, so they didn't get to see her again. When they did see her, it was in a casket. I don't know who I feel worse for, me or my girls. I'm sorry, I'm rambling. I'll stop. I need to get to bed. I am so glad I found this prayer circle. I will keep all of you in my prayers. God Bless, Margie.

Hi all! I'm in the middle of Vacation Bible School at my church so I've been busy getting ready for that for a couple of weeks; that's why I haven't been here much lately.
Selva, I too pray that hurricane season is very light this year; and I'm glad you're getting much-needed rain because I know what that's like here too. We've finally gotten some rain but it's too late for the wheat; we lost all of it this year because of unusually dry and hot weather in April. That's a substantial chunk of income that we won't have because wheat is our main crop.
Sandy, I'm glad to hear that you're able to get some flowers planted. They really brighten things up don't they? And your bird sounds very cheerful to have around. When I was a small girl my mother cleaned houses and sometimes she would take me with her. This one lady that she cleaned for had at least 6 or 7 parakeets, all different colors, in her house. She even had a room where they flew free; it was filled with plants, kind of a garden room, and the birds would light in the plants and make them really colorful. And the music! I don't know why I've never thought of getting a parakeet because I love their music! Oh well, good memories.
Hi Margie, good to see you post again. I owe you an apology; I didn't know all of your story and I'm afraid that I judged you by what I had heard instead of hearing both sides. I won't go into details here, but thank you for sharing your story. My heart aches for you and your girls; but you need to be glad that Emily talks. That's supposed to be good for children to express their grief and memories. I know it's probably hard for you, but if you can let her 'vent', she'll be better off for it. Just hold her and cry with her and let her talk all she wants. Maybe that will encourage Kimberly to open up too. I'm so glad you've found this circle of love and healing!
Love and prayers to you all!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-27-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04

"An Angel's Kiss"


We go through life so often,
not stopping to enjoy the day.
And we take each one for granted,
As we travel on our way.
For in your pain and sorrow,
An Angel's Kiss will help you through,
This kiss is very private,
For it is meant for only you.

We never stop to measure,
Anything we just might miss.
But if the wind should blow by softly,
You'll feel an Angel's Kiss.

A kiss that is sent from heaven,
A kiss from up above.
A kiss that is very special,
From someone that you love.

So when, your hearts are heavy,
And filled with tears and pain,
And no one can console you,
Remember once again...

About the ones you grieve for,
Because you sadly miss.
And the gentle breeze you took for granted,
Was just an Angel's Kiss.

Peggy Bouse

I got this poem in my email this morning, and I thought it was just perfect for what a lot of us are going through.
(Hopefully Selva won't get "kissed" too hard!)

Hello my Dear Sisters!
Sorry I've been "absent" for a while. I think the best thing for me would be to get back into helping others. I guess I have some catching up to do!
A SPECIAL Hello to Sandy, Charlene, and Selva! Thanks for not giving up on me!
Hello Margie! The loss of a child is NEVER easy, especially when it is a child who was a part of our life. I lost my only son in February of 2002. I have a step-daughter, who at the time, was "rebelling" for fear that her new brother was going to steal her daddy's attention. She actually treated me pretty badly most of the time. I certainly wouldn't have wanted anything bad to happen to her, but it sure left me confused about why God would take my only child and leave me with one that all but hated me! But the death of her little brother, made her a new person. Her mother (who coached her on how to be nasty to me), well, she even changed quite a bit. It took me a long time to get past the bitterness I felt because it took the death of my child, to make them see me in a different way. Anyway, I have a little understanding about being a step-parent. Isn't it normal to not want anything to happen to anyone's children anyway? I worked for 911 in Little Rock for 3 years, and the calls involving children were always the hardest for all emergency personnel. We even had a coroner retire because he had dealt with more children than he wanted to. My heart goes out to you especially, I can only imagine what it put you through. Not only were children involved in the accident, but children that you loved and cared about. (Now I'm rambling!) Just FYI; the easiest way to see memorials here is to click on the person's name, it'll bring up a box with all their info. (if you're interested) Feel free to come here and just "talk" anytime.

