Prayer Circles

Hello my sisters, fellow AngelMoms and Dads if you're reading! First of all, I'm so sorry I couldn't be around last week, I had so many things to do offline but let me assure you all - I pray for all everyday and the Circle is never far from my thoughts and love. It really make's my heart sing to read all of you reaching out with love to each other, this Circle really and truly is one of love!

Hi dear Charlene, a big warm welcome from me as well, I'm so happy you found this Circle, but sorry for the reason why, like all of us here. That's really tragic, losing your grandchildren so young, I can feel your pain through your postings, God love you. Yes, bragging right's allowed for children and grandchildren here! They sound like wonderful little girls who are now lighting up Heaven with their own sunshine!
I know that's little comfort to you right now, you're in a lot of pain, grief and we all understand here. The second year does seem to be the hardest, by then the shock and denial has worn off and the sad reality set's in but we're all here to support and love you through this stage - this is a very safe haven to let your feelings out and be validated and listened to, something we seldom find in the real world. Please keep posting, we can all learn from each other and it does help!
Much love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy
Shane's Mom

Hello all my dear sisters, I come to you asking prayer for myself, my precious Shane's Anniversary of his passing is a week from today and I can feel the anxiety and deep sadness coming on, these special days are always so difficult for us all.
Lots of love & Hugs,
Sandy

I don't know who, if anyone, can relate with this one: we have three daughters and now (since the girls' passing) I sometimes get an almost panic feeling when I know one of them is on the road or they're coming to our house and they are late. I just don't want a repeat of the wreck, the phone call, etc. that we went through that day. Is it because it is all still so fresh in my mind? Our youngest daughter and her three little ones was coming today and she was late; she apologized when she got here, but it didn't stop the feeling of 'oh no, something's happened'. It takes me back to my feelings the day of the wreck and I don't like that at all! Maybe I need to pray more, that God would protect them as they travel, and then I need to trust Him? Is that the problem...trust?

Dear Sandy,
Father God, wrap your arms of protection and peace around my sister today and in the days ahead. She's going through a trial that only You and those of us who've been there have gone through; and yet none of us understands like You do, so please comfort her...give her joy...give her peace. Lift her up above her circumstances and place her feet on solid ground, not sinking sand. Help her to be a witness for Your love and grace and power so others can know that You are able to do anything that we ask. In Jesus name I ask it, Amen.
Love to you sister; remember me, too, on March 18th (would have been Carey's 12th birthday).
God bless all of you,
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy--2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael--3-26-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie--1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace--3-18-94 to 12-1-04

My dear Angel in Chief we are storming Heaven for you to go through another anniversary of your precious Shane, March 15th will be special for all of us, and I know that our Lord will give you the strenght to go on. You had made such a special Circle of Love, understanding, and relief my dear dear sister, that I know that Shane is smiling and laughing out loud and showing off with our angel kids of how proud he is of his Mom, and all of our angel kids are praising him for his Mom. Love you my dear sister and my (our) prayers are with you 24/7>Selva

My dear Charlene. I am so glad you found this Circle of Love, yes, just don't pay attention to the awful saying "you have to go on with your life", we had heard that so many times, but see? those people just don't understand because they have not gone through the pain, I just smile at them, ha ha. As far as your fears, DON'T, it will not happen again, just pray for your kids and God will surround them with His Power and Love, but don't even think about it, they will be just fine. Whenever you feel fear, just sorround them with the WHITE LIGHT OF GOD, they will be just fine my dear sister, they will be just fine. Love Selva

Thank you, Selva; yes, I remembered last night that fear is not of God so I just asked Him to take it away from me and to protect my children and grandchildren. I can't take on the responsibility of 'watching' them all the time; I'm not physically or emotionally able to do that right now. Thank you all!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy--2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael--3-26-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie--1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace--3-18-94 to 12-1-04

My dear sister Charlene, your pain is compounded because you have the pain from losing a grandchild, and also the pain of your child being in pain. I know this because my mother was the one to find my sweet angel when he got his wings. NEVER feel abnormal to grieve or remember the pain, it will always be there, we pray with time it will lessen, but it will never go away.
My beloved Sandy, I think of you EVERY day. Another way I try to think of the angel day, (sometimes it helps), is that the day Marcus got his wings, that is the day when he found the ultimate peace, that we will all someday have. Shane is at PERFECT PEACE now, and will never have to feel pain the way that we are, and someday, we will ALL get to share that together.
I LOVE YOU ALL MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY!!!!

