Prayer Circles

I just wanted to thank Sandy for making all this possible, for us to come here and share and grieve together. Bless you today, Sandy!!
Charlene

Hello all!!!! Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I had a lot of catching up to do when I came to the circle! There was about 4 pages for me to go through. Thank God for keeping all the Love going.
Lask, welcome to our circle of Love. This is a very safe place for you to come and share your feelings with people who understand your pain. There is NO judgement here. Only love, understanding, and support. Your pain is so new, there will be a lot of days with a lot of mixed emotions. Please, feel free to come here and let all of those emotions go. You will only find support, and encouragement here. The circle has changed my whole life. I made the mistake of closing the door on God 4 years ago when my little angel, Marcus, got his wings. I was so angry that God would take an innocent, 10 week old baby. (My only child, at that) Now I know that God did not "take" my child, He only welcomed him into heaven. (Sisters, help me here) From one person that gave me advice, I understand that God has to allow bad things to happen because Adam and Eve opened the door to sin. So, I have to believe that God did not "take" our children, but He did welcome them into His Kingdom. Anyway, I just want you to know that this is a very SAFE place to come to, and I hope we see you a lot.
It is so wonderful to see everyone posting so much. I've really been missing out! I haven't seen a post of good news for Johanna...I pray she has found her missing child.
Sandy, I concur completely with Charlene, thank you for creating this circle and giving us all a safe place to be. To go through the grief, and start the healing process with others who can fully understand.
Well, I have lots of things I need to be doing. Even though the housework is always going to be there. Sigh!!
Love to All!!!!
Donna
Marcus Donald Dickens:121201 to 022002

Hi all Angel Mom, I have been wanting to post for several days now but the phone company messed things up on my bill. When I payed my bill friday they aplied the monies to my old bill to my old number. We had our number changed a month ago so it changed my account number and they applied the money to my old number so they turned off my internet bc it was showing unpayed. I called monday and was on the phone with internet tech. for two hours and he said to give 24 hours for the money to be applied to our new account. Well this mornoing I had to call again and finally it was turned back on. Never in my life have I had so much trouble with my internet. I guess I won't ever get my number changed again.

Selva, I want to say thanl you for allowing me to use the same name and music on my Amiee's memorial page. It is not done just yet but it is in the makeing and I am very excited about it. So hard to decide which format I want to use. I want it to be just perfect. I can't wait for you all to see it.

Sandy, your page is beautiful as well, and I really like the music. That song is very touching. I tell ya, the day I visited MY LOVELY GARDEN I cried so much. The two little girls that were killed in the car accident, Solange's and then yours. All of them were touching. Everything on that site is touching. Did alot of much needed crying.Haven't cried like that in awhile.

Dear Miss V, I am so very happy to see you posting more and more. You are a blessing to this circle of love and you bring so much healing with insparation to us all.

Angela, I am so glad I have had the pleasure to meet you and talk to you on the phone. God brought you to us for a reason. You are truely amazingand I can't wait for Amiee's memorial. It is hard for me to put into words what I want to say about this memorial you are makeing for my sweet little Amiee. May God bless you and guide you as you work on it.

I Love you all.
Jennifer
Amiee's mom
Amiee Nichole Varner
12-20-92 to 05-01-93

Selva, I said Thank You for allowing me to use the same name and music when I ment to say the same POEM and MUSIC. wasn't paying attention to what I was typeing.
SORRY!!!!!!

Jenn

Donna, we 'meet' again! :o)
As far as God taking our children/grandchildren/loved ones (!) the way I understand it is that sin and evil kill them and God is there instantly to take them home to be with Him. I guess that's where the phrase 'God took them' comes from. God doesn't kill them, but He takes them to Heaven the instant they are killed. Does that make sense? That's the way I understand it and it gives me GREAT comfort knowing that God is 'there' for our dear loved ones when they need Him the most. One instant they are here on this earth and the next instant they are in God's presence free of pain and happier than they could ever be here. We are the ones left here to suffer, but I think God has a plan in that too because then we can help others who are going through similar situations. (II Corinthians 1:3-4) What a help you all are to me! My health has deteriorated in the past year and I thought I was going to have to have surgery but since I've been talking to you all my symptoms are clearing up. I've cried buckets of tears but I think they are healing tears physically as well as emotionally.
Jennifer, I can't wait to see the site for Aimee. I'm sure I'll cry some more when I see it. Thank you for crying for and with me!
Love to you all!!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-27-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://www.mylovelygarden.com/sisterscareyandcasey.html