Welcome to all new members! It's been a while since I posted, hopefully I'll do better from now on. Never doubt for a minute, this is a very SAFE place to come and share your feelings. There is no judgement here, just love and understanding!

Donna

Hello again, Miss Donna! You caught me napping so I haven't checked through all my emails this afternoon. :o) Thanks so much for your input here; it's good to see you reaching out again. I hadn't updated my profile in a while so I did that and lost my message before I sent it; so I'm retyping it to get it sent out. :o) I guess my brain isn't quite awake yet or something. Love and prayers to you!
Charlene

Hi my dear sister Margie. I am so glad to see you posting again, just remember that we all understand your pain and we are here for you, yes just let the pain out and so try for your little ones to do the same but don't rush it, just let them know that is ok to cry when they need it, when the time comes, they will understand that hteir sister Casey just moved, she is in another place much better than here and that she has a lot of Angel sisters and brothers who are keeping good care of them , and that one of these days we are all going to be together again ans this time forever, but right now they will not understand that, so make it gentle on them and try to explain the best way you can, but make sure that they know that its OK to grieve and cry, and please my sister, you are welcome to this Cricle of Love, anytime you need us, we will be there for you, no judgement, just understanding and prayers and love. Selva

My dear sister Donna. It is so good to see you posting again, we miss you, remember this is a very safe heaven for all of us who are going through this horrible pain, we are all here for one another, with love and prayers for all. Love Selva

My dear sister Charlene, I am so glad to see you posting, for a while I though that you might be so busy but I know that no matter ho busy you are, this is your Circle of Love my dear sister. I want to tell you all that I am going to upstate NY tomorrow AM, I will not be on line until wed. June 14th, but my heart and prayers are here with all of you, so please keep me in your prayers and so will I. Love you all and I will miss you, but the minute that I will be back in Miami, I will post. Love Selva

Hello Everyone, ~ Just a short note to let you all know that I am still here, trusting in our Lord and trying to follow doctor’s orders. Family and I have had our hands full lately. My niece, Felecia, is doing much better praise God, and she is out of the hospital, but now her father is very ill. He was hospitalized last week with back pain shortly before Felecia was released from the hospital. Family and I are praying he will be home soon. So please include him in your prayers. I, of course, am still trying to regain my strength while helping out my sister who certainly has her hands full. My sister, Pearl, four years older, but in much better shape - and I mean that literally, [ha-ha] is a strong woman in the Lord who is devoted to her family as well as her church work. Her faith is strong, but as I’ve said, she has a lot on her now; so I am also requesting that you include her in your prayers also. I signed on just to say I'm ok and submit this prayer request, but will try to get online much later tonight or tomorrow so that I can start catching up on reading back posts. It’s been a while because my computer has been dragging, but hopefully it will act a little better now that I have deleted some cookies & files. As always, you’re all in my heartfelt thoughts and prayers.

God's peace & blessings,

Verna

Hey, Miss V.! Good to hear from you again, and glad that Felicia is doing better; her dad will be in my prayers too. And I'll be praying for your steady, full recovery and for your sister's peace and rest. It's good that she's active in church; what better way to stay 'in touch' with what's important.
I've been busy with Vacation Bible School this week (and getting ready for it a few weeks before that) so I haven't posted as much as I'd like to; I keep up with the reading though. You all are VERY dear to me! I can't say that enough! I've been criticized for 'talking to strangers' and 'telling them too much'; but I KNOW that you all are NOT strangers! You are all true sisters sent from God above and I thank Him for you!
Love you all!!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-27-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04

Hello my dear sisters!
I've been so busy this week that I just said to myself 'everything else can be put on hold, I need to visit the Circle!'
Hi Margie, wonderful to see a Post from you, I'm happy you found this Circle too - you were able to let out some of your feelings and emotions about little Casey and how her life had such an impact on your own and your girls. Death is so hard for children to understand, especially when it happen's to another child, one they knew and loved so much. You can always talk safely here at the Circle about how you feel or just drop in and let us know how you are and say Hi!