Angel (((HUGS))) and Kisses!!!!!
Donna

Yes, Donna, I was just thinking about that this afternoon; my daughter can't even clean out the girls' room yet so she just shut the door (it's right by their kitchen so they can see into it everytime they sit down at the table to eat). There have been several ladies who have offered to help her but she wants to do it herself; I can understand that but I would think that putting it off wouldn't make it easier to do.
btw: here's a website about our girls that a lady in Canada did; we have never heard of her before and have never met her but a friend told her about us. http://www.mylovelygarden.com/sisterscareyandcasey.html
Love and prayers to you all!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy--2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael--3-26-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie--1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace--3-18-94 to 12-1-04

My dear Charlene. Could I give you an advice? well I am going to do it anyway, please let your daughter to do the kid's room whenever she can, I had to go through "the pain" of moving out of my home and clean Solange's room, I did not allowed anybody to do it for me, as painful as it was, I felt that no one could invade her privacy which I respected (in my own way if you know what I mean, sometimes i will go into her room when she was not home and made sure that there was nothing abnormal going on after all she was only 20), but it took me along time, I had to sell my house because it was only her , her best friend (my second daughter) and I living there and it was too much for me been there alone with all the memories, I have a sister and brother who insisted on me to move with my sister, and at that time I was not able to think straight, but I did not allowed anybody to go in that room, it was very very painful, but I had to do it myself, it is part of the process we are going through, so please let your daughter decide whatever she wants, the time will come when she will handle it. sorry about telling you all this, but I am known for been very honest, I just say how I feel. As far as the web site, it was done (i am sure) by a very very good friend of all of us her name is Angela, I could give you her e mail address if you wish, she is a wonderful human being, who has suffered a lot for many reasons, she has not lost a child but she understands our pain, she did a beautiful web site for my Solange. My e mail address is smene43737@aol.com and Selvam@wometcoent.com, feel free to write anytime you want to, I will also send Angela's e mail address and I will post it here. Love Selva

My dear dear Ms. V. We have not heard from you or Cheryl for a few days. Please let us know how you are doing. I am sure that you are doing much better, because our prayers are with you my dear dear sister. I know that you can not post but maybe you do read our posts, so could you tell Cheryl to post and keep us updated? Love you my dear sister. Selva

Thank you, Selva, for your advice. It helps to know from someone who's 'been there' on what to do. I hadn't said anything to my daughter about the room but my husband and I talked about it; I was just voicing my question to you all about what she should do. You answered it perfectly; thank you! Yes, the website is by Angela and I don't have her email address; I used to have it but she's gotten a new one (I think) because I've tried emailing her but get no response. I'd like to have it, thank you. I still get emails from her but for some reason I can't reply to her. She did a beautiful job for our girls and I understand why she couldn't keep doing that,it would be hard. In fact, that is where I found this site; Angela had a page done by Sandy that she sent out titled "This Side of Heaven". If any of you go to the site I mentioned earlier, you'll notice a family picture of our daughter and her family; the hardest part of looking at that picture (myself and all three of our daughters have that picture in our living rooms)--besides the two older girls being gone--is looking at my daugher's smile. It will never be the same now since the wreck because of the nerve damage to the right side of her face. Donna was right when she said I hurt for my daughter as well as for myself. Thank you all for your love and support; I already feel better by being able to have someone to talk to the past few days.
God bless all of you,
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy--2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael--3-26-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie--1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace--3-18-94 to 12-1-04

This has taken several days to type ya’ll, so I am not over doing it. ~ Verna [aka Miss V.]

This morning when I awaken and saw the sun above
I softly said, “Good morning, Lord. Bless everyone I love.”
Right away I thought of you and said a little prayer
That He would bless you specially and keep you in His care.
I thought of all the good things that life could have in store
I wished them all for you because …
No one deserves them more!

Dear Angel Moms, ~ I don’t recall the title of the verse above or who wrote it, but it is one that I love, … And love to share, and have shared with friends and loved ones several times through the years. My mother first shared it with me on a birthday card way back in 1982 or 83. I know I still have it packed away somewhere safe because I never through anything away! Ha-Ha

Words fail me when it comes to expressing how much I appreciate all the prayers that have been prayed on my behalf. I am convinced it is the prayers that have brought me this far. God knows they were, and are still needed, because I still have a long way to go. I am just now beginning to fully realize just how blessed I am to still be here. Trust me when I say that making it through the surgery was only the beginning of many powerful, powerful blessings from God above. I won’t go into details here, but someday, God willing, I will share some powerful revelations that will no doubt increase your faith in a loving and caring God, and also in “Earth Angels!”

