Prayer Circles

Hello dear Miss V, our dear sister and Jen - nice to see a post from you Jen!
Take a rest Miss V? Ha! What's that, ha, ha. Thanks so much to you and our dear sister for holding up the fort, or Circle I should say, :-), you're truly both treasures and I cherish you both, but please look after yourselves too,
Lots of love, prayers & ANGEL Hugs,
Sandy

Dear God in heaven ...
So many bereaved parents are hurting tonight; so much that they cannot sleep. Please wrap your loving arms around them, and comfort them lord, and give them your peace. In Jesus' name, Amen

Hello all angel moms, been awhile since I've posted but have been thinking alot about all of you lately. Hope all of you are doing well and God is blessing each of you.

Sandy and Verna thanks for trying to help with my friend Brenda but her daughters picture is still not right so Sandy if you could, would you go ahead and ask for help on that matter. I hope she comes here and posts soon. She is a wonderful lady full of love. I do know she has been reading the posts and I think she is reading through each page at a time. So, when she is done maybe she will post and interduce herself. She already knows how wonderful you are Sandy and Miss V and Selva, I've told her between the 3 of you she will feel right at home and apart of the family.

I love all of you and are keeping you in my prayers.
Love to you all,
Jennifer
Amiee's mom 12-20-92 to 5-1-93

Hello our dear Jen, great to see a Post from you!
I sure will help your friend Brenda with her picture, just give me her link here on Beliefnet.
Gosh yes, Brenda, you're most welcome here anytime! We look forward to meeting you and reading the story of your own precious loss.

Always in my love, prayers and Hugs dear Jen,
Sandy

Hi my dear dear Ms V. Thanks for posting your so much understanding about the 15th, yes you know that you, Sandy and I, have a very strong feeling and hurt about the 15th. Thanks my dear sister for praying for all of us, at the same time my prayers are with you also. Please God give us Strenght, if You put us throught it, Please give us the strenght to pull us through it. Love you my dear sister. Selva

Hi Everyone, Just a short post to try to see if any of you have advice here. I'm running into Moms of kids Dalin was in school with and they start talking about grandkids before they realize how they think I feel, then they get uneasy, apologize, try to change the subject, or I run into her classmates, who are parents. I try to not show my pain of what could have been, but in my heart I know something shows because of their reactions, or do you think they are uneasy? How to really manage so it's not so awkward? I don't want to be left out, but sometimes I do get upset and a little angry, especially when I see some neglect of feelings with the babies, or a single Mom struggling and the baby(or babies ) dirty or yelled at. Am I overreacting or what? Any advice is appreciated. This is new to me. Thanks. Love & Prayers to all. Suangels2

Hi Jenn. Great to hear from you. I'm sorry I did not get the right story about Brenda, and guess what? I have been in this Circle ofLove for a long time and I still don't know how to put a picture of Solange in her Memorial, but that its not so important my dear friend, what it's important its that we all, in this Circle of Love pray for one another, and all of our Angel kids are together, becuase we brought them together, and our prayers are with you all, so please tell Brenda that she has a lot of Angel sisters here, who are willing to pray for her and you too. I am known for being very honest in our Circle of Love, and all we need is prayers, love, understanding, no judgement, no matter what, we are still here for one another, by the way, if you find a way to put a picture in our Memorial pleas let me know. But in the meantime, please tell
Brenda to write her feelings here, and will all be a support for her, and specially, our prayers will be with her and you. Love my dear sister. Selva

Good Morning my dear sisters, ~ I'm just checking in to say I love you and you're all in my thoughts and prayers. I am on my way out to run a few errands, but wanted to let y'all know that I am doing ok. I will try to respond to post later today if the weather doesn't prevent me from signing in. It's cloudy today and looks as though the rain might be coming this way.

