Prayer Circles

Dear Angel Moms/Dads/Prayer Warriors and all who come here to read,request prayer, or offer their condolences for all who have suffered the loss of a beloved child, other loved one or friend. I believe that includes all.:) I'm sorry I have not been here to read, or offer prayers and support lately. Please know that not a day goes by that I don't think of all who have suffered a loss, and I pray that God will bless each and everyone in whatever way He knows you need. I pray also that He continues to shower each of us with His peace, guidance, protection, and unconditional love at all times; no matter what stage or stages of grief we are in.

I am mindful of the fact that sometimes we find ourselves so bogged down with life's trials, unfairness, difficulties, and just dealing with all that's going on in our lives and world today until we hardly know which way to turn. What a blessing it is to reach a point where we know that no matter what we are facing, we can always turn to God for inner peace. He knows all about our trials and He gives each of us the strength we need to weather each shattering storm that comes our way; whether we realize it or not while we are in the mist of the storm. We may not always feel or understand His divine and unconditional love, but praise God, it is always there.:)

Presently, I am going through some very difficult times. Sometimes when I find myself in one of my valley moods, or facing some other situation that I can't see my way through ... In the words of an old Negro spiritual, I just Steal away to Jesus.:) That's another way of saying I take it to the Lord in prayer, and TRY to leave it there! Now, that's the HARD part. :)

I decided to do this rambler in MS Works, then copy/paste before reading back post. Therefore ... To all newly bereaved who have shared with us recently about loss, please know that you have the love, understanding and support of all who post here. Please know you will never be judged for expressing whatever you are feeling. We are here to listen, pray for each other, shed tears with each other, and give love and support in whatever way it is needed.

Also, to all who have special days coming up, please don't forget to let us know so that we can storm heaven with prayer for you and family.

As we all know, holidays and our own unique special days are always difficult to get through; especially during the first few years when the pain is so intense. Though it is difficult to believe, [And, I know it is], those of us who are a bit farther along can assure you that in time, the pain will not be so raw; the magnitude of the grief you may be feeling now will lessen, ... but to a lesser degree, it will always there. And that makes it a bit easier, although it will always be hard to accept the loss you've suffered. It's just that as time goes on, the grief is such that it is not so constant and so intense. With the help and support of our dear Lord and Savior, and the support and understanding of family and friends and all who have walked in our shoes, we learn how to move on ... But in a different manner that is hard to explain. To this day ... sometimes I still have difficulty believing that I survived the early years after losing my beloved Diane. It is during those times that I smile and thank God for all the help He sent my way. :)

Together we pray, and with God's help, we can and will press on. Praying for God's peace and blessings for all ...

Love & Angel Hugs,
LOVE2U, [AKA] Miss V. :)
Verna

hello In Jesus precious name, I am back here needing your prayers badly. The other day all I could see was spots in front of my eyes so I went to see my eye Doctor and they are floaters and if I don`t get my blood sugars down I will go blind, I beg of our Lord for His will but I also don`t know how to accept going blind Anythin Lord but my eyesight. I go back to the Doctor in three months maybe a laser will help only God knows. Hopefully He will allow me to see my Grandsons in September.Please keep me in your prayers as I am praying for all of you too. God Bless and be with us all. Amen.
Phyllis

Hi our dear Angelsister Kimlynette, of course we will be praying for you, specially during July 25th, anniversaries are very though on us, so we know the feeling and on top of it you are moving to Ocala, well let me tell you I live in Fl, in Miami, and I have visited Ocala a few times, it is a beautiful place, we floridians call Ocala, Horse country, they have the most beautiful farms, and of course the city is very nice, and the weather is better than Miami, you will get warm in the summer but during the winter you will not get as warm, just a little cold, nothing to compare up North, it will be a fantastic place for the family, and remember my (our) prayers will be there and I am only 3 hours away, you can count on having a cuban sister nearby, don't worry, just leave everything in God's Hands, He will see that everything will turn out just perfect. Love and prayers. Selva

Hi my dear Angel sister Phyllis, you will not loose your eyesight, just get your sugar level down a little, I have the same problem, but I have no problem with sugar, and guess what, my eye doctor told me this is very common when years pass by, our prayers will be there my sister, and I always said many times before, God listens to us, because He knows that we really need Him, after all we are going through, so be sure you will see your kids in September, I will pray so hard that He will answer. Have faith and together with our prayers you will be just fine. Love Selva

Hi my dear Miss V. it is great to see you posting again, I have been trying to catch you in the IM with no luck, yes my dear sister, we are all going through rough times, I have been in Valley days for a long time now, I think it is just the anticipation of Aug 15, it has been 34 long months for me, I have been praying so hard for all of us because I know that no matter the time, it still hurts bad, I just pray and pray that sometime whenever God decides, we will all be together with our Angel kids, and what a party Miss V!, Heaven is going to rock that day, ha ha, imagine all our Angel kids giving us the Party of our lives, and better yet, in Heaven, where we all be together again and our Angel kids telling us how great we are going to feel FOREVER. Love you my dear dear sister. Selva

Hello My Dear Angelsisters.Please forgive me for being so selfish and not posting.It has always been so hard to come to this site and see the pain. I have been trying to deal with my pain in ways only God has been able to carry me thru. So much has happened..First of all I want to say is that I truly have missed you all. I never left you all out in my prayers.. I thank God he is so good to me.
I will start by asking that you pray for my stepdaughter Gina and my stepgranchild Ashlyn in prayer. Last week Thursday Gina and the baby were in a car accident.We got the call that night.Both were thrown from the vehicle. Gina is suffering from a broken back,both arms broke,and every bone in her face is crushed. They have wired her mouth shut to keep her from trying to open what is now gone. They took her off the resiperator to see if she could breathe on her own.She was'nt able too. So they put her back on it.They are also keeping her heavly sedated for they don't want her to move. thinking she may cause more injury to herself..The baby Ashlyn who just turned three this month is doing fine.I understand she went home yesterday. She has a broke arm,bruised up back and body.The day of the accident.she did ahve bleeding from her brain.they were able to stop that.I thank God for the miracle of saving both their lives. I don't know if Ron would of been able to take losing another child ,especially when we just went thru of our third year of losing out Matthew. It has been a rough road for us.We have just recently got back together. I had moved out for about a month.I felt everytime I looked at Ron I would see Matthew. For our son look just like his dad. We still miss him terribly. Today. June 28th.We will be in our Lawyers office.GM has set up a meeting to try and settle this ongoing case we have had for the past three years. Ron and I are so ready to put it all behind us.
The phone calls and the "wish " list have begun.don't these people realize that we lost our son.and this money is blood money. I don't even want it.But I feel like GM has to pay for their incompetence in building vehicles.They need to make sure they build for safe driving.and not just for looks..
It has been a restless night. Anxiety is one of my symptoms.I still am on my meds.Ron feels I should be off them.He seems to think they are the cause of my "mental attitude". I beg to differ.if not for the meds.I know I would go insane.
I want to thank you all for the emails you all continue to send me. They do incourage me. And I appologize for not posting. Please remember it is not you all.It's my fear of the pain when I see others pain...It hurts and I feel right now it's not for me.I will continue to come back every now and then.
Until then.I pray God will continue to use Sandy and her mighty strength God gives her to continue in her works from this site..I love you all.
In His Care I Press On.......Eva

Hi folks Here I am back this time thanking The Lord. Saturday was my Husband`s payday, we didn`t have much left after we paid bills but I asked my Husband could we go to a yard sale, we went and I prayed Lord if you want me to have a juicer to help my blood sugars come down help me find one. We weren`t at the yard sale very long before we found a Mr. Juicer that looked brand new, we got it and Imthank The Lord.I will see my Grandsons only we are going in October not September, we will have more money, The Lord willing, my Daughter agrees we can save more in one more month, it always costs us at least $1000.00 to go every year.We take their little sister with us she will be 9 years old in July, she enjoys seeing them, she says she misses them, her brothers.I am praying for all of you, have a Happy and safe 4 of July.
Phyllis

Hello dear AngelMoms! It's been a week since I last posted, but you know all of you are always in my utmost prayers and love.
Worked all last weekend, it was really busy and once I was done, I didn't want to look at the Computer again, :-) well, for a while anyway.
Then on Monday I had a bad valley day missing Shane so, so much, of all things to set it off it was a flyer in our Newspaper - but you all know that anything remotely involved with our child can trigger a bad day.

