Prayer Circles

It's been a long time since I posted. I am in school full time and work part time. real busy. Mom is getting bad please remember her in your prayers. update/ Steve is in and out of the hospital but for the most part doing good. Their town is fundraising to get him a wheelchair van so he can be more independant. Thanks for the prayers.

A reminder Stephanies 2nd heaven birthday is comming September 25th and her earth birthday would be September 24. It's going to be a hard weekend for us. Light a candle and this weekend for Stephanie. I never thought i would make it to this place, Two years, it hurts so bad. For you new people hang in there, believe in God. The pain will never go away, you just learn how to co-exist with it. Remember the smiles and the good times. That is what we hold dear to our hearts. I truly believe that is also what they would want us to do.
My daughter went through a year of grief counceling and is better but these special days are very hard. Thank you all for being here at this site to help us all share. We found this place for a reason. if you don't feel that way yet stay here (you will!) Thank you Shaner god bless you

Stephanie Tooley site:
http://www.beliefnet.com/milestones/commemoration.asp?milestoneTypeID=6&milestoneID=52357

My dear Angel-baby became real angel on June 11, 2004. She was murdered in her apartment at the age of 27. Those she has left behind are in pain for sure, but those of us who are believers in Christ understand that her angelic state is better than the state we're in. I do miss her very much, every single day God sends but I realize that He makes no mistakes and so I am just learning to live without her, day by day, hour by hour. I pray for each and every parent whose lost a child. You must realize that you will never, ever be the same. I'm better for having known my sweet baby-girl.

Dear angel moms, ~ A warm welcome to all new angel moms, although I am sorry to read about your loss, I am very glad that God sent you to our circle of love. If anyone understands your pain, those of us who have been on our grief journey a while longer do. The only difference is: our pain for the most part is not so intense as it was in the beginning. The special days are always hard, but with God's help, and the prayers that we pray as well as the prayers that are prayed for us, we manage to get through them.

Right now in Louisiana, we are trying to get ready for Hurricane Rita. Family and I live in northwest Louisiana, and are praying for all in harms way. We have family and friends who are on the highway at this very moment headed this way. Some were able to get hotel rooms, while others will stay with us, and other family members here until the worst is over. Please continue to pray for all in the path of the storm. We know that God is in the mist of every storm, but because we cannot see the whole picture, it doesn't always seem that way. Still, He is our only hope, so we must walk by faith, and not by sight.

I pray daily for all the families who have lost their dear children and other loved ones and for the victims that were not able to get help in time. I pray for the children who have lost their parents and the parents who have lost their beloved children. May God wrap his arms around our brothers and sisters and send angels of mercy to take care of them in every way.

Love to All,
Verna
aka Miss V. :)
I pray also for our leaders, who have a tremendous responsibility, and the for the emergency workers who are doing their best to help save the lives of people who are in harms way. May God bless all of them and keep them in his loving care. These things I ask in Jesus' name, Amen.

God bless you all is my prayer today,
I'm honored to call you "friend";
I pray God will keep you safe,
Until we write again.

Whoops! Sorry about not checking before submitting and signing in the wrong place! [Senior moment] ~ vc

My heart goes out to you. I know the pain of having to give a child to the Lord before my time. I now have the pain of having to give a child up to her birth family knowing she is not loved or taken care of. Having one with the Lord, I know she is loved and happy. Please pray the child that remains on this earth but lives in hell will have peace,protection and God will bring her home. ( this child was our foster child all her life. She was 4 and 1/2 when they sent her to her birth family) The pain is almost worse b/c I know she is not safe and our beautiful Britt is being held by Jesus.Your heart may heal but there will always be a scar.God Bless

My dear Angel Moms. I am sorry, yes, I am sorry to welcome you to our Circle of Love, but we are together in this, we understand of your pain like nobody else, we are going through the same pain. Thank God you found this Heaven of Peace our Circle of Love, we all understand, we are still there with you, there are no judgements here, you can let it out anytime you want to and you will find so much love and understanding here, we are all mother who have lost a child, in my case, my only child, my dear Angel daughter Solange was born to Heaven Aug 15th 2002, she was 20 years old, the pain you can not explain it with words, so we all know. Please my new Angel sisters, keep coming back anytime you wish, you will make special friends at this Circle, we are all family, we know the pain. Love and my prayers. Selva

Stephanie Lynn Tooley
9/24/82 - 9/25/03

Hi dear Chris, it was wonderful to hear from you, it sound's as though things are going very well for you and your daughter, I'm so happy for you! I would have responded earlier but I also work now, every weekend, I'm taking a break at the moment and wanted to let you and Mike know that I'm thinking of you all today on Stephanie's 2nd Anniversary with love and prayers. These special days are oh so difficult but you know you have our support and love always and hold tight onto each other too. If I have time after I will post to Stephanie's site. Really good to hear from you and yes, I realize you're busy, but don't be a complete stranger and still check in from time to time!
Lots of love, prayers & Hugs,
Sandy