Jen, Selva, welcome to the club! :( I don't know dada about adding a photo either! I tried and tried to upload a photo at Diane's memorial site here, but with no success. All that showed up was a little red [x]:( One of our dear angel moms, Lisa, said she would try to do it for me; so I emailed her the photo and my password to see if she can do it for me. Sandy, I know you would, but I also know how busy you are, so thought I'd bug Lisa instead. :) By the way, did y'all see Lisa's beloved Aaron's site that is featured with a few more on the memorial page link? I sent it to her but she did not get it the first time; so I've sent it again. I believe if you click on the memorial site link, it is still there. Gotta go make my runs before the Antone' gets out of school. Have a blessed day everyone! :)
Brenda, please know our prayers are with you! God's peace & blessings ...
Love & Angel Hugs,
Verna
Diane's mom
8/16/60 - 8/31/96
Forever In Our Hearts

Hi our dear sister Sueangels2. I know exactly how you feel, the same happens to me, many of Solange's friends are getting married, they all invite me to their wedding but I just tell them I can not handle it and they seem to understand, I also have to go through the grandbabies, yes it hurts to think I will never be a grandmother, it also gets my angry, I just don't show it to them, most of the people don't realize what they are doing showing me their grandbabies' pictures and all, and I know they don't mean any harm, they just don't know, they don't have a clue my dear sister, only us who have gone through this horrible pain are able to understand. So don't worry about it too much, it is only natural for you to be upset when you encounter that cruel reality, like I said, i don't go to weddings, baptisms,birthdays etc. Just to give you an idea, i have been working with the same company for 24 years, I started when Solange was 6 months old, and so my co workers, our kids have grown together, and the only one missing is Solange, and of course for them, life goes on, even if my stopped 41 months ago. Love and prayers. Selva

Hi my dear Ms. V, great to see your posts, oh I wish I will not rain on your cable. Nice to read you are doing OK, are you taking your meds and resting? NOT, ha ha we know you my dear sister. If Lisa gets to put the picture then we will be keeping her very busy, i will visit Aaron's Mem thanks for letting us know. Love you my dear sister. Selva

Dear Selva, Once again your big heart has helped me. I know it must be even harder for you with Solange and your family at work. I also don't do the weddings, graduations and etc. Some understand, some don't, but I know my mind couln't handle it. I know people don't realize how hurt their happiness can make us, but thank God He helps us put on that "FACE' they so much need to see. Bless you for reminding me how many "KID ANGELS" are together watching over us all! What an awesome group both in Heaven and we Moms&Dads land the rest of the families left here on earth. THANKS!!!!! Love&Prayers Suangels2

Hi to all angel moms, Was just sitting here listening to the news and reading your posts before bed and I hear that a man has stabbed his twin daughters to death. I'm thinking WHAT???? How crazy is this. Here I loved and cherished my twins and would have never done one thing to hurt them and now I hear this man has stabbed his twins to dealth.Has he lost his mind??? Of course he has and I don't get it. I had to lose on of mine at the hands of a sitter and God allows this man to have his for 5 years only to kill them both. OOOHHH, this is just eating at me!!!!!! If I could get my hands on him, how I would tell him a thing or two or maybe three or four things. Might not even stop there.I don't get it, this is'nt fare. Boy am I angrey tonight with this man. Don't know him and don't want to. See it's things like this that make me wonder why I had to lose my Amiee when God above knows I would never have hurt her.
I'm just going to go to bed and stew over this. The more I think about it the more it bothers me. My husband is trying to discuss this with me and is keeping me from being able to consentrate on what I am writeing here. Will have to sign in again later and let you know what has happened in this case.

Jennifer
Amiee's mom 12-20-92-5-1-93

Dear Jennifer, ~ when I read your post late last night, I felt such sadness for these innocent children. Like you, I cannot imagine how any human being could do such an evil thing; especially to a helpless child and in this case his own. Yet, there are those among us who commit such senseless acts as the one you described. As I've often said; losing a precious child by any means is a real parent's worst nightmare. But to hear of what I consider being a parent in name only murdering his own child just takes my breath away. :( Yes, to a real parent, it is almost beyond belief that anyone would intentionally harm an innocent child; let alone kill them. Yet, it happens, I believe, more frequently than we hear about on the news.

