Prayer Circles

Hi V(LOVEU@), Thank you for your prayers and words of hop. I have been on mrds since Dalins' death and do see my Doc. I just have people who say get on with your life, oe get over it. They don't know our pain to say those things and it hurts. Drives me crazy sometimes. I do pray alot more and even listen to God more. I feel he leads me on the right path, if I have the faith and courage to stay on it. I also know it was Him and my Angels who led me here. At least I can talk and say their names and not get judged for a "time frame of grief." Someone in the circle seems to know the right words of encouragement to say at the right. I hope I can help someone the way you have helped me. A lot of us don't understand Dads' grief, but I wathched my Dale shrivel up and let go after Dalin died. He bought her the truck she was driving out of love and had regrets and what ifs. He was too strong for pills and Docs, but in the long run he wasn"t. I would advise all tough Dads who read this to seek help. You may not have carried the child, but your heart was as full of love as we Moms. My loss was and still is monumental, but with Gods' help, I make it through each day to fulfill my journey. Iknow He helps and cares because of the people and miracles He has bestowed on me. My life will never be the same, but I wouldn't have missed "The Dance" for anything. Thank you Jesus and all of you for allowing me to express myself and take up space. Love and prayers to all of us always and all ways. Also new found positive inner strenght to flow outside so we may help others. We are family through God and though we may never meet, our souls and lives innertwine to form a stronger circle of endless love and support. Thanks one and all.Su

Sorry everyone, but, computer did a double take on that one and I don't know how to delete one already submitted.

Hi my dear Ms V. So great to see you posting again and that you are feeling better. So you are getting used to MSN, well I have some news for you, I heard that the Techs from AOL got in touch with the ones at MSN and sent a Big Warning about a certain Ms V who will drive them crazy, ha ha, so you better learn MSN soon. Love you my dear sister. Selva

Hi our dear sister Suangels2. You have given a great advise to our Angel brothers, they also go through so much pain and some of them don't know how to let it out that it is so hard on them, as far as the people who tells you to go on with your life, ay my dear sister, we all have and keep hearing the same words, by now, all I do is smile, at the begining I got furious and tried to explain that I had no life left, but after a while and with the help of my pshycologist who also lost a son and understands this pain , I learned to ignored them, they don't know what they are really saying, so just let them be, some of them mean well but they have not experienced our pain and they will never understand it, so don't let that bother you, just smile and say a prayer for them so they will never have to listen to those words. Remember we are all here for one another, there is no judgement here and you can talk about anything you want. I am sure that Dale and Dalin are both glad you found this Circle of Love and I am also sure that they already met out Angel Kid's Circle of Love in Heaven.Yes my dear sister, you have a new family now and a new Circle of Love. My prayers and love. Selva

Hello ALL Angel Moms,
I've been gone for a minute, preparing mentally for trial on Monday. (1/9/06)Arraignment and knowing if Carlos Ford-Vigil will plead guilty to Capitol First Degree Murder. My blood pressure has been through the roof during the day (at work) and comes down at night when I get home. Especially when I have my granddaughter around. I have read back some pages and loved the poems. I too write poetry , but have not had any words come to me lately. It is so amazing to read the posts here and know that there are others who KNOW the pain I am suffering. It does seem unbearable, but then I pray and he seems to find a way for me to get out the maze for a minute at least. I am so glad the HOLIDAY season is OVER. I got through it intact, but don't know how. My heart goes out to all the NEW moms on this post, but am so thankful I found it. Many time more often than not I find others who voice my thoughts louder and more proficiently than I ever could. Bless us all and to read more about my beautiful son go to www.joshua-delaney.memory-of.com and listen to the music and read the posts and hopefully feel the love.
Bless U all
Kay

Hi dear Kay, great to see a post from you, I was thinking about you the other day and wondering how you were doing. Oh no, Monday is the Arraignment - I can only imagine how tough that's going to be for you, the grief over losing our child is all-consuming and then on top of that you have to go through the trial, seeing the man who took your dear son's life. We'll encircle you with our support, love and prayers and they'll go into the Courtroom with you, dear one.
I think we're all happy the Holidays are over with, my heart goes out to Moms who still have children at home and don't want to spoil it for them, while inside their pain is so great. As I say all the time, God is so very good to us grieving Moms and Dads.
Yes, your Poem that I read when I posted at your son's Memorial site here at Beliefnet is very touching, someday you'll be able to pick up paper and pen again, when you're ready.
I don't remember either how I found Beliefnet those years ago, but I can say with all certainty that God led me here. And I'm very happy that you and all the other Angel Moms, Dads, found it too!
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Kay, I would have liked to have a set of praying hands as the image, but I figure knowing our hearts are there with you Monday is good to. I'll pray that Gods' will be done and He will help you through your unbearable pain. I also had to be involved with the courts in Dalins' death. It's a blow by blow of the waves of pain all over. All you can do is to believe in God and put your care to Him. I know you'll feel like He let you down and left you, but if you just believe, you'll be o.k. I also found it to be of strenght to take a photo of Dalin and I really prayed alot through that to. When I felt like I couldn't keep going, I'd look at the picture and remember she never quit. Maybe your Joshua can help you. I went through so much alone till I found this circle and it's a blessing. I'll be praying for you, your family and your angel Joshus. suangels2