I am so depressed i don`t know what to do i pray but it doesn`t seem to help. I sleep alot. My nurse who came to see me yesterday told me to stay close to God I try but the pain is so awful. My Husband spoils me but it doesn`t help I only want my Rhonda back.I need so much prayer nobody can pray that much, it hurts so bad.God Bless everyone. Love & Prayers Phyllis

Phyllis, sending heartfelt prayers your way! Chris

Dear Angel Moms, ~ Thanks for the prayers! Thank God, we made it through the hurricanes that came through recently. We still have so much to do here in Louisiana trying to help the families in shelters here that were displaces by both hurricanes. I ask that you please continue to pray for these families. So many have not received sufficient help from FEMA because of all the red tape involved. Pray that God will help these poor families to endure. Pray also for those who are doing their best to help these families in any way that they can.

Angel Moms, I am sorry to inform you that our beloved Chief Angel Mom, Sandy, is a little under the weather presently. She will be out for a few days, but will be back posting to everyone as soon as she is feeling better. We angel moms will hold down the fort until our Sandy gets back. I ask that you would please keep our beloved Sandy in your heartfelt prayers! I already know that you will. :)

Phyllis, my heart goes out to you. I am so sorry about all that you are going through. I know it's very difficult to do, but try turning everything over to God, and let him handle the things that you cannot. Right now, God knows you need time to grieve. You must trust God to handle anything else that is going on around you at this time. I know that is asking a lot of you; but take it from one who has been there. I had so many horrible things to deal with in addition to losing my daughter Diane in such a tragic manner. I am talking about things that I wouldn't tell God if he didn't already know. The only way I managed to make it through those difficult days, months, years, was to finally let go and let God! When I had thoughts of taking my own life because the pain and all that was happening in addition to the pain of losing my child, God was there for me; even though I did not recognize all of the help he kept sending my way until it was almost too late! If you don't or can't believe God will do the same for you, then I ask that you try with all our heart and soul to believe that he will because of my plea. You see, I know that if he helped me make it through my storm of a lifetime, [losing my daughter], I know without a doubt that he can and will do the same for you! God knows the magnitude of your pain! I and relate to your pain because I too have lost a child suddenly and without warning. But God knows exactly what your loss, and all the other painful things that you are going through are like for you! He knows, and he cares! And he is the only one that can fix whatever storms you are facing right now. But first, you have to give the storm to him! Let him fix it for you! Trust God to work it all out! I will continue to pray that God reveals himself to you in a manner that you will know that you can depend on him to walk with you through any life storm.

Much love, and prayers,
Verna

Dear Chris and Mike, I am sorry I didn't get to post on your beloved Stephanie's special days, but my prayers were with you all. I know that your guardian angel is dancing on a star for both of you and all family and friends who still miss her so. May God bless you both and keep you in his loving care.
Angel Mom Verna

Dear Angel Mom [momof15], ~ My heart goes out to you as you struggle to deal with a double loss; that your own beloved child and your precious foster child. I will say a special prayer that God will protect your precious little one as I know he is able. Our Lord and Savior does not sleep, and he will watch over both of your precious children. I pray that God will comfort you and give you peace of mind as only he can.
Love & prayers,
Verna

Hi my dear sister Selva, ~ I couldn't agree with you more; We are all family, here and we know the pain. It really does help to know that when in the mist of our deepest pain; better known by angel moms as valley days, or valley times, it does help to know that we are not alone and yes, there really are others who have to deal with such unique pain and loss, sometimes on a minute by minute basis. Again, it helps to know that we are not alone! Take care my dear sister, and I am so very glad that God brought you and family through Katrina and Rita, and to learn that your beautiful Solange's garden made it through two hurricanes! :) As our dear angel mom, Sandy, reminds us; God is good all the time!

Much love & prayers,
Verna

Hi dear Jennifer, ~ Thank you for all the prayers and for checking on all of us in the path of the hurricanes. I heard from dear angel mom Lisa today and they made it through Rita also, praise God. I hear from Sue often so I know she & family are OK too. Angel mom Sue lives in North Louisiana like me, so we keep check on each other via email. She lives closer to my daughter, Cheryl, but we hope to meet someday soon. :) God bless you dear one. I know the kids are keeping you busy, so we all understand when you can't post often. We know that you continue to pray for all. As always ... You and family are in my heartfelt prayers.
Much love and angel hugs,
Verna

Angel Mom Sandy, ~ We love you and insist that you take good care and follow doctor's orders! And, oh yes ... A little early, but "Happy Birthday" from all of us Angel Moms! We love Ya, and hope you feel better soon!