While much is being done to protect these precious children who through no fault of their own are being abused, there is still so much more that needs to be done to prevent this type of thing from happening. I believe with all my heart that these random acts of evilness must be met head on with random acts that are purposefully designed to of prevent such cruel things from happening to as many children as possible.

As in the case of your beloved Aimee, and the case of my beloved Diane, we cannot change what happen to them, nor will we ever understand why. However, as agents of God, we can make a conscious effort to help prevent what happened to each of them from happening to other beloved children. The fact that this evil act touched you so deeply in your tender and loving heart that you decided to express your outrage, your anger, etc. will place it on the hearts of others to speak out, or make an anonymous call, or write letters to the editor of local news papers, etc. to help save the life of other children who may be in harms way.

Like you, I don’t know why bad things keep happening to good people; especially our beloved children. It certainly isn’t fair, and it definitely isn’t because any of our children deserved what happened. But I do know by faith in a loving God, that like your Aimee and my Diane, those precious little twins are in heaven now, experiencing eternal joy with all the other angel kids, and our Father, God. We who are left behind will carry the quiet sadness in our hearts as we continue our journey. Nevertheless, must continue to act as God’s agents, while fully relying on God to give us strength and the kind of peace which only He can provide: sometimes, minute by minute.

Our prayers and heartfelt compassion goes out to the mother, and family of these precious little twins. May out heavenly Father wrap his loving arms around them; giving them strength, and walking with them through this untimely storm. May they know that they are not alone. Amen.

God’s peace & blessings,

Verna

Dear Angel Moms, ~ as we all know, there are times when we are faced with stressful situations that add to the tremendous cross of grieving the loss of a child; a tremendous cross that each of us must carry on a daily basis. Sometimes, even before I am faced with one of life's trials, God sends his holy spirit in the form of a poem to help me deal with whatever is coming up and also to assure me that through it all, as with the sparrow, he watches over me. When trouble calls, listen to that quiet voice within, and feel the peace and blessed assurance, which God in his tender mercy, provides. Not long ago, I was given the poem below and led to call it:

Troubled Waters

Standing at the river’s edge
Remembering all
That was done and said
Remembering all
That was done to hurt me
River turned into a sea
Huge enough to swallow me
Painful waves swelled up inside
Much too late to run and hide
Looked around ... Surprised to see
Jesus standing there with me
Took my hurts and all my pain
Cast them all into the sea
Then He said ...
Fear not my child
Let it go!
Come follow me!

Written by: Verna R. Clay
01/02/06
All rights reserved

Dear Angel Moms, ~ I received an email from my daughter, Cheryl, this morning. I am asking you to pray for a student’s family. A 6th grade student at Steven's school had a second grade sister die Monday night from a viral infection that infected her heart. It was very sudden. The young girl stated to her parents that she could not feel her legs. They took her to the emergency room and her heart stopped beating. The doctors tried to revive her and were unsuccessful. Please pray for the Watson family in the loss of little Asia. She was a student at Bellaire Elementary.

It is impossible to understand why bad things happen to innocent children; but by faith, we have the blessed assurance that God will be with us and give us the strength to carry the crosses we must carry in this life. Our faith also assures us that one day we will be reunited with all our dearly departed loved ones forevermore!

God's peace & blessings,
Verna

Hi my dear sister's Selva and Suangels2. When I read your posts my heart felt so very sad. :( How could you not get upset and feel sad or even angry when others talk about their grand children? That is only human and I, for one, would like to validate your right to feel the emotions that you feel. Believe it or not, even though I have been blessed with a precious little grandson, whom I fear I am guilty of talking about too much sometimes, my heart truly goes out to both of you. I cannot no your pain, but I can pray that God will ease your pain as only he can.