Hi EVERY BLESSED PERSON in this CIRCLE, Once again I feel like my soul is coming alive through all the love and support. My heart isn't so black with lonliness now. It's a good feeling to talk to ones who really know what our Lives are really like. The downs that outweigh any little up we feel. I felt bad about my feelings of Christmas, but for those of you who have to put one on for other kids, I really felt that pain in your writing. I felt bad having lost my only, but to loose and have no choice to put up a tree, gifts wrapping and all that. WOW,it hit me. I feel a different feeling now. Thank you for that realization of a different pain. Bless you. We all made the holidays and with each other, docs, meds,prayers,love,belief and all our strengths, we'll make it together till we meet our angels. Thank you one and all and noone should ever feel afraid to talk. NO FEAR HERE onlyLOVE ETERNAL. suangels2

Hi dear Kaye, ~ I read your post at the circle and I also visited Joshua's awesome site last night or rather early this morning [I think] What a beautiful tribute you have created in his memory. I also read your poems and they touched me deeply. Only another mother can truly understand. Unfortunately, our children don't always heed our warnings about the random evil that exits in this world, nor do they understand why parents are so overly protective of them; even after they are fully grown. Then, our worst fear comes to life and our lives are changed forever.

To lose a beloved child by any means is a mother's worst nightmare; but when it happens as in our son's case, it has to be the ultimate of losses a parent could ever know. My heart goes out to you your hubby and your entire family, and my prayers and thoughts will be with you in court on Monday. I will also be praying that justice is served.

If by chance you have the opportunity to give a Victim's Impact Statement, please feel free to edit and use any poems I have written at my daughter's memorial site. I used part of the poem, Ode to a Drunk Driver, to describe what it was like to lose my Diane, and really had quite an impact when I had my day in court. So again, feel free to use any part if needed. Our prayers and thoughts will be there with you & so will your beloved Joshua's.

Love & Angel Hugs,

Verna

Hi all,~ I just sent ya'll an email about my PC woes. I had asked my son-in-law to post here for me, but after he finished checking my computer and left, I decided to try again and finally was able to sign on after a long wait. I called and told Cheryl to tell him that whatever he did must have been right because it's working for now. :) So I am counting my blessings and hopefully can get a PC tune-up soon.

Much love to all and all are in my heartfelt prayers,

Verna

I just lost my youngest son age 30 to police brutality.My son killed by police on june 13th,2005 he was agood young man who loved his 2children a daughter who was 5 at that time and ason who was 5 months old.My son did nothing wrong that these police had to pepper spray ,taser him 15 times,then beat him while he was cuffed laying flat on the ground. witness saw the whole thing and the polce wouldn't take their statements but threaten them.Now the FBI has stepped in to find the truth. so I feel the pain of other parents but especially that of a mother. I have put all this in GODS hands and he will let the truth be told and he has given me the strength to stay strong at this time but i know that i will one day do my full mourning when the lord says its time. SO have faith and say this prayer every day and will give you strength."IF GOD IS FOR ME AND WITH ME WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME". [a good friend told me to say this prayer everyday and it's keeping me strong and believeing that there is nothing impossible with gods love. so to all you parents whose lost children lets say are prayers for all these children besides our own and those who will lose a child in the future that they are with are lord playing together and watching down on all us smiling and sending their love to us . godbless us

Hi Ladies,
I don`t know if this is going to make it or not, I have been two hours trying to submit this, but anyway pray for us we are leaving in 2 and a half hours to go getbour Grandson, he is ready to come home. He has been living at his friends house for almost a month now.He wants to tell his Church people good-bye. He is 18 now it seems so good he can come home just his Mother won`t be here. I sure do miss her Christmas was awfully hard without her.but we made it.The boys said it wasn`t too hard for them cause I was always their Mom, they weren`t around her much after she straighened up her life, but I was bless her heart she gave back to the Lord before she died. I miss her.The Lord Bless and keep everybody.
Love in Christ Phyllis