Aw, dear Donna, that's a beautiful poem, thank's for posting it and I'm also happy to see you posting here again too! Nice post to Margie, :-). I hope and pray things are better for you and don't be a stranger here! We NEVER give up on anybody here, so you remember that, this is your Circle too.

Hi dear sis Charlene, enjoyed reading your Parakeet story, they're very smart birds too and very trainable - you should get yourself one! Just have to plant my petunias and then I'm done.
Well, my dear sister, I talked to you before you left, so we look forward to your Post when you get back!

Our dear Miss V, you've been missed around here, but helping family come's first and you're such a big blessing to Pearl and Felicia. I just hope and pray that you're not overdoing it and are still going for rehab and looking after yourself as well!

Love you all, my prayers are with everyone and also my Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Let us all storm the heavens with special prayers this week for Kay. Joshua's b-day is Monday (1982) and Thursday (2005) will be his angel day. Oh how we all know how difficult those days are, and God love her, to have them so close together. We also know how burdened she feels with it all being so new. Dear Lord, wrap your loving arms around Kay, sustain her through this week, as only you can. Thank YOU Lord.

Donna

Yes, I want to add my prayers for Kay this week, that our Heavenly Father would comfort her and give her good memories of her Joshua; that she would be at peace and full of joyful tears knowing that her Joshua is with You, Father, in heaven, with all our other very much loved children. Thank You, Father, for providing a place for us where there will be no more pain, no more tears, and NO MORE SEPARATION!
Love and prayers for you this week, Kay.
Charlene

Just received an email from Angela; she thanks everyone for their prayers and says to keep them going. She has been sleeping for the past week or more with all the medications she's been taking; her pancreatitis is better but her shingles are back. She hasn't been eating much, just the Ensure that her doctor prescribed for her. Her son Sean did come to see her and was very emotional about her condition; he went out and bought her a big meal and brought it to her and promised that he'd check in on her more often. The person who she and the police think did the damage with her computer (and with all our minds) has been taken into custody; don't know when the trial/hearing will be yet. Please pray for Angela's peace of mind about some things that this person took from her apartment. And pray for her continued recovery; thank God that He has allowed her to still be with us! Love you Angela!
Charlene

Yes dear Kaye, gosh, both date's so close together, it's difficult enough dealing with one special day and you have 2 this week, God love you, with your precious Joshua. My special Candle will be lit for Joshua and you as well as my heartmost prayers dear one,
Much love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

SPECIAL DATES LIST:
I'm sorry that I haven't been posting these dates regularly. Here's an update:

Susan: Alex Jan. 2, 1983(BD)
Susan: Alex May 8, 2003(HD)

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I also want to lift up my prayers today for our sister Kay; today is her Joshua's birth date. Father God, I come to you today on behalf of our sister Kay because today is her son Joshua's birthdate. Father, I know that You can do anything that we ask in faith believing. I ask You today to give our sister joy and peace and good memories of her son. Help her, Father, to remember the good times in his life and to be able to celebrate his life today. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Charlene

Dear Angel Mom Kay, my thoughts and prayers are with you today and throughout the week. May the Good Lord hold you close and give you solace. remember the good times and know you'll be with him again. Love Anita

Hello everyone!
Just wanted to drop by and let everyone know that I am going to see my kidney doctor this afternoon. I'm sure he'll be upset with me for waiting so long. I won't go into specifics right now, maybe I'll have a better understanding after I see him!
My thoughts and prayers are still with Kay. As Sandy said, one special day is hard enough, without having two in the same week. God loves her, and that will be what gets her through it. God also know how much we love her, too!!
Butterfly (((HUGS))) to all!!!
Donna

From Prayers and Poetry for the Bereaved

[The following poem I’ve edited and dedicate as a tribute to Kay’s Joshua]

Kay, I pray that in time, God will give you more and more moments of peace and healing.