I too have felt the sadness, the anger, the hurt of knowing I will never hold a grandchild of my beloved Diane in my arms. Diane dearly loved children and I learned by reading a paper that she had written in a nursing class she had taken that she wanted at least two children; a boy and a girl. And, guess what? She even named them. :) Unfortunately, while she was married, her husband had a low sperm count and even after trying for a couple of years or so, they still had no luck. :( Nevertheless, through the years, she spoiled all of her nieces and nephews, and her friends little ones.

There are also times when I feel sad because I will never know the joy of holding the precious and beloved twins that my baby daughter and her husband lost a couple of years ago. :( We got to see the ultra sound photos, but unfortunately, she had miscarriage couple of weeks later.

We know that each of our losses are unique, and only God can completely understand the depth of our pain


Although our lives have been changed forever, thank God, we can get rid of some of that pain by letting it out; expressing exactly how we feel; knowing that we will never be judged. Only love, understanding, compassion, and prayers for all. That is all any of us can do. Remember: one minute, one hour, and one day at a time! And always remember you will never have to travel this painful journey alone. OK, enough rambling for today!

God's peace and blessings,

Verna

Prayer for Those Who Have Committed Suicide



Bless, O God of eternal life,
all who have died
by their own hand.
Grant them peace
from their inner turmoil
and the compassion of your love.
Comfort those who mourn
their loved ones.
Strengthen them to face the questions of pain,
the guilt and anger,
the irreparable loss.
Help us to reach out in love
to others who prefer death
to the choices of life
and to their families who grieve.
Amen.

Love2u:I'm praying for angel Asia and the Watson family, and the classmates. So much pain for so many, but all are blessed with our prayers. We're a strong circle with lots of angels to greet her. Love & Prayers to all who need for Jesus is knowing the pain and salvation they need, as do each of us. Suangels2

EVERYONE: This post is to say thank you all for allowing me(and each of us) to vent and not be judged as LOVE2U stated. Sometimes we ramble on and others tune out, but here someone seems to have the right way to give us back our sanity and dignity for the day. I look forward everyday to read the posts and know I'm really not crazy to feel my feelings of that particular day. We all pray to God, but I know sometimes I need to hear or see an answer and I know that's why God directed me to this circle. I actually find times I can actually sile and not feel guilty, or cry and not feel it. No one judges anyone, only total support and prayers filled with so much love. I really feel alive and blessed. You are all so kind. Love & Prayers Suangels2

Heavenly Father, ~ I come to you tonight to pray for all who have lost loved ones to suicide. Having lost one of my 3 brothers to suicide, July 1, 2001, I can relate to those awful feelings of pain and loss, and not having the chance to say good bye. Every time I come across and read the suicide note that he left behind, my heart breaks for him; realizing that he was in such great pain; and had endured it for so many years. Yet, when around family, … He wore a smile; a mask to hide his god awful pain. L My love for my dearly beloved brother, Charles, goes just as deep as if he had died peacefully in his sleep. Father, I believe in my heart that one of the greatest challenges for mankind is to learn to love one another in the same manner that you love us. Father, I know that you are a loving God of mercy and that your love for all of your children is unconditional. You, Father, know our end from the beginning. No one can claim to understand your great master plan for all mankind. To me, to say that you love someone unconditionally means that you have the ability to look beyond one’s faults; no matter how bad or how wrong they may seem to others, and you love them just the same as if they had no faults at all. Father, I have been around long enough to understand that no one is perfect, and that all have, and forever will, fall short of that mark called perfection. Oh, how I thank you Father, for sending your precious Son to pay for our sins for all time! Thank you Father, for loving us unconditionally! In your Son, Jesus’ holy name, Amen.