Hello barkay126, OMG, I'm so very sorry to read about your son's passing and the way it happened. Thank goodness the FBI has stepped in to do their own investigation and get the truth out, you're owed that. Yes, by putting it all in God's Hands the whole truth will come out! Let it remain there, you have enough right now dealing with your grief and pain over the loss of your son, which is so recent, God love you. I'm glad for you that you find comfort in the saying your friend gave to you, it's so true, if God is for you and with you, who can be against you!
Yes, we always think of our Angelkids together in Heaven, enjoying a life far better than anything we can imagine. It doesn't stop us from issing them of course, but with support, love and prayer that we find here at this Circle of Love and in our own lives, it help's a great deal.
Please post here anytime, our prayers are with you and your son's family,
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Phyllis,
You must be in seventh heaven having your Grandson back home with you!
Very happy for you, I know how badly you wanted this to happen. I know dear one, the pain is still so fresh for you, hang onto Hope, one day in your own time, it won't hurt as badly as it does right now,
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Dear Barkay126, ~ My heart goes out to you in the loss of your beloved son. I lost my beloved daughter several years ago through the senseless act of drunk driving. There is no greater pain than the loss of one’s child. In the beginning, it hurts so very bad that you feel you can’t go on. But, with faith, prayer, love, support , compassion of other angel moms who have also experienced the ultimate of all losses; and last but not least, with God on your side, you will continue to be strengthened to the point where you can and will go on in spite of all the pain and loss that you are feeling. Unfortunately, nothing said or done can take the pain away; not even time. I can assure you, however, that in time, and lots of it, the magnitude of the pain you are living with now will not be so intense and so constant. In the beginning stages, we go on minute by minute. Then, one hour, one day at a time. I like the prayer that your friend suggested that you say everyday. I’d like to suggest a favorite scripture that helped me throughout the very early stages and continues to help me whenever I feel like giving up or giving in to the pain. I remind myself that: “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:13. I am also reminded of something my mother used to tell all of her children as well as anyone else who would listen. “Put your trust in God, not in man!” I’d also like to add a powerful saying that I received a while back in a fwd page sent to me. When life trials knock on your door, just relax and say, “Jesus, will you get that, please?” :)

Love, heartfelt prayers, & Angel Hugs,

Verna
Diane’s Mom
8/16/60-8/31/96
Forever In Our Hearts

HI phyllis, Kinda new here, but I know you have to be thrilled to get your Grandson home. He's a piece of your daughter that's alive and you need each other. With that and prayer, you are a strong team. Bless you and prayers. suangel2

Hi dear Phyllis, ~ Oh how wonderful that you and hubby will finally get to visit with your beloved grandson. I am so very happy for you and family. Although your grief is still so new, your heart will be lifted just having your grandson around because a part of her lives on through him. I pray that you all will have a safe trip there and back. May God bless and keep you and family in his loving care.

Hello dear Kaye, ~ I prayed for you and family throughout the day; asking that God would be with you and family through it all. I know it had to be so very difficult for all; but I hope you were able to feel the results of our heartfelt prayers through it all. I pray that God will give you peaceful moments in the days ahead. Our prayers remain with you today and in the days ahead.

Hi my dear sister, Selva, ~ I hope you are not working too hard and that you are taking care of yourself. I know the sadness of the holidays and special days linger on. Always know that we angel moms are praying that God will give you peace in your heart and spirit as only he can.

Hello Suangels2, ~ It's good to see a post from you. You are so right; together and with God's help, we will make this painful journey together. Lord knows, finding this circle was a God send to me. For a long time, I tried to remember how I found this wonderful circle of love. :) It finally dawned on me that God led me here! And here I shall remain, for as long as he allows me to. :) To God be the glory! :)

Hi dear angel in chief, ~ I know this is a busy time for you, but I pray that you are getting as much rest as time permits in between work & other responsibilities. Thanks to you and all our angel moms for the suggestions concerning my PC. :) I am so happy that so far, it has been working well since my son-in-law did something to it. I called my Rues and told them I know the Lord had a lot to do with it kicking in shortly after he left. Hubby still wants to have it checked out; but I told him NO WAY! As long as it’s working, I’m leaving well enough alone! Ha-ha!

Gotta go take care of a few errands that won’t wait. Phone service has been out all over our neighborhood for several hours now, so I need to drive over to my Rues and have them call it in.

Take care everyone; and know that you all are in my thoughts, which places you in my heartfelt prayers, … Always!