An Angel Mom’s Prayer
[Edited as Kay's Prayer]:)

Dear God in heaven …
I know you have my Joshua there
Please keep him in your loving care!
Please let him know not a day goes by
That in my heart my soul still cries!
Oh God in heaven … I miss him so!
I wish he did not have to go ...
Still … home to heaven all must return
For that … I thank you, oh Holy One!

By Verna R. Clay
Diane’s Mom
8/16/60 ~ 8/31/96
Forever In Our Hearts

Dear Angel Moms, ~ Sorry to be so long getting back. Please continue to pray for me. I am trying not to get discouraged, but due to recent complications that I do not understand, I do need your prayers of encouragement. I think it's the not knowing that is causing me to worry. :( My cardiologist is out of the country [I think] and won't be back until the 26th; so I am about to call and see if one of his associates can see me and hopefully put my mind at ease. God willing ... I will let y'all know if there is a problem. Thanks again for the prayers!
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna

Oh yes, Verna, you are in my prayers as we speak. It is definitely the 'not knowing' that drives us crazy! Father God, I ask that You take hold of my sister right now; cover her mind with Your thoughts and Your encouragement. Make her soul at peace right now, Father, and fill her with Your love and peace in Jesus' name.
Love and prayers,
Charlene

Hello to all Angel Mom's and Dad's & Grandparents' & all Families...

THANK YOU SO MUCH for your PRAYERS!!!

I could not have gotten this far without all of you and I do mean

Altho I had to get up for the grocery delivery, I had a horrible migraine from the rainy weather (all month it seems) and I was just in bed, laying on my icepack and I began to think of all of you and all you have endured such massive losses....

and suddenly, I feel very small in comparison to you who walk the earth with shattered broken hearts, yet as well, seem SO strong to encourage each other...

I am very impressed by all of you for being SURVIVORS and I commend you for surviving the tragic losses of your baby children....

I have a new appreciation for all of you now with what just went on and I just again, want to apologize for this awful occurrence and I pray God will restore your hearts from thinking you had lost me....

Words escape me when I read the many messages of condolences....My God, what you have all been thru!

This guy left notes all over the place that he was God and Jesus and he seems to be nuts...!!! (fingerprints!!!!!)

Anyway, the police are now going thru my DBT Therapist as I'm totally beat...

Cannot take anymore of this so the police filter everything thru my therapist first and then he tells me what he knows I need to know and nothing more!

I am very confused as well as it boggles the mind...

I really think he came here to kill me...to shut me up from being raped in February and he is some kind of relative to the rapist who fled the country BTW!!! I chased him off the whole continent!

He will NEVER rape another Canadian woman again b/c of ME and God!!! Hooray for God!

Verna knows now; I told her

And, seriously, thank God I WAS in
the hospital as I may not really be here again...

Seriously I am very traumatized by this, it creeps me out that he took some stuff with him from my place and I wonder, "What would he take THAT for?"

Well, anyway, back to bed for rest but just felt lead by the Holy Spirit to come and say Hello to you all and yes, it is very difficult to make this post as I am so mixed up and confused over what happened and my pancreas is almost all better, see the dr again June 29th....pray for good news....Thank YOU All For Your Prayers For My Pancreatitis!

Dear Sisters and Brothers;
I may have to sign myself into the psyche ward as this is really got me just so frigging confused and upset to boot, so I wrote our dear Angel In Chief, Sandy, and she wrote back saying if i have to go in, do it...

So now tears are streaming down my face, and I think I must go in to get help and get myself back together....

I want to THANK YOU ALL for holding the emails forwards as well....very much appreciated as I cannot deal with that kind of stuff right now...

So please keep me in your prayers and I'll let Charlene know when I go in b/c I'm quite suicidal right now and I know I can't leave my kids or you!

I'll put a call in to my psychiatrist and ask him to do the paperwork over the phone to get me into the hospital....

may have to wait a day or two for a bed, but they can hold me in emerg if neccessary....

I only know I cannot do this alone anymore...it's too much to handle....

Thank you,

All My Love,
Valour/Angela xoxo