It's also been extremely hot and humid here lately, so every chance I get I literally go jump in the Lake, without anyone telling me too, ha, ha.

This weekend is a long one for us, July 1st, Canada's Birthday, Chris and Jialing are coming to visit so we'll take in all the festivities! All of you are American I think? so happy 4th of July to you and Happy Canada Day to me!

I will slowly get caught up, terrific to see so many postings, just bear with me,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

I am new to this site, I just wanted to let all the other parents who have lost their beloved children know, I share your pain, you are never alone, I lost my youngest son Zachary, at 4 years of age, at Christmas time, 2003. I am praying for you all today, as we journey through this process together. I know God has a plan for all of us, and with Gods love and mercy we will get through this grief together.
Lord, put your loving arms around each and every one of these parents who have lost a child and give them strength and show them mercy Lord. Guide us all and protect us Lord, We know that you know how it feels to lose a beloved child, Lord, and we ask that you help us each and every day as we walk through the grieving process Lord may we help each other and care for one another just as you care and love us, Lord, Amen.

Dear zachysmom, ~ I am so sorry to read about the loss of your precious little son. I lost my beloved adult daughter Aug. 31, 1996, and the pain is still there, only not so intense. Today, however is a pretty sad day for our family. I am asking for prayer for one of my three sisters. I just received word that she lost her oldest daughter, Sharon, due to a heart attack sometime last night. My sister lives in California, and has known the pain of losing her baby son several years ago. Still, as we all know, there is no pain like the loss of a child no matter what age they are. We angel moms always pray that God would take us instead of our child or children ... which ever the case might be. So, please pray for my sister, Mildred, and also Sharon's husband and their children.

I ask also that you send up a small prayer for me; because right now, I need to appear strong, and put my own personal loss and emotions on hold, so that I can be there for my sister. Angel moms who have walked with me daily through the years ... I really do appreciate all of you for being there for me through each and every one of my life storms. In times like these, it helps just knowing that we are being prayed for and that we are not alone. Thank you for your prayers, and sometimes ... for just putting up with my ramblings! :) May God continue to hold us up and give us the strength we need when we feel like giving up or giving in to life's major storms. To all who have lost a child, ... Please know that you are in my thoughts, which places you in my heartfelt prayers.

Love & Prayers for ALL,
Verna

To our newly bereaved angel moms, ~ I write what I call "Healing" poetry. Healing, because the poems that I write helped me to survive during my many, many deep valley days following the tragic loss of my beloved daughter, Diane. I invite you to read some of my other healing poetry at my daughter's memorial site at www.thespearofstrength.com The poem below is one which I pray will help bring healing throughout your grief journey.

God's peace and blessings,
Verna


You Are Not Alone

God always knows when we are hurting
Never doubt how much He cares
The thing we must remember is
God hears our heartfelt prayers!


He forgives us when we're angry with Him
He wipes our tears away
He knows that we don't understand
There will be a brighter day!


We can't see the total picture
As we are traveling through this land
And even though our hearts are shattered
For each of us God has a plan.

Life here on Earth is but a moment
We see death as being the end
God knows it is just the beginning
For our children, our loved ones, our friends!

And like them when we too have finished
All that God has sent us to do
We'll rejoice with all of our loved ones
In a world that to us will be new!

Until then let's encourage each other
That's what God would have us to do
In times of great sorrow He's been there for me ...
And I know He'll be there for you

By: Verna R. Clay

I've been reading through several months of posts, trying to catch up. Last post was about dec 04 i guess. I hope this july 4th finds everyone healthy. I want to thank you all again for your prayers. My daughter got so bad she was hospitalized and put on medication to handle her depression and taught how to handle her feelings.
"time heals all wounds" How much time does it take to heal loosing a child? I know the answer, forever!!!! It does get a little easier but it's always there. On the brighter side, my daughter is doing much better and has hopes now. Mike is doing OK. He keeps busy with memorials in Stephanies name. This is a big help. It keeps her remembered by others, and reflections for us.
My best friends son Steve does not remember me sitting by his bedside when he was in the hospital. I held him and cried when he got better. Steve's grandfather has cancer but is being treated, he's doing good.
I am so glad you all were here when I needed you, I know, I know, that's what your here for, but: don't take what you do lightly, God put us all in this site for a reason. A family if you will! Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I scimmed through a lot of pages and even though some were from a while ago I said a prayer to all as I went along.
I'm in school full time, for Human Services (go figure) and work 3 part time jobs besides taking care of my kids. I moved, in June 05 so I'm almost done unpacking. I took the summer off from school so I can spend more time with my daughter.
There I think that catches me up to date. I'll try to at least keep up with you all from time to time.
May God make your broken heart hurt a lttle less and give us all the courage and wisdom to go on and help others as we go. I think that's what it's all about.
God Bless, Chris