Hi my dear Angel sisters. First of all I'm sorry to tell you that our dear dear Angel Sandy is ill, she has pneumonia and is feeling very sick, she asked me to post to all of you and let you know, she is taking peniciling (forgive my spelling)for the next few days and she will be going to the Doctor again on monday. Please join me to storm Heaven with prayers for our dear dear Sandy, so that she will be feeling fine soon. She is resting and will not be able to post but I am sure that with our prayers, our dear Angel sister will be just fine again. Love Selva

My dear sister Jenn, of course that you are more than welcome to use the poem and music and whatever you want to use in the Memorial for Aimee, they are sisters already in Heaven my dear one, and like I said to you before, I am sure that Solange is making sure that Aimee is just fine and happy, besides our Lord, the Angel kids will take care of ane another, they understand, and they are all very close to us. Love Selva

My dear sisters, I just want to share with you about the anger, it is OK, God understands that we are only "humans", I still get angry at Him for taking my Solange, yes He understands, I still don't understand WHY, but I stopped asking the WHYS, becuase no matter what He will explain, I still just don't understand, so no matter what He says to me, I will argue, so my honest advice, don't ask why, there is no answer to whys, jut believe that if He puts you through this, He will help you through this. I am known for being very honest, and all can I say is, I just don't ask why, because there is no answer to my pain, I don't want to know, there is no answer to me, excuse me God, but You have not an excuse. Sorry. Love Selva

My dear Charlene, little children does know about sins, there is no Hell, our dear Father Our Lord is there for all of us, our dear Lord understand about "Our Sins" but children does not know about sins, they just finished their missions here , and we are still here because we still have to complete ours. Our Angel kids are really Angels, they don't have to come back here in this Earth (Hell), and as soon as we complete our mission we will all be together. Love Selva

Dear Selva,
Thank you so much for letting us know about Sandy. I hate to hear that she is so sick. It may take her a week or so to get over this. Thats a nasty bug to get abd try to get over. I see it all the time at work.

Our dear heavenly Father, I come to you tonight and ask that you put your healing hand upon Sandy and heal her Lord. I ask this in your name Lord, Amen.

Sandy, I will be praying for your recovery and that it will be a quick one. I Love you and take care of you.

Jennifer
Amiee's mom
12-20-92 to 5-1-93

I want to thank you all for welcoming me here. I feel a;; ready that I have friends that understand.Bless you all. My 2 grandsons that i have custody of belong to my daughter. The boys also lost their father on 1-6-05 and there uncle on their father's side on 10-6-05 and then I lost my son(their uncle) on 11-5-05, an aunt on 12-22-05, and a friend of the family on 12-26-05 and an elderly cousin on11-28-05. We also had our garage burn to the ground on 12-15-05. So we had a tough year last year. I never keep anything from the boys. When we cry we tell each other why we are crying. We all have been SAVED and myself and the youngest have been baptized. The oldest is being baptized on Sunday. WE all get crying sometimes at the same time.The crying has been less. I know maybe one day it will be here alot again but I pray when it does for the Lord to help me get through it and HE usually does.

Dear sister LASK--What a year!! I'll be praying for you more than ever now. Praise God for Jesus! Without Him, we would have no hope. I'm so excited to hear about the baptism on Sunday! I'll be praying for your whole family.
Love you!
Charlene

Thank you for your prayers. Thank the Lord that I found this site.

"Not till the loom is silent
and the shuttles cease to fly,
Shall God unroll the canvas
and explain the reason why:
The dark threads are as needful
in the Weaver's skillful hand, as
The threads of gold and silver
in the pattern He has planned."
- author unknown

My Angel's Request

Mom,
I was standing at the Gates of Heaven and something told me to wait.

Then I heard you crying,
I knew I must be too late.

I knew then what was wrong,
I forgot to say "Good-Bye, I Love You."
Please don't cry.

I'm goiing to be with Jesus in the big beautiful sky. There's a reason for me being here, no one can explain. But here in Heaven there will be no more pain.

Remember my smile and bright happy face. Oh, look Mom this is such a beautiful place.

I want you to recall the fun that we've had. I don't like it when you are so sad.

I want you to live like there is no tomorrow.
You don't have the time to wallow in sorrow.

I will be waiting and saving a place, for you to join me in GOD'S wonderful embrace.

The angels are calling for me to come play, just rememberwe will see each other again someday.