The following short poem was written by the sister of my best friend (of over 25 years), Lillian Moch. Lillian died of cancer in January of 1996; the same year we lost Diane. Lillian was the friend that inspired the poem I wrote called: The Dream. I cannot recall the name of her sister’s book, [senior moment], or if there was a title to this poem; but it spoke volumes to me back then, and also now. Knowing how any real mother feels about her child/children. To ponder the love of God at this magnitude ... just takes my breath away! Like our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, someday we, too, will return to our Father, God; the One who sent us here as part of his great master plan. There will be many times we will ponder the crosses we must carry while here on earth; but someday … As the song lyrics remind us: “We will understand it better by and by!”

I believe the title of Maxine’s book is Spiritual Nuggets from A to Z. :) Still can't recall the title, but here it is:

God sent His Son to save us
Oh, how He must have loved us!
To send His Son ...
His ONLY begotten Son!

By: Maxine Frazier
Shreveport, La.
All Rights Reserved

Dear Arqt, ~ Thank you for sharing such a touching prayer on the previous page [306] for our loved ones who have committed suicide, and also for the loved ones they left behind. It really touched my heart and also provided me with a chance for pray for my beloved brother, his/our family, and all others who have know such pain. God bless you dear one. :)

I also had a quiet visit at your beloved son's memorial site and have already sent up a heartfelt prayer for your beloved mother and father. I pray that God will bless and keep them is his loving care! Your precious little angel is being taken care of by all the angel kids, as our heavenly Father watches over all of them. In the meantime; tell your mom and dad that God knows their heart and the depth of the love they had and always will have for their precious little grandson. I don't have to know them to know that given the chance, either of them would have given their life to save their precious grandson! In time, and with our heartfelt prayers, I am positive that God will reveal this to them and give them and you, the peace and fond memories you all so richly deserve. It just will take time for the healing of your shattered hearts to begin to sink in. :) My heartfelt prayers and compassion are with you, your beloved parents and precious little angel.

God's peace and blessings,

Verna

Hello Suangels2, :) ~ Thank you so much for praying for heaven’s newest little angel, Asia, and her bereaved family. It is always so difficult to accept when the very young and innocent are called home. :( We can't help but ask God "why" even though we know we still couldn't accept it even if he provided us with answers. :( I can only imagine what this family, her classmates, her brother and his classmates, and both faculties at both her school and her brother’s school are going through. Of course, counselors will be made available for the students if needed; but of course the sadness will linger for a while, God love them. I pray that the results of our prayers will sustain them during this most difficult and untimely life storm. It helps to know that our heavenly Father hears all prayers, and that he and all of our angels will be there to welcome little Asia home. May our Lord and Savior be with little Asia’s family and give them the strength they will need now and in the days ahead.

Suanges2, your second post reminded me so much of how I felt after finding this circle of love/support/understanding, and prayer. Many of us angel moms have commented throughout these pages on how we couldn’t recall how we managed to find this wonderful circle of love. Eventually, however, it became clear to me that God brought us together at just the right to help heal our torn and shattered hearts. Before coming here I had very little support, and it took a while before I even realized how much I needed to talk about my loss. I will always be grateful to God for whispering in Sandy’s ear; telling her how much this wonderful circle was indeed needed. We regret the reason we are here; but are so grateful that we have this safe haven to express our feelings and let go of some of the grief we must somehow learn to live with. So, we press on; together, … trusting our Lord and Savior to sustain us throughout our difficult journey. To God be the glory, forever and ever! Amen

Love and Prayers,

Verna

Hi dear suangels, that's sweet of you, we all appreciate your kind words and I'm very happy that the Ciecle is helping you, that's what its for!
You know, when I first started it back 6 yrs. ago, I thought it would receive maybe 1 or 2 pages at most. But then more and more Moms started posting that they too had lost a precious child and the Circle evolved into the wonderful loving one it is today for all! Yes, indeed, thanks be to God! And sadly, thanks to my Shane, who I miss ever single day. You'll always be my hero and the wind beneath my wings. Yeah, I'm having a 'valley day' today and that's OK, we all know we can talk about it and that we're always praying for each other, so it too will pass.
Hang in there suangels and please keep posting, by sharing your own pain, you're helping others as well, in this Circle of Love,
Much love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy