Prayer Circles

I thank God for you everyday, Sandy, and the other angel sisters I have come to know from the circle of LOVE. You all always have just the right things to say. (and I love the emails you send me, they make my day when everything else seems to be falling apart)
Welcome patpruitt and all other new members. As Sandy said, we are all part of a club that none of us wanted to EVER belong to, and we pray daily that no one else ever has to know our pain. But if God willing, they learn about our pain, this is a SAFE and LOVING place to come and share your feelings. There is NO judgement here, just lots of LOVE and (((HUGS))).
Hello all my Angel Mom sisters (and Angel Dad brothers)!!!!! I am here today asking for help first, because my Marcus's Angel Day is coming fast (Feb 20). I can't believe it will be four years, seems like just yesterday, and it is all still so vivid. That and with my beloved Melanie still just about two weeks out from her Angel, Becca, getting her wings, it is a compounded time of grief for me. As fresh as her pain is, she is still an Angel herself, as unfortunately now, she can relate to my pain, and she supports me as well. I would have traded places with Becca to have kept her from going through this, but as we all know, we can't do that, we just have to give as much LOVE and SUPPORT that we, ourselves can.
(I started a memorial for Becca, you'll find it under Goates (Ward) as well as my Angel's under Dickens, Marcus) I started the memorial for Mel, but I wanted her to edit it whenever she is strong enough and feels like she can. Mel also has a memorial posted at Tagworld for Rebecca Kaylin "Becca" Goates.
Okay, the other reason I am here, I realize now, that I have let all of those feelings that I had surpressed and "bottled up" rip away at my marriage. All of the pain and anger and grief, I WAS taking it out on my husband and did not consciously realize it. Within a two year period, we buried our son, his grandmother, and his father, so needless to say, all things considered, our marriage has had some obstacles thrown our way. I do not want to lose my marriage, we have both already lost so much. I talk to God daily, and pray for strength to be a better wife, and pray that God will talk to my husband's heart so that he can find a way to forgive me. My blessing may be that God has not answered that prayer, but please, pray that God's will be done for me. (and hopefully before I have a nervous breakdown!! LOL!)
Well, I have got to get some things done, but I couldn't without coming here first. I pray for everyone who comes to the circle, and for those who are still out there lost, that somehow God will help them find some kind of peace.
LOVE AND ANGEL (((HUGS))) AND KISSES!!!!
Donna
dickensdonna@yahoo.com

Hi our dear Pattpruitt. Sorry to welcome you to our Circle of Love, wish we didn't have to meet this way, you will be surprise how many of us Moms are here to share your pain, yes we know of that horrible horrible pain, I lost my only child Solange at age 20, Aug 15, 2002, so we are still going through this awful pain that never seems to ease. You will find here in our circle of love, very much understanding , love and prayers my dear sister, sometimes you will find that other people will not understand, but we do, so please feel welcome to post here anytime you want, we are all here for one another, unly us who had experienced this awful lost, can understand.Please be sure that our prayers and love will be with you . Selva

Hi our dear Donna. Yes we know what you are going through, now that Marcus Ann is coming up, those days are worse on us, and you can be sure you will have our prayers so that God will give you strenght to go on, and yes whenever there is such a big loss with the parents, there are always things that has to be accomplished, our prayers will be with you our dear sister, there is a lot of understanding, hurt, dispair, and all of those other things that have to come to communicating, if you can, try to talk to your hubby, they all go through the pain, but sometimes they don't know how to let it out, as much as we do, things will be Ok my dear sister, you both have to talk things over, whenever the right time comes, I am not good with this advice, it just comes from my heart, my ex husband passed one and a half year before Solange, we were the best of friends, so I did felt his passing, and then I did not have to deal with what you are going through, but I am sure that the other sisters who are married, will advise you, all I can say, my prayers are with you and ofcourse with Melanie, OMG, please tell her that she has a bunch of sisters praying for her. Love Selva

First I would like to welcome all new angel moms and say how sad it is that we must meet this way.Only us angel moms and dads and the lord above knows the pain and grief we carry in our hearts.I prey for each one of you that God will carry you through the vally till you can reach the top of the mountian.