I didn’t want to let another day go by without sharing again just how much I appreciate the acts of sisterly love you all have shown to me during my time of need. To me, you all are truly earth angels in every way.

Needless to say I still have a long way to go; but I am feeling a bit stronger as time goes slowly by. I am trying hard to follow Doctor’s orders to rest and not overdo it. If all continues to go well, I have a minimum of two more weeks of “quiet” healing [at home] to go. So please continue to pray; because sometimes God supplies our wants as well as our needs. Once again I thank Him for keeping me here a while longer and surrounding me with such wonderful and supportive friends and family. You truly are: “the wind beneath my wings!”

I will continue to read as often as possible and remember all in my heartfelt prayers according to your prayer requests. I join my other angel sisters in welcoming angel mom Charlene to our circle of love. Sorry to read about the loss of your precious grandchildren. I join the other angel moms in prayer for your beloved daughter’s ongoing physical and emotional healing. I lost my beloved daughter, Diane, Aug. 31, 1996, in a chain reaction crash involving 2 cars, 2 pick up trucks, and drunk driving. She was a front seat passenger in one of the cars. As our dear angel in chief reminds us; we don’t ever get over our losses, but with love, prayer, and lots of support, we gradually learn how to live with the pain and loss … one minute, one hour, and one day at a time. I visited your lovely site that Angela did. She also did one for my Diane. I haven’t heard from her in a while, but pray that she is well and free from pain. I will keep you and family in my heartfelt prayers, and ask God to give you and family those precious moments of peace that passes all understanding. Please know you and your entire family will be surrounded by love and compassion here.

Thanks again, my sisters, for praying me through this untimely storm and May God bless you and keep each of you in His loving care!

God’s peace & Blessings,

Verna

Thank you, Verna, for your encouraging and caring words. I've already been helped so much by these wonderful ladies; God has directed my path to the right place at the right time so I will find the help I need.
Love to you all today!
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy--2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael--3-26-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie--1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace--3-18-94 to 12-1-04

How BLESSED we are to hear from you Miss V. We have all been storming the heavens for your recovery, and will continue to do so, I'm sure many times daily!! We all LOVE you so much!!!! I'm sure your mailbox is overflowing as well. HA HA!! Let us hear from you when possible, but take ALL the time you need to rest and let the Lord heal you in His time.
Charlene, I visited the website, and it is beautiful! I only wish I had that many memories to share. ( isn't that selfish?? ) I cherish the ten weeks I had, and I'll swear until the day I die that Marcus knew his time was to be brief, because that little man would NOT let me put him down to do anything else!! LOL!!
Sandy?? Hope and pray that you are holding up. Haven't seen you post, did I offend you?
Selva, I would love to have Angela's email as well, and Solange's website. I'm sure it's beautiful, too.
Well, sorry to cut all this short, have lots of errands to run today.
As always, you will all be in my prayers!!!
Angel (((HUGS))) and Kisses!!!

Dearest sister Donna, It is not selfish to want more time with your baby boy, but you know what, if you had 10 or 20 or more years with him it would still not be enough. I wish I had more time with the girls but I keep reminding myself that they are better off where they are and possibly they avoided some horrible experience by being taken when they were. My daughter has said since the wreck that there are worse things than death. Both girls had multiple spinal fractures; had they lived, they might be vegetables, or in wheelchairs. A friend of mine said 'wouldn't it be better to have them here and in a wheelchair than to have them gone'? I say 'no' because they would have been miserable confined to wheelchairs, as active as they were. As much as I miss them, I wouldn't want them here if it meant they had to suffer. (Sometimes I don't believe that I said that--when I get to missing them a lot--but I have to keep reminding myself that THEY are fine; I am the one who is feeling sorry for MYSELF, not them.)
Love to you all,
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy--2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael--3-26-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie--1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace--3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://www.mylovelygarden.com/sisterscareyandcasey.html