God's peace & powerful blessings,
Yo Miss V. :)

Good Morning All, :) Sharing a beautiful inspirational message from The Daily Motivator that blessed me. I pray that it blesses you too! :)

Richest treasures
+++++++++++++++++++

In this day there is real and lasting treasure. Somewhere in
the circumstances, the people, the moments, the experiences
of today there is a unique and valuable gem that can bring
much richness to your life.

If you set out with the goal of just getting through today,
you'll likely pass that treasure by without even seeing it.
If you spend your energy on anger, envy, worry or
gloominess, your eyes will be blinded to the goodness and
value that could otherwise be yours.

For today is a day when you can make positive, creative and
beautiful things happen, if you will. Today is a day when
you can add much meaning and substance to your world, if you
choose.

Like precious diamonds that are hidden beneath the ground,
the most valuable treasures of this day are not immediately
evident. Yet the more love, creativity and effort you put
into life on this day, the more real value you will uncover.

The most valuable treasures won't be found in those things
from which you attempt to take. The real treasures will be
in those things to which you give the best of who you are.

Choose now to do more than simply get through this day.
Choose to discover and to live its richest treasures.

Ralph Marston

Hello Ladies,
Here I am back needing more prayer, Sometimes I think God has given me more than I can bare. Thursday morning, the 29 of September, another one of my Daughters passed away. She died the same way Rhonda did, just went to sleep and never woke up, she was the girl who did the service for my Rhonda. She wasn`t my real Daughter almost though she almost married my Son. We stayed close except when she was doing drugs but she had stopped just like Rhonda.Her Husband found her in bed.I went to the hospital the same day she passed away and just came home today. I am still sick,but welfare only lets you stay in the hospital 3 days in this StateShe told me she loved me and would be my Daughterif I wanted her to. Now I have lost two Daughters I have one left but I don`t see her.I talked to her the night before and she didn`t sound good. I think I need alot of prayer. Please pray for my Husband and me.He is having a hard time staying clean & sober, he has been clean for 13 years except for that once. Praise His Name. Pray for us. I don`t think I could go on if not for you my dear Sisters.Oh God who is my strength please don`t give me anymore. I can`t bare any more.
Phyllis

Dear Phyllis, ~ I am so sorry to read that you have suffered another loss. I have been so worried about you and how you were coming along. I even started another post to you, but decided to wait until later to post. Now I know why you've been so much on my mind. As I said in my post above; God knows everything that you are going through, and he will be with you through any and all of your life storms. God doesn't take away our life storms, but he never leaves us during those times. I can relate to how difficult this has to be on you. Losing your beloved daughter, Rhonda, so recently and now another loved one who was just like a daughter. Sometimes when death touches a family it lingers for a while. If you check some of the posts I've submitted in the past, you will find that is what happened to our family when we lost our beloved Diane. We lost a close friend who was there for us during Diane's passing, and one of my nephews the month following losing Diane, and then a niece, and one of my brothers; all in less than a year. I am not telling you this thinking it will diminish the pain that you are feeling, or thinking that it will make what you are going through any easier. I know I cannot do that because there is no human being that has the power to do that. Only God can heal your shattered heart, and even so, it will take a lot of time for your heart to heal. There is no way around this kind of life storm. All we can do is pray and ask God to give us the strength to get through our loss. And he will in his time. Remember all of us here are storming heaven with prayer for you and family. Their is power in prayer! God bless you dear one, and remember we are here for you and we care. As our dear sister, Selva sometimes say, we will cry with you and listen to you pour your heart out about all you are going through. That is what we do for each other because having lost a child, we can relate to what you are going through. When we share our sorrow, somehow it seems to help us get rid of some of the built up pressures that accompany the unbearable grief. God understands and so do we. No matter how great the loss, God loves you, and so do we. :)

Praying for our chief angel mom, Sandy, and also our dear sister, Selva. Both are out due to illness. We angel moms are storming heaven with prayer for both of them.

May our wonderful Lord and Savior watch over all angel moms/dads and keep all in his love and care. In Jesus' precious name I pray, Amen!

Hello to all Angel moms, I came here tonight to catch up with everyone only to see that there is so much going on.

Phyllis, I know you dont know me but my name is Jennifer and I found this wounderful circle of love just a few months ago and found so much love here and this I know you are already aware of. My heart goes out to you in your time of need. You are going through so much pain and suffering right now and like everyone has already said, just keep trusting in GOD for he will never leave you nor forsake you. As I have been reading your post I couldnt help but to think of a man from the bible. His name was Job and God allowed Satin to torment himso many times. He lost everything and suffered so much yet this true man of God never turned his back on the savior.Just go to your bible anmd read all the pain that JOB went through. Im not saying God is trying you but we all go through many things in our lives that we may never know the reason until we meet the heavenly father on that joyous day.
I would like to share something with you that I know only Sandy knows about but I feel like this is the time to share it for sometimes shareing our storie may help another.
My twin daughter Amiee died at the young age of 4 1/2 months old. Im so thankful God aloud me to keep one of my girls. My baby girl went home to heaven on April 1, 1993. It has been 12 years and I have just recently let go of the guilt I have carried for all these years. You see, the night my daughter died she was with a baby sitter and my then husband and I were at home doing drugs. We had just gotten home from a trip to the beach and it was really late when we got back home. Instead of going and getting our twins we left them with the sitter until the next morning.We never did bring both of them home and later was to find out that the babysitter who was also his cousin had done something to cause our child to die and to this day I still dont know why my child died. Her cause of dealth is unknown. This lady never spent one day in prision. She is still walking around today with both her children and got to see both of them grow up.
For 12 years I couldnt forgive myself for doing drugs the night my daughter died. I can say this now but I know God was giving me a wake up call when Amiee died. He knew that I would of gotten into worse drugs than I was and I was already doing some pretty heavy drugs. I have never touched the stuff since. Dont get me wrong, I dont think God made Amiee die but he new what the future held and he knew something had to change before it got worse. I miss Amiee so much even after 12 years and sometimes even more so when I'm looking into my daughters eyes knowing I should be seeing two of them instead of just one. God knows what is best for us all. The things we have to go through down here on this earth are only to make us stronger in the Lord. We need to draw near to God and open up and if we stop and just listen, be real still, we will hear the voice of our father and he will guide us and lead us in the way we need to go. I have been so deep and down in my spirit that I never thought I would be where I am in my walk with Christ but my faith and undieing love for God is what pulled me through.
He knew me before I was ever born and knew what was to become of my life. Read PSALMS 139. God knows what you can handle and he knows this will make you a stronger person in the long run.

I dont tell you these things thinking that this will make things better for you. I just want you to know along with all the prayers that all of us are praying for you, no matter what, it was ment for you to come out on top.You are a child of God and he wants you to come out on top. It all up to you. He nows we are only human and we feel poain and grief. He dose not want his children top suffer.Phyllis, I will continue to pray for you and your family, that God will give you the strength to continue on and show you where he wants you to be in your walk with him.
May God bless you Always,
Jenifer

Hi Selva and Sandy, I hate to hear to that the two of you are sick. Selva I know I spoke with you tonight by email but it never hurts to tell you again that you are in my prayers as always. I want you two to know I love you both and to please take care of yourselves.The both of you are very dear to me in the fact that God sent you into my life and I praise him every day for that.
May the two of you recover soon because we miss you and love you.

Much loveand Butterfly Hugs,
Jennifer

Last but surely not least, Hello Miss V:]. Its wounderful to see you posting again. After that horriable hurrican your state had to go through I'm sure you were grieving hard for the people in your state. You are such a wounderful person. You take the grief of other people and you bare their grief with them. You feel there pain in your heart and you go out of your wy to help heel that pain. Only really speacial people can do that. That is a big burden to carry. Miss V, I know if you could you would try to take everyones pain for them so they would not have to bare that burden. Thats just your nature.God bless your soul for that. I love you my sister in christ and I'm so thankful that you were protected from the storm. I think God got tired of hearinf from al of us Angel mos down here. That goes for Selva to.Every time there is a storm we all gather together and bug God so much that he has no choice but to keep you safe because he knows he has to answear every one elses prayers.ha ha!! I love you just the same as Sandy and Selva and will always keep you in my heart and in my prayers.
May God bless you,
Love and Butterfly Hugs,
Jennifer

Now I have just one more posting and then I'm going to stop and leave room for someone else.

Tommorow I have to take my daughter to the doctor again. She is still having petti mall sezieurs. She had 2 last week at school. This time I'm taking her to the nuroaloigist. Pray that the only thing that they will need to do is up her meds.

Also I need prayer for my 8 year old. I think he has surger problems. Every evening after supper he gets real weak and clamy if I dont get him something with suger in it. Tonoght I had to run to the store and get him some juice and after he drank it he started feeling some what better. I work with people every day whos suger bottems out and he is showing all the signs and systoms. Just put in a little word to God for me when you are praying. Thank you so much!!

Much love to you all,
Jennifer