I hope everyone had a Happy 4 of July, I did and now I am so tired. My Husband popped me in my wheelchair and off we went to the parade, then we went to the movie called BeWitched, it was funny. My Daughter was in the hospital, she got out the 4 th. They don`t know what was wrong with her but gave her chemo treatment, don`t know if it helped but she lost some of her hair. They say she had a bug but they don`t know what it was. My Grand Daughter is 9 years old today, she is happy to have Mommy home.She is delayed had seizures when she was little but Praise The Lord we still have her.I guess I better go to bed, My Husband had his two days off now he has to go back to work. Pray for him he isn`t even supposed to be working at all.God Bless and be with you all. Phyllis

HI everyone, my prayers go out to each and everyone of you. I have just gotten a computer and I have never done something like this on line but each and every one of you are blessed by God as am I. I lost one of my twin daughters when she was 4 1/2 months old at the hands of a babysitter who was never arrested. I spent the first couple of years dealing with this on my own and felt like I had no one to turn to until I met the man I am married to now. He was so understanding and still is. It has taken me 12 years to say that God is the one who saw me thru it.I have been reading the way you ladies keep in touch with each other and are always praying for one another and I wish I would of had something like that in my life. I sometimes still feel like I hav'nt grived enough and long to hold my sweet child in my arms again. It's so hard sometimes when I look in my daughters eyes and know there should be two of them looking at me. I still harbor so many feelings inside but at the same time I feel so blessed that I still have one of them.It has been very sadding to read of your sorrows and I have cried for all of you as I read of your losses and I can relate to each of you but also comforting to know that their are other people who can relate to my pain weather it was yesterday or 12 years ago. May God bless each and everyone of you and comfort you when you feel lost and alone for He will never leave us. With all my love, Jennifer

Itoo know the deep dark depresssion that only a mother can feell when she looses a child be it a young one or in my case a 45 year old son, father and husband. It has not been 2 months yet and every day seems to get deeper and darker. I feel that the Lord has abonded me and I am all alone in this dark place. Pray that I mighht receive some understanding and some peace. I miss my son so very much and my life is no longer complete, amd I don't think it will ever be. I know God has His reasons but they have not been been revealed to me. I am so lost without my beloved son. Please help me to ask for God's comfort im ny time of despair.

Hi Pat, I am praying for you and my heart goes out to you for your lose. 12 years ago when I lost one of my twin daughters I went into a deep depression and it took such a toll on my life. 5 years ago in July of 2000 I almost committed suicide. Thank God for Angles and his guiding hand because had it not been for him and my best friend I would be dead today.I was put on Prozac and today I am no longer on it. There are days when I feel like I still need it but God is there to pull me through. It is hard for me to tell you that things will get better but they will. It will take time but with each passing day and each passing year it will get easier. The pain will still be there but just not as intense.Unlike you I did'nt get to have my precious Amiee for 45 years. God only allowed me to borrow her for 4 1/2 months.My questions are , What would it of been like to see her as her sister is now.I feel robbed of that. I don't know if I could of bared having a full relashionship with her as you did your son and then lose her. My heart cries for you.I've often wondered if it is harder to lose a baby or a adult child. I think the pain is the same but also different if that makes any sence.Pat, I will be praying for you, that God will bring such a peace to your heart like you have never known. I will pray that your nights be full of rest and peaceful sleep for that seemed to be the worst for me. (My Dreams) God promised that he would never leave us or put on us more than we can handle.You are one of Gods children and he will calm the storm.Many a times I have fell down on my knees when I felt I was at my end and beg God for his mercey. I cried out as load as I could until I felt my anger and painwas easied.I spoke with God in private, just him and I like he was sitting right in front of me. That is how I've made it through sometimes. Just talk to God as you would one of your friends or family. He will listen and he will answear. The hardest part for us is he answears on his time and not ours BUT He ALWAYS ANSWEARS ON TIME BECAUSE HE'S AN ON TIME GOD. I will be praying for you and your family. Jennifer

Hello dear Jennifer and a warm welcome to the Circle! Congrats as well for coming online and bless you for posting here. I'm just very sorry for the reason for it, as we all are.
You have a family of friends now dear one and please, post here anytime you wish, this is a very safe haven to let your feelings out and be honored and validated for them. There's never any judging, what each of us feel or are feeling is always OK, there aren no right or wrong ways to grieve, other than keeping it in, it has to come out for the slow process of healing to begin, so you can rant, rave, cry, etc., we've all done it here. If you still have feelings inside or unresolved grief, you can let it out here, all of us can relate and understand.
So, please, make yourself at home here and consider this your Circle now too.
God's Blessings to you, dear AngelMom,
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy
Mom of Shane

Hi dear Pat, I can feel your pain and grief right through your post, God love you. You've just lost your son so what you're feeling, as awful and gut-wrenching as it is, is very normal - sometimes we feel as though we're going crazy with the pain it's so gawdawful.
All we want is our child back to wake up from this nightmare.
I'm so happy you posted because now we know how you're doing, we do care! Don't worry sweetie, if you're having trouble praying, we'll all stand in the gap for you and pray for Our Lord to give you some of His peace, His comfort, His love, that surpasses all others. Jennifer, bless her, gave you some good advice in her Post to you - I can well remember how I felt in the beginning, the pain is intense, like no other you've ever experienced or ever will, it's with you 24/7.
You have Angel sisters here to try and help, listen, care for you and support you in your grief, so please keep posting, all of our prayers are with you,
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

HiDear Sandy, I sit here with tears in my eye aftr reding your post to me and I felt the love and concern right through my computer screen. I have never been able to express my feelings about my precious little Amiee to another person who has lost there child and understands the pain. Other than my wounderful husband (bless his soul) no ones words hAS BEEN SO LOVING AND CARING towards me, I guess because they never know what to say or just could'nt understand. For 12 years now I've always said that God above was the only one who knows.My husband tries his hardest but he and I were not married. He is my second husband. Amiees dealth tore my first marriage apart. God has blessed me with two beautiful boys, Joshua Isaiah and Zackary Hunter both stong names from the bible. My daughter, Amiees sister is 12 and her name is Elizabeth. All three of them are the light of my life and With out them I am noughthing. I can't thank you enough for your kind words and I pray for you for your loss. I can't help but feel that God ssent this site my way knowing I needed friends that can say to me," It;s o-kay because we know how you feel and your not crazy." Now I can sit and cry at my computer and tell someone and pray with someone and just get it all out and feel support from someone who knows. God is a good God and he does answear prays because here ya'll are with open arms and lots of love. I am thanking my heavenly Father tonight because once again Lord you've came to me when I needed you and answeared my prayers. Lord you've never let me down though I've let you down I'm sure. You are always there to lift me up when I fall and Carry when I just cant tred the waters any more. Thank You Heavenly Father for leading me to this site, for sending such loving and excepting angels into my life. I give you the praise and honor for all your wounderful works that you continue to do. AMEN AND AMEN. Praying for all who are griving, Jennifer Amiees mom