I hope I didn't offend anyone with my comments yesterday; that's the last thing I want to do. I was just airing my feelings.
Father God, make Your presence known to my sisters today. Surround them with your love and peace and mercy. I ask in Jesus name, Amen.
Love to you all,
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy--2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael--3-26-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie--1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace--3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://www.mylovelygarden.com/sisterscareyandcasey.html

My dear dear Angel sister Ms. V. So very happy to see a posts from you, I am so glad that you are feeling better, remember my dear sister, we are really storming Heaven with prayers for you, and we are keeping an eye on you too, I am sure that you are following doctor's order (for a change), and you better do that, we want our dear Ms. V to be back here stronger than ever, BUT, you have to relax, take it easy, and don't post until you are strong enough, we love you very much my dear sister and we want for you to be strong and healty again, which you will be, you know? I am sure that God it's saying, WELL, THIS MS. V. MUST BE A VERY SPECIAL HUMAN BEING SO I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HER!, yes God she is a very special sister, and she will follow Dr's orders. Love you my dear sister. Take it easy, we are all here for you. Selva

Hi my dear Charlene. You don't have to apologize here, we all understand, I am sure that our dear sister Donna understands also.I feel the same way you do, and please just don't pay attention about what other people say, and I mean your friends, I understand because I feel the same way and I am sure Solange does too, she had very serious injuries, Oh God, but she will rather be in Heaven than in Earth sitting in a wheelchair,I think she could not cope with it, she is a very active young girl, now in Heaven, and she could not be that in this Earth, please my dear sister, you will come up with a lot of sorries, advices, and what not, just follow your heart. I visited your grandchildren's website, they are beautiful Angels, I am sure that they are with all of our Angel kids now, and having a good time, we just don't realize that, but if you have faith, you know that they are with our Lord, better than we all that have to keep on living in this awful plave called Earth, with so many bad things going around. They completed their missions here, and they will wait for us to be reunited again and this time forever. Love Selva

Hi my dear Donna. I (we) understand what you mean by having Marcus for many years , but my dear sister, the little time you had him, was beautiful, and that is your memories, the time I had Solange was also beautiful, and yes I wish I could have her forever, so you see? time does not make a diference, you held Marcus all the time and so did I with Solange, the pain remains, no matter the time, the pain is still the same. Love you my sister. Selva

Hi my dear sisters. I just received an e mail from Angela, she wants everybody to know that she received your e mails, but she is feeling very sick right now, she is with a lot of pain and can not answer your e mails. Please let us all pray for our dear sister Ang, she really needs our prayers now, she will be better in a couple of days but right now she needs our prayers, plase join me in our prayers for Angela. Thanks. Love Selva

Thank you, dear sister Selva, for reminding me that my girls completed their missions on this earth, their work here was done. That makes me feel better and keeps me from asking the 'what if...' questions. Thank you!! I hope and pray that you have a wonderful day!
I add my prayers for Angela, too; for her freedom from pain so she can continue her ministry to others.
Love and prayers to all,
Grandma Charlene
Baby boy: 2-25-89 (adopted 3-89)
Michael: 3-16-89 (stillborn)
Casey Marie: 1-7-92 to 12-1-04
Carey Grace: 3-18-94 to 12-1-04
http://www.mylovelygarden.com/sisterscareyandcasey.html

Charlene: Your daughter is not able to face cleaning her daughters room because that, in reality, is realing that she won't have her child in there ever again. I tried for 10 1/2 years to do my Dalins, but could only go in, look, cry, yell, pray, and walk out. I couldn't face it. I had many who offered to help, or even do "IT" for me, but somehow having her room as she left it, kept a piece of her there. It ended up being a house fire that made me face it. I feel it was Gods' way of helping me do it. At that time, I found lots of memories, some good and some sad, but I had to do it. I had to make choices of what was saveable, and what needed to be let go of. I probably would still have it the same, if not for the fire. I found pictures of Dalin on her horse with her long red hair flowing, notes to friends, her journal, and so much. Please don't rush your daughter and if she needs a push, God will help her know when. In the meantime love and respect her wishes. I slso pray for you and your family. I to agree that your loss is great because you lost an extension of you through your daughter. Please talk to each other and show love and understanding, even if it's just a smile or hug with no spoken words. To lose a child is the worst pain, but two? You both really need to stay in touch with God and us because we all love and understand. You can say or do nothing one of us hasn't felt. WE CAN HELP!!!!! If you let us. Love & Prayers:suangels2