Hey Selva, Sorry to hear you are in such long and hard vally days. My heart felt prayers are with you.When I first started comeing here to this circle I never lit a candle at all unless it was to make my house smell good but just recently I have started liteing a candle everyday for all of our angel babies. I have a circle of pictures of all my children including Amiee and in the middle of all them sits my candel burning in loveing memorey of all. I think I'm driveing my husband crazy buying up all these candels.I wish I had a picture of all our angels to put around my candel then my circle would be complete. Hang in there sis GOD is sure to pull you through this valley time. I LOVE YOU AND SO DOES GOD!

Miss V, hate to read you are in the hospital and praying your test come back ok. You will be in my prayers as always. Havent come here in awhile, with so many things going on right now, but will get into that later in my post. My GOD touch your body and heal it Verna. I will put you on our prayer list at church tonight for healing.I LOVE YOU ALSO!!!!!!!

My dear sweet friend, sister in christ, and chief angelmom,It has been awhile but you to have been on my mind. Gla to read there are no major problems going on for you right now. If they are and I missed reading it I am praying for you too.I do miss comeing herebut life is keeping me busy. So much has been going on.

Finally had my computer worked on and it is running wonderfully now. Cost to much money but oh well it's back and better than before.

I would like to ask for prayer for our family,have had a dealth and have taken this really hard. My sister in law delivered a little girl two weeks ago at 22 weeks into her pregnancie and she was born dead. When my mother in law called us early in the morning to tell me I thought I would pass out. This is the first time in almost 13 years I have had to deal with the dealth of a baby. Oh how I cried for her! My heart was just hurting and aching so bad. All I could do was walk around in my kitchen in circles and cry. I did'nt relize it would effect me like that. I felt my sister in laws pain and my brother in law. I just wanted to reach out and take her pain from her. She does have 2 other children but really wants a third one. She has taken this really hard as we all can understand. That baby was perfect in everyway and was so beautiful. She looked like a little babydoll. She didnt even look real. Oh, her tiny little hands and fingers and such a beautiful head of hair. I didnt think Kim was going to let her go.
Just pray for our family.

Then I had to take my daughter to the hospital Tuesday morning for another EEG. The last one she had in October came back Negative so they done another one. If this one comes back negative then they will do 2 more EEG's and if they come back negative then they are going to take her off of her meds. That is what I am praying for. But then on Monday I took my 2 boys fot a checkup and my 8 year old son has to go on a diet. This will be really hard for him bc he is just a child. His doc said he is obesse, not just overweight. He weighs 138 . My 13 year old daughter only weights 121 so you see he is pretty heavey. Just pray for me I will have the strenght to make him stick to this diet. It's hard bc children will be children. He is active bc he plays football and baseball and rides his bike alot. Evenn in the cold wealther. If this diet don't help him lose weight like it should than they are going to test this thyroids.the only thing is, is obecity runs in my husbands family on his mothers side. He isnt obece but several of his Aunts are and his sister is.

I love you all and always keep you in my prayers.
Jennifer
Amiee's mom
12-20-92/ 5-1-93

HELLO EVERYONE THIS IS CHERYL, VERNA'S DAUGHTER. SHE WANTED ME TO POST AND UPDATE YOU ON HER CONDITION.
ON TUESDAY SHE HAD OPEN-HEART SURGERY.
SHE MADE IT THROUGH THE SURGERY O.K.
SHE IS STILL IN ICU AND WILL BE FOR A WHILE.
SHE ASKED FOR YOUR PRAYERS.
IF YOU POST TO HER I WILL TRY TO PRINT IT AND TAKE A COPY TO READ IN THE HOSPITAL.
THANK YOU, CHERYL

Oh Cheryl, thank you SO much for posting!! We've been worried sick about your Mom, not hearing anything from her since she went in for her test. OMG, she had to have open heart surgery?
Our dear, dear Miss V, I didn't expect to hear that news, and I know you didn't either! Praise God for Cheryl letting us know and praise Him for bringing you safely through surgery!!
I'm so sorry it led to surgery, but grateful too that they discovered the problem and now you're on the road to good health. Thank God you had that test and I know that our great Physician guided the hands of the Surgeons. We've been praying for you all week and you know that our prayers for you are constant! I know your dear family must be so relieved too, they love you so much - and so do we my dear Angel sister, listen to the Dr.'s and please take it easy.
Love you, love you our dear Miss V, we all pray for a speedy recovery! Whew, now we can exhale, and thank you too dear Cheryl, I know this had to be rough on you and the rest of your family. Godspeed, Miss V, we miss you, love you and are praying for you,
Lots of love & Tender Hugs,
Sandy

OMG Cheryl. Thank God you podted and let us know about our dear Ms V, we were all to worried about her. Our dear Angel in Chief Sandy has said it for all of us, we are all praying 24/7 for you to be up and rambling again, we will storm heaven for you our dear dear sister and I am sure that you will be home real soon. Thank God that the operation went through just fine, now please, please, follow the doctor's orders and take it easy, remember what I told you, you have a great family that needs you and you have all these Angel sister's here in our Circle of Love who also need you very much. Thank you Cheryl for letting us know and please keep us posted. Give my love to the family and a special kiss for my grandson and a very huge hug to my dear M. V. Love Selva

Cheryl: Please tell our dear miss V that we ARE praying for her . . . She is a determined and stubborn woman . . I have faith that she will be making a full recovery. Please give her my love
Cindy
Krissy's Mom

Hello Miss V, Just posted yesterday and ws praying for you bc of the test you were haveing run and now Sandy emailed us to let us know you had to have surgrey. OH, bless you sister!!! Thank GOD he seen to it you had your test run early and your docs found out you needed surgrey. PRAISE GOD HE KEPT YOU UNDER HIS LOVEING CARE. I Love you Miss V and will be praying even harder for you at this time. You stay strong and know that we all love and miss you.

Love and Butterfly Hugs,
Jennifer

Thank you so much for responding so quickly! I will copy and paste these and take them to her to keep her company. It may be a while before she will be able to post to her online family... I will bridge the gap until she can post again. My email is grace2youforever@yahoo.com. just incase you need to email me.
Please place her on your prayer list at your church. Thank you very much for loving and praying for my mom.
Cheryl

Hi all my Angel sisters. Please lets storm Heaven for Miss V. with our prayers, God listens to us, He knows how much we are hurting, and He knows that when we pray we really mean it. Knowing Miss V. she is really feeling very sick, so lets pray that God will do His thing. Yes our dear Ms. V. we all need you and also your family, so hang on in there my dear sister, just know that all your Angel sisters are really praying for you. Love Selva

I lost my dear son Buddy to cancer on Aug 21,2004.He was only 37. I miss him so much, some days I feel I can't go on without him,but I know I have to. I try to be strong for my daughters.Please pray for me and my girls.I know Buddy is in a better place,but I miss him so bad.I know some day we will be together again,but it is so hard here without him.

Dear preciousmemories: I will keep you, Buddy and your daughters in my prayers. My Krissy was 20 when she died, in March, 2001. I too miss her every single day and I'm sure that that will never change. We just learn to live with it somehow, and yes, we will be with them again soon. Staying strong for your daughters is all you can do. Krissy has a younger sister too, now 23, who is going to have a baby, so as I hurt for the life lost, I thank god for the new life we are about to be blessed with. Take care, and "may you be in the company of angels" always.
Cindy
Krissy's Mom

Cheryl: Please let us know how your Mom is doing . . she's been on my mind this morning, so please tell her we are still stormin the heavens with prayers for her, you and all the family.
Cindy
Krissy's Mom

Hi dear Preciousmemories. So sorry we all have to meet this way, welcome to our Circle of Love, so glad you found us, we all share the same pain, I lost my only child Solange , Aug 15th 2002, she was only 20 years old, I am so sorry about your loosing your dear son Buddy, only 37, yes we know of that horrible pain, we are here for each other, you can let your feeling out here, we all understand the pain, there is no judgement, just understanding, so feel free to post here anytime and you will have our prayers and love. Selva

Hi my dear dear sister Cindy, so good that you are posting again, yes we are all praying for Sheenah, and you guys will be so very very happy for the new baby, oh yes, she will be spoiled, but what the heck, that is what grandparents are suposed to do, and guess what? that little baby will have so many grandparents, ha ha, yes will be all be there to spoil her and praying for her. Love you my dear sister. Selva

Ay God, I pray for our dear dear Angel sister Ms. V. right now whe is going through a lot of pain my dear God, but you know Ms V. she is a sweetheart and a very good sister to all of us who are hurting for loosing our children, so we come here to pray my Lord, please take care of Ms. V. give her strenght, give her compasion and don't let her hurt too much, get her our of ICU and make her feel fine so that she keeps take care of her granchildren, of her daughter and husband, also Felecia and her daughter, papaw, and everybody that needs her so much including me, please Lord I am asking with all my heart and soul, help Ms V. Thank you Selva

Hello dear preciousmemories, I'm so sorry to hear about your beloved Buddy passing on, we all know the pain here of losing a precious child, what it does to you and I'm happy that you posted here. We are all one big family, we've all lost a child or children, so we understand what other's can't. Please post here anytime, this is a safe haven to let your feeling's out,
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi Cin, yes, nice to se you posting here, we're all concerned about our dear Miss V, I hope Cheryl write's or post's soon to let us know how she's doing,
Much love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Our dear Miss V, Donna (arqt) asked me to post here for her, she doesn't have internet usage anymore, but want's to send her love, prayers and kisses to you and wishes you a speedy recovery!
Love Sandy (on behalf of Donna)

Hi my dear sister, that's a beautiful prayer you posted for our dear Miss V, I pray too that God will keep her comfortable, that she's out of ICU by now and is slowly on the road to recuperation. We all love you and miss you our dear Miss V, we send all of our love, prayers, hugs, kisses on the wings of an Angel to your hospital room, the same to your dear family, God bless you and all our dear Miss V,
Lots of love, tender hugs & prayers,
Sandy

Thank you all for your prayers,I'm feeling a little down today,I get that way on week-ends because Buddy went home to be with the Lord on a Sat.You know the hole time he was sick he never once asked(Mom why is this happening to me)He was the type of person that thought of everyone else before himself.I live in Ky, but he lived in Ind,but I stayed all of 2003 in Ind. with him.He called me in June 2004 and asked if I could come stay a month with him, I told him I would stay with him as long as I had to. If I hadn't been there with him when the Lord took him home, I know I could have never forgave myself.What gets me the most after he went into a short coma the nurse told us to keep talking to him that he could still hear us "I told him mommy did everything I could for him and that I loved him very much" A tear rolled down his cheek, I will aways see that in my mind because I know he heard me.

Hi our dear preciousmemories, yes Thank God you got to be your precious son until the end, and yes I think they listened to us, when my Solange was in ICU I got to hold her hand and I told her how much I love her, I told her Mom is here for you and I love you so very very much, she did not respond but I hope that she did hear me, yes it is so devastating for us , but right now they are smiling at us, they received that love that only God can provide, they are happy in His presence, and when our time comes, we will be there with them, and yes my dear sister, this time FOREVER, we will be reunited with our children again, and we will live with them again and forever. Yes weekends are hard and every day is hard, but we have so many prayers from all of our dear Angel moms, and our Angel Kids are smiling on us, keep pressing on , that is what we have to do every day of our life, and the kids are really really great, they are with God and with our time comes we will be with them again and this time forever. Love Selva

Hello Angel Moms,
I am posting to let everyone know that my mom, Miss V. is now out of intensive care and in a regular room!
We visit with her daily. Today after church, James, Steven and I went to visit her and found her sitting up attempting to eat some soup! She is so pleased to read the "printed-out" emails from each of you. So keep them comming!

She said that whenever she is alone in the hospital and feels a little low, she gets the folder containing your emails, that I took her and she reads them and reminds herself that there are people out there praying for her and that loves her and it helps her to stay calm and rest as she gains strength in her recovery!

So Thank You all for the kindness you have extended to my mother. You bring comfort to her in ways that only you can. You understand her at levels that only other mom's who have lost a child can.


My mother is so very precious to me... please continue to pray for her and prayerfully, we will all look back on this one day and smile at the "Awsomeness of God" and the power that only prayer can cause to manifest.

May God Bless each of you!

And again ...THANK YOU!
Cheryl