Love & Angel Hugs,

Verna

Hi everyone, Dale and Dalin , and the losses I had have taken a turn and I need prayer. I had a house fire and was insured, but lost keepsakesi.e. Dalins' 1st pictures, clothes, shoes, toys and so much money can't buy. I also lost things of mine and Dales. To make a long story short, the contractor did work under the contract and didn't complete, or left burnt boards. I have it being checked and the local county inspector violated him on 5. The contractor has put a lien on my home and is suing for money owed. Out of that money, I paid for the carpetman, the well man and the ones who did my kitchen. We have gone to mediation, but it's not going well. He wants me to drop, but the mediator says the State will review, but it'll be in a town about 300 miles. I told the mediator what I would like done, and he gave us till Friday the 13th to settle. This is just more pain of my loss and it's material, but please pray for me. I don't have money to fight this contractor and his girlfriend who he says is a nurse and has money. This girlfriend also called me and told me to pay him because he has a violent temper and shes afraid he'll hurt me. Me too, but its all hearsay and she won't testify, but my boyfriend heard my reaction to her midnight call. I know this is not totally on, but some is my loss due to my loss. I pray that this gets resolved and hope I have some of yours also. Hugs and prayers. suangels2

suangels2, I am so sorry for your loss in your house fire and the loss of your personal items. sounds like you are really haveing a hard time. May God be with you and I'll be praying for you.
Jennifer
Amiees mom 12/20/92-5/1/93

Hi our dear sister Suangels2. So sorry to hear about the fire in your home, I know the sad part is loosing all those cherished memomies from Dale and Dalin. My prayers (ours) will be with you, so your problems will come to a happy ending, just don't let a bully contractor scare you, have faith in the justice system and let the authorities handle it, alson tell them what his girl friend told ayou about his "bad temper". I know that this adds to your sorrows, we are all so vulnerable to everything that it takes so much energy to fight for your rights sometimes. But be sure that God and your Angels Dale and Dalin will be at your side, we will storm Heaven for you my dear sister. please keep us update on what happens. Love and prayers Selva

Hello Suangels2, ~ I am so sorry to read about all that you are going through. I no it breaks your heart to have lost items that remind you of such precious memories. I can literally feel your pain!

Maybe you can contact other relatives and ask them to provide you with copies of any photos they may have of your beloved Dale and Dalin. I join Jennifer and Selva in prayer for you; trusting that our Lord and Savior will see you through yet another of life's many storms. What a blessing you were not hurt in the fire.

Selva has given you some good advice and I do agree that you should report what this person's girl friend told you. Even if you can't verify what was said, the record of the phone call can be checked if this person tries to harm you in any way. There are those among us who will try to run scams on innocent people. To tell you things that she knows will upset, but not be willing to back up what she told you may mean that she is a part of the scam. Others may also be involved; even those who may think are in your corner. So, be sure to watch, fight, and pray!

I pray that this bit of advice helps, and that God will lead you to the right people for good legal advice. You may also want to consider suing him for not honoring his contract to do quality work for which he was paid to do.

Last but not least, you may want to seek the advice of your pastor and church family. If nothing more, they can join others in storming heaven with prayer for you.

Please let us know how things turn out. We angel moms will be praying that things turns out in your favor.
Love & prayers,
Verna

Hello Everyone, ~ I must go check email; my inbox is running over! :) God willing, I will check back to see if anyone has a specific prayer request. In the meantime, my prayers are ongoing for all.

Oh gosh, I see I have taken us to a new page. Please click back to the previous page to read the latest prayer requests/support posts. :)

Much love & Angel Hugs,
Verna
Diane's Mom
8/16/60-8/31/96
New Email address:
vclay100@msn.com
Diane's memorial site:
www.thespearofstrength.com

[Hopefully, I will soon be able to start adding a few prayers, and some of the poems I've written and dedicated as a tribute to all our Angel Moms/Dads, & their beloved Guardian Angels!] :)

Hi everyone, Thanks for all the good advice and extra prayers. I'm not going to go hide from this bully. I know with all your love, support and prayers and Our Father in Heaven, things will work out for me. That bully doesn't know who he's up against. Your advice has made me stronger, so I do feel your prayers. I pray everyday in the A.M.&P.M. for our circle. There are times through the day that I feel someone and I say extra. This circle has and is a blessing for me. I have photos coming!!!! THANK YOU for reminding me. We get lost in the now and forget the how, but thank God He got us together to use our brains(as the saying goes "pick our brains)and get-r-done. Again thanks. Love and prayers. suangles2

Hi dear suangels,
OMG, I just read your Post about the fire, that's awful, especially to lose precious memento's that can't be replaced! Glad to hear your family pitched in and gave you some pictures, these are the things in life that are so important to us!
Yes, I agree with our dear Selva and Miss V, this Contractor and his girlfriend calling you doesn't sound very good, I'd let the Police know about the phone call at the very least, then it is on record with them.
The wonderful power of prayer and God, if it wasn't for Him I never would have made it all these years, nor be able to get through valley days. I'm happy that this beautiful Circle has helped you grow in strength and that you have found a 'home away from home'.
Much love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy