Prayer Circles

Thank you so much for this prayer circle. I took lost my son at the age of 29 when he was murdered on 1/10/05. Sometimes I feel like there's a hole in my heart and I just want the love of God to fill it quickly. I know the pain you are going thru. But I pray that God give you strength and fill your void with His love. People say so many things - mostly things that hurt - because they don't understand or can't comprehend the depth of our pain. We must stay strong in the Lord for only He can bring us out of this. Be Blessed now and always all mothers of children who have died or been killed.

May God Bless and always be with every grieving parent.

Hello dear angel mom, Terry710, ~ a warm welcome to our circle of love, prayers, compassion, and understanding. My heart goes out to you in the loss of your beloved son. Sadly … No matter how hard or how long, or how sincerely we pray, that hole in your heart that you speak of will always be there to some extent. It’s been almost 10 years since I lost my 36 year old beloved daughter, Diane, and there are still times when it seems so unreal and so unfair. As all of us here know, there is no greater pain than the pain of losing a beloved child/grandchild. Others, with few exceptions, simply have no clue as to the depth of our pain. Thanks to this wonderful prayer circle I believe others who come here to read and pray for us are beginning to get a better understanding of the magnitude of the unique and ongoing grief parents experience due to the loss of one‘s beloved child.

As shattering as it was for me to lose my daughter, as the result of drunken driving, I cannot imagine the depth of your pain knowing that your beloved son was murdered, God love you.

Although each grief journey is unique, it took me a little over 3 years to decide I wanted to go on living and try to encourage other angel moms/ dads to do the same. Then, too, you are still very much in the very early stages of grief. So, give yourself all the time you feel you need to grieve your loss. I pray that you have been surrounded with supportive family and friends who will respect your right to grieve; even if they can’t fully understand the depth of your pain. Yes, with God's help, we go on, but our lives will never be the same. :(

Please know that you will be covered 24/7 with heartfelt love, compassion, understanding and prayers from all of us here.

Love & Angel Hugs,

Verna [aka Miss V.] : )
Diane’s Mom
8/16/60 - 8/31/96

Email: rae52441@hotmail.com
www.thespearofstrength.com

Hello dear Mika729, ~ Thank you so very much for your beautiful prayer. I firmly believe in the power of prayer that comes from the heart. God isn’t impressed with big words or the length of our prayers. All that matters is that they are sincere and from the heart. May God richly bless you in every way that you need.

Love and prayers,

Verna

Hi dear Terry, you're very welcome, thanks be to God - the Circle belong's to everyone, but He's the One who whispered in my ear to start this Circle of Love as we call it and He's certainly blessed it mightily.
We're all very happy that you found it, but of course so sorry for the reason why, God love you. It's so painful to lose one of our precious children, but to lose one to murder, I just can't imagine how that feel's.
God is very good to us grieving Moms, but we still have to go through that raw, biting pain in those first few years that's with you 24/7 and the void that can never be filled by another. Like Verna, it too tooke me about 3 years to come out of that stage after losing my beloved Shane so suddenly to a freak heart problem and now, 7 years later, it's settled into a quiet sadness that I live with, but at least I can laugh and smile again, revell in a sunset. Every day though, Shane is on my mind, as I said, you learn how to live with it.
Yes, stay strong in God, I would never have made it this far without Him and His great love and as Verna said, please post here anytime, there's only support, love, understanding and never any judging here, prayers as well,
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy
Mom of Shane

Good morning angel moms, I am feeling much better now. I started really feeling my best on Sunday but yesterday was a Fibro day. I just slept alot yesterday. Thanks for all the prayers while I was sick. Boy! I hope that is the last time this year. I havent been that sick in about 5 years. I'm so glad it is over!!!!!!

Miss V, thanks for the e-card. It was beautiful. Love you much my dear sister.

Terry710, welcome to our circle. This is a place you can come and express your feelings without judgement and of course everyone understands your pain. I am so sorry for your loose. I also lost my daughter to murder. She was only 4 1/2 months old and she was with the babysitter. They could never prove without a doubt that she ws the one who done it bc her two sons were in the house with her but we all know she done it. She will have to face God one day and answear to him.With God's help I have learned to live with this, but as most of us we still all have our vally days. Thats when our Angel moms step in and help to comfort us. These beatiful ladies have been there for me alot and helped in ways they will never know. I pray that God will comfort your heart.

Sandy, Thanks for posting for me while I was sick and again, I thank you all for your prayers.

Love and Butterfly Hugs,
Jennifer
Amiee's Mom

Here is an email I would like to share with you all. Hope you enjoy!!!!!!!!


Once upon a time there was a child ready to be born. So one day he asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"
God replied, "Among the many angels, I chose one for you. She will be waiting for you and will take care of you."

But the child wasn't sure he really wanted to go. "But tell me, here in Heaven, I don't do anything else but sing and smile, that's enough for me to be happy."

God smiled. "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you every day. And you will feel your angel's love and be happy."

"And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me," the child continued, "if I don't know the language that men talk?"
God patted him on the head and said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak."

The child was sad. "And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?"

But God had an answer for that question too. "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray."

The baby then turned to God and asked, "I've heard that on earth there are bad men, who will protect me?"

"Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life!"

"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore," the child continued warily.

God smiled on the young one. "Your angel will always talk to you about me and will teach you the way for you to come back to me, even though I will always be next to you."

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from earth could already be heard. The child knew he had to start on his journey very soon. He asked God one more question, softly, "Oh God, if I am about to leave now, please tell me my angel's name."

God touched the child on the shoulder just before he departed and answered, "Your angel's name is of no importance. You will simply call her Mommy."

~Probably By Erma Bom beck~

Its almost 20 years since I lost my baby who was just 8 months old. Time has healed the pain , but I still pray for his happiness every single day. I can empathise with all grieving parents who have lost their child and from now onwards, I shall include them in my daily prayers. When we lose our near and dear ones, as parents we feel that life is so unfair. As we turn our thoughts inward and take a more philosophical /spiritual view of life, we realise that whatever happens , happens for the best- that God has our best interests in His heart- and from such a belief do we get our strength to face the ordeals of life

Hi to all you dear sisters!
My computer has been shut down for the past 36 hrs. because of thunderstorms here. I am SO THANKFUL for the rain, though!
WELCOME TO THE NEW SISTERS; you've come to the right place for a start on the road to healing. I call this circle the 'healing circle' because these dear sisters have helped me TREMENDOUSLY! I've been on this site for less than two months but have grown so much emotionally and spiritually since I've been here. These dear sisters KNOW what grief is all about and they are so full of love and compassion that you can't help but fall in love with them in return.
I have never 'lost' a child but I have 'lost' 4 grandchildren who were very close to us. As I've told these sisters before, I am just now learning to grieve for all four of them, although the first two losses were in 1989. I've had more tears for them all in the past two months than I've ever had before; but they are HEALING TEARS!! Thank God for a place where we can come and grieve with our words and with our tears and He works it all out for our good! You all are very dear to me!
Love and prayers to all,
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-27-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://mylovelygarden.com/2beautifulgirls.html

Jennifer, welcome back! It's good to hear from you and to know that you're better. Oh, the wonder of modern medicine! I pray that you will continue to gain strength and that you won't have a recurrence of any illness. Father God, bless Jennifer with health; keep her safe today and when she goes back to work, protect her from sickness and disease. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.
Love you,
Charlene

Hi my dear sisters. Sorry I have not posted in a while but I have been very busy with tax season, Thank God it ended monday the 17th, then my sister got sick, my phone line broke etc etc, I had my hands full for a while, things are getting back to normal and I am so happy to be able to post again in our Circle of Love, it feels like coming home again. I missed you all but want you all to know that you have been in my prayers always. I have been in the Valley for quite a while now, besides my regular broken heart, the stress have taken its toll, but I will be able to rest now. I also want to welcome the new Moms to our Circle of Love, like all the other sisters said, you will find lots of understanding, love, prayers and no judgement here, we all understand this pain because we have all suffer from it, please post back anytime you feel like it, you will also find piece here. My dear sisters I am so very proud of you all. My love and prayers for all. Selva