Dear friends in love and loss, Thank you for including me in this circle. I leave for hurricane country a week from Sunday on Julia Belle's birthday. Julia is the only daughter of my only daughter, Diana. Diana gave birth July 17th, 2004 and Diana, age 25, was reborn in heaven 8 days later on July 25th, 2004. This is how I am choosing to see what happened. I have looked at it from every possible anguished angle and this is the only vantage that is meaningful to me. I gave myself a going-away party on Thursday and about 40 friends came. We met at a local convent where they keep a shrine-like display about my girl. All the ladies wrote a card about a memory of Diana and I placed them in the memorial album. This display, two large pictures, an album, her award from Oregon Right to Life (posthumous) and pictures of her baby will stay there permanently even tho I will be in Florida. I spent the night at the convent to pray and to mourn and to say "goodbye" to many things. I wrote about the moms on this prayer circle and their "babies" no matter how old when they were reborn in heaven. I called some by name. I wrote that "it won't always hurt so much....joy will come again....and though I have not experienced this yet, I hope, I believe, I pray this will happen for me and for all of us". A sister gave me two books by Henri J.M. Nouwen. "In Memoriam" and another about consolation. They are short, simple and very good. They are hopeful and written out of his own great loss. At my going away party...there were no less than 4 mothers who had lost adult children in the last 5 years, who I only knew now, because they came to "love on me" in my pain. While I was at the convent, a mother called in to stay at the convent for a few days to be quiet. She had just lost her 10 yr old boy in a drowning. We are not alone. We will never be alone in our anquish and loss. But with each other, we can learn to live again, and grow in patience for the day of our reuniting.
I love you all and thank you for your mercies in praying for me.
Miss Julia Belle turns one on the day I leave the home I have lived in since 1983. This is a bold thing for our family. Out of our loss we are going to work to re-create, re-new, re-form our family.
God bless, Kim (Diana's mom forever)

Hi our sister Kim, so glad you keep on posting here, you will find so much love and understanding. I live in "hurricane country", and I can tell you there is nothing to worry about in Ocala, I live in Miami and we just went trhough a little scare with Dennis, just got my power back two hours ago, but Thank God we were spared of Dennis, but just to keep your mind at peace about moving to Fla, according to what I've read you are moving to Ocala, you are far away from the coast, so don't worry, you will not experience hurricanes there. I will hold you and the family in my prayers so you can find some kind of Peace in Fla, the pain, will never go away my sister, but you will be experiencing new sorroundings and a new kind of life, my prayers will be with you all, so you might experience Peace and Strenght. Please keep on visiting here and remember you have a new sister in Miami Fla. Love Selva

Hi Jennifer. I also want to welcome you to our Circle of Love, yes my dear sister, we all know about this unique pain, Thank God you got other children, my only child, daughter Solange moved to Heaven Aug 15, 2002, she was all I had, this pain is so great my dear sister, and I know that no matter if you have other children, no one could replace Amiee, we just have to hang in there until God decides that is our time to be reunited with our child, until then, try to make the best out of it, understanding others, because God chose us to have this awful pain so we can understand others a little better, maybe, but always remember if He put us through it, He will pulls us through it. I pray for that. Welcome again to our Circle of Love. Love Selva

Hi my dear sister, great to see you posting, Dennis didn't cause you too much harm! Here we go again, worrying about you and Hurricane Season.
Oh, that's terrific for Kim to know that where she's moving to she won't be in danger from them!
Yes, :-) two sisters from Florida now,
Lots of love & Angel Hugs,
Sandy

Hi dear Jennifer, I work on the weekends so I just read your reply now. Of course we care and yes, it definitely take's another Mom who's experienced this loss to relate and understand. You probably had well-meaning people telling you all kinds of things that you just wanted to scream at them for! When you look back now you realize that they just can't possible understand how it feels to lose a child and you pray they never do. And yes, God alone know's the depths of our sorrow and pain. Sadly, it's not unusual for a marriage to end when you lose a child, Moms and Dads grieve so differently, you're not always on the 'same page' in the grieving process. Sound's as though you have a wonderful, supportive husband now though, no, there's no 'history' between you and he about Aimee, but he's there for you when you need him and lovingly supportive for you, :-).
Those are beautiful names for your boys and your daughters, they're, along with your husband and yourself, are the reasons to keep on going, keeping Aimee's memory and life alive as you Journey along.
Thank you for your prayers, that's so sweet of you, I/we need them very much too. You know, I agree with you that God led you here, He did me - He whispered in my ear to start this Circle for us all, so He had a plan, :-)
Yes, you definitely can let it all out here and know you'll be understood and always honoured for your feelings and although it may feel like it sometimes, no, the pain, grief and all the different emotions it brings up in us does not mean you're going crazy, it's very normal.
Thank You too Lord, God is good all the time, all the time, God is good!
Love, prayers & Angel Hugs,
Sandy