Love,
Your Baby Girl

by: Monica Green
dedicated to Rebecca Kaylin Goates
May 2, 1993- January 26, 2006

The above was written for "Becca". Her mother, Melanie, isn't quite ready to join our circle, she may never be.....
Right now, she doesn't have internet access, only her "restricted" work email is working. Luckily, she works for a counseling agency. Her grief is still so new, she doesn't know which way to turn, so I try not to push. I want to help her, but I have let her know that I will let her decide when she is ready.
Thanks so much to all of you for all of the help you have given me. It may have taken me four years to finally find a little "peace", but I am finally ready to help others as well as myself.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

Oh, Donna, my heart goes out to Melanie! Her daughter was the same age as our granddaughter Casey, just short of 13 yrs. old. I hurt for her! Tell her for me, will you, that I am praying for her; her grief is so new right now and if she's never been through something like this before it may take a while to feel like living or even breathing again. I wish I could hold her in my arms and cry with her; I feel like that might help her. Give her my love!
Thank you.
Charlene

Hi my dear Angel sisters. Donna, what a beautiful poem! I am trying to write through my tears, it is really very touching and so true. Thanks Ang for your prayers for Sandy, I have not heard from her since yesterday, so I imagine she is really feeling very sick, she will be in my prayers also.Dear Lask, you have gone through so much, may God wrap His arms around you and give you Peace and Strenght, please come back to this circle of Love, we all understand here and we pray for one another, and PRAYERS WORK, that I know for sure.My sister Donna, just tell Melanie that we are all praying for her, there are no words right now, just be there for her. Thanks my dear Charlene for keeping up the Fort and thanks for your love and prayers. As soon as I hear from Sandy I will post, in the meantime please lets keep praying for her. Love to all. Selva

Hello my dear sisters, ~ I received another instructional email from the beliefnet staff that helped me to sign in under my old username, so here I am again as LOVE2U. It was still necessary to click the back browser arrow to gain access, but thank God, and the Beliefnet staff for allowing me to submit posts again under LOVE2U. :)

Hi my dear sister, Selva. Thanks for letting us know about iur Chief Angel Mom, Sandy. I join with you and all the other angel moms in praying for our dear Sandy's recovery. Lord, please take care of our dear sister, Sandy, and heal her; for she is such a blessing to us all. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

Hello...My name is Brenda and I joined a few months back but I never introduced myself....My heart goes out to all of you who have lost a child....I too lost my daughter 41/2 years ago.....When this happened to me I felt like part of my heart was ripped out of my chest...and I still feel that way......She was 19 years old.....She died 22 days before her 20th birthday.....and she left behind a three month old little baby girl....I have suffered from depression...and I am still suffering from depression.....and I have problems with my blood pressure now too....I was never really a sick person until my daughter died....I have grieved for her so....and I guess I always will....Anyway a very special friend told me about this site and how much it has helped her, so here I am...
Jen thanks for telling me about this site.....Oh by the way I posted my daughters picture and memorial on here when I first joined......I guess it is still there....Her name is April Marie Landrum.....

Hi our dear Angela, ~ Thanks so much for your post and loving prayer for our dear Sandy. You have always reached out to so many angel moms and angel dads in your own unique and creative ways. We all love you , Sis, and pray that God will place His healing hands on you so that you can keep doing the awesome work He has assigned to you and you only. :) We love you dearly, Sis, and thank God for you!

Much love & hugs,
Verna
Diane's Mom
8/16/60-8/31/96

Hey Brenda, I am so glad you have finally decided to post. These wonderful lovely ladies here will take good care of you. You will never be judged for how you feel only loved and welcomed with opened arms. This is truely a careing loveing place to come when you are feeling down and out and haveing a valley day or just want to talk. You can open up and let it all out here and this is a place where everyone will understand how you feel.

For everyone who missed Brendas post it is on 315, the last post.

I love you Brenda and leave you in the hands of some wonderful sisters.

Jennifer
Amiee's mom
12-29-92 to 5-1-93

Dear All, ~ I have a very special prayer request for a family in our area who lost a young 13 year old family member to suicide. I didn't know this child or his family, but this beautiful and beloved child attended the same school as my grandson, and was very gifted. This prayer request includes the entire student body, faculty and staff at the school where the student attended. Lord knows, they all need our prayers. :( May our Lord and Savior hold this newest angel in His loving arms and divine grace. Amen

Brenda, I ment to say I was putting you in the hands of some wonderful sisters.

Jenn