Hello everyone my mother Ms. V is having computer problems and did not want you to worry.
Thanks to all of you for your prayer support during a very scary time in my life I will never forget all the compassion you extended to me!
God Bless each of you,
Cheryl

Welcome back, Selva! Good to hear from you and hope you get lots of rest now that tax season is over. It's good to see you post again!
Thank you, Cheryl, for watching out for Miss V. for us; even though I don't know her like the others who've been here longer, she's still become very special to me. What would we do without our computers? (even though they're a pain sometimes)
Love to you all!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-27-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://mylovelygarden.com/2beautifulgirls.html

Hi dear sisters and warm welcome to the new Moms!
Glad you're much better, dear Jen, that was a beautiful story that you shared with us all, thank you dear one.
Our dear Charlene, happy you're back too, yes, better to be safe than sorry, and from the sound's of it, you must have needed that rain, :-).
It really warm's my heart to read you say that all the grief you've had penned up over the years is finally being released here, truly an honor and you're such a big blessing to this Circle!
Our dear sister, so good to see you posting too, you've been missed around here, it's TGIF today, so I hope you have a restful, peaceful weekend!

Our dear Cheryl, thank's so much for letting us know about your Momma's computer woes, yes, we would have been worried, hopefully James can fix it for her, :-). You don't have to thank us sweetie, it was our joy to help you during that very stressful time for you and your family.
It rained here all week too, no thunderstorms, just rain but today it's nice and sunny out, hurray, too many gloomy days in a row affect's my mood.
My love, prayers & gentle Hugs to all!!
Sandy

Hi all! It's been raining all day here and we've really needed it! I worked in the flowerbeds most of the afternoon and evening yesterday because I knew the rain coming would settle the newly planted things. After over a year of neglect, my flowerbeds are really taking a lot of work this year; and I felt it in my muscles and bones last night! I am SO GLAD to even be interested in the flowers this year, though. Thank God that deep grief doesn't last forever! Don't get me wrong, I still have times of grief but it's good to see the 'sun come out' once in a while now. 'Knowing' you all has been the best thing that's happened to me in helping me to grieve. Like several of you have said, I'm sorry that we had to meet this way but thank God we HAVE met and are healing together! Just wanted you to know why I haven't posted much lately.
Our daughter (who 'lost' the baby to adoption and the two girls) just emailed me and said her dr. told her today that baby should be here next Friday; that's the tentative date for induction. Her blood pressure has been down but it was up again today. Pray for her safety and a safe delivery. She sees the dr. again Tues. AM so we should know a date for sure then. I'll let you all know so you can be praying for us.
Love you all!!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-27-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://mylovelygarden.com/2beautifulgirls.html

Hi Cheryl. Thanks so much for letting us know about Ms. V's computer's problem, you know that we will worry about her, now we all know that she is OK, thanks. My dear Charlene, you have been a fort here in our dear Circle of Love, and of course we will pray for your daughter and all the family, I am sure that the baby will come OK today, and please know that our prayers will be with your daughter and you all, YES, you will have another grandauther on the way or maybe a grandson (I think it will be a grandauther ha ha) but whatever it is, my (our) prayers will be with you all. Congratulations to you. Love Selva

Hi my dear Jenn. I am so proud of you. You have kept the fort for us, and you have done a beautiful job. My dear dear Angel in Chief Sandy, I know that Shane is smiling (laughing) with all of our dear Angel kids, he is so proud of his mom!, and yes, I have to Thank God 24/7 for taking me to this wonderful Circle of Love, and I also want to thank Shane. I love you very much, my dear Angel in Chief. Selva

Charlene-- Praying for your daughter for a healthy baby.Does she know if it is a boy or girl? I haven't been here in awhile since I have been preparing for my foot surgery which I had on Friday. I am doing good.

Dear Lask,
Thank you for your prayers! It's supposed to be a boy; they've done so many ultrasounds in the past few weeks (because of baby's size and low amniotic fluid volume) so they're fairly certain it's a boy. I'll let you all know any details when I know more.
I'm glad you came through your surgery all right!
Love and prayers,
Charlene

Good Morning dear sisters,
Another brand new week and a new month, time seem's to go by so quickly sometimes.
Dear lask, I wasn't aware you were having surgery, unless I missed it on a previous page, in any case, yes, glad for you that it's over and you're feeling better.

Our dear Charlene, godness yes, your daughter is in our prayers for a safe and uncomplicated delivery of a healthy baby.

Ah, my dear sister, I love you very much too, you know that and I'm praying for your valley time, that you will soon see some sunlight breaking through, keep pressing on in God's love and trust in Him, you know that prayer does work,
My love, prayers & Angel Hugs to all,
Sandy

Hi my dear Lask. I also did not realized you were having foot surgery, I pray that everything just went fine, and if it didn't please let us know so that we can storm Heaven for you. I know that prayers works, and we are good at that, my (Our) prayers will be with you my dear sister.
My dear Charlene, please know that I(we) are praying for your daughter, please know that everything will be fine with the baby boy, and also please know that God listens to our prayers, yes my dear sister, He does, so please let us know when that beautiful baby boy comes to your lives, God Bless him. Love Selva

Hello all you dear, dear sisters!
Our daughter's date is May 12th unless she goes into labor before then. She's doing fine and baby is doing fine. But I have received some distressing news from her; I haven't talked to her but she emailed me that she doesn't want to get together for Mother's Day or Memorial Day because it's just too sad to be around us. She says she's moved on with her life and it makes her whole family (husband and kids) sad to be around us because we're still grieving for the girls. I think she's in denial or else angry but I don't think it's wrong to be sad. We don't sit around and cry when we're all together but we don't hesitate to talk about the girls when one of the others brings them up. She doesn't want to talk about them and she doesn't want any of us to talk about them. She says she's tired of people living in the past and we need to "grow up and stop being selfish". That just breaks my heart. I need you all to help me to understand her! I don't think she's over her grief like she says she is; I think she's stuffed it all inside. I think she's stuffed all of her past inside like I did and she's going to suffer some day unless it all comes out. Pray for us!
Love you all!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-27-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://mylovelygarden.com/2beautifulgirls.html

Hello everyone, It has been almost a week since I've posted but I have not forgotten about you all. I have started a 2nd job and I have been tired plus Amiee's heavenly birthday was May 1st and it was a really hard day for me this year. Everything just kept going wrong that day so I just sat down and cried. What else ws there to do?

Anyway, I wanted to inform everyone that one of our Angel mom's Brenda ( she posted on page 315) , is going to court Friday with the man who killed her daughter. It has been 4 long years for her and he has had his case postponed two times and continues to walk around a free man. She really needs our pryers right now. She deserves closer ( how well we all know). Maybe you all could post a little prayer of encouragement under her daughters memorial and let her know she is in your thoughts and prayers. We all know how hard this will be for her, digging up all the pain she has already had to live with and continues to do so today. So, I ask again that we all join in together and start storming heaven with prayers Friday morning that this man will finally have to face what he has done and that God will give Brenda the strenght she needs to sit through this all over again.

All my love and Butterfly Hugs,
Jennifer
Amiee's mom

Good Morning again Angel Mom's,
I just wanted to explain about Brenda better than I did last night.

Brenda has been to court twice with this man in the past 4 years and both times he has had his case continued. Friday when she goes to court it is just roll call. The DA told her that they will decide on another court date to get his trail started and more than likely it will be with in the next week and the Lord only knows how long this trail will last. My heart is hurting for Brenda. She is raising her daughters little girl and I know that is what keeps her going. Oh, that child is so beautiful and sweet.You would fall in love with her if you saw her and talk to her like I have.

I hope all of you have a wonderful day and God Bless!!!!

Love and Butterfly Hugs,
Jennifer